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I slowly open Mr. Blumm's door and peak around to see if he's in there. I smile when I see him sitting at his desk running his fingers though his unkempt hair. He lets out a heavy sigh and glances up; seeing me in the doorway.

"Ah Phoebe, come in please, and close the door behind you. I don't want you to be disturbed." He says politely. I do as he asks me, and make my way over to where he's sitting, strutting my stuff just a bit.

"How was the rest of your day?" He asks me smiling that smile that always gets me sopping wet.

"It was good Mr. Blumm."

"Phoebe what did I tell you earlier? Please call me Cavin."
"Oh right sorry Cavin." His name feels unfamiliar on my tongue, but not unpleasant, if fact I kind of like it, and I can only imagine how it would sound coming out of my mouth in the middle of an intense fuck session.
"Phoebe? Did you hear anything I just said?" Cavin asks.

"Um, something about my paper?" I blush because I really hadn't been paying any attention to what he had said.

"You seem to lose focus a lot in my class." He says with a raised eyebrow.

Shit, so he has noticed. "Um yeah sorry, it must be because it's right before lunch or something. I'm not sure why exactly."

"Don't worry. I think I know why?" He says with a smirk on his face.

Holy crap on a cracker, is it really that obvious that I have a huge crush on him…play it cool Phoebs. "Oh really and what might that be?" I ask with a slightly flirty edge to my voice.

"I simply don't challenge you enough do I?" He smiles.

"Well either that or I'm just too smart for my own good." I say, batting my eyelashes.

"I think you may be right about that one." Cavin says shaking his head, and then changes the subject. "So what is it exactly that you need help with?"

"Well most of the stuff I can fix by myself it's just going to take time. But my big issue is my storyline just isn't progressing the way I want it to. In my head I see it going one way, but when I get it out on paper it just doesn't seem right."

"What exactly is it that doesn't seem right?"

"Well I have these two main characters. They're a couple and have been for a while. But the girl ends up meeting another guy that she gets to know and ends up falling for him. The big climax is supposed to be that she has to choose between the two of them, and it seems like I'm trying so hard to keep my two main characters together, but it just doesn't seem like that's what would happen if it was a real life situation."

"Well Phoebe, only you know your characters, but I would like to say that sometimes if a relationship doesn't seem logical then it isn't. Maybe your character isn't supposed to be with her current boyfriend, maybe she really should end up with this other guy."

I was starting to get the feeling that we weren't talking about my story anymore. We had been leaning into each other throughout of whole conversation, and we were entirely too close, it felt intimate, and that only added to my suspicion, so I decided to test it.

"But with how I've made them it's almost impossible for the girl and the other guy to be together."

"Anything is possible Phebs. It may not be right, but it is possible, even this." I was stunned silent by his casual use of my nickname. And when he said "this" did he mean my story or did he mean him and I? "Now why don't you think it's possible?"

"Well…they're in a position in which one is a higher up, and it's illegal for them to be together. Not to mention, she doesn't believe this man would want her anyway, he's too much of a gentleman to go against the rules, and all she wants to do is break them."

"That is a tricky one isn't it?" He muses. "But have you ever thought that maybe he's not a gentleman at all, maybe he wants it just as badly as she does, he's just too afraid of what might happen if he involved himself with a beautiful girl who he was by all means not allowed to have?" Cavin says softly leaning even closer to me so that there's only a few mere inches of empty space between us.

"It never crossed my mind." I say trying and failing to breathe normally.

"Perhaps that will give you something to think about tonight." Again he leans even closer, to the point that we're almost touching, and I practically begin to hyperventilate.

I want so badly to lean into him and touch my lips to his, but even now, when he's giving me all the signs that he wants it, I second guess myself.

"Phoebe, tell me the truth, was this conversation about you story, or was it about something that you've been experiencing lately?" I can feel his breath on my face, and I close my eyes. He smells wonderful, a mixture of mint, Beckham cologne, and something else that I can't place. It's a heady combination, and it does strange things to my…lady bits.

"I'm afraid to answer that question." I say, all breathy and turned on.

"Don't worry, I feel the same way baby." And with that he closes the gap between the two of us, and captures my lips with his.

I can't contain the moan that escapes me as he moves his mouth against mine. It's such a sensual experience. Alex never kisses me like this, so I react in the only way I know how, and kiss him back with all I have.

I feel his tongue slide across my lips asking for entrance, so I open them and press my tongue against his. We battle for a moment before he wins and his tongue explores my mouth. It's so hot, and I want so much more.

Finally he breaks away and leans his forehead against mine. We are both wearing ridiculous grins, and breathing hard.

"Do you have any idea how long I've wanted to do that Phebs?"

I shake my head because I'm rendered speechless.

"Ever since you walked through that door on the first day of school. You gave me this smile that made me instantly hard, and ever since then you've only made me want you more by your intelligence and charm."

I smile, and finally find my voice. "I've wanted it for that long also Cavin. I've had the biggest crush on you this whole time. I'm surprised I ever get anything done in your class." I flush as I admit this, but he has been so honest with me it seems rude to not let him know how I'm feeling.

He smiles back at me, and I melt. I want to lean forward and kiss him again, but I'm not sure how he would react to that.

Now that the kiss is over I'm actually very confused on where we stand. Was that just a one-time thing? Are we going to make a habit of making out with each other whenever we're alone? Will it ever turn into anything more? As all the muscles down south tighten at once I realize I really do want Cavin in a bad way, but I know I could never follow through with it. At least not while he's my teacher, and I have a boyfriend.

And just like that I'm broken out of whatever spell Mr. Blumm has put on me and I'm thinking about Alex. Oh no! What have I just done to him? Of course he doesn't know, but how am I supposed to keep this from him?

"Phoebe, are you alright?"

"Yeah, what makes you think otherwise?" I ask him nervously.

"Well one minute you were here with me, and the next you were off in some distant place. What is it?" He asks as he tilts my head up so I'm looking into his eyes.

"It's Alex." I whisper guiltily.

"Your boyfriend?" He sound disappointed, but I can't help the fact that it's killing me that I've just cheated on him.

"Yeah, I mean we've been together for almost a year now. I do love him, but what I feel with you…it's something that I want very very much. I…I just don't know what to think." I sound whiny and scared, but honestly I am a little afraid.

"Hey, shhhh. It's alright, trust me I'm a little confused also. I have been trying so hard to keep you at arm's length, but I just couldn't anymore. I understand if you want to continue seeing your boyfriend, and want nothing more to do with me Phoebe, but I need to know that that's what you actually want. I know you are too good of a person to continue seeing me behind your boyfriends back, but don't just stay with him out of ease. If it's me you truly want Phoebe, then we'll find a way to make this work. Just let me know."

Holy cow. This is the last thing I expected coming into this classroom today. But in a way I'm glad it happened.

I open my mouth to respond to him, but he stops me before I can say anything.

"Phebs you don't have to make the decision right now. Think about it for a while that way you'll know for sure. I'll even stay away from you as much as possible and give you some distance to think. Just let me know either way."

I nod, and can't help but feel sorry that I have to leave him. I don't want him to give me distance, but I know that it's something that I need in order to sort everything out in my head.

"You're an extraordinary person Phoebe Grey, and I will respect whatever decision you make. But I would be lying if I said that I wouldn't be hurt if you didn't choose me."

"I'll let you know Cavin. And thank you, for everything." I say with a smile before I gather my things and go to leave the room.

"Oh Phoebe, one more thing that I'm sure you already know, but I just want to make clear."

I already know what he's going to tell me so I turn back and say. "Don't worry I won't tell anyone about what happened here…baby." I wink at him before I turn and walk out of him room. I can hear him chuckle as I close his classroom door.

I smile like a fool all the way out to my car. I can't believe what just happened in there, and I'm tempted to pinch myself to make sure it wasn't all just a dream. Although if it had been a dream then a whole lot more than a hot and heavy make out session would have been happening.

I run through the whole thing in my mind again. From when I walked in the door and his face lit up like I was freaking Santa on Christmas morning, to when he called me Phebs, to when he called me baby, and finally when he planted that kiss on me. All of it is making me dizzy and quite frankly turned on even more.

I know there is no way I will be able to act normal around Alex, but I can't not see him tonight. I'm torn, and have no clue what to do. Maybe I'll just play it off like I'm really stressed about our upcoming midterms, and say that I really do need to study. That way at least we won't have to talk. But I really need some relief right now, so maybe I'll just distract him with sex and then say that I really need to study. That sounds like a plan.

I feel beyond guilty that I've gone behind his back, but Cavin is right. I can't say anything to anyone about it, or he'll get in a lot of trouble, and I will too. So really the only thing I can do is a whole lot of nothing and figure out what it is that I want. Do I want to take the safe road and stay with Alex and tell Mr. Blumm that it's just not going to work out between us? Or do I want to take a chance and dump Alex for Cavin? Someone that is completely off limits, but also someone who has made me feel alive for the first time ever.

I wish I could talk to my mom about this. She always has the answers it seems, and I go to her for everything. It's kind of sad but she really is my best friend. But something tells me in this situation she wouldn't be so understanding, and Cavin would end up fired and in jail, or worse…depending on how you look at it…my father would kill him.

I sigh and shake my head trying to figure out what I'm going to do, and what I've gotten myself into.

Suddenly my phone blaring out Cher Lloyd's "Want U Back" brings me out of my inner thoughts.

I check the caller I.D. and it's Alex. Oh boy, here goes.

"Hello?" I answer trying to sound as normal as possible.

"Hey babe. How did your appointment with Mr. Blumm go? Did you get everything figured out?"

I cringe at the stab of guilt that runs through me. I didn't realize the lying would have to start so soon.

"It was good for the most part. I figured some stuff out, but now I'm confused about some other stuff. I'll figure it out though." There that wasn't a total lie, I just didn't mention exactly what it was that I figured out or was confused about.

"I know you will because you're so smart. Anyway I have a confession to make. I didn't just call to ask you about your appointment…I have some bad news."

"Uh alright…" I say hesitantly. I wonder what that means.

"My sister is coming home for the weekend and I'm pretty much chained to the house until she leaves. My parents always insist that we have family time whenever she comes home because she's rarely here, so you're probably going to be without me for the next couple days."

I breathe out a silent sigh of relief and thank whatever it was that made Alex's older sister come home from New York where she is attending Julliard.

"That's okay babe, you have fun with your sister and I'll see you in a few days."

"Alright I love you." He says almost sadly, and I'm sad too. Whenever his sister comes home, Alex's parents yank him out of school for the few days that she's here so they can go to their lake house and have some quality family time.

"I love you too. Call me when you can."

"I will. Bye." He says, but doesn't hang up.

"Bye Alex." I smile, and press the end button on my blue tooth system, something my dad insisted on having put in when I started driving so I wasn't talking on my phone while behind the wheel.

I knew it was bad that I was grateful that I wasn't going to see Alex for the next few days, but I really needed to figure some stuff out, and that just wasn't going to be possible with him by my side all the time.

I pull into my driveway and see that Teddy's car is still here. I know he didn't hitch a ride with his girlfriend because she lives in Portland and wouldn't want to drive all the way to Seattle just to pick him up.

Part of me is gleeful that Teddy is home. He and I have been very close since we were kids, and when I feel like I can't talk to mom I turn to him, but I also know that he's going to want to know details, and that's just not going to be possible.

"Ted?" I call as I walk into the house and drop my keys on the table.

"In the game room." He calls.

I walk through the door to the room where we keep all our game consoles and all that other stuff to find him playing Call of Duty: Black Ops 2.

"I thought you were going over to your girlfriend's house."

"I was going to, but then she went all psycho bitch on me and accused me of cheating on her, so I told her until she got over whatever it is that was possessing her that I would just hang out at my place, and if she wanted to come see me she could drive here."

I laugh because she's always doing this. For some inexplicable reason she's constantly accusing him of cheating on her, when I haven't seen Ted look at another girl since he started dating her a year and a half ago.

"If I didn't love her so much I would break up with her. But even though she's ridiculously frustrating I can't find it in me to leave her Phe. She's the one I'm gonna marry one day."

I smile at him and say, "I wish my life were so simple."

"Something up between you and Alex?" He asks catching on to what I was saying.

"No we're fine, I'm just a little bit confused."

"About?" He pries.

"Well there's another guy. And before you ask I'm not naming any names yet, because there really isn't a whole lot to tell. But I do have feelings for this other guy, and I feel like if I truly was in love with Alex that I wouldn't be having feelings for anyone other than him."

"Well baby sister sometimes the person you think you love turns out to be the one who's preparing you for the one you truly love. Do you see things going anywhere with this mystery guy?" He asks.

"Yes, and no. It's such a complicated situation that it's hard to see anything going anywhere with him, but the thought of not being able to explore it…well let's just say it sucks." I sigh thinking of Mr. Blumm and how wrong it would be if we were to actually be together.

"Phe you're eighteen…how complicated could it be?" Ted laughs.

"If only you knew bro."

"So why don't you enlighten me?" He asks truly curious.

"Fine, but if I tell you this you cannot tell anyone, and if you even murmur a peep about it I will tell everyone that I know that you still sleep with your stuffed bunny…and I'll tell mom and dad what really happened to your brand new Range Rover when you were supposedly "studying" for your big test at the "library."" I tell him adding air quotes.

"Fine." He says, and I know he's good for his word. Ted would keep any secret I told him, unless he thought it was going to end up killing me, but as long as it isn't dangerous he will take it to the grave.

"The other guy is Mr. Blumm." I say quietly.

This makes him laugh out loud until he sees that I'm serious. "Oh come of Phebs! You can't be serious, you're thinking about leaving Alex to chase after your English teacher. You do know that's never going to happen right? There's no way Mr. Blumm would go after one of his students…trust me Alexis tried, and that's why I broke up with her."

I just stare at him, hoping he'll get that Cavin has already gone after me without me having to tell him in so many words.

"Wait…he wouldn't go after a student Phoebe…would he?" Ted asks skeptically.

"Well…" I say.

"He's already gone after you!?" Oh shit, he sounds angry, and I curse myself for even saying anything.

"Not like you think he has...it wasn't like that…" I stutter as Ted starts visibly fuming.

"Then what is it like Phoebe? He's a grown man taking advantage of one of his students! Of my little sister! Did he at least use protection."

"Woah there buckaroo! I told you it's not like that! We didn't have sex! We just kinda kissed a little…well a lot." I say hoping he'll calm down just a little, and thankfully he does.

"Still Phebs, he should be doing that with a student." He says as he sits down beside me again.

"You don't think I know this Ted? Why do you think I told you it was complicated? Because I know we shouldn't be doing it, but I want to so bad, and obviously he feels the same as I do, and that just complicates things further."

"Well how do you know this isn't some school girl crush. Maybe it's just a phase. I mean you've only spent half a semester with him, how well can you really know him?"

"I have four hours with him a day. I'm his aid for two of them. We spend two hours a day alone in his classroom just talking about anything and everything that strikes our fancy. I probably know him better than any other girl he's dated before does."

"How long has this been going on for?" Ted practically yells.

"Today is the first time we ever kissed or anything like that I promise." I say sincerely, but looking back I really am surprised at how blind I was to his flirtation.

"I don't like this Phoebe." Ted tells me.

"I didn't think you would, but I don't know who else to talk to about it. Obviously I can't tell mom because she would just freak out and probably transfer me to a different school, and dad would kill Cavin, or at the very lease have him thrown in jail or something.

"You're the only one that I feel like I can trust with this information, and the only one that can give me advice about it. I know it's wrong I've been wrestling with that idea since he kissed me, but I can't help how I feel about him." I realize that I'm begging him…for what I'm not sure. Maybe I'm just hoping that he'll tell me it's okay and that really it's not that bad, or maybe I'm just scared that he's going to tell mom and dad and I'm begging him not to. Either way I really do need someone to talk to about all this.

Teddy lets out a sigh before he says, "Alright, well obviously if you do develop some sort of relationship with Mr. Blumm you'll have to keep it quiet. Is that something you're willing to do? Lie, sneak around, and all that other stuff? Do you really think that you're capable of doing that to mom and dad, to your friends?"

I think about that, and I'm scared to answer because I know that I would be willing to do all that if it meant that Cavin and I could have a successful relationship. My feelings for him go deeper that I originally thought, and that terrifies me.

"Listen Phoebe I'm not going to say it's right or it's wrong, but I also know that if it were me and Leslie in this situation then I would be trying my hardest to do anything to be with her, so I can't really judge you if you have strong feeling for him, and want to continue seeing Mr. Blumm. But don't expect me to cover for you. The only thing I'm going to do is not tell mom and dad a thing. Other than that you're going to have to come up with some pretty good excuses as to why you aren't home."

"Thank you Alex. I would never ask you to cover for me, because I know that if I do follow through with this and mom and dad find out they're going to be pissed, and I wouldn't want you in the middle of that. In fact if they ask you if you knew deny it, because I don't want them blaming you. I just needed some outside perspective."

"I understand what you're saying Phoebe, because you're the one I come to whenever Leslie and I are having issues, but you obviously know this is a whole different situation, and there is no way I'm going to get myself involved. I love ya little sister, but sometimes you are just too much trouble for your own good." Ted says, and in that moment I'm so thankful that I have an awesome older brother.

"Do me a favor though Phebs. If you do decide to go with Mr. Blumm, at least have the decency to break it off with Alex first. He deserves more than you cheating on him with your English teacher."

I roll my eyes at him, slightly offended that he thinks I would cheat. "I'm not a cold hearted bitch Teddy. I'm just confused, and until I figure out what I'm going to do there will be no more of what happened today with Cavin."

"Alright, just be careful." He says, and goes back to his video game.

I slowly make my way up to my room reminiscing on today's events it started out so simply, and now I'm beyond confused. How am I supposed to choose between the guy that I love and have been with for almost a year now, and the guy that I've fallen for over time, and is completely sexy and beautiful inside and out, but also completely off limits. It's giving me a headache to think about.

Ignoring my giant pile of homework I have to do I plop myself down onto my bed, and attempt to get some sleep. Tomorrow I'm going to have to face Cavin, and I need to be on top of my game if I'm going to do that. "What a shit storm I've created for myself." I whisper to the darkness before I drift off to sleep.