"The group tends to meet here, The Clam. I plan on going in as a substitute bartender. Terry will be there as a bouncer watching things from the outside and Charles will be in a van a block away monitoring what comes in over the planted receivers."
"Peralta this seems well planned out. And this is taking place tonight?"
"Correct Captain. They are moving multiple large batches of cocaine according to intel we received from an insider. If we don't move tonight we could miss our chance and everything could end up out on the street."
"Everything seems ready well planned but are you ready emotionally I mean."
"Captain I will be fine. Please don't worry."
Honestly I just hope I am ready. I have managed to say away from cases like this since Amy and I had Hannah. Don't get me wrong I love the adventure and the risk but at the same time I want to be there for my daughter she and Amy are my everything I don't need me getting hurt again Amy has had to watch over me way to many times.
I walked back out to my desk to mentally prepare.
"Jake you will do fine tonight," I looked up at Amy.
"Amy how can you really know?"
"Jake we are cops you have great back up. Terry and Charles will not let anything happen to you."
"Amy what would happen if something did and I was stuck in the hospital with months of recovery."
"Jake life is filled with what ifs you just need to get past it. Talk to Terry. He knows what you are going through. If after that you are still not up to it talk to Holt tell him that you do not feel comfortable going through with it."
"Maybe your right. Let me find-actually I am going to go outside."
I needed to breathe. I need to think about everything. I need to be by myself. I need to get in the mind set I need to do my job I need to protect the city.