It is still strange seeing Jake like this. He has been standing outside on the balcony for almost an hour. He is just standing there looking out.
Who would have guessed that the man who was willing to do any case a few years ago no matter the danger level (for Jake the determining factor was where it landed on the snore-o-meter) is now indecisive about going undercover.
"Should I go talk to Jake," I said to Terry when I handed him some paperwork.
"I think I should go he needs someone who has been in a relatable situation. I am actually proud of him he has done better than I did. I mean he did stay off of desk duty."
"Give him a bit longer. I want to see if he will come to you."
"Whatever you say but the sooner I talk to him the better because if he doesn't want to do the case we need to find a replacement we need someone on the inside."
"I know my fiancé he will come to some one."
I went slowly over to my desk. I was too busy staring out at Jake.
Terry has a point he needs the male perspective of the situation. I was feeling the same way for awhile I did a stakeout and got into a shootout (Jake was freaking out when he heard that but I had my vest on and was hiding behind my car) and I was cured.
I need to find a way to give him the push to go do it, but then if he does get hurt will the blame go on me because I forced him to go.
How would I explain to Hannah that daddy would not be coming home? Or that he is hurt and will not be able to do things. I mean as much as she loves both of us she wants Jake a lot more than me.
I mean look at what I was like after all the stuff that happened to him while I was pregnant with Hannah. I was a nervous wreck by the time I gave birth because I needed him.
Could I be a single parent? Could I still be a cop?
Maybe I should convince him against it?
Or do I let Jake get the courage to be the risk taker I fell in love with.