CHAPTER 29

Noel's P.O.V

I walk up behind Serah I see her smiling...its her smile that I love so much...I've never told Serah how much I care about her...I've always thoughtYuel was my true love...but I realized that it was Serah...that I truely loved...after I thought bout our adventure together it only made me realized it more then after she died my world shattered...then I fought Lightning because I wanted to see Yuel ...but once I was told Lightning could save Serah I met Lightning again at the end of days when people called me the Shadow Hunter...I had helped fight the herotics of God...at the end Lightning fought with the mighty God Bhunivelze and saved Serah's and everyone's soul...so we ALL both good or bad could have a new chance at life and she was name the new goddess Etro...I was glad to helped Lightning get through those damn herotics of god ...I figured I should tell Serah my feelings now...no matter how she feels bout me she needs to know

"Serah?" I go to get her attention but I stare at the ground it would be hard to tell her if I met her beautiful eyes

"yes?" I hear her respond but I still dont look up at her

"can we talk?...alone?" I ask

"Noel are you ok?" I see Serah's feet in front of me

"yeah..i'm fine" I lied I tried to keep my cool so I dont mess up

"your a terrible lier Noel" Serah giggles and playfully push me

"Serah...alond...please?" I ask looking at Serah

"I should stay with Lightning" Serah says looking in Lightning's direction

"I'ts ok Serah...go...i'll take care of Cloud...thank you tho" Lightning states not taking her eyes off of Cloud

"Please...Serah?" I ask one last time hoping this time she'd reconsider

"Ok...lets go?" Serah says to me with a light smile

I take Serah with me to the cargo bay and lean on the ships wall as Serah sits on one of the crates

"so whats up?" Serah looks at me

"First how are you feeling?" I ask cause despite what im bout to tell her I want to make sure she was ok from everything that has happen

"i'm fine...and you?" She looks at me with those deep ocean blue eyes

"yeah...just need to talk to you bout something important to me and it kind of involves you" I say looing back at her

"me?...did I do something?" Serah asks with a worried and slightly hurt expression

"no no you didnt do anything Serah...its me.." I say taking a seat next to her

"I dont understand" Serah looks at me crossing her legs on the crate

"do you remember our adventure a long time ago?" I ask remembering my nightmares of when Serah died

"how can I forget...it was ME that died" Serah giggles a little

"yeah...the thing is..."I sight standing straight up

"hmm?" Serah tilts her head a little

"you know how I kept saying I loved Yuel?" I asked sitting next to her on the other crate

"yeah I do...Yuel was your reason for timetravel and to fix the parodoxes to make a better futter" Serah says staring at me

"yeah...at the time she was the whole reason...and the futter was the main point...but after a while...i've come to love someone else..." I say gripping the knee of my jeans tightly

"you love someone else?...who?" Serah grabs my hand comforting me to say

"you Serah...I love you.."

Serah's POV

"You Serah...I love you" Noel says blushing...bt I dont understand...it was Noel who wedded Snow and me...I always believed he loved Yuel...why me?...why now?...why didnt he say his peace at the wedding?...so many thoughts are running through my head

"um...Serah?" Noel snapes his fingers in front of my face

"y-yeah?"I look up into his eyes

"You must hate me now huh?" Noel looks to the ground

"no...truth is...i've always had a feeling that you had feelings for me Noel...but after you was so determin to find your Yuel I believed I was over thinking things but there is one thing I dont understand" I stand up and put my arms behind my back holding my right wrist

"whats that?" Noel gets up and stands next to me

"first how lond did you get over Yuel?... and realized you loved me?" I ask not ready to face him yet

"it was the day after Lightning killed god and brought a new peace and begginings to the new world...and yes Lightning and Cloud fought sephiroth and Caius and now Lola but they are beings of Chaosand the life stream the sorce that we all need to survive...but ever since then I've been having the same nightmare over and over of when you died...and I couldn't protect you...I had thought you was safe and it broke my heart everytime I relive it ...it made it clear that YOUR the one I love Serah" Noel looks down

I stand there shocked as to what Noel had just explained to me but I still had questions of my own

"Noel...when you wedded Snow and I why didnt you say anything?"...I look at him and Noel quickly looks back to me

"why should I have?...you was happy...I wasnt going to take your happiness away from you and if Snow made you happy then it would be selfish to take your happiness away from you so I kept quiet" Noel walks infront of me

"what bout you Serah?...I know your married but can you tell me if you have any feelings for me or not? and PLEASE tell me the truth" I look down from Noel and at my hands and start to twiddle my thumbs

"...Noel... its complicated" I just stare at my hands

"what do you mean its complicated?" Noel leeans back on the cargo wall

"look truth is before I married Snow I DID think bout what my life would be like if I wasnt with Snow and maybe if we would have went out together as a Couple..." I feel my cheeks heat up and close my eyes trying to shove the thoughts away...i'd be lying if I said I didnt still have feelings for Noel

"Serah?" I hear Noel call my name but I was to lost in my own thoughts

"yeah?" was all that I could reply

"i'm sorry" Noel says to me before I open my eyes I feel something pressed against my lips and something strong around my waist I had a feeling what had just happend so I open to see my guess was right Noel had his arms wraped around my waist and his lips against mine I didnt think...I dont know what came over me but I melted into the kiss I wraped my arms around Noels neck and deepened the kiss i felt him nibble my bottom lip as I gave a slight moan I realized what I was doing and gently shoved Noel away

"we...we can't...Noel i'm married remember?" I take and look at him feeling my eyes water..."I still have feelings for you but I can't" I run past Noel running to the lounge room to be alone