Little did Amy know that I had a few surprises up my sleeve today because after all it is Valentine's Day.

As soon as she gets to her desk she will see a vase of various flowers (I honestly picked ones that looked nicest because I have no idea what type of flowers she likes because I don't know flowers all of them have weird names)

I have also a package that will be delivered to her desk at promptly 2:35pm when the mail clerk brings the second set of mail for the day. The present will consist of a box of chocolates, a card, and a stuffed animal.

Tonight we will be going to a great Italian place for dinner. Just her and I. I already planned for a baby sitter (Rosa) and we are going to get ice cream and try to sneak up onto the rooftop where I fell in love with her (I am still working on this last part the owner has not been cooperative)

I am just hoping that she enjoys it and doesn't freak out on me. I highly think she won't but I am also hoping that she doesn't have her own plans for tonight.

Anyway today is also the day where I get to go back to work. I love going back especially after being gone for awhile. You never know what surprises will be waiting for you (good and bad)

Charles usually tries to do something extravagant. So we will see.

Walking in nothing changed in any way but the smell of the 99 hypes me up. I took the elevator up and it was still the same from the graffiti to the smell of urine things that no janitor has ever been able to get rid of.

Walking into the bull pen nothing stood out everyone was doing the same thing they always do. Charles sitting there with the tick he gets when he tries to surprise someone. Rosa was reading something on her computer and drinking coffee, Terry was talking to Captain Holt and Gina. No one even noticed that I walked in.

I sat down at my desk. It is just how I left it a month ago (well minus the open case files because those could not wait until I came back crime never sleeps)

I logged in to see my extreme back log of emails (most of which I am going to delete)

Terry was the first to notice I was back.

"Jake good to see you doing so well, but are you sure you are ready to be back after everything that happened."

"Of course this was not my first rodeo with being shot or even being hurt on the job I am completely fine." I had to have sounded unconvincing. Honestly I love being back but I have no idea if I am actually ready.

"Jake just take it easy until you are ready. Even though you have had stuff happen to you in the past none were as major as what you went through. Jake you know you almost died."

"Sarge trust me I am fine."

He walked away. He knew something was up.

Am I actually ready?