A Broken Valentine
Anna's Pov
Love…
I never believe in love...
Love is just a foolish reason human used for their selfish actions.
A father left his family because of his love for another woman.
A mother drank herself to sleep and at the end hang herself because of the unreturned love.
That's how I grew up alone…
My parents left me because of love…
I lost the count of days I was in orphanage. No one from my relatives wanted to take me in their beloved homes. I already lost hope, until the kind Sati came and adopted me.
The home she called is in the country side far from civilization, but I like the serene town although there were annoying kids, like the headphone boy next door.
Years passed and I began to trust Sati. My young heart finally believed I have a family.
But one day she collapsed.
She had incurable disease and her days were counted. She didn't tell me because she doesn't want me to get hurt… because she loves me…
Is lying part of her love? Will my broken heart be cured by that love? I will never be able to get the answers from her. I am alone once again…
Or so I thought…
Somehow I got a bunch of idiots who they wanted me to call them 'friends'.
Every school day was full of noise thanks to them. The nosy headphone boy next door, named Yoh, grew up into a goofy young man who was the magnet of those idiots.
He was quite persistent that I must not be alone by myself and take time to mingle with them. I do not see the reason why I should, but his pleading eyes always won me over.
I didn't know what's with him, but I felt the security I needed when I'm with him.
I just knew that… I wanted to be with him…
And that prayer was answered one full moon. When he asked me in our favorite hang out and admitted his true feelings. I am afraid that his love will fade like the others… so I tried to run from it.
But his determination was strong, and he did not let me go. I was moved by his actions and words. So, while crying, I accepted his love and sealed it with a kiss.
After graduation, I decided to pursue my small business and spent most of my time with Yoh. I knew we will not have that great fortune I always dream, but I thought I'll be contented just to be with him.
A month before our anniversary, Yoh started to act weird. There was something he was hiding from me.
The night before our anniversary he gave something to me. I suggested to open the next night, to add some romance to our awaited anniversary I guess… silly me…
I did not know that's the last night I'll see him. He left the town… leaving me broken in Valentine's day.
Denial kicked me first, my mind was shouting that he'll return. So I waited and waited until I got tired. I never felt so betrayed…
Seeing someone that reminds me of him so much has weakened me more. I guess that's the reason why I cried in front of Ren, Yoh's best friend, when he visited me.
Ren did not leave my side that day and even went everyday just to check me. It never occurred to me that he has feelings for me until he admitted it and asked for my hand.
I refused, afraid that I'll just be left alone again. Ren never give up and still shown himself in front of my house every morning. Maybe because of his effort and determination, or maybe I just don't want to be alone anymore I finally accepted his heart.
I know I am selfish… but what should I do when my thoughts were always filled by memories of Yoh?
I just want to ease the pain…
Years counted and the wedding was drawing near. I can't tell that I am excited… but I can admit I am happy. I am already contented…
So why when I opened the door and only expecting to see Ren, there was also this man who was always hunting my dreams standing in front of me?
Why Yoh came back?
Why were his eyes look so hurt when he heard about the wedding?
Why did he leave with that expression as if he wanted to cry?
Why does it hurt me too?
Yoh came back one night explaining everything and told me he is still in love with me. I didn't have the courage to face him, so I silently cried behind the window. When he left, I decided to follow his request to open the gift he had given years ago.
It was a ring… and it made my heart shattered more…
Did he really need to leave me just to show his love? I just want to punch Yoh's face now…
That night I can't sleep. I kept looking at the ring on my palm and the ring on my finger.
I need to choose…
On the night of hearts, I found myself walking aimlessly.
I left the house of Sati, leaving a note for Ren and hoping to see Yoh.
But I stopped in the middle of the street.
Unsure if my choice was right.
I looked back, thinking of the man who pieces my heart together.
I looked ahead, where the man I love so much is waiting.
I was rooted in the same position for a long time. The heavy rain was not helping. It only blurred my already puffy eyes.
I need to choose…
And I should face all the consequence…
I finally made a step…
But the fate was mocking me…
Or Kami simply wanted to punish a selfish woman like me…
A blinding light came from the corner of my eyes. I was too distracted to hear the loud honk of the car. I felt a massive pain as I was forcedly push.
The last thing I can remember was a ring rolled beside me which was also soaked by blood before my consciousness slowly faded away.
I never believe in love…
No…
I am a slave of love…