Kim and Adam offered to take Vivienne home with them just to give Gus and Rhiannon a chance to catch their breath and spend some time with their new little boy. She was a little torn, she wanted to stay with the her parents and her brother but she also wanted to tell her cousins about him so she ended up going when they promised her that they would get her favourite dinner on the way home. It was going to be pizza night.

"Your Mom and Dad looked happy? That was really nice." Rhiannon was cuddling her son when Gus came back from walking them down to their car.

"They are happy. They are over the moon." He sat up next to his wife and played with his son's foot as it poked out of the blanket. "As am I."

"He's beautiful isn't he?" Rhiannon was besotted with him. The instant they lay him on her chest she felt an overwhelming love for him. He had such a burden to carry, he was the start of the healing process of this family and she felt protective of him. "Like his Daddy."

"Awww shucks."

"You wish Polly was here."

"Not today Darlin'." If Sam refused to call Polly Darlin' because it was a Ruzek thing, Gus always called Rhiannon Darlin' for that same reason. "Today is about you and my boy."

"Gus, it's okay."

"Not today." He was adamant he didn't want to talk about his sister today, not that he didn't miss her and love her but it was just too hard and this was a good day, he wanted it to be a good day. His parents hadn't mentioned her and focussed on Viv and the baby and he liked that. It made him feel like shit some days when he wanted to yell, 'what about me' but he never did. Whether they knew or not he had no idea but today they made it about him.

His Dad sent him a photo. It was of MiMi and Viv sitting up eating pizza. 'My hot dinner dates.' Rhiannon could see how much Gus appreciated that photo. He thought they were going home to have pizza with all the kids but instead they had stopped and just had dinner with Viv and it was perfect. His parent's continued to blow him away, they didn't always get it right but they got it right more times than not.

"They are trying Gus."

"I know. Hey…" he stroked the little boy's soft cheek, desperate to change the subject. "What should we call you?"

They spent the next hour trying to find a name for their little boy. It was tougher than they thought. Vivienne had come to them pretty easily but even then they struggled with boys names. Finally they agreed on something but decided to sleep on it over night. Gus was going to bring Viv in to visit in the morning and they wanted her to know first, she had wanted a brother for so long and she was so excited.

While Rhiannon dozed off Gus sat and talked to his son. "This is the deal now my little man. Daddy loves you so much, Mommy is just off the charts in love with you. You have this crazy beautiful sister, some days you'll like her, some days you won't but you will always love her. Having a big sister is awesome, I loved it, I miss it so much." As much as he tried he couldn't stop the thoughts of Polly invading his thoughts.

He took a deep breath as he felt the tears building up, unchecked he let them spill out. "I wish she was here to meet you. She would be beside herself, I'd never get you back. This is all she wanted for me. She wanted me to be as happy as she was, and I am. She was a pain in my ass when we were growing up but she always had my back and she kept looking out for me until I met my soulmate. When I met you Mom she was so happy and she loved your sister so much. Vivienne will always have your back and I want you to always have hers. If we are not here to help you, help each other. I love you so much, you have fixed a little bit of that hole in my heart. Welcome to our world." He lifted his son up and kissed his soft dark hair. "Mom and I can't wait to watch you grow."

Angus reluctantly left to pick up Viv and take her home to bed. She was asleep and MiMi was upstairs with her when he got there so his Dad poured him a drink. "To my Son, and his son." Adam held up his glass.

"Thanks Dad."

"How are they?"

"Good, he'd just had another feed before I left so they were both sleeping. The Doctor came by and he's really happy with Rhiannon. The Paed just needs to clear him again tomorrow and we might come home."

Adam watched as Gus just stared at the bottom of his glass. "What's up Gus?"

"Nothing. I just really miss her Dad. She'd be so happy today. I can't stop thinking about her. Rhiannon, Viv and my little boy are my whole world and I am so happy but there is this little part of me that is just sad. I think of Lola, Mae, Alfie and Iris and I can't imagine not being around for Viv and Charlie, I can't imagine not seeing them grow up. I can't imagine not sitting here with them in twenty, thirty, forty years time having a drink with them when their babies are born. I can't imagine not seeing them fall in love, get married and just fucking live."

Adam heard his slip of the tongue. He had told him Mom that they hadn't chosen a name yet, they were still deciding but he had let it slip so Adam ignored it until Gus was ready to tell them. The rest, he could barely answer. "I know."

"How do you do it?"

"What? Get up everyday and not hurt? Not get angry or sad? I don't Gus." Adam voice quivered and he took a quick sip give him a moment to steady himself. "I hate every single minute of it but those four kids need us to get up and not be angry or sad or hurt and just love them and hold them and keep them safe. I get up and live this fucking life without Polly because I have no other choice."

"I hate being angry at her, for leaving and for taking away your life as grandparents. I hate her sometimes because it's changed Viv's life too and that's selfish."

"No it's not. I hate her some days too but I don't stop loving her or missing her. You know what, apart from holding that little boy today, your Mom loved today because we spent time with Viv and we were so happy. We feel bad some days that she doesn't get the attention she deserves and we want to try and change that." Adam swallowed that rest of his glass. "We love her just as much, we adore her and you know what, sitting having dinner with Viv today and listening to her talk about her little brother, it was nice you know because for once we weren't sitting looking at kids and wondering how to fix their broken hearts or looking at them and feeling sorry for them because they are growing up without their parents. It was just us and Viv and she was so happy and we loved it, every single minute of it."

"That photo you sent. We loved it."

"Not as much as I loved taking it I can tell you. Those two own my ass." Adam really wanted him to know how much today meant to them. Gus tipped his glass at his Dad.

"I heard someone call them the poor orphans the other day, man that hurts."

"Like being kicked in the balls every single time." Adam topped up their glasses. "Anyway, I'm proud of you Angus. Congratulations on your little guy, being a father to a boy is the best feeling in the world. Totally different from being a Dad to Viv I can tell you. I hope you get a son who is as awesome as mine is."

Adam hugged his son, he held him tight and told him he loved him.

When he went up to get Viv he sat and talked to his Mom for a few minutes filling her in on all the finer details of her new grandson, not that she hadn't heard them already before scooping up Viv and taking her home to sleep in her own bed. He would have stayed, like he had done in the past but they had a full house these days and there wasn't much room for anyone else.

It was nice waking up with just Viv too. They sat up in bed and called Rhiannon. "Hi Mommy. I missed you, I slept with Daddy last night."

"Well aren't you lucky. How is Daddy this morning?"

"He's good. We are going to have breakfast and then come in and see you. Is my brother still there?"

"He is, do you want to see him?" Rhiannon turned the camera around and showed her the sleeping baby. "He's been a good boy."

"MiMi and Pops are very excited. Pops thinks he's handsome like he is."

"I think he's handsome like Daddy."

"Me too."

Gus only got a few minutes to talk to Rhiannon. They had both had a good night, he was feeding well and sleeping when he should. They knew it was a false dawn, once he had had recovered from his rapid entrance a sleep routine would go out the window. Viv had been an angel for a week and then it went to hell in a hand basket and they had months of shitty sleep. It was no secret they were hoping that this one was polar opposites.

Once they got into the hospital Rhiannon was waiting for them. They had been given a clean bill of health and she wanted to go home and start living as a family of four. He called his Mom and Dad and asked them to come over and formally meet their little boy and to bring the kids.

"His name is Charlie." Vivienne blurted out as soon as her MiMi and Pops arrived. She had literally been bursting at the seams since they had told her that she could announce it. "He's my brother Charlie."

"Well, that's that." Gus laughed. "Actually it's Charles…" he watched Charlie's cousins smother him with love, they looked so happy and Vivienne was holding court, making sure he wasn't being hurt. "Charles Samuel Marshall Ruzek."

"Sam? Like my Dad?" Mae squealed.

"Like your Dad." Rhiannon nodded. "We loved your Dad so much and your Mom."

"Really?" Lola was surprised. She'd talked to Rhiannon a few months ago and they had talked about names for the baby and how they didn't think they would use her parents names and she was okay with that, more so than Mae and Alfie were. "That's really nice."

"We really like it." Lola hugged Rhiannon and thanked her.

Gus had been a little surprised when Rhiannon asked him if he wanted to name him Sam. They had been adamant all along that they wouldn't do it but now he was here and it was a few months down the track she was re-considering it. He thought about it and they eventually decided to call him Charles and give him his own personality but his second name would be Sam.

'At 1236pm yesterday afternoon our world became a little brighter with the quick and safe arrival of our beautiful little boy Charles Samuel Marshall Ruzek. Rhiannon and Charlie are doing well, Vivienne and I are over the moon.

Charlie has bought us all a little light; he has found a little spot in our hearts that needed a new life to love. He's provided us with a reason to smile. Welcome to the world Charlie, you've got a whole mob here ready to love you.

To my beautiful wife, I can't describe how I feel today and everyday with you, thank you seems so inadequate but I don't know what else to say. Your love, support, encouragement, your steady heart, calming voice, soothing words, gentle touch over the past few months have meant the world to me. You've picked me up every time I've fallen, I love you Darlin'. Thank you for Vivienne, for Charlie and being the love of my life.'

It was a sweet photo, Lola was holding Charlie, Viv was sitting on Mae's lap holding her brother's hand and Alfie was cuddling Iris and they were all smiling at the camera. Gus stood next to his Mom and reached for her hand when he noticed the tears in her eyes. "Oh Gus, it's beautiful. Look at them."

"Polly and I did good hey?"

"So good."