Rachel laid in her bed looking up at her ceiling trying to figure out how could she possibly have fallen head over heels over Quinn Fabray. Starting from the beginning nothing ever made sense, Quinn was the definition of perfection captain of the cheerios, president of the celibacy club.
That alone should be enough proof that she is definitely not gay. Face it Rachel, yes things have been great the last couple of days but Quinn Fabray is not GAY! and even if she is there is no way she would fall for me?
The last three years had been a nightmare and one summer changed everything for Rachel. No matter how much she tried to sort out her true feelings for Quinn none of it was fitting together. She was falling deeper and deeper for the blonde and they've only had two serious conversation. Monumental events such as yesterday doesn't happen to a girl like Rachel Berry. Especially an event that involved the most popular girl in school. Rachel hugged her teddy bear even harder and let out a soft squeal.
"Today is a new day, and I will talk to her. At least thank her for stopping the fight. She did seem upset after glee yesterday. I really wanted her to be my partner, just my luck I got paired up with Finn. I hope he doesn't try anything with me." Rachel got out of bed and started her morning routine.
After her rigorous work out on the elliptical she decided to check her email. This was something she use to do quiet often when Layla wasn't so busy with Juilliard. They emailed each other almost every day. But ever since she started college the emails became less and less. Rachel opened her inbox and looked through her email.
"Trash, trash, oh! Forever 21 is having a sale! I'll have to go back to that. Trash, Layla Forren." Rachel starred at the name. Her heart stopped seeing the name on her screen. She clicked it and read the email.
Dearest Rachel,
How are you? How's your senior year so far? I hope that everything is well on your side. Juilliard is amazing. New York suits you perfectly. The people, the art, the music, the nightlife and most of all the theaters. This place will truly bring out the best in you. Good luck with regionals, I know you will be fantastic. I hope to hear from you soon.
Always,
Layla
P.S.
Don't be a diva, be yourself.
A smile appeared on Rachel's face when she read the last part. Layla will always be a huge part in her life. She kept starring at the email, Layla knew her. She was one of those friends that even though she had her diva moments Layla never looked at her differently. She even told her that she enjoyed watching Rachel freak out over the littlest things. She missed Layla dearly she always made it easy to be herself around her. Rachel looked at the clock and noticed she had spent more time than she had expected. She turned off her computer and started getting ready for school.
Today is definitely a new day.
Rachel walked to her first class not spotting Quinn any where. Layla's email still lingered in her mind she remembered the last time she saw her and how perfect their goodbye was. Rachel looked around one last time for Quinn but the hall ways were nearly empty.
I guess I'll try after class.
Rachel sat in her class preoccupied about Quinn and Layla. She realized how much alike both girls were but how different they made her feel. She really missed talking to Layla. They use to email, text and call each other all the time but since Layla's attending her first year at Juilliard her schedule has been pretty busy. They've been friends for so long that when she left for college she felt even more alone. Her senior year was going to be a stepping stone for this brand new Rachel but without Layla for support she wasn't entirely sure if she could make that change. Rachel looked out her window and wondered what Layla could be doing right this second, her mind began to wonder from the last time she saw her.
"I can't believe your going to Juilliard Layla, I'm so excited for you." Rachel holding Layla's hand.
Ballet class just ended and they were the last ones in the dance studio. Layla Forren was a stunning blonde she had soft blue eyes that makes everything around you feel warm when she stares at you. She has perfect bone structure, lips soft and the right shade of pink and red, very tempting for any guy or girl. She's a contemporary dancer, graceful, soft and gently hands, amazing long legs. She was one hundred percent perfection. And to top it off she has a personality to match. Funny, smart, caring, passionate the list can go on and on. Rachel has known for her three years now, she was a year older and this year was the assistant instructor.
"I know it's exciting and frightening at the same time. I know I'll see you there in two years." Layla poked Rachel on the side that made her jump out in laughter.
"I hope so, just to be in New York is enough for me.I can't wait for this senior year to end. Lima just feels suffocating."
"Hey don't just hope, don't ever hope. Know. You know you'll get into Juilliard. Don't ever settle for average Rachel, you are worth so much more than you think." Layla put her hands by her mouth and started to shout, "Ms. Rachel Barbara Berry! name all in lights, fans screaming and waiting for autographs outside the Gershwin theater!" Layla applaud Rachel to stand up and take a bow.
Rachel got up and waved to her invisible fans. She had the biggest smile on her face only Layla could produce this certain smile, couldn't believe she was friends with this amazing girl. Her beauty reminded her of Quinn but they were completely different people. Layla and Rachel grabbed their stuff and headed for the door noticing that they were almost past curfew. They lived in the same corridors so they always walked the same path together. The moon was bright and full that night. Clear beautiful skies, you can see every star the earth was surrounded by.
"Let's get out here. It's such a gorgeous night. We shouldn't spend it inside. I know a really cool spot." Layla trying to get Rachel excited to leave the camp. Knowing her well enough it was going to take more convincing than that.
"Layla, we really shouldn't it's after hours. And your in a leadership position are you sure you want to risk it?" Rachel questioned the dancer.
"I already got accepted to Juilliard Rachel, this is just so I can spend more time with you." Layla glanced in Rachel's direction to see how she would react to her comment. Layla has always had a crush on Rachel she found her to be a very challenging person.
Rachel blushed and playfully pushed the girl.
"Come on Rachel, your young, live life, stop following the rules so much. Sometimes it's a nice feeling living on the edge. And it's just a drive to a really quiet spot with a great view. I'm not asking you to drink or smoke pot. My car is parked on the side, we only have five more days till camp ends. Don't you want a summer you'll remember and might be life changing." Layla facing the brunette with a huge smile. Rachel contemplating whether or not she should go. But once Layla flashes that smile Rachel always found it hard to say no. She was beauty to be remembered and never forgotten. Rachel never understood why she was so attracted to Layla. It was an attraction built on emotions she never ventured off too, Rachel knew she was straight and she always knew Layla was gay. Layla always flirted with her constantly and was never afraid expressing how she feels verbally about Rachel.
I can't say no to those blue eyes. Look at her, you only live once Rachel. Just go for it! It's your senior year next year, lets start living life now. Forget what happened in New York, forget Finn, forget the old Rachel Berry!
"Okay let's go!" Rachel whispered. Layla grabbed her hand and started jogging quietly towards the side gate of the camp. There was something about the way Layla held Rachel's hand that made Rachel feel like she was someone important. It wasn't to tight that Rachel felt uncomfortable and it wasn't to loose. Layla made her feel safe and that was one thing Rachel always cherished about their friendship. They hopped onto her black Prius and Rachel got in the passenger side, her heart racing ready to jump out she was so frightened and excited all in one.
"Are you okay? You're breathing so hard you might pass out for rushing to much oxygen into your brain." Layla laughed at the chest heaving brunette to her side.
"I'm alright I've just never done anything like this before." Rachel holding her chest trying to control her breathing. Layla started the car and started driving to her secluded spot. She turned to look at Rachel and found her to be the most adorable thing her eye's had ever seen before. Layla's alway knew she was gay and from the first time she ever met Rachel there was something about her demeanor of perfection that always drew her in.
"Well it's going to be a night of first for you then." Layla poked her side again flirtatiously, the sight of Rachel jumping at the sensation made Layla giggle a bit.
"Quit it! You know thats my tickle spot." Rachel pouted her lips and pretending to be upset at the dancer.
"Haha, the only reason why I poke you there is just so I can see you jump and pout those sexy lips at me." Layla wasn't holding anything back.
"Layla! My lips are no where near sexy. Your lips on the other hand are way more attractive than mine." Rachel responded.
"Oh so, you thought about my lips then?" Layla bit her lips and glanced at Rachel who appears to be turning red at the question.
"Ah..No they're always just there to look at. And you constantly talk, talk, talk about anything and everything why wouldn't someone look at your lips." Rachel feeling a bit hot in the close nit environment.
Layla laughed at Rachel's answer. Layla slowed the car down and pulled over to this secluded and dark spot. She put the car in park and turned off her head lights.
"Come on." Layla unbuckled her seat belt and opened her door. She ran to the passenger side and opened the door for Rachel.
"Well, come on superstar." Layla held up her hand for the brunette.
Rachel obliged and placed her hand on Layla's. Rachel found it really sweet when Layla would call her that. She stepped out of the car and stood up. Layla kept her hand and started walking towards the lake. The sight was beyond belief the moon was all the light you needed, it reflected of the water so gracefully and the noise around the lake flowed so perfectly like an orchestra.
"We're here Rach," Layla dropped her hand and opened up her arm towards the bed rock. It really was the perfect spot, Rachel steadied herself on Layla's hand and stepped forward on this enormous rock.
"This is amazing" Rachel let out. The lake was peaceful and serene, the moon, the stars it was all too perfect. Rachel smiled in wonder, she was very glad she did this being here was worth the risk.
"Thanks Layla, I really needed this." Rachel placed her head on her shoulder. Layla wrapped her arm around the diva and pulled her closer.
"No problem Rachel, I know it's been rough the last couple of weeks. That Finn guy doesn't deserve you. You deserve so much more Rachel you know that right?" Layla had it bad for Rachel but she wasn't going to push herself on her. She really cared about Rachel but her friendship meant more to her than what her heart was telling her to feel.
"You are one of the very few people that believes that." Rachel sighed and a tear fell on her cheek. Layla gently wiped away the stray tear that escaped Rachel's beautiful eyes, Rachel looked at her in the most sincerest way. She didn't even notice that she was crying.
After nationals Finn ignored her till this day. He didn't answer any of her calls, when she said hello in the hall ways he just nodded and walked away. It was like that kiss never happened. It broke her heart, and then everyone in glee was upset with her because of the kiss that cost them Nationals. Towards the end of the school year she couldn't wait to get away from everybody she never felt so alone.
"Rachel look at me" Rachel lifted up her head, wiping off some more stray tears. Layla smiled and held her beautiful face. "You are an amazing person, you're kind, funny, determined, focused and any one would be lucky to have you. High school is hard, but don't ever feel like your alone in this. I will always be here for you. No matter the distance, the time I will never let you down or leave you. It's hard right now but you have plenty of time to find yourself. But first you have believe that your worth it." Rachel was crying hard now. No one has ever said anything so meaningful to her before. She was looking deep into those light blue eyes.
She's truly stunning in this light. The way the moon shines on her is a beauty I've never witnessed in my life.
Rachel started leaning forward, she closed her eyes and leaned in for a kiss. Rachel felt a surge of emotions the second their lips touched. She's never felt so free and alive just being with Layla. She wasn't sure if her words were drawing her in or the fact that Layla has been so open about her feelings for Rachel why not trust the one person that believes in her. She's always been attracted to Layla she's perfect in every way.
Layla was in shock but closed her eyes and kissed her back. Their lips melded together and fit just right like the last piece to a puzzle. Rachel's soft lips against hers was a sensation she's been dreaming of. Never in her wildest dreams did she thought this would ever happen. Layla softly licked Rachel's lower lip, in a way of asking for permission to move forward to a more aggressive kiss. Rachel playfully sucked Layla's bottom lip in return and a moan escaped her lips as Rachel teased. Rachel was enveloped in this overwhelming feeling that she didn't care what happened next.
Rachel placed her hand on Layla's neck pulling the dancer closer to her. The second Rachel's soft fingertips touched the back of Layla's neck goosebumps ran all over her body. She had clearly underestimated Rachel in every way. Being taken off guard Layla had no idea that Rachel would have such a huge impact on her. Rachel was yearning for more her body was telling her to move forward. Layla continued to tease Rachel's bottom lip which made her grip the blondes hair. Layla pulled away seeing Rachel's reaction which caused a tiny shock down to her already pulsating core. Things were heating up way too quickly even for Layla's sake she needed to catch her breath she needed to gain control of this situation. She really wasn't expecting Rachel to be so forward and aggressive. When Rachel saw that tongue on those lips she couldn't stop herself, she pulled the dancer closer and ravished her tongue, loving the sensation every time their tongues wrestled one anthers. Rachel was finding it difficult to ignore the pounding between her thighs and Layla was making it more difficult by running her soft finger tips up and down Rachel's back. She found the slit between her shirt and sweat pants and couldn't hold back at the chance of knowing how soft Rachel's skin truly was. Rachel let out a soft moan the second she felt Layla caressing her lower back.
OH MY! This throbbing needs to stop. She's such an amazing kisser and her fingers are so soft on my skin. It so hot in here, I'm not sure if I can take much more of this. I'm soaking wet down there and if she…OH MY what am I doing?
Layla felt Rachel pull back realizing what's happening and found herself between Rachel and a big brick wall. She couldn't go through with this even though for the first time in years she was finally able to express what she's been holding back. Rachel has always been on the top tier of her pedestal, perfect in every way beautiful, talented, bold and challenging. But Rachel deserved more than this, it shouldn't end like this Layla was leaving for Juilliard in two weeks, Rachel is still in high school. Rachel starred into Layla's light blue eyes trying to figure out what was running though her mind. Layla grabbed Rachel's hand and placed it in her chest. She gently pressed her lips to Rachel finding it more difficult to face the fact that reality will set in the second their lips pull apart. Layla held Rachel's face and slowly pulled her lips away from Rachel's.
Layla starred into those big brown eyes and smiled she held Rachel's hand so passionately. "I like you Rachel, I've liked you for quiet a while now actually. And as much as I would love for this to continue and it pains me say this. I want this moment to be perfect for you. Our friendship means more to me than what my heart is telling me to feel. I really care about you." Layla still hanging on to her hand.
Rachel was surprised in a good way. This blonde bombshell had a crush on me and she cared more about my first time with a girl than her actual feelings. AND she still wanted us to be friends. This was to good to be true. Rachel breathed out and laid her head on L ayla's chest.
"I'm going to miss you, you know. You are the only friend I cherish the most. I care about you so much Layla, thank you for everything that you've done for me." They sat there and watched the moon shine in the dark quiet sky.
"Hey Superstar, I'm keeping this for the record books. Mental Picture. SNAP!" Layla giggled at herself finding humor in this sexually frustrating situation. But being there alone with Rachel was worth all the unspoken words about her true feelings for her tiny brunette.
The bell rang and Rachel remembered she was in class. She just spent the whole period reminiscing on the summer that changed her life for the better. She will forever be grateful for Layla's kind words and encouragement. She walked out of her class feeling relieved.
Now to find Quinn