Hello Readers, I wanted to thank you for reading and commenting on my little story. Like I said I've never written anything like this so just having you guys follow my story is greatly appreciated. This chapter is just a filler. I've written more chapters but it just takes me a while to edit it. So again thank you for being patient. Enjoy.
Dear Rachel,
Seriously Quinn your writing a love letter? It's not a love letter. You are writing a letter to a girl you tormented for three years. Hence a letter. No love what so ever.
Dear Rachel,
How was your class? I'm in economics right now. Pretty boring. I was wondering and feel free to shoot me down. But since your uncomfortable being alone with Finn today after school maybe I can come over and you can help me with my econ homework. While you and Finn figure out what song you want to sing together. Just a thought.
This is a little strange. No it's polite. It's a little weird. She told me she felt awkward around him.
Again feel free to shoot me down. It was just a thought. I'll see you in glee.
Quinn.
What are you doing Quinn? A couple of weeks ago all you wanted to do was to use her. Why the sudden change of heart? A couple of days ago I was different.
Quinn thought back and tried to remember why she was so mean to Rachel. Why her specifically? All she can come up with was the feeling of being superior over Rachel was something to boost her popularity keep her cheerios entertained. She was confused about who she was and masking her anger by rebelling and causing pain on others was a better way than facing her own demons. She realized that all of the pain inside wasn't worth it any more. She came to terms with herself after Beth and realized she needed to change her life. She didn't plan on falling for Rachel Berry so she fought against her will once more. Forcing her mind to believe that Rachel was just a tool to win nationals and to get out of Lima. But a few unspoken walks to class, gentle grazes of the hand a light was beginning to spark in the strangest place. When she saw Rachel in her most vulnerable state that spark ignited and burst into flames. Her heart yearned to protect this tiny diva she felt her heart for the first time. It was a feeling so uncharted, indescribable yet empty. She needed to feed it, it was hungry for more glances, touch anything that will fill in this void. Quinn was falling for Rachel, the last couple of weeks she's been fighting herself, compelling her mind that what she feels for Rachel isn't real. Rachel is just a kind person whose willing to forgive anyone, she believes in second chances thats all. Quinn's heart on the other hand had been fighting to reach out, to be able to feel real love and that's what she finds when she looks deep into Rachel's eyes. When she hears Rachel's voice her heart begins to fill with love. This was highly unlikely even for Quinn, she's been battling herself all these years not knowing who she is or what love truly means to her. She realized that when she was dating Finn there was no real attraction even with Puck she felt nothing. But when Rachel comes to mind she feels lifted like a her heart was calling out for the diva. She was done hiding her feelings for the brunette that she was sure of.
Say goodbye to the old Quinn Fabray.
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Quinn rushed out of her class and thought when would be a good time to give Rachel the letter. School was over so it was to late to put it in her locker. She couldn't just hand her the letter that would be to weird. But she needed to read it before she leaves school. Quinn walked over to her locker and held the note in her hand still trying to figure out the best way to give it Rachel when all of a sudden Santana reached in and snatched the letter off her hand. Quinn was taken by surprise and didn't have enough time to react.
"What you got here bee?"
"Hand it over Santana. That's none of your business"
"Is it a love letter for Berry?"
"Santana!" Quinn tried to grab the letter but missed.
"Your going to have to do better than that Q." Santana started running towards the choir room and Quinn chased after her.
Shit! Fucking Santana! Quinn was beginning to regret telling Santana her little secret.
"Santana give it back!" Quinn yelled from behind. Santana stepped in the choir room found Rachel sitting in the front row and tossed her the letter and then took a seat next to Britney. Rachel looked confused and held the letter in front of her. Quinn entered the room soon after and found Santana laughing with Britney. Quinn stared her down her eyes were fuming and burning straight through the Latina.
Santana arched her eye brow and nodded towards Rachel. Quinn looked over to Rachel and found the diva starring back at her holding a letter in her hand. Quinn gave Santana an approving look, and Santana gave her the back of her hand gesturing to slap the blonde if she doubts her ever again. Quinn took a seat next to Rachel and watched the class room fill up.
Rachel opened the letter and couldn't recognize the beautiful hand writing. She smiled reading the first two words Finn walked in and sat on the other side of Rachel.
"Hey Rachel, we're still on for today?"
Rachel finished her letter and stowed it away in her binder she looked up at Finn and nodded yes. She then turned to Quinn and smiled that lovely smile. Quinn's heart paced a little faster at the sight. There was just something so captivating about that smile. She has to make sure to properly thank Santana later.
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Mr. Shue walked in and started talking about song selection for sectionals which was in two weeks. He decided that with the current assignment, the winners will get to choose what song they would like to sing for sectionals.
"Alright you guys I'll let you have this time to talk amongst yourself and work hard on those songs." Mr. Shue gathered up his paper work and sat on his desk letting the class work on their assignment. Everyone sat by their partners and started brain storming.
"Did you finish all your class work at lunch today?" Finn was really trying to make conversation with Rachel. He knew not to get his hopes up but everyone can tell he regretted what he did last year. He kissed Rachel yet he never got any of the backlash from anyone. They all blamed Rachel for losing nationals and Finn couldn't even stick up for her. Finn knew he had a long way to go but he was willing to wait, Rachel is very important him. She was the only one that really stood by his side with the whole Quinn thing, she supported him in every way she can.
"Yes I did actually thank you for asking. Now to more important matters, I was going through my iPod and I actually had a song in mind. It's a tad risky but I...I mean we can really pull it off."
"Yeah? Well you know me I trust your judgement on songs. What song is it?"
"Here I'll let you listen to it for yourself." Rachel handed him her iPod and played the song, Finn recognized it quickly.
"This song is perfect Rachel. I can definitely see the challenge but it's a perfect song. I have football practice after glee so I'll head over to your place around seven?" Finn asked and handed her iPod back.
Rachel was a little surprised to hear Finn excited about the song she had picked. She took a second and stared at him and wondered how different her life would be if he didn't turn his back on her. Would she be comfortable with herself or playing a role. After Layla she hasn't really thought about being with a girl. She hasn't even labeled herself as bi curious let alone bisexual. She always believed that when she meets the right person that will be good enough of answer. Finn is a good guy, misguided about his morals but he's a good guy. She looked over to Quinn who was sitting with Blaine across the room and couldn't help but smile just watching Quinn scribble some songs on paper. Rachel remembered Finn asked her question she always did find it difficult to focus when Quinn was in the same room.
"Seven sounds good." Rachel looked over at Quinn once more. She was feeling a little troubled about not telling Finn that Quinn would also be attending tonight. She needed a moment alone with the blonde to talk things over, Rachel was not the type to hide things even as mediocre as having another friend come over to help ease the tension.
Finn downloaded the song to his phone so he can get a better feel for it. Rachel kept trying to make eye contact with the blonde to signal her without making it to obvious. Everyone know's they've been hanging out but for some reason this particular situation needed to handled in a more secretive way. She didn't know why she felt like she had to hide their friendship. Sure it was foreign, they were starting from the beginning. Getting a feel for one another, but there was something she felt that she needed to hide. Even though they've been walking around school together, eating lunch together. After third period today something just felt different. Like they wanted more but couldn't ask out loud.
I'll just get up and go to the bathroom maybe she'll notice me leave the room and follow soon after. Yes that sounds like a brilliant idea.
Rachel fakes a cough a bit to loud and everybody turns to look at the diva. So much for incognito Rachel thought.
"Excuse me," clears her throat and straightened out her skirt, "Finn I'm going to the ladies room." Rachel announced, Finn had his head phones on and didn't even notice Rachel stand up. Rachel gave Quinn this glare signaling her to follow.
Quinn smiled but understood the very obvious signal. Oh Rachel your just the cutest thing.
Rachel walked out and walked straight in the girls bathroom. She looked in the mirror checking to see if she looked presentable. Two minutes passed and still no Quinn she started pacing back and forth.
"Was my signal not clear enough? I was sure I made eye contact. She's taking way to long maybe I'll just write her back." She said to herself and started walking towards the door.
Rachel grabbed the door handle to open the door when Quinn walked in and was face to face with the diva. Quinn walked forward forcing Rachel to slowly back up their faces was inches away from each other. Rachel held her breath but kept her eyes locked on those light hazel eyes. The door slammed and broke the silence.
"Um…so you have practice after glee correct?" Rachel moved back a little further from the blonde being this close to Quinn was beginning to be problematic she always felt hot all over and then her lips would start to quiver.
Those eyes just keep drawing me in, all this time I've always known she was mesmerizing but as of this moment I truly have no other words to describe her beauty.
"I do, It doesn't end until six. Would it be alright if I stopped by after." Quinn was trying not to flirt but Rachel has this adorable face when she starts to feel nervous. First she avoids eye contact, then starts fiddling with her skirt and then her lips would start to shake. She's always wondered if Rachel wanted to kiss her to stop those lips from shaking.
"Of course. Any time after six would be perfect." Rachel was looking down watching her fingers tugging the seam of her skirt. Having Quinn look deep into her eyes was like swimming under water, you needed to take deep breaths to enjoy the scenery.
She couldn't have been more adorable than how she was looking right this second. Quinn wanted to hug the tiny girl so badly and get rid of this space between them. Her theory was and she has yet to prove it. If she can hug or just be able to feel the diva's warmth then this sickening feeling in her stomach would dissipate.
"Should I tell Finn that you will also be attending tonight?" Rachel got her deep breath and finally met Quinn's gaze.
"I don't think that's a good idea. He might try and change your mind into inviting me over. We really should get back to glee. Wouldn't want our friends to suspect anything." Quinn started to laugh a bit.
"What's so funny?"
Quinn laughed a little harder now. "I just..." trying to explain but when she thought about it the thoughts made her laugh even harder.
"Quinn? What is so hilarious?" Rachel pouting at the blonde.
"Okay. Let me get my breathing back." she took a deep breath. "It's just, why does it feel like we have to hide this? Rachel, we've been hanging out. And for us to be sneaking around like this, don't you think it's a little silly?"
Rachel thought about it for a minute, "Yes, you are absolute right Quinn. I don't know what I was thinking." Rachel giggled a bit.
"Come on let's go back together." Quinn walked up to the door and opened it for the diva. "After you." she gestured her hand forward. Rachel looked at Quinn and Layla popped in her head. She shook the thought out of her head and smiled. Rachel walked out of the girls bathroom and Quinn followed behind.
Both girls joked and laughed all the way to the choir room. Right when they walked in everyone stopped what they were doing and stared at them.
"What are all you guys starring at? Yes! Rachel and I are friends. So quit with the dumbfounded looks already." Quinn announced to the entire class. Even Rachel was shocked at the cheerleaders announcement. She really didn't expect Quinn to put everything out there. But a part of her was relieved, Quinn wasn't afraid to be her friend she didn't care about her reputation being tarnished. Quinn turned to Rachel and hugged the diva in front of every one. All eyes we're glued on them. Rachel felt an out of body experience and Quinn finally was able to feed her hunger she was right holding Rachel felt so right.
Quinn released the now frozen diva, looked her in the eyes and said, "I'll see you at seven." Quinn turned around and sat next to Blaine.
Rachel's brain wasn't processing fast enough she literally forced every single fiber in her body to move her in the direction she needed to go. She found the chair and held on to keep her body from floating away. This was the first time they hugged she felt light headed, and serene. All these different emotions were filling up her body and no where to escape. All she could do was sit there and feel her insides erupt into a frenzy of happiness.