Three weeks have past since Quinn had dinner at Rachel's but it wasn't the last she's actually been over at Rachel's more times than her own home. Ever since that day they've been inseparable. One time Quinn even convinced Santana if they could take Rachel out to lunch with them. Insults were fired back and forth but in the end it was a pretty fun lunch. Rachel was getting pretty good at keeping her feelings under wraps but it wasn't easy. Everyday she was finding out more about Quinn and it was making her fall deeper and deeper. It didn't stop her from flirting when Quinn initiated it though and she initiated it a lot. Quinn on the other hand was no where near sorting out her feelings for Rachel. She just enjoyed being around the diva so much that she figured if it wasn't hurting any one why mess it all up by adding personal feelings into the mix. She had no idea that Rachel was hurting everyday by her actions because Rachel was always full of smiles and laughter when they were together. That was one thing Quinn loved to do, Rachel had this infectious laugh some people might think is annoying but to her it was Rachel. Every night she wondered if tomorrow would be the day all her questions would be answered. She knew she liked Rachel, maybe even more but the thoughts of being with Rachel frightened her so much it was keeping her from being who she wants to be. It was preventing her heart from loving the girl she wanted to be with. Her family has been through so much she couldn't possibly give it another reason to fall apart again.
Regionals was a hit, Mercedes and Santana won the assignment by singing Whitney Houston One moment in time. As the winners of the assignment they created a mash up of I will survive by Gloria Gaynor and I'm a Survivor by Destiny's Child. To everyone's surprise Rachel was very supportive of the collaboration which brought the teams moral to an all time high. Everyone in glee was beginning to see how much Rachel has changed.
"I have to admit Rachel, with a little help from me your wardrobe would be impeccable by the end of the year." Kurt sat next to Rachel eyeing her vintage gold bracelet. Kurt was always drawn to Rachel but her personality always gave Kurt a reason to avoid any sort of friendship with the diva. But seeing that she's toned down her attitude he found her rather amusing and lively.
"Thank you kurt, I'm really trying to go for a more modern Audrey Hepburn look."
"I know the perfect store, we should go shopping this weekend."
"This weekend would be perfect my fathers just gave me an advance for Hanukkah and I'm dying for a new wardrobe." Rachel was beaming.
Mr. Shue walked in holding up their regionals trophy. Rachel couldn't help but look around her surrounding and feel different being in this room. Just looking around she knew this would be their year taking home that nationals title.
Kurt leaned in towards the diva and whispered "Then it's set, I'll pick you up at noon."
Rachel was ecstatic she was starting to really enjoy her senior year. Last year her weekends consisted of Finn coming over and they would watch movies she wasn't particularly fond of. After that whole kiss incident no one was really putting in the effort to hang out with her. Plus everyone was coupled up and busy with college preparations and SAT. It wasn't bothersome to her at all because she always spent her weekends perfecting her singing and community service. Aside from her morning routines she has her ballet classes saturday morning then she would sing at the hospital for the elderly during the afternoon. Then if she had extra time she would paint. She remembered how much she loved painting after Quinn reminded her how talented she was with a paint brush. It was something that she never embraced due to her singing and dancing but after a long and busy day she realized it was something that calmed her. Singing is her passion always and forever but the second that brush meets canvas she felt serene. It allowed her to relax and look at things in a different perspective. Now her weekends consisted of Quinn coming over watching movies that she enjoyed and other times they would take a walk to the park and get lost in the conversation. After the win at regionals all the glee members were seeing Rachel in a new light. Yes she would sit by them at lunch in the past but no one bothered to notice she was there other than Finn. But now they didn't find her annoying or overbearing they actually included her in the conversation. This year was shaping up to be one to remember and the year that changed Rachel Berry.
The last day before winter break Rachel couldn't help but feel sad about not being able to see Quinn for the next two weeks. The uncertainty of their feelings was something that haunted Rachel's thoughts. Quinn hasn't mentioned any plans for her winter break and Rachel always spent her winter break perfecting her singing, watching old musicals and updating her myspace.
"What's the with sad face?" Quinn wondered sitting next to Rachel at lunch. Everyone around them couldn't wait to get out of school and start their winter vacation. They were all talking about their plans for the next two weeks. Rachel turned to Quinn and shrugged her shoulders as if nothing was bothering her. Quinn playfully nudged her knowing Rachel well enough that she was upset about something.
"You know its only been a couple of weeks but I know you pretty well Berry. Why the long face?" Quinn smiled and moved closer to the diva.
Rachel couldn't help herself but smile hearing those words leave Quinn's lips. Something about the way she said it felt so assuring. Rachel wasn't sure how honest she could be with Quinn. The last few weeks has been something out of a fairy tale. The evil witch falling for the tortured servant to find out later in the story that it was all a dream. Not so much a fairy tale now that she thought about it. She turned to Quinn and gave her a gloomy smile.
I like you Quinn I like you so much. I'm so exhausted forcing my heart not to love you. i hope you know amazing the last few weeks had been for me.
"Its nothing really it just dawned on me that I may not have done so well on my history exam. I haven't really been paying much attention in class." she hoped that Quinn bought her excuse.
"I know what you mean, my economics exam was intense. But I'm sure you did great." Quinn put her arm around the tiny diva and rubbed her her shoulder.
Rachel always found Quinn's subtle gestures very comforting. She always knew what to say and how make her feel better. Everything has been going so great and now there would be two whole weeks separating her from Quinn.
Quinn kept her arm on Rachel's shoulder in a way to ease her troubled thoughts. She really didn't buy into what she said and knew there was more to the story she's not telling. One thing Quinn hated was seeing Rachel upset about something. Her feelings for the tiny diva hasn't been going all that well either. Everyday they spend together Quinn finds something different about her that makes her fall for the girl even harder.
She wants to tell Rachel that she cares about her a lot. And that she thinks about her everyday of the week. When she goes to bed all she dreams about is being with Rachel. With the occasional sex dreams, which leaves her taking very cold showers almost every other day. It was driving her on edge, now with winter break. It was heart wrenching, not being able to see her everyday.
The school bell rang meaning everybody had ten minutes to get to class. Quinn forgot that her arm was still resting on Rachel shoulder. She couldn't have been happier having Quinn hold her so intimately. Both girls got up from their seats and Quinn removed her arm from Rachel's shoulder.
"Come on let's get to class. At least it's a free day today we got to look forward to that." Quinn trying to convince herself that today wasn't going to be difficult at all.
Changing in the locker room hasn't really changed much. Rachel was getting really sexually frustrated every time Quinn would ask for sun screen so one day she surprised her with her own bottle. Quinn laughed so hard that day for Rachel calling her out on her bluff but that didn't stop her. She just decided to come up with a better plan to mess with Rachel.
"Hey Rach, you think you can help me out?" Quinn tapped Rachel in the shoulder.
Rachel turned around to find an aching blonde in front of her. "What's wrong?" She watched Quinn rub her shoulder.
"Coach Sylester had us doing pull ups yesterday. My shoulder blades are burning so bad. You think you can rub some of this for me. I can barely raise my arms up." Quinn was trying to look as desperate as possible. Rachel didn't know that Quinn was fully capable of doing pull ups that the thought of Quinn going up and down turned her on a little. Rachel looked at Quinn for a moment debating whether or not she would be able to do this. Then she remembered how perfectly fine Quinn was during lunch. She even saw Quinn grab a lunch tray from the tall wrack. This was another one of Quinn's scheme to get her acting like a drooling fool. Quinn watched Rachel contemplate on what to do.
"Ah, I can't believe I'm so sore." Quinn held out her ointment to help Rachel decide.
"Um…yes I can definitely help you with that." Rachel smiled watching Quinn really put on a show. Rachel grabbed the ointment from Quinn's hand she smiled and took a seat facing away from the diva.
Rachel squeezed some of the creme on her shacking hand this would be the first time she would be touching Quinn. Looking at her bare shoulder she always wondered how soft Quinn's skin would be. Rachel took a deep breath and rubbed her hands together to calm herself. She slowly made her way into Quinn's shoulder.
"Rachel? You still there?" Quinn joked.
"Yeah, I'm here." Rachel took another deep breath and just went for it. She placed her palm on Quinn's shoulder blade and rubbed her thumbs in a circular motion going up and down her back.
"Am I doing it right Quinn, I'm not a great masseuse."
From the moment Rachel applied pressure on her shoulder Quinn shut her eyes. "Oh man, yes your doing great Rachel, that feels amazing." she said in a faint relaxed tone. Her body relaxed and Rachel's touch was turning her on.
"Yes, right there. Just a little harder to the left. Ah, Oh that's the spot."
Rachel was trying her hardest not to get turned on. This was the first time that she's ever been close to Quinn. Hearing her moan when she shifted her hands was making her clit throb. She needed to focus on something else she looked up at the ceiling and shut her eyes.
Rainbows, and stars and….Does that feel good Quinn?….NO! Rainbows, stars..her skin feels so soft. FOCUS Rachel.
Quinn was so relaxed that she didn't even notice she was moaning out loud.
"Wow man hands can I go next my loins have been extra tight this week." Santana walked in and interrupted their moment.
Quinn's eyes shot open and Rachel removed her hand from Quinn's shoulder. Both girls turned red the second Santana walked away. Quinn looked at Rachel and gave her a shy smile.
"Was I being loud? I hope I didn't make you feel uncomfortable. It just felt really relaxing. I haven't had a massage in ages and you were hitting the right spot." Quinn bit her lips when she heard what she said. "I mean…"
"No, I was perfectly fine. No worries here, Im just glad I could be of some service to your needs." Rachel blushed. "That didn't sound right at all. What I meant to say was, if you need my hands they're yours. I mean if you need help I'm your girl. Not necessary YOUR girl but friend that's a girl. I should stop talking. We really should be getting ready. I'll see you outside." Rachel turned to her locker and started grabbing her change of clothes.
Quinn watched as Rachel started to panic. She couldn't help but think how absolutely adorable she was acting at this very moment. Quinn placed her hand over Rachel's in order to calm her. Rachel stopped what she was doing and looked over to her side meeting those beautiful hazel eyes.
"I'm going to miss this." Quinn confessed.
Rachel's heart fell to her feet, her head was racing, palms started to sweat Rachel was speechless.
"We should definitely try to hang out during the break. I'll be pulling my hair being cooped up in my house with my mother and sister for the next two weeks." Quinn noticed Rachel's reaction it wasn't exactly what she was expecting from the tiny diva. Quinn was still waiting for Rachel to say something, anything for the sake of this conversation to not get awkward. Quinn lowered her head and started walking away. When an arm reached for hers she paused and smiled. Quinn felt a little hesitant turning around and meeting those brown eyes that locks her down. Afraid of what Rachel would say she took a deep breath and faced the tiny brunette.
Rachel had this dissatisfied look in her eyes. "I'm going to miss this as well Quinn."
Quinn smiled and leaned in for a hug. This very moment made all her doubts and fears about her feelings for Rachel disappear. She rested her head on Rachel's shoulder and held her even closer. No one was around them all their classmates were outside enjoying their last day before winter break. They could hear the laughter through the doors the excitement of not going to school for the next two weeks. Nothing was going to ruin this moment. Neither girls wanted to let go but they heard footsteps rushing through the door.
"Quinn, Rachel!" Britney saw both girls release each other from their embrace. "Sorry guys but Coach Beist told me to come get you. We tried to cover for as long as we can. She was threatening to make you run laps if you didn't get outside for roll." Britney smiled a wary smile for ruining their special moment.
"Thanks Brit we'll be right out." Britney ran out to find Santana and tell her what he just witnessed. Rachel looked over to Quinn nervously their perfect moment gone and reality is seeping it's way back into her head. What do we do now? Does she have feelings for me as well? All these questions came rushing through her head she needed to say something to break this unbearable tension between them.
"Quinn..." Rachel whispered. Hazel met brown and everything became so clear nothing else mattered, her heart belonged to Quinn and no one else. Her heart will endure all the torturous ups and downs that fall in the category of what is Quinn Fabray.
"We should go before coach makes us run." Quinn grabbed her hand and intertwined it with Rachel's. Quinn was feeling brave, she was sick and tired of having to hide and keep her feelings under wrap because she didn't know how Rachel would feel. Quinn gripped her hand tight not wanting to let it go she never realized how perfect their hands fit together. She's never felt so free just by a single touch Rachel followed her out the girls locker room holding hands. They dashed towards Coach Beist and Quinn released Rachel's hand as they get closer to their classmates. A moment of bravery can only get you so far the thought of going public about her feelings for the tiny diva was till questionable.
"Sorry we're late coach." Quinn stood in front of an irritable coach.
"Just don't let it happen again you two. All right since it's your last day before winter break go relax and do what ever you want. I'll be by the bleachers keeping an eye on all of you. Now GO!" the class dispersed into their tiny group. Santana and Britney pulled Quinn to the side to have girl talk. Quinn looked over at Rachel and missed the feeling of their hands together. She wished she was more braver she wished there was no doubt in her mind about the consequences of their relationship.
Rachel watched Santana and Britney grab Quinn she looked down at her hand and wished Quinn was still holding it. She decided to walked towards the track not knowing what to do for the next hour and a half. She felt this ominous feeling, she really wanted to talk to someone. She pulled out her cell phone and decided to check her email to see if Layla had responded back to her last email.
Nothing. They're really keeping her busy over there.
Rachel took a seat underneath a tree to sort out her thoughts she looked over at Quinn and started typing on her phone.
"Well? Are you going to spill or what?" Santana questioned.
"No I didn't tell her, I really don't think I'm ready to explore my sexuality. I like Rachel and from what happened earlier it seemed like she likes me too. But if there's even a slight chance she may not feel the same way I don't know if I can handle that." Quinn looked over them and saw Rachel sitting by the tree they always sit at when it's days like this. Santana seemed a little annoyed hearing the news.
"But Quinn you have to take a chance you can't keep hiding your feelings forever. You deserve to be happy and Rachel makes you happy." Britney added.
"She's right Q, this place is pretty messed up but if you find that one thing that makes you happy living in this pitiful place isn't so bad." Santana nudged Britney's hip she hated being this lovey dovey type but she's also sick and tired of hearing Quinn try to find herself when clearly she knows who she is but just to afraid of the consequences.
Quinn took a deep breath "Okay I'll think about it. No guarantees but I'll really think about it." She watched Rachel sitting by the tree looking so peaceful. She took out her cell phone and started typing out her feelings. Maybe seeing it in front of her will help her figure things out.
They spent the whole class talking about their plans for the break. Quinn would look over to Rachel's and thought how much her life would really change if she and Rachel got together. They spend every single day together any ways and she's sure Rachel would understand to keep the public display of affections to a minimum. She needed more time to think this through these two weeks should give her enough time to find the answer she's looking for.