"Finn!" Quinn calls out to him trying to find a voice of reason and not slap the crap out of him. He slowly turns around not even sure if he wanted to hear what she has to say. When he meets those hazel eyes a memory flashes back to a time when he was willing to do anything for her but now those eyes are as icy and cold as ever.
"What Quinn?" His voice was harsh.
"Santana didn't do it okay. So back off I'm sure you've done enough damage for one day. And if you really want someone to blame just blame me. I know me hanging out with Rachel is confusing and I can see it your eyes that you don't trust me being her friend."
"Your right, I don't trust you around Rachel but for some reason she sees something in you that no one else can. I know I was wrong for saying those things to Santana and a part of me wished it was you I was lashing out on because Rachel doesn't deserve a friend who lies to her and hurt her in the end. You don't have an ounce of loyalty in your body Quinn, you never had so if you want to change something about yourself look in the mirror and just be honest with yourself." Finn felt so relieved finally being able to voice his opinion. He shoulders his back pack and walks away from the stunned cheerleader.
Sam was waiting outside the choir room waiting for Quinn to exit. Once he sees Finn walk out he gives him a nod and wondered why Quiwas hasn't exited. As he enters he sees Quinn sitting by the piano grazing her fingertips on the keys.
"Quinn?" Sam says softly.
Quinn shuts her eyes trying to force the tears to subside she grips her seat knuckles turning white and wished that Sam would just leave her alone. She couldn't do this with him, not right now. Not when Finn just shoved a huge pile of truth down her throat.
"Quinn are you all right?" Sam moved closer but was unsure if his presence was comforting or not.
A tear escapes her eyes and she quickly wipes it away. "Yeah Sam I'm fine." her voice cracks but she still has her back turned to him so he couldn't see the pain that was written all over her face. "Look about earlier…" She tries to clear her throat before continuing. "I don't think going on a date is a good idea right now. I'm going through some things and I just need to focus on myself. I hope you can understand."
Sam can hear the strain in her voice and how badly he just wanted to wrap his arms around her and protect her from this pain that she's been shouldering for so long.
"Okay Quinn, I understand I'm here if you ever need to talk." Sam hovers his arm by her shoulder but something inside him told him not to so he just walks away leaving her by the piano.
Quinn didn't care about practice today she knew she'll have to pay for not showing up she may even get kicked out like Sue threatened but it didn't matter her she was in no condition getting yelled at by Sue Sylvester.
"Quinn?"
A voice that brought warmth in her heart.
"Aren't you going to be late for practice?"
The soothing voice is getting closer and filling her heart with so much love that the pain was beginning to feel lighter.
Rachel wraps her arms around the blonde and the embrace makes all the doubt in her heart disappear. Her body collapses in Rachel's arms and she leans back and for once she wasn't afraid of falling. Rachel is holding her, protecting her from all the truth's she's afraid to face. Quinn hangs her hand on Rachel's arm and was so grateful having her here.
"Baby what's wrong?" Rachel holds her tighter.
"I'm sorry Rachel." Quinn was crying now she didn't know how to do this but Finn's words we're stabbing her in every direction.
"Why are you apologizing?" Rachel turns her girlfriend around and sits in front of her. She wipes the tears away and holds her shaking hands.
"I'm so sorry Rachel I'm so screwed up I can't even look you in the eyes." She can longer contain her tears she looks down starring at her girlfriends soft hand holding her own.
"Quinn your worrying me. What happened while I was away? Did Sam say something to you?"
"No, Sam didn't do anything. I'm just so scared to lose you Rachel." she grips Rachel hand tighter.
"I'm not going any where Quinn. I promise, I belong right here with you." Rachel held Quinn's chin and slowly started lifting it so that their eyes met. Quinn hesitated for a second fearful that if she sought comfort in those brown eyes she'll crumble from all the lies and feel so shameful for doing it.
"I'm not going any where okay." Rachel whispers the words and if only Quinn was so sure of that.
Rachel leans forward and passionately kisses her girlfriend. Quinn places her hand on Rachel's neck and pulled her closer their kiss intensifying. Rachel was sitting on Quinn's lap her legs wrapped around the blonde. Rachel teasingly licked Quinn's lower lip and the sensation caused her clit to throb. They gazed at one another both eyes dark and wanting. Their breaths ragged, they wanted more from each other.
"Let's get out of here!" Rachel proposed the thoughts from earlier came flooding her mind. Quinn, alone, kissing, TOUCHING. They need privacy and they need it fast.
Quinn nodded and gave Rachel a quick peck on the lips. They were out the choir room and into her car within minutes.
...
Finn apologized to Santana by buying her a dozen long stem roses and a dinner for two at Breadstix. There was a rumor that spread that the only way Santana would ever forgive him was if he would let her kick him in the groin once. There was no witnesses but a few students claimed that Finn was walking awkwardly during first period.
Once glee started all the negativity that hovered over everyone had vanished. Santana was all smiles and Finn was back to being his goofy self.
"You all right man?" Puck was wondering why Finn keeps adjusting his pants.
"Yeah, I pulled a muscle earlier trying to help my mom move something this morning." Finn smiled and change the subject.
Mr. Shue finally picked three songs to rehearse for Regionals. So the whole time in glee was spent learning all the notes and who was singing which part. Of course Rachel was offered a solo but refused and decided to highlight other voices in the group. To everyone's surprise they couldn't believe they were witnessing Rachel Barbara Berry respectfully declining a moment to shine.
Quinn couldn't have been more proud of her girlfriend for being such a team player. After what happened yesterday their relationship has gotten a lot stronger.
They drove to their park and walked over to their very secluded, very quiet and very private spot. Quinn laid down the blanket so that they can sit comfortably on the grass.
Rachel laid down and stared up into the blue sky with that beaming smile of hers. Quinn stood above her and took a moment to capture how beautiful Rachel looked under the shinning sun.
Quinn laid beside her and Rachel found a comfortable spot on her girlfriends chest. They held each other and talked about the future until the sun went down. It was all they really needed, some time alone to be with each other.
"Ready to go?" Rachel said softly. Quinn focused her attention to Rachel, completely forgetting they were in the choir room.
"Yeah, sorry I was just thinking about our day yesterday." Quinn said with a smile.
"Yesterday was a perfect day. I truly enjoyed your company Ms. Fabray. Now I'm pretty positive that if your late for practice again you might get kicked off the Cheerios. So shall we go?"
"We shall Ms. Berry." Quinn linked her arm with the diva and strode to the field where Coach Sylvester awaits with her out of this world punishment for skipping practice yesterday.
Quinn gulps and was glad that she won't be alone Santana and Britney skipped yesterday too.
"Are you scared?" Rachel questioned.
"Me? Scared? Please Sue Sylvester doesn't intimidate me one bit."
When they reached the field Santana and Britney were sprinting up and down the bleachers and Sue was on the very top with her bull horn screaming on the top of her lungs.
"YOU THINK THIS IS HARD TRY RUNNING A MARATHON WITH A HERNIATED DISC AND CORN THE SIZE OF CHERRIEZ ON EACH TOE. THAT'S HARD!"
Rachel squeezed Quinn's arm afraid for her girlfriend. "I'll never look at cherries the same way again. Gross."
Quinn laughed at Rachel's comment, "I'll see you later Rach." Quinn sprinted to the bleacher's not wanting to piss Coach Sylvester even more by being excessively late.
Rachel decided not to drive home today and just wait for Quinn. Who know's what kind of punishment she'll receive being the captain and all.
...
"We really should call someone and complain about Coach Sylvester's method of punishment. I'm pretty sure their not legal in this state." Rachel was rubbing Quinn's back as she throws up on the side of the field from exhaustion.
Santana and Britney was laying down on the grass legs shaking unable to get up from all the running they just endured. Quinn had it worst, Sue made her sprint five miles around the track carrying two twenty pounds weights. Then she made her do two laps of squats with the weights then suicides with ten pound ankle weights. When she collapsed on the ground Rachel fought the urge to run by her side knowing that it would look suspicious and Quinn was very adamant about keeping their relationship a secret. But it didn't stop Rachel from cursing the heavens for creating Sue Sylvester.
"I honestly can't feel my legs." Santana slowly dragged her limp body closer to Britney.
"Hey, You said the same thing last night in my bed room remember." Britney pinches Santana's thigh but felt nothing.
"Gross." Quinn added then she threw up again.
"Quinn are you all right?" Rachel was still rubbing Quinn's back. Quinn's been throwing up for five minutes straight.
"Yeah..." she said after wiping her mouth one last time. Rachel hands her a bottle of water while Quinn lays down on the grass.
Rachel was massaging Quinn's thighs trying to force the blood to circulate.
"It's okay Rachel I should be fine now. Just lay with me for a little bit." Quinn opens her arms wide. Rachel still worried about Quinn's current condition straighten her dress and lays down embracing her girlfriends arms.
...
"Are you sure your mom is okay with this Quinn?" Rachel was on the passenger seat with her sleeping bag in her lap.
"Yes Rachel, she can't wait to meet you. I explained to her that we just became friends after I apologized..." Quinn paused thinking back how horrible she was towards Rachel in the past. "about our past. She asked why I was so mean to you and I told how I was a dumb kid."
Rachel held Quinn's hand and squeezed it firmly. "you really need to stop giving yourself such a hard time about the old you. I've forgiven you a long time ago." Rachel lifted Quinn's hand and kissed her knuckle.
"I know... It's just...I think back and I could've been happy with you a long time ago and now we only really have a few months then college."
"Well you said your applying for Yale that's only a train and bus rides. We can try and see each other every other weekend. We'll make it work I promise."
Quinn pulls up on her drive way Santana's car has been parked on the side waiting for them to arrive. Rachel hugs her sleeping bag anxious to go inside the Fabray household.
"Rachel don't be so nervous. My mom is going to love you. Now come on I'm sure Santana and Britney is getting a little impatient." Quinn opens her door and greets the other girls.
"Oh hell no! You didn't tell you invited Berry." Santana shouts.
"It's nice to see you too Santana. Quinn you didn't tell her?"
"And miss the look on her face. Not a chance." Quinn laughs and ushers the girls to enter.
"This is going to fun!" Britney said with much enthusiasm.
They enter the house and Judy was in the kitchen preparing dinner. One thing Judy absolutely loves is hosting and it's been a while since Quinn had her friends sleep over.
Everyone drops their sleeping bags in the living room and walks over to the kitchen. The aroma of roasted lemon chicken was filling the house making all the girls mouth water.
"Hey Judy!" Santana greets.
"Hi girls, dinner is almost ready. Quinn could you be a dear and set up the table." Judy has her back turned stirring the vegetables.
"Sure mom but first would you like to turn around and meet Rachel."
"Of course how rude of me." Judy turns around with a huge smile on her face and slowly walks over to Rachel. "it's a pleasure to finally meet you Rachel, my little Quinnie has said so many nice things about you." It was a huge surprise to everyone when Judy leaned forward and embraced Rachel. Judy squeezed tight and finally released the confused diva. It took five seconds of silence before Rachel was able to speak.
"The pleasure is all mine Mrs. Fabray. Thank you for having me." Rachel looked at Quinn and at that moment Quinn's beautiful smile lit the whole room. This was very important to her and Rachel was glad that it was off to a good start.
Judy finished cooking dinner while the rest of the girls ran up to Quinn's room so they can get settled. Quinn stayed downstairs and set up the table with Rachel.
"Where would we be sleeping Quinn?" she knew santana and Britney claimed Quinn's bedroom.
"The living room, I hope that's all right?"
"Yeah that sounds great. As long as I'm with you." both girls looked up from what they were doing and smiled.
...
Judy cooked an amazing meal roasted lemon chicken with sautéed vegetables. Quinn had asked her to cook something separate for Rachel because she's vegan. Judy looked at her daughter with questioning eyes but agreed to it any way.
"And Rachel my daughter informed me that your vegan so I cooked this up. I hope it's all right it was my first attempt at cooking a vegan meal." Judy place the pesto pasta in front of Rachel.
"Oh my, thank you so much." Rachel took a big whiff and her mouth was beginning to water.
"Well dig in everyone." Judy announces.
Everyone loaded up their plates and began eating. Rachel couldn't believe how accommodating Quinn's mom is at the moment. These Fabray women really know how to put on a good show. The last thought that stayed in her mind of Judy Fabray was her blocking the front door eyes barely awake and the fury of her slamming the door shut and not letting her in to speak with her daughter.
"So Rachel, Quinn tells me your salutatorian. Wait let me correct myself she tells me your both fighting to be valedictorian." Judy slices her chicken into a smaller size and stabs a piece of vegetables and puts it in her mouth.
"Yes we are, your daughter is quiet an over achiever. She's surely making a run for my money." Rachel took a bite of her pasta and couldn't believe how delicious it was. "wow mrs. Fabray I've had a lot of pesto pasta but this one is really good. Are you sure it's your first time cooking vegan?"
"Oh stop it dear, your making me blush." Judy takes another spoon full of her meal. "your senior year sure is flying by. Have you girls decided on what colleges you want to go to? I know Quinn is applying to USC and a few other colleges."
Quinn took a spoon full of food hoping to avoid this conversation.
"Well me and Britney want to go California. Im applying to a few state colleges there. Hey! If you go to USC then the holy trinity lives on!" Santana starts to laugh and britney shortly joins in.
Rachel not really enjoying the joke looks worried at the table.
"But USC isn't my first choice. I was looking at Yale and even NYU." Quinn adds. Rachel finally looks up at everyone and directly at Quinn with that smile of hers.
"NYU? Yale I can understand but NYU? Since when did you start thinking about those colleges? Its been your dream to move to california and go to USC. Your cousin Jackie was looking forward to being with you next year." Judy watches her daughter closely.
"I know mom but things change. Yale has better programs for me. Plus I have to get in USC so nothing's set in stone." Quinn takes a bite of her food and looks over to Rachel. She hasn't been quiet honest with her. And from the look on Rachel's face she knew she was in for a long night.
Judy was trying to stay calm because she knows for a fact that Quinn was a shoe in at USC. Their families are huge contributors, and the Fabray's has attended USC for the last four generations. So they know all the important people that can help their daughter get accepted.
"If your father we're here he'd be a little disappointed to hear that your no longer interested in going to his alumni."
"Well he's not here mom. And he's no longer a part of my life the second he abandoned me. I'm done with dinner can I please be excused." Quinn places the her napkin on the table and gets up. She walks away from the table fueled with anger. Britney and Santana look at each other feeling the tension in the room.
"Can I please be excused as well." Judy nods her head and Rachel soon follows behind. Judy was beginning to see what was happening to her daughter and Rachel Berry was playing a very huge role in her daughters sudden change.
"Quinn? Are you all right?" Rachel whispers from the entrance of the living room.
Quinn was looking at some old photos of her and her father by the fireplace. She missed him more than she'll ever admit. But after he kicked her out she never saw him as her father. He became a selfish man who didn't have a heart to do the right thing and stand by his daughter in time of need.
"Quinn?" Rachel gently places her hand on her shoulder. Quinn shakes her head to rid of the memories that haunt her.
"Hey Rach, it's still pretty early let's watch a movie with the girls okay?" Quinn smiles and gives Rachel a quick kiss on the lips. She walks towards the kitchen and announces to her mother that they'll be watching a movie in the living room.
Man these Fabray women really know how to suppress their emotions.
Quinn returns with Santana and Britney behind her while Rachel looks at the photograph Quinn was looking at before. Quinn was maybe four or five years old and she's asleep on her father's lap. Russell had also fallen asleep with a book on one hand and his head tilting towards his little princess.
"I want to watch a scary movie, it's the only excuse we can use to cuddle." Santana pokes Britney's side that made the blonde giggle.
"Sounds good." Quinn walks over to her DVD collection scanning through the movies. "Is Sixth Sense scary enough? We don't really buy Dvd's any more." She grabs the case and waves it in front of the girls.
"Yeah I guess that's all right. I haven't seen it in a while so go ahead and put it in."
Quinn walks over to her television and opens the DVD player and puts the movie in. She walks to the light switch and turns the lights off to set the mood. She scans the room and sees Rachel still standing behind the couch while Santana and Britney sits on the floor cuddled up.
Quinn walks up next to Rachel and eyes her carefully. "Rach you okay?"
Rachel turned and faced Quinn with this disturbed look on her face. Then it dawned on Quinn the first night they spent together in Rachel's room.
"Shoot! Sorry babe, I forgot you hate scary movies. We can be under the covers and talk when it's a scary part and I'll just explain the movie to you. Is that okay?" Quinn places her hand on top of Rachel's and squeezes it. Rachel nods her head and smiles. But she know's that's not the real issue why she's upset.
Quinn grabs two blankets and hands one to Santana. The movie starts and Quinn and Rachel sit next to each other holding hands underneath the blanket. They knew Judy was still in the kitchen cleaning the up so it will be a while before all four of them will have some privacy.
...
A few scary parts slipped and Rachel would scream and duck her head under the blanket. She would playfully slap Quinn on the lap for forgetting and Quinn would start laughing at how adorable Rachel can get when she gets scared. She know's that Rachel would want to talk about what happened at dinner but right now she's glad that the movie is a great distraction.
Forty minutes into the movie Judy strolls to the living room and announces that she's heading for bed. She also tells the girls to behave and not to stay up to late. Britney, Santana and Rachel wish her goodnight and once they hear her door slam Britney moves in front of Santana and leans against her wrapping the blanket around them. Quinn wraps her arms around Rachel as she leans closer to the blonde. Quinn did a better job of remembering when the scary parts came so when they would both get underneath the covers Quinn would place soft kisses all over Rachel.
"Okay we've had enough, we're heading upstairs we'll see you in the morning." Santana announce. Britney gets up and pulls Santana up.
"Don't lock door because we need to sneak in there in the morning. Oh and San try to keep to keep down. I changed the sheets all ready so you guys are all set." Quinn stops the movie and sits back down on the couch with Rachel.
"Thanks Q."
"Good night Quinn good night Rachel" Britney says walking hand in hand with Santana as they exit the living room and heads for Quinn's bedroom.
The room fell silent and the only sound was their faint breathing. The television was the only light source and Rachel couldn't help but hang on to Quinn's arm for protection. Quinn lifts her arm over Rachel's head and places it on her shoulder pulling the diva closer to her. Rachel gave her a soft smile and leaned on her to get more comfortable.
"Comfy?" Quinn asks while grabbing the remote and started flipping through the channels. She never watches television but she knows now that their alone Rachel was going to talk but she's not sure if she's ready to open those doors.
"Yes I am." Rachel grips Quinn's hand and looks forward into the t.v. She know's Quinn isn't a talker but how is this relationship going to ever move forward if they don't communicate.
You have to take this slow Rachel you can't force Quinn to talk. She's fragile even though she's tough in the outside so choose your words perfectly. If we push to hard more doors will close and it will be a lot harder to open them.
Rachel sits up and turns her body to face Quinn. She stares at her girlfriend with that smile she knows Quinn can't resist. Quinn keeps her attention to the television trying to control her breathing. Panic was rising from her stomach she knew the conversation was about to begin. She had to make a choice right this second. She can either approach this with her doors shut and handle this the Fabray way or keep the impossible promise you gave her.
Rachel is now glaring at Quinn for not taking her eyes off the screen. Rachel snatches the remote from Quinn's hand and holds it behind her back. Quinn faces Rachel surprised at how immature she's acting but when she sees Rachel's expression her heartbeat begins to quicken.
"Quinn Fabray if your not going to pay attention to me then you left me with no option."
Quinn's body was beginning to heat up just listening to her voice. Quinn's shocked face began to soften what more could be the perfect distraction. "Rachel, what do you think you're doing? Give me back the remote." Her tone could send chill's that can reach your bones. Rachel met those hazel eyes and saw a different Quinn. The girl in front of her is oozing with lust and now she's questioning if stealing the remote from her enclosed girlfriend was such a good idea.
"Was that an order? Sorry Ms. Fabray but I don't take orders from you. If you want this remote you're going to have to pry it off my death grip." Rachel moves a little further from Quinn but keeping the remote behind her back.
"I can't say I didn't warn you Berry." Quinn starts tickling Rachel's sides but her laugh was so loud Quinn ended up laying on top of her and covering her mouth with both of her hands. "Hush Rach! You're going to wake my mom up."
"Mhmmhmmh mhhh."
"What?" Quinn removes her hands and holds herself up hovering over Rachel.
"Don't tickle me!" Rachel looks up and sees that Quinn's eyes are different now. They're lighter, playful even and more like the eyes she loved starring into.
"I'm sorry but that's what you get when you snatch things from my hands." Quinn lays her head on Rachel's chest and just collapses her body on top of the diva.
"Ugh! Quinn!" Rachel breaths out.
Quinn lets out a quiet laugh there was something very soothing and calming listening to Rachel's heartbeat as she lays on top of her.
"Quinn can I ask you a serious question?"
Here it is, the moment of truth.
"Sure Rach." Quinn could hear Rachel's heart begin to quicken. Rachel was nervous asking the question just as she is answering them.
"Why didn't you tell me about USC?" Rachel ran her fingers through blonde hair hoping that her touch will keep Quinn calm.
"Plans change. I never really had my heart set on USC my family just expected me to go there. Just like they expected my sister to go there." Quinn ran her fingers gently over Rachel's soft skin. Quinn's touch was making the hair on Rachel's arm rise but she knew that Quinn wasn't being completely honest with her.
"But Fran goes to Stanford right?"
"Yeah she is, but my dad told her that if that's the college she wants to go to then he wouldn't pay a dime to help her move to California. I know my mom sends her money and does what she can to help my sister now that she's no longer with my dad. But Fran works two jobs and luckily she met an amazing guy that she lives with for free."
"I see, so your mother and father we're willing to give you a free ride if you attended USC."
Quinn bit her lip not really wanting to answer that question. "Yes...pretty much."
"Have you spoken to him?" Rachel felt Quinn move uncomfortably on top of her.
"Not really." Quinn shut her eyes fighting the tears from coming. She missed her father but that doesn't mean she can forgive him for what he's done.
Rachel wraps her arms around Quinn and hugs her tightly. "I'm sure he misses you dearly Quinn. Just the thought of losing you is such a painful feeling I couldn't imagine what he could be going through." Rachel could feel Quinn breathing heavily on her chest.
Quinn quickly got up and wiped her tears away she sat with her knees against her chest and wrapping her arms around them. She rested her head on her knee's and tried furiously to stop the tears from coming.
"Quinn." Rachel sits up and wraps her arms around the distressed blonde. Quinn flinches at first but then allows Rachel to sit beside her.
"I miss him...that's all...he wasn't a horrible father..." Quinn sobs through her words but as hard as she tries the tears wouldn't stop. Rachel pulls her closer and Quinn finally unwraps her arms and leans her head on Rachel's shoulder.
"I'm sure he's not, it's been two years maybe it's time to forgive him." Quinn shakes her head disagreeing.
"Do you know what will happen to us if he comes back into my life? He abandoned me when I got pregnant do you have any idea what he'll do if he finds out that I'm gay?"
"But Quinn..."
"But nothing Rachel pregnancy is one thing but it goes against his every belief. You don't know what your saying Rachel so just stop. I'm done talking about this. Please, I just want to get ready for bed." Quinn gets up, walks to the bathroom and shuts the door behind her.
Quinn stands behind the door and looks up at the ceiling tears we're beginning to pool in her eyes making everything seem blurry. She slides down from the door and hugs her knees against her chest again still keeping her gaze up at the ceiling. Her cold tears slid down her cheeks and she shuts her eyes tight. She knew that her father has always been a topic she'd love to avoid. Two years since he's been out of her life and in those two years he's only come up maybe four times. Every time he does come up the conversation always ends with her in tears about the whole thing.
Why couldn't you have just been supportive? Why couldn't you have been my father? The father that I loved and respected. I hate you so much and if I could erase all the good time's I would. But here you are, two years you haven't been a part of my life yet memories that means everything to me haunt me and wished that things would've stayed the same.
She sits there for a few minutes knowing that Rachel was outside most likely worried about her. It's not going to take long before Rachel knocks on the bathroom door to check if she was all right.
Lock it up Quinn. You did good, you opened up to Rachel and that's what matters. Just take a deep breath and go get ready for bed.
...
After about fifteen minutes of fighting the urge to knock on the bathroom door to see if Quinn was all right she finally got the courage to knock when suddenly Quinn quickly opens the door and Rachel was caught by surprise.
"How long have you been standing there?" Quinn had a soft smile on her face her shower helped her tremendously. She's wearing a plain blue pajama's and a white t-shirt. Her hair was down freshly combed and she had no make up on. Rachel was stuck and couldn't form a single word to answer her question.
"You can go ahead and use the bathroom now Rach. I'll set up where we're sleeping." Quinn gives Rachel a quick kiss on the lips and walks right pass the statued diva.
What just happened?
Quinn smiles at herself for being able to make Rachel react like that towards her. She's aware how confusing she may seem but Rachel needs that challenge but she's also hoping that Rachel cares enough for her to stick around and help her sort through all her issues. Quinn grabs the blankets and pillows from the linen closet and she sees Rachel from the corner of her eye grab her stuff and heads for the bathroom.
Quinn's couch was wide enough for the both of them so she laid out the blanket, laid comfier pillows and when she was finished she sat and pretended to watch t.v. while she waited for Rachel to finish. She thought back from the beginning of the school year and felt so ashamed thinking of using Rachel. The idea of pretening to be nice to her after three years of picking on her just seemed so childish. If her feelings for Rachel never grew to love would she have just tossed her aside after winning Nationals? Would they have stayed friends after high school? She remembered seeing Rachel so broken when Kurofsky slushied her and maybe that was the beginning of how her feelings for the diva changed. But after that day everything was sort of a blur. The thoughts of her history with Rachel was starting to give her a headache. There was to many things to sort out and tonight wasn't going to be the first night to try and clear their past.
Quinn hears the door open and she shakes her head pushing the confusing thoughts aside. She keeps her eyes focused on the screen then Rachel walks across the television and sits besides her. Rachel's shampoo engulfs Quinn's senses and she had to shut her eyes because the smell reminded her of the first time she had accidentally slept over Rachel's house during winter break. Her feelings for the diva was so new and exciting that she had to grip the remote so tight to try and gain some self control as she turns and faces her girlfriend.
Rachel's hair was wet and she didn't realize that she had taken a shower. Rachel was combing through her brown locks and was concentrating on the television. She's not as in tuned with all the celebrity gossips and Quinn had left it on TMZ.
"Los Angeles seems like a completly different world from New York don't you think Quinn?" Rachel still looking forward while Quinn was so fixated on Rachel that she couldn't believe that they we're together.
"Rachel?" She was going to regret this but a part of her needed to know the truth.
Rachel turns and she was met with an expression that made her chest clench. "What is Quinn?" Rachel reaches for her hand and holds it.
"Why are you with me?" The question nearly put her in tears because hearing Rachel's answer and continuing this conversation is causing a huge amount of fear building inside her. Rachel's warm hand was still holding hers and as comforting as it felt looking at this beautiful girl and knowing how clear their past were and how unclear their future is was clouding her mind and a very small part of her wanted clarity.
The question threw her off a little not quiet understanding what kind of answer Quinn was looking for. She watches her girlfriend looking down at their hands and she can tell that Quinn was struggling to ask and also frightened for an answer.
"I like you Quinn why wouldn't I be with you?" Answer her question with a question nice Rachel. "What I meant to say was, your an amazing girl and I've always known that there was more to you than what you let people see. I would never let our history get in the way of getting to know who you truly are. I've always tried to reach out to you because I knew your not just the head cheerleader, president of the celibacy club or Finn's girlfriend. Am I making any sense?"
Quinn finally gets the courage to look up and hearing Rachel's genuine answer was enough to put an end to this conversation. She smiles and nods her head informing Rachel that she understood. She moves closer to the brunette and leans forward for a kiss.
When their lips touch the ecstasy from their feelings for one another was instantaneous even though Quinn's emotions were being casted aside for the time being. The rush from kissing Rachel will never be enough for her she hopes that Rachel feels the same because she can't imagine doing this with anyone else.
Quinn moved closer to Rachel their kiss spiraling and becoming more intense. Rachel leaned back and now Quinn was hovering on top of her. Rachel's hand moves from Quinn's back and up to her neck. Their tongues wrestled and breaths ragged they both wanted to move forward but Rachel was holding back. Quinn slips her hand underneath Rachel's shirt and feels her soft skin underneath her fingertips. Quinn moves her lips towards the nape of Rachel's neck and soft moans escape the brunette's lips.
"Quinn." Rachel's voice was low and she can barely keep her body from shaking. Quinn's lips felt so amazing and thoughts of it moving further down were invading her mind. She couldn't believe how fast her heart was beating and how little self control she has.
"Quinn...maybe we should...oh Quinn...your lips feels so..." Rachel could barely form a sentence she bites her lower lip holding back on noises she would enjoy making. Rachel can feel Quinn's hand move down her waist then down to her thigh Quinn pulls away from the kiss and grabs the back of Rachel's knee and pulls her down gently so Rachel can lay down and be more comfortable. Quinn is now laying on top of Rachel her leg in between the brunette's. She continued to place soft kisses around Rachel's neck feeling how hot their bodies has gotten from their kiss.
Rachel shuts her eyes and clenches her thighs together hoping to put an end to the frustrating strumming between her legs. She can feel her core moisten the second she felt Quinn's tongue slowly glide along her collar bone. Rachel grabs Quinn's waist and squeezes it tightly she then raises her left leg in between Quinn's thighs.
"Quinn?"
Suddenly Quinn got up so fast that Rachel still had her eyes shut when she realized Quinn was no longer on top of her. When she opens her eyes Quinn was sitting on the opposite side hands on her lap looking straight into the blank television.
Britney was standing at the entrance of the living room holding an empty water bottle with an entertained smirk on her face. "What chu guys doing?"
"What do want Brit? Do you need something?" Quinn's voice was annoyed and frustrated her face flush red from lust or anger. She thought it was her mother from the sound of her voice but seeing Britney standing there was infuriating her for interrupting her moment with Rachel.
"I was going to ask if you have any Bengay I think I strained a muscle, Santana had me in these weird po..."
"I don't need to know the details Brit, there should be one in my bathroom underneath the sink." As frustrated Quinn can get she can never be mad at Britney. She turned beside her and saw Rachel still laying down but she turned her body facing away from the t.v. pretending to be asleep.
"Thanks Q I'm going to go get water real fast. Goodnight Rachel." Britney quickly walks to the kitchen. Three minutes later Britney was up the stairs and the sound of the door slam puts both girls at ease.
The show Friends was now on the t.v. and Quinn remembered the episode playing. She started laughing because it was the episode Chandler and Monica we're having sex and their windows we're open so Ross saw everything from his apartment. What a coincidence?
Rachel turns her body wonderingwhat Quinn thought was amusing when she saw that Friends was on she turns her body completely and begins to watch the show. They sit beside one another until the episode ended laughing at the funny parts never taking their eyes off the screen.
"Rachel...maybe we should...get some sleep?" Quinn's voice was shaky.
"Yes, maybe we should. It is past my bedtime." Rachel grabs the blanket and scoots her body so Quinn can have some room behind her.
Quinn lays down behind her their body fitting perfectly together. She wraps her arm around Rachel's waist and she's engulfed with brown locks.
"I had a great first night Quinn. Good night."
Quinn relieved to hear that the night wasn't a total disaster and what happened between them wasn't as horrible as she thought. The fear of pushing Rachel into something she wouldn't want to do is her worst nightmare. But from the looks of it Rachel was enjoying it just as much as she was but the reassurance from her will definitely help her sleep tonight.
"Goodnight superstar."
Rachel smiles and was glad that Quinn couldn't see her reaction because even those two simple words have a way of reaching her heart and embracing it leaving it so vulnerable and fragile. She was falling for Quinn and now that she knows her a little bit better the only question that's lingering in her mind is how can I tell her I love her?