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Rachel looks at her cell phone and the time says six twenty-three. She's been waiting for a response from Quinn but so far her phone has remained silent. Her fathers were in the kitchen waiting patiently as well. They spent almost the entire day setting up their backyard for Rachel's surprise dinner date with Quinn. But frankly waiting for a phone call seems more exausting than transforming their backyard into the perfect oasis. Rachel's been sitting outside for a while now and they can tell she was reaching her boiling point and they have no idea how to handle this type of situation. They're just hoping that Quinn would knock on their door s oon.
"She's coming I know she will. She wouldn't stand me up. Where are you baby?" Rachel tells herself trying to find some logic as to why her girlfriend hasn't returned her phone calls or text messages.
She felt her phone vibrate and quickly opens the message hoping it was Quinn.
Hey Rachel, I just got here the line is pretty long and Sugar hired a bouncer so let me know when you get here okay. -Finn
She ignores the text and dials Quinn's number for the sixth time but after a few rings still no answer. Sheer panic was beginning to rise from inside her. It's not like Quinn to do something like this.
Leroy and Hiram watch their daughter from the kitchen window. They knew Quinn isn't the type of girl to worry them.
Rachel stands up from the dinner table she beautifully decorated for tonight and storms into the kitchen.
"Something's wrong daddy, Quinn always answers my calls. This isn't like her we have to go to her house and see if she's there." Leroy's heart was breaking seeing his daughter like this. He walks over to her and holds her tightly.
"I'm sure she's fine sweetheart. Maybe she left her phone or misplaced it. It's only been twenty minutes. Why don't you wait a little bit longer and if she doesn't show up maybe she's at the party all ready."
"No daddy, she wouldn't leave without me. We planned on going there together and meeting up with our friends. Why doesn't she just answer her phone?" She grips on his shirt frustrated because she hated not knowing what's going on. There was to many possibilities, to many scenarios that her mind was coming up with and it kills her not knowing if Quinn was all right.
Leroy turns to his husband for support because he didn't want to say the wrong thing and worry Rachel even more.
Hiram walks over to them and wraps his arms around his family.
"Rachel, I'm sure she's all right. Didn't you mention she texted you earlier saying she's running late. So you know she's alright. Just give her a few more minutes I'm sure she'll text you or call you when she's finished doing whatever it is that's holding her up okay? Don't stress yourself out sweetheart. Why don't we go sit down for a little bit."
Rachel was still clinging to her daddy but understands what they're saying to her. She nods her head and they release one another and walk over to the living room. Rachel hears her phone ring and picks it up without even looking at who was calling her.
"Quinn?" she says in a panic.
"No it's Kurt. Where are you? Finn's been waiting outside and honestly he looks like a lost puppy just wandering around in front of the restaurant."
Great, this is exactly what she needed right now. Her best friend making her feel guilty for being late. The worst part of all is she really needed to confide in him about what's going on right now.
"I know Kurt, I'm running late I'll call him."
"Is there something wrong with Quinn? Sam's outside too waiting for her. Sugar won't let anyone inside without a date. Did something happen?"
Rachel wished she can just tell him the truth but even she doesn't know what's really going on. She heard a small beep in her phone informing her of an incoming message.
"Quinn's just running late, I guess practice kept her longer than expected. I'm just waiting for her to pick me up. We'll be there soon okay Kurt." she say this quickly to get off the phone and look at the message.
Kurt notices Santana and Britney walking towards their table. There's no way Sue would release all of the Cheerios and keep Quinn just to talk strategy.
"Santana and Brit just walked in do you want to talk to them?"
What? So if it's not practice what's keeping you baby?
She heard another beep reminding her of the new message she just recieved.
"Kurt my dad is calling me, I'll call you back okay." she hangs up the phone and opens the message.
I'll meet you at Breadstixs, something came up and I'm still held up at my house. I'm sorry. I'll talk to you about it later. Your Quinn.
Reading Quinn's text message should've given her a peace of mind but instead it made ger worry even more. Something was definitely wrong. It's obvious Quinn can't talk about it over the phone and Finn's been waiting for thirty minutes now she can't really keep him waiting much longer.
Okay, I hope everything is all right. I was getting really worried. Please call me when you get a chance. I'll see you soon. Your Rachel.
She presses send and waits for a reply.
"So what's going on Rachel?" Leroy looks up from the couch and can tell that Racheal was a little bothered by the text she just recieved.
"Quinn said that she'll meet me there. Something happened at her house that she can't quiet get out off. I've kept Finn waiting long enough. Is it okay if you can drop me off?" Rachel was filled with so many mixed emotions and going to this party was the last thing on her mind.
All she wants is for her girlfriend to tell her anything that would help put her mind at ease. But from the looks of it that won't be happening until she sees Quinn. She's still starring at her phone waiting for a new message to flash on her screen but nothing.
"Rachel?" Hiram calls for her.
She felt like tears were beginning to form on the corner of her eyes. She hated this feeling, this helplessness and not knowing what's really going on.
Why isn't she texting me back?
"Sweetheart? Your friends are waiting for you." Leroy puts his arm around her shoulder but judging from her stance she's very lost and confused. The only person that could stop their daughter from having a nervous break down is no where to be found.
"Let's go Rachel." Hiram grabs the keys from the table and started walking towards the door.
Being surrounded with friends is probably what she needs right now to take her mind off things.
"She texted you sweetheart. And she said she'll meet you there. I know it must be frustrating not knowing what's going on with Quinn but that shouldn't stop you from being a good friend to Finn. He's been patiently waiting for you so try and have good time okay?" he gives her a comforting smile and hugs her tightly.
Her phone remained silent and hearing what her daddy had to say she knew he was right. She hasn't been completely fair to Finn. She knew that this night was a lie because it was the only way her and Quinn can get inside the party. Finn nor Sam deserved being stood up.
Rachel looks up at her dad and started walking towards him, "Okay dad let's go."
Quinn stares at her phone unsure if she should text Rachel back. After listening to her father explain how much he's changed the idea of him coming back into their lives hasn't exactly been sitting well with her. A huge part of her was still frightened of who she is when he's around.
She knew exactly how she felt sitting across from him. All the pain and anger she endured when he abandoned her. She hated him so much for being such a coward and she made a promise to herself that if he ever asked for a second chance all he will get from her is the sight of her back as she walks away from him like he did to her.
She looks at the clock by her bed and a sharp pain strikes her heart. She was suppose be at the Berry's thirty-five minutes ago. To top it off Sam's been waiting for her at Breadstixs.
She decided on getting ready in the hopes of taking her mind off the conversation she just had with her estranged father.
After a quick shower she was about to slip on her dress when she heard a soft knock in her door.
"Quinn?" Judy says softly on the other side.
She finished getting dress but hesitated on opening the door. She was already an hour late and this conversation with her mother can wait until tomorrow. She walked to her vanity mirror and started applying some make up when she hears another knock.
She rolls her eyes and ignores her mother. Her door isn't lock and she appreciates that her mother is knocking before entering but not right now. She's had enough talking for one night and all she wants to do is be with her girlfriend.
She hears her door knob click and her door begins to open.
"Quinn, sweetheart?" Judy approaches with caution.
"Mom, not right now. I'm really late and I have friends waiting on me." She keeps her focus on applying her makeup but sees her mother take a seat in her bed through the mirror.
"You mean Rachel."
Her mothers stern voice had no effect on her.
"Yes, Rachel is one of them. So please, I need to finish. This conversation about dad can wait."
"Quinn, you don't have to pretend with me. I know about you and Rachel." her voice sounded to calm and relaxed that it threw Quinn off for a second.
Shocked that her mother can make such an accusation Quinn turns her body around and faced her mother about the nonsense she's making up.
She's bluffing Quinn don't buy into it.
"What about me and Rachel?" Quinn was looking for a way to calm down because she needed to have a clear head in order to answer her mothers interrogation.
"It's okay Quinn, you don't have to put your guard up. I'm not here to push you away. I just want this family together again." Judy never took her eyes away from her daughter. She wanted her to know she was being completely honest about what she has to say.
Quinn couldn't believe what she was hearing. She turned around and continued getting ready. She wanted to deny what was being said but judging from her mothers behavior maybe she really is okay with Rachel.
"Quinnie, I understand why you look like you don't believe what I'm saying. But trust me when I tell you that I support you one hundred percent sweetheart." Judy gives her a soft smile hoping her daughter would believe her.
Quinn couldn't make sense of what was coming out of her mothers mouth, there had to be a catch. Judy Fabray would never support her daughter being gay.
"I want to believe what your saying mom but for some strange reason I feel like your not being completely honest with me."
Judy looks down at her trembling fingers. She wants to be supportive, it's difficult to understand but she promised herself that she would never abandon Quinn after what her husband did no matter what the circumstances are.
"I just want us to be a family Quinn. I don't want you to end things with Rachel but I do want you to try and understand your father. He's really changed Quinn, I know it looks like I sprung this whole thing on you but I've been talking to your father ever since he started seeking counseling. He mostly wanted to talk about you and how you've been doing. He apologized to me almost everyday for ruining this family." Without even noticing it a tear slowly slid down her cheek.
Quinn watched her mother plea for her to really consider what her father has been going through. A part of her would love for this family to be back together but it was his past mistakes and the betrayal that caused her so much pain that's clouding her head. Then there's Rachel, sure her mother just said she didn't want to break them up but that doesn't mean that Russell will approve of her relationship.
"I just don't know mom." Quinn looks at her mother through the mirror. Judy was still looking down at her hands wiping away her tears.
Judy finally looks up and meets her daughters eyes. "I want you to have everything you wanted Quinn. I want you to enjoy college and not have to stress like your sister did. I did my best for her and I'll do the same for you if you really can't accept your father. But with his help you don't ever have to worry about books, tuition and housing. I'm not asking you to give up everything dear. I just want you to think how much it would help you in the next four years. And to have this family together again would mean the world to me. Give him a chance Quinnie." Judy walks over to her and places both her hands on Quinn's shoulders. "He knows he made a huge mistake and he's regreted everything he did in the past. But he hasn't stopped thinking about you girls. He loves this family Quinn, just think about it okay." Judy gives her a kiss on the cheek something she hasn't done in such a long time.
From the gentle gesture Quinn was taken back and realized how much she missed how their family use to be. She watched her mother leave and she was left with a daunting thought.
What am I going to do about Rachel?
"Shit! I'm so late!"
Her life changing decision is going to have to wait what's more important right now is her girlfriend alone with Finn.
The drive to Breadstixs was more than unpleasant. She just wasn't in the mood for all this knowing that there's something going on with Quinn. She's been starring at her phone waiting for a call or a simple text but her phone stayed quiet the entire time. Finn has left her two voicemails and two text messages in the last twenty minutes. She didn't really know how to respond to him and she was all ready on her way so she decided on texting Quinn before she arrives at Breadstixsr.
Quinn, please call me when your on your way. Rachel.
"Okay Rachel we're here." Hiram turns and looks at Rachel. Finn spots the car right away surprised that her father was the one dropping her off. He waves at him and started approaching them. "There's Finn Rachel, don't look so worried she'll be here."
Finn opens Rachel's door and smiles broadly at them.
"Good evening Mr. Berry, hi Rachel you look beautiful." Finn couldn't wipe the smile off his face even if he tried. Rachel looked absolutely amazing but from the way she was looking down at her phone he knew instantly that something was bothering her. He had been talking to Sam so he knew it had something to do with Quinn.
Rachel forces a smile when she looks up at him. "Sorry I'm late Finn I was having issues with..."
"Don't worry about it, I'm just glad you made it." he cuts her off because he knew she was having a hard time finding an excuse.
"Bye dad, I'll see you when I get home." Rachel gives him a peck on his cheek and exits the car.
"Have fun Rachel, and Finn take care of my little girl okay." Hiram stared into Finn's eyes and till this day sends a cold chill down his spine.
"Of course sir. Have a great night Mr. Berry." he shuts the car door and offers his arm. "Shall we?"
Rachel links her arm with his and they walk past the crowd who was still waiting to get inside. Luckily Puck knew the bouncer and informed him about who he can let cut in line.
"I'm sure Quinn's on her way. She texted Sam not to long ago so she'll show." He gave her another soothing smile but deep down it was hard for him comforting her about Quinn. Whatever hold Quinn has on Rachel is preventing his chances of being with her.
Rachel was surprised to hear Finn trying to soothe her worries. Which made her feel even worst for making him wait so long. She pulled out her phone to check if Quinn responded to her last text.
Nothing.
"Thanks Finn, I'm really sorry for making you wait." Finn led her in the front of the line. The bouncer recognize him and waved them inside. The angry crowd waiting by the front door groaned at the sight, Rachel felt so important in a weird way. It was like in her dreams, being escorted into a VIP party and not have to wait in line. She smiles and looks up at Finn this is exactly what she needed.
"I knew that would make you smile." he looks down at her and smiles, "It will happen you know." he looks straight ahead weaving her through the crowd.
Rachel held onto his arm tighter paying very close attention to what he has to say.
"I have so much faith in you Rachel, I just know all your dreams will come true. But for now think of this as a little preview of what your future would be like surrounded with the people who loves you and support your dreams." Finn sees their friends across the room taking over two booths.
Everyone was in such great spirits, Rory was sitting next to Sugar laughing. Mercedes went with Puck and was siting next to Tina and Mike. Santana and Britney was dancing provocatively at the edge of one the booths. Artie was dancing with a beautiful girl who she doesn't recognize.
Blaine and Kurt were the first to spot them approaching. A loud squeal escaped Kurt's mouth which made everyone stop what they were doing and turns to see what the commotion was about.
"Everyone Rachel Berry has arrived!" Kurt announces to the entire group.
Everyone cheered and embraced her. She really couldn't believe what was happening. She's never had this kind of an entrance before. She feels Finn release her arm since everyone was giving her hugs. Even Santana greeted her, but the smell of liquor lingering in her breath was probably the cause of her being friendly. Britney was the one that shocked her the most. Britney took her in her arms and gave her the biggest hug she had ever received.
"Quinn's on her way, so don't worry Rachel. She'll be here." Britney whispers in her ear. Santana quickly yanks Britney away from her and wraps her arms around the blondes waist.
"Let's dance Brit Brit." Santana takes Britney's hand and twirls her before she drags her to the dance floor. Rachel didn't even have a chance to respond but watching them so freely about their relationship made her think when that day will come for her and Quinn.
"Well? What took you so long? We've all been waiting to see you in this gorgeous dress of yours." Kurt takes her hand and spins her around giving everyone a 360 degrees look of her in that gorgeous black dress.
She was grateful for the distraction because her mind was lingering into a place she wanted to avoid completely until Quinn arrives at the party.
"If it weren't for my fabulous stylist I would've never looked this amazing." They laugh together and for some strange reason she couldn't stop smiling. This was the first time she's ever felt so welcomed by everyone.
"Rachel?"
She sees a hand on her side, she turns around and places her hand gently on top.
"Would like to dance?" A soft smile catches her eye.
"I'd love to."
Kurt held his heart smitten at how adorable they looked together. He takes Blaine's hand and follows them to the dance floor.
"Are you having a good time?"
She looks up and meets soft brown eyes. She was really happy that she decided to go with Finn. He knew her better than than she thought. She's really thankful that they remained friends because this night even with it's rough patches was really turning out to be a night to remember.
"I am actually. I'm really glad I came Finn." she moves closer to him and rest her head on his chest. She smiled hearing his heart quicken.
She made up her mind and decided that she was doing this for Finn. If she had it her way she would be outside Quinn's house waiting in her car. As they danced she has a great view of the entrance so she'll know if Quinn walks in. She watches it tentatively but still no sign of her girlfriend.
The song changes to a more up beat song and everyone is moving more freely to the music. Santana seem to be enjoying the change in music because Britney is really working the dance floor. Rachel can tell how confident Santana is about her relationship with Britney because she noticed Santana's huge smile watching all the drooling heads around her sexy dancer girlfriend but Britney kept her eyes locked with the latina as she moves to the music.
Rachel turned her attention to Finn and poor guy he was really trying to find some kind of a rhythm just so he can keep up with her dancing. The sight of Finn trying so hard really made her laugh. She decided to help him out by showing him simple moves and she'll do most of the dancing.
"They look like they're having fun." Blaine whispers into Kurt's ears as they grab a drink from the bar.
"Yeah, but Rachel doesn't like him like that. She moved on and I'm proud of her for it." Kurt takes a sip of his soda leaving Blaine with an intriguing thought.
"Quinn! You finally made it." Sam says excitedly seeing her walking towards him.
"Sorry Sam, family stuff got in the way. I really didn't mean to keep you waiting." She apologizes sincerely and even gives him a hug so that he knew she really meant it.
"It's okay, everyone's inside." Sam walks over to the front of the line and again the bouncer recognizes him and let's them inside.
Breadstixs was pretty crowded at this point. They had to squeeze through a few dancing kids just so they can get to the booth where all their friends were.
"Quinn! You're here!" Mercedes screams over the loud music and was surprised to finally see the head cheerio make an appearance.
Quinn smiles and gives her a hug but scans the booth to see if Rachel was around.
"Have you guys seen Rachel?" She asks looking at the dance floor but it was too crowded to spot her tiny girlfriend.
Tina gets up and points her to the right direction. "She's over there dancing with Finn."
When she saw Rachel and that beautiful smile directed towards Finn she felt like her world was crumbling in front of her eyes. For some strange reason she was hoping to see a moping Rachel.
Sam steps in front of her blocking her view, "Quinn do you want to dance?"
Quinn remained silent, "Quinn? Are you okay?" Sam watched her stare into nothingness.
"What?" Coming here was a mistake and she had no idea seeing Rachel happy would sting so bad.
"Do you want to dance?"
I need to get out here. She snaps back and looks at Sam's confused face she didn't want to hurt him but if Rachel sees her that smile is going to dissappear and she doesn't want to ruin her night.
"I'm sorry Sam but I have to go."
"What? Quinn?!" Sam yells but the music was loud so Quinn didn't hear him calling out to her.
"Where is she going?" Tina stood next to Sam and watched Quinn force her way through the crowd.
Sam didn't say word he just turned around and sat next to Mercedes pissed off that his date just ran off.
When Quinn was almost out the door she felt someone grab her arm. She whips around to see who was holding on to her.
"Where are you going?!" Santana looks at her confused.
"Let me go Santana!" Quinn's lips were quivering her eyes near in tears.
"You just got here, what's going on?!" Even though Santana was a little drunk she always knew when to sober up when her friends needed her.
"It's nothing, just let me go!" Quinn forcefully rips her arm from Santana's grasp and walks away. Santana wanted to chase after her but looking into Quinn's eyes she knew she needed space.
When Quinn finally reached the outside the cold air only pierced the surface of her body she felt unfazed from the cold breeze that passed through her. It wasn't about seeing Rachel with Finn. It was about that smile she had, that breath taking smile that hinders her very existence. New York isn't the answer to their problem it was just a facade. How was she financially ready to take care of Rachel while paying for school herself. Even with grants and loans she would still need to find a full time job to cover other expenses. The reality of it all was just to difficult to accept. Her mother sent what she can for her sister but Fran still had to work three jobs to pay for Stanford.
She walked to her car and the thought of not being with Rachel cut so deep she wasn't sure if stitches was enough to stop the bleeding. She needed to find a way to spare Rachel's feelings and manage to keep her sanity. She opens her car door and sit inside, she looks out and the night was still only darkness filled her windshield.
She wanted to cry she didn't want to think about being apart from Rachel. She thought about Fran's phone calls and how exhausted she felt working and going to school. How many times she recalled Fran saying "Sometimes I just want to drop out of school." She's heard Fran call home crying because she doesn't even have time to make friends so all the support system she has we're these phone calls home.
The last time she saw Fran she was so skinny they barely recognized her. Is that really the college life she wants to have in New York City? Having Rachel pay for everything because she'll be going to college with the little money she has saved up.
She heard a knock on her car window and it startled her. She didn't want to see who it was but she rolls down her car window anyways. When she looked up a gentle smile greets her.
"Quinn?"
Rachel takes Finn's hand and leads him back to booth where all their friends were. As they pass through the crowd Santana grabs her free hand and spins her around forcefully.
"What the?" Rachel taken by surprise loses her balance and accidentally bumps into a guy. Luckily Finn held on to her and he apologized to the guy for what happened. Santana's glare was so frightening Rachel didn't have the slightest clue why her animosity was directed towards her.
"What did you do!?" Santana's voice was full of anger.
"What's your problem Santana!?" Finn steps in front of Rachel shielding her from the Latina.
"This is none of your business Finn." Santana shoves her way between them. "What happened with Quinn!? Why did she storm off just now?"
When she heard Quinn's name leave Santana's lips something came over her.
"Where is she Santana!?" Rachel stared her back with more ferocity in her eyes.
"How should I know Berry, I tried to stop her but she looked upset."
It didn't even take her a second to realize that Quinn could still be outside. Rachel pushes through the crowd not caring if she or anyone else gets hurt in the process. She needed to see Quinn now.
When she reached the entrance a cold chill passes through her body. She wraps her arms around her to keep warm while looking around the parking lot for Quinn's car.
What's going on Quinn? Why won't you just talk to me?
She walked up and down the parking lot but Quinn's car was no where in sight. She stood there not really sure what she should do next. She made her way back to the entrance of the restaurant and stood there starring at the parked cars.
"It's really cold out here Rach, put your jacket on." Finn held her jacket for her. She's been outside for more than ten minutes so her body has gotten use to the cold but she was thankful that she wasn't alone.
"Thanks Finn, sorry about earlier. Quinn's upset with me and she doesn't really want to talk about it. I just wanted to make sure if she was all right." She needed to come up with a cover story so it wasn't so obvious that their fighting was over something petty.
"It's okay I can tell how important your friendship is with Quinn. Did you want to talk about it?"
Finn was really surprising her tonight, he's made sure that she's being taken care of. He's more attentive about her feelings but this type of problem can't really be fixed by talking to him.
"Not really." She takes a seat at one of the benches outside the restaurant. She hasn't even made eye contact with him, she's been starring into the empty street hoping Quinn would drive back. She really didn't know if numb was the best word to describe what she was feeling.
Finn takes the seat next to her not knowing what to say, he's never really seen Rachel like this before. Even in the car earlier she seemed really out of it.
"Would you like me to take you home Rach? You don't have to be here if you don't want to."
If she were to go home right now she would just driver herself crazy waiting for Quinn to call. It was obvious to her that Quinn doesn't want to reach out to her so there's a good chance she won't be stopping by her house any time soon. She also didn't feel right about the whole Finn and Sam situation.
She pulls out her phone and sends Quinn a text to see if she's all right. She's still pretty upset about her storming out without saying a word but it wasn't enough to not let her know she cared.
She sat there waiting for a response. After five miserable minutes she realized what she told herself earlier. This night was for Finn.
"No, lets go back inside. I'd rather have fun with my friends than sit at home moping around. This is our senior year and we should really try and enjoy it as much as we can." She finally smiled and that was enough for Finn to know that Rachel was going to be okay.
Wow, she's really changed.
He stands up and offers his hand once more and his smile was so full of joy. She kindly accepts and they start walking back to the party. When they entered the restaurant the party was still lively and having a great time.
She was going to enjoy this party because she needed this for herself. She checked her phone one last time and still no response from Quinn. She has no idea how to deal with all this drama if her girlfriend refuses to talk to her. She still hated this feeling because she would really like to know whats going on but Finn deserves a good time. She's going to have to check on Quinn later because if she can't even respond to a simple text then what's the point ruining everyone elses time.
"So what's really going on with you?" Puck turns his head to face Quinn and the sight of her was something he's never seen before. No one ever seeks advice from him but he knew that look, he knew Quinn needed help.
Quinn was still looking ahead second guessing herself for agreeing to take Puck with her. She knew she wasn't going to tell him anything that relates to Rachel but she doesn't even know where to begin. Every thought in her head is scattered and lost, nothing made any sense.
"Come on Quinn you know you can talk to me. Is Rachel finally getting under your skin?" he jokes.
"What? It's not about Rachel!" she snaps at him.
Puck waves his hands up surrendering to her, "Okay, no jokes about you and Rachel."
She takes a deep breath and lays down looking up at the stars. She remembered one night when she snuck Rachel out of her house and took her to their park. They laid down the blanket and held each other underneath the twinkling stars. They talked about their future plans and how New York was going to be a fresh start for the both of them. It's hard to believe that one night can put her dreams at a cross road.
"Then what is it Q? What's going on in that head of yours?" he can tell she was having a really difficult time voicing out her problem.
She shut her eyes preparing herself for what she was about to tell him. "My dad's back." she says this without any emotion.
When he heard what she said he couldnt believe it. He knew how frightening Russell Fabray can get. He also knew how much Quinn was hurt by his actions.
"What does that mean? He wants to be part of the family again?"
"Pretty much, he said he change. Missed us a lot." She tried to remember how her life use to be before she got pregnant. Her father wasn't the worst guy, he loved his family the only problem was his house his rules.
"Do you believe him?"
A part of her wanted to but having Rachel in her life was so important to her that she really didn't know what she wanted.
"I don't know what to believe. The difficult part is deciding about my future to be honest."
"What do you mean?" He laid down beside her resting his head on his arm.
"My mom said if we take him back I don't have to worry about college. I'll be financially covered all four years."
"Well that doesn't sound so bad." he added.
"But I have to go to USC so he would pay for all of it." She felt her phone vibrate and knew exactly who it was from. She pulls out her cell phone and opens the message.
I hope everything is okay. I don't know what I did or what I can I do to get you to speak to me about what's going on but I need you to know that I'm here for you. I care about you so much Quinn. Please just talk to me. Your Rachel.
The text nearly brought tears in her eyes. She hasn't been fair to Rachel all night and she's positive Santana would've mentioned something about her storming out. She must be pulling her hair knowing that she showed up but didn't even bother seeing her.
"Is that Rachel?" he says with a smile on his face.
A nervous tick ran through her hearing her girlfriends name leaving Puck's lips. She really hated living in this small town. Even Rachel shared a small intimate moment with Puck. She puts her phone away even though she really wanted to respond. But this kind of a conversation shouldn't be spoken over text.
"She's a great girl Quinn. Don't hurt her okay."
Quinn's head turned so fast in Puck's direction surprised to hear his request.
Does he know?
"She's actually the one I'm worried about."
"You really don't need to worry about Rachel. She can handle herself just fine. You gotta do what makes you happy Quinn. Rachel really cares about you and she wouldn't want you pulling away from her because your scared to be honest. She'll always be there for you even if your thousands of miles away. That's just the kind of friend she is you know."
She knew he was right, Rachel would want what's best for everyone. That's just the kind of girl she is. She always put everyone's needs first rather than herself.
"Yeah, I know. That's one of the qualities I find so amazing about her." She smiled for the first time tonight, she couldn't believe how wrapped up her head has been about her father and the future that she forgot about what's important. Tonight and being with Rachel was important, nothing else should've mattered when she left her house. She needed to turn this night around and just make it all about her girlfriend.
"Thanks Puck, I really appreciate this." she nudges him on the side and he started laughing.
"No problem baby mama. I'm here for you anytime." he smiles at her happy knowing that he was able to help her out.
"Let's take you back to the party I'm sure Mercedes is looking for you." She pushes herself up and dust off some of the grass that clung to her dress.
"You need help with that?" He had one of those perverted smirk on his face.
"No thank you! You just had to ruin our nice moment didn't you?" she says moving further away from him.
Puck laughs even harder, "I'm still the Puckersaurus but just a tiny bit mature."
Quinn shakes her head and laughs with him. He has changed though, he's come a long way from the guy who would sleep with every girl at school to a pretty decent guy. She was glad it was him that found her in the parking lot. If it was anybody else she would never have the courage to talk about her issues.
They drive back to Breadstixs and once they pull in the parking lot the crowd seemed to moving to a different location.
"Are you sure you don't want to go to Sugar's house? I stole some of the wrist bands if you need one." He held them up and unbuckled his seat belt.
"I'm sure, I'm just gonna go clear my head."
"Rachel might be at Sugars right now. I don't see Finn's car any where or Sam's. We can have a real good time if you came out and partied with us Q." That smirk that always made her skin crawl was back on his face.
Shit he's right. Knowing Puck he has all the alcohol and Rachel still doesn't know how to handle her liquor and to top it off she's with Finn.
"Maybe I'll head over there later or if you guys need a driver. Just call me okay." she waves him goodbye and drives off.
Some peace and quiet is what she really needed. She's going to need a plan before she sees Rachel tonight. She messed up and she wants to set things right, Puck was right about what he said she shouldn't be afraid of being honest with Rachel. She's the only good thing in her life and that's something she wants treasure.
Breadstixs was closing shop so the party was being moved to Sugars house. Throughout the end of the night she was handing out wristbands to a selected few who will be welcomed into her house. She wanted her house party to be more exclusive so only the people she liked will be invited in.
Everyone from glee recieved one and was heading over to Sugars for the after party.
"Mercedes what happened to Puck? He has all the drinks in his car." Tina was crammed between Mike and Mercedes. They hitched a ride with Finn and Rachel since they couldn't find where Puck had ran off too.
"Beats me, he probably met some hootchie and left with her." Mercedes responded.
They found a parking spot rather quickly and started walking towards the front door. A lot of cars were lined up and there were a lot of students they didn't recognized so walking up to Sugar's house made them feel like outsiders.
"Berry!" Santana calls for her from the street.
Rachel turns around and tells everyone she'll be back. Finn watches her just to make sure Santana doesn't do anything stupid since she's pretty wasted.
They had settled things when Rachel explained to Santana that Quinn had been avoiding her all night. Santana and Britney has been texting and calling but Quinn wouldn't respond to them either. When Rachel was standing in front of the Latina she couldn't help but laugh because Santana was past tipsy, she was in the hot mess division and it was barely 11pm.
"Yes Santana." Rachel approaches with caution. Britney was still in the car making sure they have everything they needed.
"Take a shot Berry, I want you to take a shot because Quinn is standing us all up tonight." Santana snatched the bottle from the back seat and waved it in front of her.
Her words stung a little but it was true, Santana has actually been helpful all night. She's been ordering everyone to talk to her so that she can take her mind off Quinn. She's also been pushing the bottle of vodka all night also but Rachel wasn't really in the mood to drink.
"Santana! Do you want to go to jail tonight?" She snatches the bottle away from her and wraps her jacket around the bottle. Santana was so shocked that she would have the guts to rip the bottle from her hand but Rachel just gave her a stern look back.
"Oh please, my cousin is a cop and he can wipe my slate clean anytime I want. Come on don't be a pussy and take a shot with me. SHOTS! SHOTS! SHOT!"
Britney gave Santana this look and to Rachel's surprise Santana zipped her mouth in seconds.
"Hey Rach, sorry about her she always gets super crazy friendly when she drinks. Let's go baby." Britney takes hold of her girlfriends waist and started walking to the front door.
"It's okay after earlier I'm just glad she's not showing her fangs at me again." Britney laughed at the snide comment. Rachel follows them at front door where they're greeted by another bouncer who was checking for wristbands.
Good thing he wasn't checking their bags, because the bottle of vodka she's hiding underneath her jacket would most likely end her night. He waves them through and once they get inside all their jaws drop. Sugar's house was immaculate. They didn't even know houses like this existed in Lima.
There were a lot of people they didn't recognize but the house was filling up fast. They walked through with no point of direction but they made their way into the living room somehow.
Tina was dancing with Mike and when he twirled her she notices Britney right away and calls for them. Britney was hanging onto Santana but she was still losing her footing and bumping into random people.
"There's Tina, come on San pull yourself together it's only eleven ten." Britney looked straight in her eyes and it was the weirdest thing Rachel has ever seen in her life. Santana straightened herself up snatched the water bottle from Britney's hand, chugged the entire bottle did a little shake and stared into her girlfriends loving eyes.&
"Happy Brit Brit?" Britney smiled and kissed Santana all over. "Now, let's get this party started!" she screams and everyone around them screamed with excitement. Santastamped closer to the dance floor and started dancing by herself.
Rachel leans to Britney bewildered, "Ah, Britney what just happened?"
Britney let out a soft giggle, "It's this trick I learned a while back. If Santana parties too early and you call her out on it. She'll do that whole routine and she'll magically sober up. She use to tell me when her abuela would babysit she would grab her drink and pour it in her sippy cup. She was about four or five. Crazy right?"
"Yeah, that's pretty crazy."
Britney followed after her girlfriend to the dance floor leaving Rachel to fend for herself. She looked around but couldn't find anyone she knew until she felt a hand guide her.
"You look lost." Sam led her in the right direction.
"Hey Sam." Seeing Sam just made her think of Quinn. This night was so suppose to be a night celebrating their win and making memories. She felt the need to say something, apologize on Quinn's behalf but seeing that smile in his face change her mind and decided against it.
When they reached their group everyone seemed a bit stiff. Good thing what she has covered up in her jacket is exactly what they needed to turn this party around.
"Hey! Look what Santana has for us." She waves the Smirnoff bottle at everyone. It was like flipping a switch, everyone's eyes just locks into the bottle and started cheering.
Finn walks up beside her, "Nice, Kurt's been looking for a drink all night."
"You don't want any?"
Finn smiles at her, "I'm driving remember. So enjoy this night Rach, I'll be right here if you need me." Rachel opens up her arms and gives Finn one of the biggest hug she's ever given. She needed a drink so she looks around and sees that Kurt and Blaine has finally arrived.
"Oh my god! Is that what I think it is?" Kurt was basically squealing seeing the bottle in her hand.
"Calm down Kurt, it's just a bottle of vodka not Channing Tatum." Blaine comments.
Kurt playfully hits his shoulder letting him know not to be so mean. Blaine's had a few drinks at Breadstixs now it's his turn to sober up and Kurt's turn to drink.
"Are we going to drink that or just stare at it all night?" Santana storms in the group with cups in her hand. "Thanks for holding my bottle Berry."
"No problem Santana." They share a smile together and Rachel opens up the bottle and started pouring everyone a shot.
"To a night we hopefully will remember. Cheers everyone!" Rachel lifts up her cup.
"Cheers!" Everyone lifts up their cups and pounds their shot. There was still enough for another round so they finish out the bottle and you can all ready tell it was helping them loosen up.
Kurt grabs Rachel's hand and drags her to the dance floor. They start dancing together and was beginning to feel the effects of the alcohol. She hasn't eaten since lunch and her body was beginning to relax.
She vowed that this night even with its ups and downs is going to be memorable. She hates the fact that Quinn isn't with her but tonight was about being with friends and that's very important to her too. She just hopes that Quinn doesn't hate her for being selfish for once.
The night was pretty much a blur after Puck arrived at Sugars. Finn was enjoying the entertainment watching all his friends make a fool of themselves.
He even had to go on protective mode grabbing Mike and Puck because these random guys were surrounding Britney and Santana. Once they got them back into their corner and made them realize that those guys were being perverts they thanked the guys and stayed with them most of night.
Rachel on the other hand found some new friends. One of her classmates from ballet class came with a group of her friends and introduced Rachel as one of the greatest singers she knew.
Rachel became the life of the party, everyone couldn't take their eyes off her and that black dress. She even made a few friends who were moving to New York next year.
"Rachel! Let's go!" Finn managed to squeeze through the crowd surrounding the brunette and reached for her hand.
Rachel held his hand and waved goodbye to everyone she just met. "It was really nice meeting you all. I can't wait to see you in New York."
Finn lead her through the crowd and felt really jealous because Rachel was off doing her own thing but he knew he couldn't say anything to her. When they reached the front yard all of their friends were waiting on the lawn.
"I never thought I'd see the day Rachel Barbara Berry be the last one to leave the party." Kurt announces to the entire group and started clapping his hands.
The whole glee club joined in the round of applause for the tiny diva.
"What?! That's not right Brit Brit basically dragged me out of there." Santana protest.
"Oh let her bask in the moment Santana, Rachel's never been the center of attention at a high school party before." Mercedes adds.
Rachel made an insulted face but couldn't help but laugh at her friends, this night turned out pretty great. She was very happy that she decided to come.
"Okay Rach, say your goodbyes I have to take you home."
"Goodnight everyone! I had the greatest time partying with you guys!" she bellows out.
She surprised herself tonight for being such a social butterfly and maintaining her sophistication while being very intoxicated. She never knew how much fun and easy it was making friends when your drunk. Not that she was going to be reliant on alcohol to make friends in New York but if she were to be invited to a social gathering and it involved alcohol atleast she'll know how to behave.
Finn ushered her into the passenger seat and even buckled her seatbelt for her. She watched him do all this thinking maybe she should say something. She was perfectly capable of doing it on her own but she can tell he really enjoyed taking care of her.
When he finally got into the car he turned to her and smiled. "Did you have a nice time?"
"I did actually, I'm really glad I came out." she looks at him and genueinly happy.
The drive to her place from Sugar's was closer than they thought. Finn parked his car in front of the house and ran out to open the door for her.
She managed to get on her feet just fine but Finn was still insisting on helping her.
"Thanks Finn, I had a really nice time. I'll see you at school okay." she leans forward and embraces him. When she let go he took her hand and stared lovingly into her eyes.
Oh no.
He then slowly leaned towards her leaving very little space between them and she felt trapped being sandwiched between him and his car.
Do something!
"Son of a...!" he snaps his head back to see what struck him but all he found was a tiny pebble near his shoe.
Sudden relief flushed through her, "Are you okay?" she moved away from the car and was grateful for the interruption.
Finn looks around to see if they we're alone but the street was empty and all the houses were quiet. He shakes his head confused at what just happened. Whatever it was his opportunity passed and he just couldn't believe his luck.
"Nothing, it was nothing." he looks at her and beats himself up for taking her for granted.
"Goodnight Finn." she hugs him one more time but knew this time to quickly walk away.
She was half way to her lawn when she heard him say goodnight. She didn't find it necessary to turn around and wave goodbye because she was drunk, exausted and ready to go to bed.
She opened her clutch bag and was looking for her keys. When she heard Finn's car start she turned around and watched him drive away.
She was really in no hurry to get inside her house now that Finn was gone. Her fathers didn't exactly give her a curfew for tonight. She didn't want to drive anywhere in her condition so she sat on her front porch looking out into the empty street.
"Hey superstar." Quinn says softly as she walked silently behind her catching the diva off guard.
"Quinn." she was so surprised to finally see her she stood up so fast she nearly fell losing her balance. She wrapped her arms around her girlfriend and didn't want to let go.
"I missed you so much baby." Her face was buried in blonde locks she couldn't believe this was their first encounter all day.
"I missed you too." Quinn held her even tighter. The feeling of having her in her arms was so thrilling she couldn't believe she spent the whole day without her.
Quinn pulled away from the embrace and found Rachel's lips. The scent of alcohol in Rachel's breath made Quinn want her even more. Their love, without even admitting to themselves was irrupting before their eyes. They just didn't know how tell each other how they truly felt.
Quinn pressed her body closer which made Rachel lean against her front door. She needed the steadiness because feeling Quinn's hands all over her were doing things to her body that her mind could barely keep up.
Quinn moved her hand down Rachel's back and the feeling of her curvaceous body underneath her cotton dress was making her legs tremble. She pulled away from Rachel's lips and found refuge on the brunette's neck.
Rachel's intoxication was fueling her lust for the blonde, she bit her lower lip forcing all the moans to subside. They can't do this here, not right now even if it's what they both really want.
"Quinn." she says in a low sultry voice.
Quinn was to distracted from Rachel's soft skin that she didn't hear Rachel calling her name. She managed to slip her hand underneath the dress and when she was about take a hand full of Rachel's ass Rachel grabbed her hand and stared into hazel eyes.
"Not here." she whispers.
Quinn placed soft kisses from her neck and up the brunette's lips. She lost herself control and now she's come to a realization that this was not what she had planned on doing.
Quinn nods her head agreeing that this was not the time and place for them to be giving in to their emotions.
Rachel takes her hand and opens her front door. The house was fairly lit so it was easy for them move around without any problems. They made their way up to Rachel's room and when Quinn walked inside she noticed Rachel's window brighter than usual.
Rachel walked straight to her bathroom so she can freshen herself up. Quinn walked over to the window to see where the light was coming from. What she saw filled her with so much guilt along with disappointment bombarding her heart.
She stood there looking at the beautiful decorations laid out in the backyard. All the candles that never had a chance to be lit. The bottle of apple cider swimming in a pool of melted ice. The flower decorations from roses to lillies beatutifully organized around the table that sat for two.
Her heart clenched from the sight of the surprise that never happened. She felt two hands wrap around her waist.
"Hey, what are you thinking about?" Rachel's angelic voice was so soothing against her ear. She didn't know what to say because she couldn't believe that she hurt her again.
Rachel looked out the window and realized that her fathers had forgotten to turn the light off the backyard. And that's how she knew what was bothering Quinn.
"Quinn, don't worry about that okay. It's really not a big deal you had important stuff to deal with and it was meant to be a surprise. Next time I'll just let you in on the secret..." she held her even tighter trying to comfort her the only way she knew how.
Tears were beginning to pool in her eyes.
Why is it that Rachel always gets the short end of the stick in this relationship. She's never lied to me, always supported me, she's never jealous. And now she planned this whole surprise date and she's the one brushing this whole thing off like it didn't mean anything.
"No Rachel, it is a big deal. I'm so sorry about tonight. I'm sorry I never showed up for your surprise. I'm sorry I didn't go with you to the party. I'm sorry that I haven't been treating you fairly in this relationship." she pulls away from her and wipes away her tears.
"Its all right Quinn. Your being too hard on yourself. You were going through some stuff and I can understand how important it was for you. Don't cry baby. Please. I don't want our night to end like this." she tried to reach for her but Quinn just stepped back. Rachel couldn't believe this is happening just a few minutes ago they couldn't take their hands off one another and now this.
Quinn wrapped her arms across her chest trying to hold herself together because this frightening feeling that's consuming her heart was one of the worst thing she's ever felt.
"Quinn, please." Rachel's heart was breaking seeing her girlfriend like this. She doesn't even know what's the cause of it all. "Just talk to me Quinn. What happened?"
She really wished she hadn't drank tonight focusing when your drunk was a lot harder than she thought. She needed to sit down but Quinn still had her guard up.
She looked at Rachel and from her lush facial expression this isn't the time to talk about her father trying to crawl his way back into her life.
"Your drunk Rachel and instead of me taking care of you your asking me what's wrong. We should talk about this some other time. I just wanted to check on you and apologize for tonight." She can tell from watching Rachel's expression change from sincere to confused that this conversation isn't over.
"Why does it matter whether I'm drunk or not? I want to talk to you. Stop avoiding the subject and just tell me what's going on damn it!" she covered her mouth so quickly she couldn't believe how she was behaving. "I'm sor.."
"Don't apologize please." she cuts her off before she gets another word in. Quinn smiled because this is the reason why she cared so much for her. "I needed that."
She walked over to Rachel and grabbed her hand and held both of them tight. She's never felt vulnarable and scared looking into her eyes.
"Your absolutely right, I'm not being fair to you and I'm really sorry for that Rachel. I'm sorry that I ruined what would've been such a special night for us. I'm sorry that I haven't been there for you as much as you've been there for me. I'm such a screw up I can't even believe you still want to be with me." she paused torn between doing the right thing or protecting herself.
Rachel was getting a really bad feeling about where Quinn was going with this conversation.
"Quinn just tell me what happened." At this point she didn't care about the surprise or the party she just wanted to know the truth about what happened to her.
"I lied to you Rachel."
Rachel felt a crack beginning to form in her heart.
"I made up the whole story about Santana testing your feelings when that whole Finn thing happened. I made her cover for me so you wouldn't find out I was the one that told the lacrose team to slushy Finn."
She broke away from Quinn's hold and took a step back. She looked deep into pained hazel eyes and found emptiness.
Rachel was trying to recall her memories involving that whole thing with Finn. She remembers all the pain she felt thinking that Quinn was the one upset and needed her consoling instead of him.
When she faced Santana and confronted her about it Quinn just stood back and waited for the right opportunity to let Santana admit it was all her so that she would feel guilty helping out a friend rather than being with her girlfriend.
"This whole time you've been manipulating me into thinking you really care about me. But you've been making people lie to my face to preserve your image."
She couldn't stop her tears even if she begged, she looked away from Quinn trying to find a single ounce of strength to stop them because the pain was so gut wrenching. But all she found were the sound of her heart splitting in two and drawing out its last breath.
"Why did you do this?" her voice sounded so distant.
Quinn knows the truth to that question but she didn't know how say them.
Rachel turns around and finds Quinn on her knees, her arms limped on both sides like her life has been drained. Her shoulders shudder from the heavy sighing. She wished she can release the pain by screaming and begging for Rachel to forgive her. All she's asking herself is if she can hold it together just for a minute to have the strength to leave with the little dignity she has left.
"Answer me! I deserve that at least." her hands was in a tight fist holding back on her anger. She can feel her nail digging itself in her palm and drawing blood. The small pain was enough of a distraction from the world shattering heartache.
Quinn looks up and manages to get on her feet. This was her only solution, break off all the emotional ties before she falls even further in love. They're relationship will never work if she has nothing to offer Rachel.
"I was just using you so I can finally get out of this pathetic town. I figured you can boost up my transcript by winning Nationals." her voice cracked because she knew deep down this isn't what she wanted. She couldn't even find it in her to look Rachel in the eyes when she admitted this. This was the first time she was honest with Rachel and it's killing her that this is who she truly is. All the lies, the games she pulled just to get what she wants wasn't worth breaking Rachel's heart.
"I need you to leave right now Quinn." her voice sounded so broken, she shut her eyes finding it so difficult to even look at her. She's had enough and she doesn't want Quinn to see her break down.
Rachel's words were enough to slice her heart into pieces. She wanted to beg for forgiveness, to let her know that she really cared about her maybe even love her. But when she tried to move closer to her Rachel retracted her entire body.
"I need you leave!" Rachel moves further away from her. The space between them was suffocating and she can't handle the sight of the girl who played her for a fool.
Quinn moved towards the door and held the door knob. If she walked out right now there was no turning back, she will lose Rachel.
"I love you." she whispers to herself.
She turns the door knob, opens the door and she was gone in seconds. Her body went cold as she walked down the stairs. She noticed the living room light on and knew Rachel's fathers had woken up.
When she reached the bottom of the stairs and was standing in front of the entry way of the living room she couldn't even lift her head to look at them. She felt so ashamed for hurting Rachel like this.
"I'm sorry." she unlocked the front door and walked out. She wouldn't stop walking until she reached her car.
She drove off saying goodbye to the person she can be if she choose Rachel. But this was the only way so that she wouldn't hold her back from her dreams.
When she parked her car in her driveway she sat there and broke down. She lost a piece of herself and she doesn't know if she'll see ever see that side of her ever again.
She looked at her house and a flash of pain coursed through her entire body. All the secrets that tore them apart the conversation they were to scared to have. Her past was coming back and her newly found identity was beginning to fade.
She clutches her heart and grips her shirt as she cries out the last drop of who she is. When she gets out of her car and enters her house she will be that empty shell and as much as it pains her to admit she's doing this for Rachel. She's letting herself go so that maybe, just maybe she'll be able to face her and tell her the real truth.