I'm back with my next installment of It's For the Best. Enjoy!
BB wakes up to see that he is in a room that is empty and white. When he gets to his feet, a long hallway opens up in front of him. BB walks down the hallway until reaches a mirror at the end. BB looks at his reflection and sees that he has no scars or bruises from the fight with his dad. He goes to touch the mirror, but the mirror breaks into millions of pieces and the pieces disappear. Behind the mirror, a secret room is revealed and there is a figure inside. BB recognizes that figure instantly.
"Mom?" BB questions to the figure. The figure slowly turns to show that the person was indeed his mother. BB runs up to her as fast as possible. When he reaches her, his mom smiles and put her hand on his cheek. After that, his mom quickly vanishes. BB looks around stunned and confused as to what just happened. "Mom? Where did you go? Come back! Come BACK!" BB screams as he looks around frantically for his mother. BB gives up a moment later and sits down with his forehead in the palms of his hand.
"I get it now. I must have died and this is their cruel way of letting me know. This is just cruel." BB thought as he laid back and stared at the white nothingness above his head. As he started to daze away, the walls around him start changing from white to blood red. BB looks around confused before he looks down at himself and sees the white shirt and shorts he was wearing turn the same color of blood red as the walls. BB jumps up and runs back into the hallway as fast as possible. Before he gets to leave, he meets face to face with his father.
"Wh-what are you doing here?" BB stutters to his father. Johnny smiles and laughs before pulling his arm back for a punch. BB tries to run, but some weird force is holding him still; all he can do is watch the punch come at full force.
"NOOOO!" BB yells before everything fades to black.
BB eyes jerk open and he looks around at the white room as he did before. This time around, there are windows and he hears an annoying beep coming from somewhere. BB tried to adjust himself, but he moaned in pain as he tried to move his arm. He looked down and saw that his arm had an IV attached. It was then he fully realized that he was in the hospital because of everything that happened.
"OK…so I'm not dead. That's good, but I can feel major pain and that's bad. But that dream was so real. Scary real. I wonder why I was dre…." BB thought before he heard a chair move on the other side of the room. He looked over to the right and saw Mike getting out of the chair and almost running to BB's bedside.
"Blaine?" Mike asks solemnly looking down at his nephew before BB gives him a weak smirk and nod. "Oh Blaine! I'm happy to see you're awake. I've been worried about you. You've been asleep for almost two days." Mike says hugging BB as gently as possible. BB's eyes go wide when he heard that he has been asleep for two days. BB wanted to say something, but was interrupted by the doctor walking into the room.
"Hello, Blaine. I'm glad to see you're finally awake. How are you feeling?" The doctor asks walking to the machines so he can look at BB's heart rate and other vital signs.
"OK. I guess." BB answered very hoarse. He grabbed his throat after talking because he didn't realize how much it hurt for him to talk right now. The doctor looked at BB sympathetically and pat him on the shoulder.
"My apologies. I forgot what happened to you. Of course it'll hurt to talk for a couple more days." The doctor said.
"What all injuries did he sustain, Doctor?" Mike asks looking at all the work the hospital staff did to help his nephew.
"Mild throat injury. It's nothing serious, but it will probably hurt for him to talk for at most a couple days. Let's see…broken left arm, severely sprained right ankle, 3 bruised ribs, a Grade One Concussion, 5 stitches on his right temple, fractured nose, and of course the scrapes and bruises you see in front of you. He's honestly a very lucky kid." The doctor says. At that time, Steve comes into the room and finds the two people he had been looking for.
"Sorry to interrupt doctor, but I need to talk to these two privately if you don't mind." Steve asks the doctor. The doctor nods in approval.
"No problem, Officer Blackman. I need to keep making my rounds. As for this young man, he should be able to leave the hospital tomorrow or two days at most. We just want to keep him here for observation now that he's fully awake." The doctor answers smiling as he leaves the room. Steve walks over to Mike and pats his longtime friend on the back while looking at BB.
"What all did the doctor have to say?" Steve asked Mike. Mike looks down at BB and shakes his head.
"That Blaine was lucky. The injuries look bad, but they could've been much worse. Broken arm, sprained ankle, concussion, stitches, injured ribs…again, and bruised everything else. What exactly did you see when you got to the house?" Mike asks wondering what the scene was before he arrived in Tulsa.
"First off, when I got there, Johnny was long gone. It was just Blaine. I think Johnny somehow knew someone was coming, so he split before he could be caught at the scene of the crime. The rest is probably going to be hard for you to hear, Blaine. Mike…he left his son a bloody and injured mess. Blaine was unconscious in the driveway. There was beer bottle shards all around him—which explains the stitches. There was also a thin metal pipe next to Blaine…I believe that Johnny was trying to choke out his son with said pipe. As for the other injuries…I don't know how they occurred." Steve says softly.
BB couldn't look at Steve or Mike at the moment. He should've known his dad would have gone off and left him for dead; it didn't take the sting away from it actually happening. All BB could do was stare at the window in the hospital room. When he turned, he got the first glance of the cast he was wearing on his left arm. Mike saw the emotion in BB's eyes and he motioned for Steve to talk with him outside the room.
"Have you had any luck on finding out where he could be?" Mike asks in a whisper as Steve shook his head no.
"Not yet unfortunately. We've put out APBs and BOLOs for him. Dawn Marie is interrogating Terri Runnels as we speak. Hopefully we can find him and put him away for a while. As horrible as it sounds, him going to prison is probably the best thing for him." Steve replies with a solemn look on his face. Mike nods in agreement as he looks at the door to BB's hospital room.
"What about Blaine? What's going to happen to him?" Mike asks Steve.
"Right now, he should just get some rest. We'll take the next course of action when we cross that bridge. I can at least tell you that things will hopefully be looking brighter for Blaine. I've gotta get going. I'll see you later." Steve replies patting Mike's shoulder and walking towards the elevator. Mike walks back into BB's room and sees that BB has gone back to sleep. Mike sighs and sits in the chair next to the bed.
"Hopefully this will all be over for you soon, Blaine." Mike thought looking at his nephew before dozing off in the chair.
A day and a half later, BB is sitting in the bed while the doctor is checking his vitals.
"You should be happy to know that after careful observation, you will be able to go home today. How do you feel about that?" The doctor asks. BB, sitting on the side of the bed, smirks at the doctor and gives him a thumbs up with the hand in the cast as the doctor rolls his eyes and chuckles.
"Blaine, I told you yesterday that you could talk since there was no major injury to your vocal chords. I've gotta finish my rounds, but I'll see you whenever you get discharged. See you later." The doctor says as BB smiles and the doctor leaves the room. BB rolls his eyes and sits back on the bed looking at the ceiling. Moments later, BB hears a knock on the door.
"Come in." BB says in a gruff and hoarse way since those were the first two words he has said since he has woken up at the hospital. The door opens and Kaitlyn walks into the room with a balloon and a stuffed hippo.
"Blaine?" Kaitlyn asks cautiously walking into the room. BB smiles and nods as Kaitlyn runs full speed to her cousin and gives him a hug. "Oh my god. I have been so worried about you. Are you ok?"
"Yeah I'm fi…OW! Katie, you're squeezing my bandages." BB says with a mix of joking and pain. Kaitlyn blushes in embarrassment and quickly lets BB go.
"Sorry about that. How bad does it hurt?" Kaitlyn asks as BB stands up from the bed.
"Sore as hell since they got reinjured after they just healed, but nothing I can't live through. Do you wanna see?" BB asks starting to lift up the hospital gown.
"Blaine, NO! Put that down! I don't wanna see anything if you aren't wearing anything underneath." Kaitlyn replies shouting and covering her eyes. BB rolls his eyes and lifts the gown anyway revealing both the bandages covering his ribs and the gym shorts he was wearing under the gown. Kaitlyn peeks through her fingers and breathes a sigh of relief seeing that her cousin was decent. "Did they tell you how injured you are?" Kaitlyn asks looking at the bruising on his arms, legs, and face.
"Let me put it to you this way…the only thing that hasn't been beaten, bruised, broken, or scarred is my smile." BB answers trying to smile as big as possible while Kaitlyn laughs.
"Leave it to you to get put in the hospital and still smile and think of the bright side." Kaitlyn says hugging Blaine around the shoulders.
"If you only knew the truth." BB thought as he returns Kaitlyn's hug. At that moment, Mike enters the room talking on his phone.
"Yeah we should be home by the end of the week. I'll talk to you later. Bye." Mike says hanging up the phone and looking at the teens. "Aunt Cheryl sends her love. How are you feeling, son?"
BB tries not to cringe at the word "son." "Please don't call me, son. I'm nobody's son right now. I feel alone right now and that's how I want to be…alone. I appreciate the kind words and everyone trying to help, but it makes me feel worse." BB thought before giving Mike a quick smile. "Sore, but happy to be alive."
"That's good. Any word on when you will be released?" Mike asks.
"Doctor said within the next few hours. I can't wait. Had enough hospital visits for a lifetime." BB jokes as everybody laughs.
Hours later, BB has been discharged from the hospital and everybody is walking to Mike's car as everybody sees Steve waiting by the car. He catches Mike and walks over to the group.
"Hey Steve." BB and Kaitlyn say both giving Steve a quick hug.
"Hey you two. Glad you're out of that hospital, Blaine?" Steve asks as BB nods. Steve smiles and walks over to Mike.
"I got some news regarding this whole…situation." Steve whispers to Mike before looking at BB. "Blaine…we need to talk. Kaitlyn you might wanna hear this too since it will involve you somewhat as well." Steve says in a very serious tone.
"What's going on?" Kaitlyn asks.
"This will be hard to say and hard to hear. Blaine, we have a warrant out for the arrest of your father. It seems like after that night, he fled the state." Steve says rubbing BB's shoulder.
"How does that involve us?" Kaitlyn asks confused about the whole situation as Mike walks over to her and wraps his arm around her.
"I'm getting to that. As of this morning, Blaine, your father has officially lost custody of you. We have the proof this time around that chances of him getting you back are slim. Now to the part about Mike and Katie. The courts wanted to make you part of the state and sent him to a foster home, but after explaining the case with the CPS and the courts, they decided to award full—not temporary—custody to you, Mike. Blaine is going back to Houston with you guys." Steve says as Kaitlyn screams in joy. Mike is extremely excited but is holding back, but he can't fight the smile on his face. BB, on the other hand, is trying to smile; he somehow can't smile and has a look of complete shock on his face.
"This is exactly what I wanted, but why do I feel so…so empty inside. I should be excited, but I don't. I wonder what's wrong with me." BB thought.
"Blaine, isn't this great news? You get to comeback with us! Aren't you excited?" Kaitlyn asks hugging her cousin around the shoulders. BB makes face really quick and gives Kaitlyn a quick smile and hugs her back.
"I am excited, Katie. I'm just completely stunned. I mean I can't believe it." BB replies. Unbeknownst to BB, Mike caught his hesitation; he decided to question BB about that later.
"It is a lot to take in. Especially after staying in the hospital. Blaine, you will be jumping and cheering as soon as everything sinks in. Whenever you're ready, Steve, we'll head over." Mike says getting in his car.
"Where are we going?" BB asks wondering why Steve was coming along with them.
"Your house. I'm coming along to make sure everyone stays safe." Steve answers.
"So…you're my police escort and bodyguard just in case my dad miraculously comes back and wants to put me back in the hospital." BB says rolling his eyes.
"Don't be blunt about it, but yeah pretty much." Steve says getting into his cop car and closing the door. BB looked down at the ground before getting into the backseat of Mike's truck. He didn't mean to be an ass to Uncle Steve; BB feels things are starting to either come together or drastically fall apart for him.
It was hours after BB finished repacking his belongings and him, Mike, and Kaitlyn were all on the road back to Houston. BB was staring at the nighttime sky and the bright street lights thinking before he fell asleep.
BB was back in the same blank room he was in when he saw what he thought was his mother. This time around, the room is dark and dimly lit—like a dungeon—compared to the bright white room from last time. BB started to walk down the hallway again, but was stopped halfway by metal barred door blocking his path. BB tried to shake the door free, but it wouldn't budge. BB put his forehead against the bars in frustration when started hearing maniacal laughing.
"Is someone here? Can somebody help me? I can't open the door!" BB screamed to the sky before a figured appeared next to the door. Another figure BB easily recognized.
"Dad? Dad! Come on, open the door." BB said almost pleading. His dad started laughing and shaking his head no. After a moment, he starts turning to leave before BB catches his attention.
"Why are you leaving me? You can't do this. YOU OWE ME AFTER EVERYTHING YOU PUT ME THROUGH! LET ME OUT!" BB screams to his father, who walks back to BB and jabs a finger in his chest.
"I owe you NOTHING! You brought this on yourself. Now you must live with it." Johnny says walking away. After he's gone, BB still hears a continuous echo of his dad saying 'you brought this on yourself'. Not being able to stand it anymore, BB tries to run back the way he came; he runs into a wall. It takes BB a second to realize what's going on, but then it hits him…figuratively and literally…that the walls are closing in on him.
BB screams for help as the hallway gets smaller and smaller, but to no avail. He then hears a rumbling sound over his head. He looks up and finds a stone ceiling shaking and rattling ready to crumble. BB eyes widen in fright as the ceiling starts falling towards him and all he can do is scream.
BB sits up and tries to catch his breath because the nightmare seemed very real. He looks around and sees that he is back in the bedroom he stayed in the first time he was in Houston. He got out of bed slowly and looked at the cast on his left arm.
"Yep…this part was certainly NOT a dream." BB thought as he walked towards the mirror. Staring at his reflection, he looked exactly as he felt—hit by a truck then ran through a blender. BB pulled the elastic band out of his hair so he could attempt to tame and fix the disaster on his head which now has a layer of sweat thanks to the nightmare.
Thirty minutes later, BB steps out of the shower after having a short fight with a comb. After getting dressed in shorts and shirt…and removing the plastic bags from his casted arm…BB looked at the clock and groaned.
"UGH! It's nine in the morning! How long have I slept? Either too long or not long enough. Yeah…too long. I have a splitting headache. Guess I better go downstairs and try to become a living member of society." BB thought rolling his eyes as he started walking downstairs. When he reached the kitchen, he got a glass of water and was on a search for something to help his headache when he was startled by a voice.
"Tylenol is in the bottom shelf of the middle cabinet by the fridge." Mike said as BB jumped. BB quickly turned around and saw Mike smirking by the sink doing the dishes.
"Thanks. How did you know what I was looking for?" BB asked after finding the Tylenol and taking a couple while drinking water.
"With the look you had on your face, you were either a bad headache or a hangover. You've slept since before we got back to Houston…about fourteen hours; I'm guessing you have a pretty nasty headache." Mike says sympathetically.
"Yeah a little bit, but I can manage. Thanks for the help." BB says starting to walk back upstairs before being cut off by Mike.
"Wait, Blaine. Before you go, I've been meaning to ask you something. Are you alright?" Mike asks finally getting his chance to ask about what he saw a few days ago.
"Umm yeah. I'm sore as hell and it's a pain to shower with a bag on my arm, but I'm ok." BB answers with a shrug and Mike shakes his head.
"No. I mean are you mentally alright? I'm just a little worried because incidences like these can be traumatic regardless of age." Mike replies.
"Seriously. I'm good." BB answers quickly trying to end the subject. "Thanks for the help, but I'm going back upstairs." BB says walking away. Mike can only nod, knowing that he isn't going to win the fight today; he knows that his nephew is eventually going to break.
Hours later, BB is upstairs reading a comic book as Kaitlyn walks by his door.
"Glad to see you're finally awake." Kaitlyn remarks walking into the room and sitting next to BB. "I see you're catching up on the latest adventures of Tony Stark and Iron Man. I don't blame you. It seems like all you have been doing the last week has been sleep. Why don't you come out running with me and Seth?" Kaitlyn asks.
BB shakes his head no while holding up his cast. "Thanks, Katie, but no thanks. Besides, the doctor told to take it easy for at least another week or two to let my ribs for sure get healed before doing anything strenuous."
"I understand. Hey! A bunch of us are going to the movies tonight. Why don't you come with us?" Kaitlyn asks trying to get her cousin to be more sociable. She has a feeling that something is off about him, but she can't figure it out.
"Nah. I kinda just want to be lazy tonight." BB said sitting back looking at the ceiling. As much as he wants to go, he's too wrapped up in his own thoughts to even attempt fun; BB doesn't fully realize it. Kaitlyn loves her cousin, but his negative attitude is starting to get on her nerves.
"Come on, Blaine! You've been lazy for the past three days." Kaitlyn exclaims getting annoyed which is equally annoying BB.
"I've been asleep for two of them! And I'm sorry if I don't feel like leaving the house. I thought you would be understanding." BB replied raising his voice.
"I am, but this is getting ridiculous. You usually bounce back after something bad happens. What is wrong with you?" Kaitlyn asks raising her voice as well.
"NOTHING IS WRONG WITH ME! Nothing was wrong when Uncle Steve asked me after I finished packing. Nothing was wrong when Uncle Mike asked me this morning and nothing is wrong now. I appreciate all the sympathy now I would appreciate it if everybody would leave me alone." BB screams before getting out of bed, stomping out of the bedroom, and slamming the door to the bathroom.
Kaitlyn rolls her eyes before groaning in defeat and walking back downstairs. At the end of the stairs, she finds Seth waiting for her.
"So how'd it go?" Seth asks as Kaitlyn wraps her arms around Seth and hugs him.
"About as well as expected. I just wish he would open up and talk instead of yelling at everybody." Kaitlyn replied with a sad tone in her voice. Seth notices and kisses her temple.
"I know you want to know now, but four days ago he was unconscious in a hospital room. If I had to guess, he's probably brooding in his own thoughts. The best thing I can tell you to do is let him come to you. Trust me, when he's ready to talk, he'll be ready to talk." Seth says assuring Kaitlyn that everything will be alright. Kaitlyn responds by kissing Seth on the lips.
"You're right. He's probably still shell shocked over the whole ordeal. I guess that's all I can really give him right now. Come on let's go." Kaitlyn says opening the front door and leaving the house.
It's been a week since Kaitlyn and BB had their confrontation. Kaitlyn has been trying her best to give him time to come to terms with everything. BB, on the other hand, has been trying his hardest to get a good night of sleep. Every night, BB has the same reoccurring nightmare with him locked in a dungeon cell, being laughed at by his dad, and hearing the same creepy echo of 'you brought this upon yourself.' As the nights progress, the nightmare goes a little longer and a little worse. The nightmares have gotten so bad, that BB has resulted to extreme measures to get sleep.
Everything hit a breaking point for BB one afternoon when he fell asleep while watching some movie in the living room. The nightmare played out how it usually does with the dungeon, the laughing father saying he brought it upon himself, and the cell crumbling and falling on top of him. This time, it took a more sadistic turn.
BB wakes up after the cell ceiling caves on top of him. He goes to touch his face and his fingers come back covered in blood. He tries to stand up, but some force is keeping him pinned to the ground. He looks and notices a foot planted on his chest. He follows the leg up and finds his father holding him down.
"Why didn't you help me? I could've been killed!" BB asks straining to talk as his father laughs down at him.
"That kill you? I wouldn't let that kill you…because I want to do the honors." His father says before pulling a familiar lead pipe from his back. BB looks on in horror knowing that there's nothing he can do. BB's father rears back for the finishing shot, and as the pipe comes closer and closer, all BB can do is scream.
BB snaps out of his nightmare screaming before he gets struck. He's caught up screaming and snapping out of his nightmare that he barely recognizes a voice talking to him.
"Blaine? Blaine calm down. It's all good. Come here." The voice says as BB grabs on and hugs the person to try to calm himself down. After a moment, BB breaks from the hug to wipe away the tears from his eyes before locking eyes on to the person sitting next to him. After realizing who it was, BB yells in fright.
"Seth? What the hell are you doing here?" BB asks in an almost panic as Seth tries to hold in a small laugh.
"I wasn't exactly who you were expecting was I?" Seth asks with a smirk on his face. "Are you ok?"
"Ye-Yeah I'm ok. I just had a little nightmare. Where's Katie?" BB replies trying to make light of the actual situation brewing, but it was too late. BB didn't completely lose it in front of a family member, he lost it in front of his cousin's boyfriend.
"She ran down to the Redbox really quick for a couple movies. She asked me to keep an eye out for you, and that was NOT a little nightmare. You were screaming like a banshee and shouting 'Please don't kill me' over and over." Seth answers with a raise of his eyebrow. BB started to turn red after Seth told him heard everything. All BB wanted to do was get away as fast as possible.
"I'll be back. I've gotta get something in the kitchen." BB said quickly before almost sprinting to the kitchen. Seth rolled his eyes and started to follow. When he entered the kitchen, he saw BB ransacking different cabinets trying to find something.
"Damn it! I swear I put them in here." BB said under his breath.
"Looking for this?" Seth asks. When BB turned, he saw Seth shaking a bottle of pills at him.
"Yeah. I've got this headache that has been a bitch to get rid of. Thanks so much." BB said trying to grab the bottle, but Seth moved them out of the way.
"You're lying! Blaine, you've been taking sleeping pills to help you sleep at night. I asked her if you been getting sleep. She said you have and I got suspicious before asking if you guys had sleeping pills. She showed me them before I took them myself." Seth explains. BB gets annoyed at the fact that Seth is butting into something that has nothing to do with him.
"OK. Why in the hell are you and Katie playing keep away with those? I've needed some extra help getting sleep. What's the big deal?" BB asks trying to once again play off his situation. Seth starts to get mad because this kid doesn't believe he has a problem.
"It's a HUGE deal. You're starting to become addicted. It's only one night before it turns into the rest of your life before there being a chance of you overdosing. Blaine, Kaitlyn is worried sick about you. She thinks all you need is time. I don't want you to devastate her like this." Seth answers with a mix of anger and sympathy.
"She doesn't need to worry. I'm gonna be fine." BB says trying to walk out of the kitchen, but Seth steps in front of him.
"Who are you trying to fool? Me…Kaitlyn…or yourself?" Seth asks not being fooled by any of BB's answers. BB sighs and looks at the ground. He'd been caught and he can't get away. He turns away from Seth and looks out the window. He can't look him in the eyes for what he's about to say.
"The last 5 years of my life hasn't exactly been the easiest for me. It seems like everything is starting to fall apart. In the last month, I've been made to feel like shit. Like I wasn't wanted. Even though I love Kaitlyn with all my heart. I felt like the only person I could trust and depend on in this world was myself because everybody else would either turn against me or leave me. When I got to come back here, I thought I would be ecstatic; all I had was this empty feeling. A feeling I have been trying to shake away the last two weeks." BB said trying not to break. Seth walked behind him and pat him on the shoulder.
"That's when the nightmares begin and you run into no other choice than to use any means necessary to dull the pain of hurt and anguish." Seth replies looking up at the ceiling. BB thought it was weird that he hit the feeling right on the head, but he didn't divulge any further.
"Right. It's been the same nightmare every night. Being locked in a dungeon, my father laughing at me, the room crumbling on top of me, and tonight my dad was actually trying to kill me. The sad thing is…in real life I believe he was gonna try to do it, too." BB said as his voice started to break. "In the dream, he said I brought this all on myself; before I was knocked unconscious, he said I was a mistake. That I brought my mother to her death."
"When the time comes that everything fully registers, you feel so low that nothing can make you happy and you become a burden to everybody else. You don't want to face reality, so you do things that you normally wouldn't do to numb the pain—like drugs, alcohol, etc…" Seth replies with a sentimental tone in his voice. BB turns around to look at Seth, briefly forgetting that tears are flowing from his eyes.
"How in the hell are you so accurate? I thought nobody else would understand this, but you read me like a book." BB asks hoarsely while Seth looks down at him and shakes his head.
"You're wrong. I actually have. Consider yourself special because I don't tell very many people this. Fuck, I didn't tell Kaitlyn this until we were dating a year. You see my dad was a horrible alcoholic. A very mean drunk. My dad was very violent and it went on for years. We hoped things would get better. When they did, the falls become much more violent and worse. I couldn't tell you how many times I was called a disaster by him. It was a yoyo effect. Me and my mom were in more emergency rooms than I care to count. She reached a breaking point and decided to take me and we moved away from Iowa and never looked back. Things were good, but then I felt like you feel now. I used any way I could to feel better. Alcohol was my weapon of choice. Like father like son." Seth said with a rough laugh.
"But how did you finally tell somebody about how you were feeling?" BB asked.
"Like you, I wouldn't say a word to family. My mom was a counselor, so she had a friend of hers try and talk to me. It took three months, but I felt like I could trust him. After that, I felt so much better—long story short." Seth said a little emotionally remembering his bad past before continuing. "After hearing what Kaitlyn told me, I had a feeling you were going through the same thing and something like this would happen; I wanted to try to make you feel a little more at ease."
"You know I do feel a little bit better. Not going to lie, I still feel like garbage; I really appreciate the help." BB said with gratefulness in his voice. Seth pats him on the back before giving him a quick hug.
"That feeling will be there for a while, but it will fade away. Don't let your past ruin your future. That's what my mom says. Besides what are friends for? You're kinda like the little brother I didn't want." Seth replies with a chuckle. BB couldn't keep the smile off of his face. Seth said they were friends. It was weird, but BB was grateful that Seth decided to butt in.
Hours later after Seth left. Kaitlyn found her cousin in his bedroom staring out the window looking at the stars.
"Beautiful night isn't it?" Kaitlyn asks. BB turns to Kaitlyn and giving her a quick smirk before looking back out the window.
"It is. It's been a long time since I truly took in the night sky. It's amazing." BB replies lost in his own thoughts. Kaitlyn comes up and sits next to him.
"So how are you feeling?" Kaitlyn asks.
"I'm doing…better." BB reluctantly replies. He knew he gave a very vague answer and that her question was heavily loaded; he wasn't sure if he was ready to admit all the issues he's been through in his own mind for the last two weeks.
"I mean how are you REALLY feeling?" Kaitlyn asks again trying to nicely get her point across that she is trying to help, but BB has got to let her in. BB lets out a sigh and decides to finally let her know.
"I feel lost. I feel confused. I'm depressed beyond belief. It's like I'm in a state of purgatory right now. I should be feeling the happiest I've ever been, but I'm not because I have had these horrible feelings." BB confesses. He doesn't look at Kaitlyn face to face because he feels ashamed that he didn't tell her until now, but he can see in the reflection of the window that Kaitlyn is hurt by her cousin's revelation.
"What feelings are those?" Kaitlyn asks trying to keep the hurt out of her voice.
"That I am worthless. That my life is a lie. That I'm only staying in Houston because you guys are my last resort instead of a boy's home. Come on, Katie. If your dad told you that you were one of the biggest mistakes of his life before he put you in the hospital, wouldn't you feel shitty too?" BB answers getting annoyed with all his feelings bubbling up to the outside. He doesn't mean to get rude towards Kaitlyn, but she's just the unfortunate person in front of him at the moment.
Kaitlyn can't believe what she just heard. She had a feeling that he had something going on with him, but she didn't figure that it was this bad. Part of her wanted to hug him and make him feel better while the other part of her wanted to punch him in the face for thinking such stupid things. She decided to go with the first option while remembering to do the second option later.
"I can't say that I know what you are going through, but I won't because I don't. Blaine, I love you and I want you to know and comprehend that you will NEVER be a burden to us. We are all glad that you are living here right now. If you don't believe me, I will repeat it over and over until it sinks in through your thick skull. You understand?" Kaitlyn says while hugging BB. BB lets out a small laugh and leans into the hug before kissing Kaitlyn on the cheek.
"I understand. I really appreciate your help, Katie. I think I'm gonna feel better, but it's gonna take me a bit to get all this negative thinking out of my system." BB said sincerely. Thanks to Seth and now Kaitlyn, today was the first time since waking up in the hospital that he truly felt like he had people caring and looking out for him.
"I know it will probably take a while for you, but I just want you to be happy." Kaitlyn replied. BB didn't say anything after that, but he did let the comfort Kaitlyn gave him sink in as the both just stared in silence at the night sky.
The next morning, BB was walking downstairs as Mike called out to him.
"Blaine, do you have a moment? I need to talk to you." Mike said with a serious tone. BB was nervous, but he walked into Mike's office and sat down.
"Blaine, I just want to let you know that you are not in trouble." Mike said as BB let out a sigh of relief. "Second, I wanted to tell you that you are completely wrong." BB looks weirdly at his uncle because he has no idea what in the world he is talking about.
"Wrong? About what?" BB asks. Mike stands up and walks around his desk. He leans down next to his nephew and looks him in the eyes.
"Just so you know, you being here was and never will be a considered a burden. We are extremely happy that you are staying with us." Mike said sincerely as BB's eyes widen. He couldn't believe Mike found out everything.
"H-How did you find out that? Did Kaitlyn tell you?" BB asks in an almost panic as Mike shakes his head.
"No she didn't. I overheard you talking to her last night. I'm glad I did. Blaine, why didn't you tell me you felt that way?" Mike asks. BB started to break down after being overwhelmed with major guilt.
"I didn't want to because I was still trying to come to terms with everything. I felt like if I did you would think that I didn't want to be here. Believe me, I'm happy to be here. I just…." BB tried to explain before being cut off by Mike.
"Listen to me. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. Don't let what happened to you change your thinking. There are still people here that care about you. You don't have to be alone. Don't lock yourself away. Son, if you have anything, and I mean anything going on with you, you talk to somebody. Understand me?" Mike asks as BB looks at him with tear filled eyes. It's not the mild scolding that he got that got him to start crying. It was one specific word that Mike used that caused him to lose his strength.
"Yes sir." BB manages to say before fully breaking down. Mike doesn't say a word, but he grabs his nephew close and hugs him tight. No words were said for many moments after that, but during that time, Mike made it his goal to show his nephew a new outlook regarding father figures. Outside the office Kaitlyn stands to the side and smiles at the conclusion that her father will not let him fall. She made that conclusion long ago to help her cousin find the brighter side of life again.
Here is Chapter Lucky 7. Thank you for reading. Like always I apologize in advance if anything sounds awkward or weird. Tell me what you think. Things will get better for Blaine in the upcoming storyline. Hopefully you all enjoy. Keep a look out for Chapter 8 in the coming weeks.