82 Tom's POV
I planned everything in advance, our journey's to and from the museum, where we would be getting food, which exhibits were a priority and which could possibly be left if there wasn't time, everything. I couldn't leave anything to chance, had to have it all planned, had to have it perfect. We were going out, it was Buzz's first trip out to the Natural History Museum, and our first proper trip out as a family, it had to be perfect.
And at the same time, it had to be enjoyable for everyone. Danny, Harry and Dougie had to enjoy themselves too, they couldn't be bored, or miss out on something they wanted to see. It had to be fun for everyone, not just Buzz. So I had to plan, I had to plan everything, despite Harry telling me that it was fine, we could take things as they went. I couldn't do that, I really couldn't do that. I had to plan it, had to make sure it was perfect, so I didn't screw up. I screwed up so often, I had to do this right. If I did one thing right, it had to be this, it had to be this. This was huge for us, it had to be good, nothing could go wrong. Oh God, please let nothing go wrong.
The day of the trip rolled round too quickly, and while I had everything planned, I was still a mass of anxiety, scared of everything that could possibly go wrong. I had tried to plan for everything I could, had packed extra clothes and food for Buzz, had asked everyone which things they wanted to see and created the perfect route, but what if one exhibit was closed? What if Buzz got bored, or got scared of some of the models? I didn't want him to be scared!
"Tom, chill, everything is going to be okay. I swear, everything is going to be perfectly okay." Danny promised as we walked up the steps to the museum. The trains had been fine, thankfully. Buzz had even enjoyed going on the train for the first time, or at least the first time in a very long time. I was never sure where he had gone with his mum.
"I, I know." I did, I did know, if everything went to plan, everything would be fine. But it had to go to plan.
"Take a deep breath, we're going to have a good time, no matter what happens." Danny smiled, stroking my arm gently, "Now, where are we going first?"
"Dinosaurs!" Dougie answered before I could, he had asked if we could see that first, as it was his favourite bit, and he thought Buzz was really enjoy it too.
"Great, Doug, lead the way." Harry nearly got yanked inside by his excited husband. We had already decided to let Dougie lead the way for the day, as he knew the museum better than any of us, thanks to the amount of times he had been here, and how many times he had watched the David Attenborough documentary over the years. I was more than happy to let him lead, he knew what he was doing, and knew all the best parts to go, it made sense to let him lead.
"Follow me boys, first stop is Dippy!" Dougie lead us into the entrance hall, "Buzz, say hello to Dippy the Diplodocus."
I pulled Buzz out of his pram, resting him on my hip so he could see the huge model in the entrance hall. As he laid eyes on it, his little eyes widened, staring up at the skeleton on display.
"Dinosaur!" Buzz reached out for it, staring up in wonder.
"Yeah Buzz, it's a dinosaur, a real one too!" Danny grinned, "Isn't it cool?"
"Wow." Buzz whispered, "Dada, dinosaur!"
"I know Buzz, do you like it?" Natasha had told me it was good to ask Buzz questions, to engage him in what we were showing him, that it would help us bond and make his experience more enjoyable.
"Dinosaur!" Buzz answered with a wide grin, continuing to stare up in wonder.
So far, so good.