Lucy slid down the bathroom stall as the tears poured down her face, she couldn't do this anymore.
She couldn't fight anymore.
She couldn't lie anymore.
She couldn't pretend anymore.
She couldn't…...
She couldn't do it.
She tilted her head back against the wall as the water poured down her face mixing with the tears that were burning tracks down her face. Her hands shaking as she covered her face.
She needed Garcia.
She needed peace.
She needed 5 minutes where she wasn't looking over her shoulder to see if she was going to be literally stabbed in her back or poisoned.
She needed to be able to breath without the fear of being found out.
She needed her family to tell her it was going to be ok.
She needed GARCIA.
She wrapped her arms around her knees and pushed her face against them almost to the point of pain. And now everything was going to be different. She couldn't stay here. She couldn't now that she found out the news. She had to get out of here. She had to end this now.
She needed to talk to Jiya and Denise.
She need to hug Garcia.
She needed to kiss Garcia.
She needed him to tell her she could do this.
"Enough." she thought crawling forward through the shower to push open the door and grabbed the phone that was sitting on the floor that she had been looking at for the last 20 minutes. She had been trying to talk herself out of calling for over an hour. She even went into the shower trying to get away. But the phone was sitting on the rug in front of the shower, mocking her.
She pulled herself back into the shower and crawled back to the corner opposite of the cascading water.
She held the phone clenched in her hand as she sat, still trying to tell herself it was not a good ideal. She pushed the on button and watched the screen slowly light up and then she dialed the number she had memorized.
Ring…
Ring…..ring..
"What's wrong?" The voice demanded, and Lucy flashed back to six weeks ago when this had all started. When she had come to Rittenhouse head quarters and had taken over to destroy them from the inside out.
And she began to sob.
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Lucy looked over at the clock she knew the time was close, so she rolled over and looked at Flynn's face as he slept next to her. She trailed her fingers down his face, watching as her fingers brushed his nose and he wrinkled it. She smiled as she watched his eyebrows scrunch and he moved, trying to evade her fingers.
She moved her hand down to his chest to lay it over his heart, she could feel the strong beat against her hands and smiled. She closed her eyes and tilted her head, so it was resting on his chest and she took a deep breath. She wanted to memorize what it felt like to be in his arms, wanted to remember the warmth…the smell of him. She hated that she was going to do this. She hated it and she knew it would break him when she left… but this was their chance. Their chance to be happy, outside of this existence of fear and pain and worry. She had to try and save all of them… but most importantly, him.
He was what mattered now, he was her anchor to this life. He was it and she was going to protect him… no matter what. She was putting him first, probably for the first time in his life… he was going to be protected and put first. Her eyes started to tear up as felt him shift and pull her closer to the center of the bed as he pushed himself closer to the edge. Even in his sleep he was putting her first, trying to make her more comfortable, even with his arm hurt… he gave no thoughts while conscious or unconscious to himself… only her.
She took another deep breath and kissed his chest softly and then relaxed her body. When she felt him relax back into a deep sleep next to her and murmured her name, she had to hold her breath to stop more tears from falling. Her breath caught when she heard the one soft tap on the door and she closed her eyes and took one last deep breath. The she carefully pulled out of his arms, sitting up and then covered him with an extra blanket.
She walked over to the door and opened it slowly, she nodded at second Lucy who gave her a nod back and went to wait in the hall. She pulled on her pants and then a bra and a shirt. She walked over to the book she had placed the letter in and pulled it out to set on the desk.
She looked around until she saw his favorite gray sweater and pulled it over her head. It still smelled like him and she sighed. She walked over to Flynn to look down at him and she tried to put every single feature into her mind. After a moment she leaned down and brushed her lips across his forehead and when he sighed she froze. But after a moment she saw him relax and she wiped a tear as she slipped out of the room with her shoes in her hand.
"Ready?" Second Lucy said.
Lucy nodded at her, "As I ever will be, is Denise here?"
Second Lucy nodded, "She just got here, and you have to go, its already 4:30am. People are going to be waking up soon."
Lucy sighed and nodded, "This is a good ideal… right?"
Second Lucy stopped at the door of the kitchen and nodded over at Denise who was waiting by the exit. She turned to Lucy, "Sure… no… yes…maybe? Lucy this is a terrible ideal and dangerous but …. It may be the way that we stop them… not just be two steps behind trying to solve the problems they are causing…I would go but with time travel… me and my Wyatt are not staying here longer then another day or two." She said.
Lucy nodded at her, "You have to tell me…. Tell me what you are so scared of... why this is so important to you…I know that you are keeping things from me." She said, "I need you to give me a reason to do this."
Second Lucy sighed, "Flynn is going to get hurt... badly. He almost doesn't make it…... and he isn't the same after. If we can stop it from happening, keep him safe. I would give my life for that." Second Lucy said.
Lucy nodded at her, "So would I… So, let's do this." She said walking over to Denise. "I need you to take me to my house. My mom left things that will help us win this war…. No change the entire direction." Lucy said to her.
Denise nodded at her, "OK let's go, I figured it was important when Second Lcuy called me and told me to get in here."
Lucy sat silently for the first 40 minutes of the drive, until Denise sighed and turned to look at her, "You are not telling me something." Denise said
Lucy turned and frowned, "How do you do that?" She said with a small smile.
Denise shrugged and grinned, "It is a gift…. Plus, I am trained to notice things…. And you have been abnormally silent and thinking."
"Second Lucy told me that I shouldn't tell you everything, because then you will have to keep it from the group." Lucy said softly biting her lip.
Denise shook her head, "Number one rule is having back up and if you don't tell anyone what is going on, how are you going to have backup?" She said.
Lucy sighed, "I think you are right… but you have to swear to me…swear that you will not tell anyone anything…. You have to let them think that you know nothing. Second Lucy is probably telling them right now that you have no clue what Is going on."
Denise narrowed her eyes, "This is not just you going to get papers is it?" She asked her.
Lucy shook her head, "No…. I am going in… to Rittenhouse, I am going to take it over from the inside." She said softly.
Denise slammed on her breaks and pulled to the side of the road, "Lucy…... I don't think that this is a good ideal…... there is no way for you to have any real back up in there…. We won't be able to help you fast…. I don't like it." She said looking over at Lucy.
Lucy nodded and looked at her hands, "It is a risk…. a massive and major risk…. But in my visions, I saw two futures…... one where we have ended all of this and we are working to fix the mistakes that were made…... in the other… it was us still fighting, us a step behind and we were hurt and broken…. I have to try." She took a deep breath, "I have to try help everyone and stop what my family is doing…has done."
Denise sighed, "Lucy… this, all of this is not your fault…. And it is not your responsibility to fix any of it." She reached over and grabbed Lucy's hand, "We are a team and we can do it together."
Lucy nodded at her, "At what price... how many more will be hurt, how long until we can't fix it all or stop it all... Rufus is already gone, and we are fighting to get him back…. I can't….NO, I won't let that happen to anyone else on the team."
Denise looked at her carefully, "There is something that you know that we don't…isn't there?" She asked softly.
Lucy nodded, "I saw even more then I told my future self…. I didn't want to share it and worry everyone." She said.
Denise sighed, "Fine…. You are not going to tell me, either are you?" She asked.
Lucy shook her head, "I can't…... but I do need your help." She said. "I may change more then I thought originally. I may be able to fix it, so Conner gets his company back… so Jessica is never Rittenhouse…." Lucy paused and looked down at her hands, "So Flynn gets his family back." She finished softly. "My goal is to fix it all, not just destroy Rittenhouse."
Denise laid her head back on the car seat, "Lucy, you have to talk to the team…. You have to talk to Flynn before you do this." She said softly.
Lucy shook her head, "It wont matter, because if I can fix it, they will never know…. Never remember."
Denise looked at her closely, "And what about you…. Your mother …...Amy?" she asked.
Lucy shrugged, "I hope I get Amy, but I don't think so… not with what Emma has done." She said looking out the window.
Denise shook her head and Lucy could see the worry and compassion rolling off of her. "Lucy…. You have to talk to Flynn." She said softly.
"No, I can't…. I won't want to do it… I won't be able to walk away… I wrote him a letter." Lucy said with a frown, closing her eyes.
Denise reached out and just held her hand as Lucy let the tears slid down her face to drip off onto their clenched hands, "Lucy." Denise whispered her voice full of compassion.
Lucy took one last deep breath and then wiped her cheeks and smiled at Denise, "Its ok… I am going to fix it all." She said softly.
Denise nodded at her, "Fine but you will not go in there completely alone. We are going to get you a burner phone. Memorize my number and you WILL send my updates in text. Simple things so I know you are ok. No names or information encase they find it, just enough so I know if you need help." Denise said. "NO calls unless it is an emergency."
Lucy nodded, "I have a plan also…. Lucy and I came up with it. I want to get in there and get out as quickly as possible." She said.
Denise nodded and pulled out back onto the road and Lucy explained the plan and the different phases as they drove into the city. She dropped off Lucy at her house with a new burner phone and watched as she walked into the house and send up a prayer that Lucy would be ok, that they would all be ok. Then she took a breath to drive back to the bunker knowing she was going to have to deal with everyone there and their anger, frustration and fear.
Lucy on the other hand, went into her house and decided that she was going to shower and take a breath before she went into the lion's den. Based on the timeline second Lucy gave her, she had 3 hours to get to the meeting that was happening. When she took all the time she could she took the gun out of her mom's safe and she got in her mother's car and drove to the address that second Lucy had given her, then she walked into the back of the building.
She looked around until she found the large floor to almost celling painting, then she pushed it over to the left like the directions said. Behind it was the elevator, she pushed the button and when the doors slid open, she looked at the panel of numbers and letters. She put in the code that she had and was still surprised when the door slid closed and she began her trip up into her new hell.
When she reached the top and the doors slid open she saw a startled man and woman looking at her, she took a breath and put her acting into use. Raising an eyebrow, she said in a stiff voice, "I am pretty sure you know who I am."
They nodded confused, "Good, I need to talk to who is in charge and if you tell me Emma we are going to have problem." She said in haughty voice.
They shook their heads no at her.
Lucy nodded and stepped out, "Good then who has taken control?"
The man looked over at the woman then back at Lucy, "There is a meeting right now to decide that." He said.
Lucy nodded, "I am assuming that Emma is there trying to gain control?"
The man nodded, "She said you killed you mother and grandmother." He said.
Lucy narrowed her eyes," I am sure that lying little bitch would say that… no the truth is that little manipulative and control seeking murder shot my mother in the chest and my grandfather in the head when they told her what they wanted done. I have been working with my grandfather for months, I was the inside person."
The woman narrowed her eyes, "That is not what we were told."
Lucy sneered at her, "Who are you again? Because unless you are direct descended you didn't have clearance."
The woman huffed but the man cut her off, "If your mother was working with you, who was her direct person she was working with besides Emma?"
Lucy smiled, "Noah, the next highest-ranking member"
The woman laughed at her but was cut short when the man nodded, "Only the top people in the group knew that until today." Making the woman turn to him with surprise.
Lucy nodded, "Good now will you take me to this meeting, I have a bone to pick with Emma." Lucy said with a bite, letting her real anger seep through, her acting starting to take a toll already.
The man nodded at her, "Yes Miss. Preston, please follow me." He said walking down the hall.
Lucy slid her hand in her pocket where the gun was hidden and undid the safety, "We will be taking Emma and locking her up. As much as I want to kill her, she is our only current pilot and since she also killed the pilot for the other team we are fucked right now." Lucy said.
The man looked at her in surprise, "There will be people on the board who will fight you on this, not knowing you were working with your mother."
Lucy snorted, "How else would I get here and up here without my mother's help. However, I have other information and codes my mother gave me incase this happened." She said to the man who gave her a nod and led her to a conference door.
He opened the door and walked in Lucy made sure to stay behind him, as she saw Emma look over from the presentation she was giving, and she made her first mistake ever with Lucy, turning her back as soon as she saw the man. She knew his face and trusted she was in a safe place.
Lucy pulled the gun out and touched the man shoulder who raised an eyebrow at the gun but stood in front of the door. Lucy walked around him, and the room froze as people began to recognize her.
Emma noticed the rooms looks and turned to see Lucy standing there and surprise flared in her eyes, "Princess?" she said with a sneer, "How nice of you to come to us…. Now we don't have to hunt you down."
Lucy raised an eyebrow at her and all of the hatred from the last few years rolled over her, "I want to kill you…. So badly I want to blow your brains all over this room." She said raising the gun and relishing at the brief look of fear in Emma's eyes. Emma looked to the man behind Lucy and yelled, "Grab her." But was surprised when he just stood there in front of the door.
Lucy smiled at her with no humor, "You see, he knows the truth Emma…" She paused waiting for Emma to process.
"What truth?" Emma sneered.
Lucy raised an eyebrow at her, "The truth on why you are here trying to take charge…. The one why there is an opening to take charge."
Emma clenched her jaw, "and what is that?" she asked in a nasty voice, noticing the rest of the room was watching how Lucy was only interested in her. When Lucy had first walked in they were worried but now they were curious.
Lucy gave a hard-nasty smile, "The truth on who killed my mother and grandfather."
Emma shrugged, "You mean your team?"
Lucy narrowed her eyes, "You should really tell the truth. My bullshit meter is low right now." She said harshly.
Emma grinned, "It doesn't really matter, in the end they still dead." She said shrugging.
Lucy saw red and for a moment she wasn't acting, she pulled up the gun and took pleasure in the fear that flashed across Emma's face. Then she pulled the trigger and the room froze.
Everyone watched as Emma fell to the ground clenching her right hand. Lucy hand shot her through the palm. The Lucy walked over to her and held the gun to Emma's head, "The truth or next time we lose our only pilot."
Emma looked up from the floor into Lucy's face and mocked Lucy, "Me." She said lowly.
"Louder." Lucy said pushing the hot tip of the gun on her forehead making Emma jerk back and hiss.
Emma gulped knowing she was finished here, "It was me princess. I shot your mother in the chest and your grandfather it the head and I would do it again…. They were destroying Rittenhouse… I can make it better than they ever could… this place needs new blood." Emma said with a sneer.
The room gasped around them, but Lucy was only focused on Emma as her hands shook, "But the thing is Emma…we don't need new blood…. This is about tradition and making it better. The only place your dirty blood will be in Rittenhouse…. Is on the floor." The Lucy pulled the trigger again.
The room froze as Emma screamed but Lucy spoke up first looking down at her, "You are lucky you are our only pilot and you killed the lifeboats pilot." She watched as Emma clenched her right ankle that Lucy shot, "I would love to put a bullet in your brain… but it will have to wait for now."
Lucy took a deep breath and looked to the man behind her, "Take her to get patched up and then put her in one of the cells. Then where is Jessica?"
The man nodded over at Jessica at the back table, Jessica looked terrified.
Lucy motioned her to come forward, "You saw her kill my mother and grandfather…. Yet you sat here and didn't tell anyone." Jessica swallowed hard and Lucy shook her head, "You are lucky that you are worth more alive than dead also…... you will be a nice bargaining chip to Wyatt."
Jessica raised her eyes in surprise, "How are you here? Why are you here?" she asked walking forward.
Lucy raised an eyebrow, "Do you think that I didn't talk to my mother? That I didn't talk to my grandfather? That I wasn't working with them all along? Why do you think the other team was always a step behind? That they could never stop or hurt the mothership? Problem is I can't pilot the time machine... yet. Plus keeping them busy, it let my mother and grandfather do a few other side jobs that only the top team knew about."
Some of the room gasped at Lucy's statement but Jessica shook her head, "They never told me."
Lcuy laughed, "Why would they tell you? You are no one, an extra body, one that was easily manipulated. I knew your mission all along and you are the one who went against their orders. More then once." Lucy said shaking her head, "The only reason you are still alive is because I was left at the bunker when Denise figured out I was not to sad about Rufus. She took the team and they left me, so now I don't know where they are or the time machine is…. you will be nice leverage with your Soldier." Lucy said with a sneer.
Jessica shook her head, "You were in love with Wyatt." She whispered.
Lucy shook her head, "It's called acting. Causing issues with the team, get a clue… who would love a simpering weak man like that?" Lucy said pointing to the door and to the woman who was holding Emma up because she could not walk on her own or hold on with her right side.
Lucy turned to Emma, "Emma darling, you try anything, I will shoot your other hand, so you won't be able to even wipe your own ass… am I understood?" Lucy watched Emma's eyes flare open. Then Lucy turned to Jessica and looking at her in the eye she spoke to the man next to the door, "Take both of them to different cells and if either try anything shoot to kill." Then she walked over to the man and handed him her gun. She watched as the man pointed to Jessica and then follow them all out.
Lucy turned to look at the men and woman at the table, she took a breath and said, "I know that most of you didn't know about this, if any of you knew my grandfathers and mothers plan. From my understanding they told only the highest of the group wanting to keep it a secret. But I have information that you all need to know." She paused as he finally noticed Noah looking at her with narrowed eyes. She smiled at him softly, "Noah… how are you?" she asked.
Noah nodded to her and stood up then addressing the room, "As I told you all last week, I had issues with Emma and reasons to mistrust her. … I have been waiting for Lucy to get in, I was worried that Emma had also killed her." He said to the room.
"We will have another meeting tomorrow morning after Lucy and I have had a chance to talk." He said to the group who nodded and began to stand up.
Lcuy was standing to the side as the men and women filed out of the room. When it was empty Noah leaned against the table and crossed his legs, "Lucy."
Lucy crossed her arms and took a breath, "How much did my mother tell you?" she asked already knowing his answer.
"Nothing." He said tilting his head, "In fact she talked about how she was trying to get you on her side and you wouldn't listen."
Lcuy nodded and walked over to lean on the table next to him, "Can I ask you something?" She asked him softly.
He nodded at her, "Sure."
"In this time line, the one that I don't remember…... were we really together? Did you really love me? Or was it an act because we are the two highest ranking descendants." She asked him.
Noah looked at her in surprise, "That is your question?"
Lucy shrugged, "I am still trying to figure out everything…. Me in this time line, I am different Noah, but I need to know and understand if I am going to move on…... if I am going to trust you."
Noah sighed, "At first, it was because it was expected… you are a direct decedent and I am the next closest thing, the descendent of a founding member…. But those photos that I was showing you…. Those memories. They were real…... I fell in love with your personality and laughter. When I found out that my Lucy was gone, it broke my heart." He said softly.
Lucy nodded, "Ok truth, I have only been working with my mom since Salem. It was complicated, and I am still wondering about a lot of it, but Emma…... she killed my mother, and I can't get any answers from her." Lucy said her hands starting to shake as the situation, the terror, fear and stress all hit her, "I need a bathroom… now." She said eyes wide.
Noah startled up and led her to a door opening it and Lucy ran, emptying her stomach into the toilet. Over and over again. It was a few moments before she noticed Noah rubbing her back, she took a breath and sat on the bathroom floor and started crying.
"She is gone, Noah…my mom is gone forever." She said sobbing letting the fear of being here and all of the emotion pour out of her. He thought she was crying and shaking for her mother, but it was everything coming out of her. "Noah…" She whispered. "I have never shot anyone." she whispered she said closing her eyes. "But I wanted to kill her."
Noah sighed and slid on the floor next to her, "I am so sorry, so sorry." He whispered. "Why don't we get you into an apartment and then we can talk after you rest."
Lucy looked over at him her eyes wide and filled with tears, "Do you believe me that I was working with my mom…. Can I count on you to back me up? Or am I truly alone?" she asked him wanting to see where she was at.
Noah looked down at her face and sighed again, "I don't know Lucy, I know your mother had other plans and things going on that she only told your grandfather… I also know that I have never trusted Emma... but I don't know." He said.
Lucy nodded at him, looking down, "I know…. I told her to tell people, but she was worried about Emma and was worried who she could trust with the information." Lucy said, "Can I at least trust you to keep me safe until I can convince you?" She asked him.
Noah nodded down at her, "Yes, I will keep you safe no matter what, god help me if you are lying because I don't think I could hurt you anyway." He said closing his eyes.
Lucy felt the guilt rolling up in her as she used Noah and his emotions against him, but second Lucy said it was her only safe way in. "I swear to you, I am not here to hurt you Noah…. I just wanted to stop Emma and stop her from taking over Rittenhouse." She shrugged, "I know it was a risk because know no one knew that I was on your team."
Noah nodded down at her, "Come on, you can stay with me tonight. I know that no one will try anything there…. right now, we are in …. An upheaval? A territory claim. With you gone, I was the next leader, but Emma was fighting it and so was another house. SO, with you back, I am not sure who we can trust… technically, you are the clear and only leader… but I don't think they are just going to hand it over." He said standing up and holding out a hand.
"Plus, we don't all see eye to eye on where we should be going for direction." He said leading her to the door.
"What do you mean? Lucy asked softly following him to the elevator.
"Tomorrow, ok? Its late and you look like you need rest and I need to figure some things." He said stepping in and pushing a new code into the panel, the doors slid closed and they began to raise higher.
Lucy turned to him, "Can I trust you?" she asked him seriously.
He turned to her, "Can I trust you?" He asked her back.
She bit her lip and went for honesty, "I have issues with some things my grandfather did, and I want to change it…. but I will never hurt you." She said.
He nodded, "Tomorrow before the meeting we will go over our thoughts, I think we may be on the same page." He whispered. "I will keep you safe, I swear it."
The doors slid open and he led her to a bed room to the back, "You can have this room, I am going to make sure that Emma and Jessica are locked up tight and then get you dinner. Do you still love that salad from the corner deli…or was that my Lucy and not you?"
Lcuy looked up in surprise, "On the corner of 14 and lake street? The cobb?" She asked him.
He nodded and smiled, "You used to make me run and get it for you when you were stressed." He said softly looking down at her with a half-smile.
She grinned a real grin, "Looks like there are some similarities between me and your Lucy… the dressing with the Ga.." She started.
But Noah cut her off, "The garlic dressing and extra eggs and croutons?" he asked.
When she nodded, he smiled and walked away to the elevator. When the door slid closed she pulled out the phone and sent one text out, "I am in." she waited for a moment and when the phone dinged she read, "keep updated." She sent thumbs up back and then deleted the history, so the phone was blank again.
The following weeks took a little piece of her soul each day, each decision, each lie, each moment filled fear. In the end she trusted only Noah as they were closer in thoughts then she thought, but she still lied to even him every day. She was alone, and she trusted no one else and she knew there were members who wanted her dead, so they could take her place, because they didn't believe her lies. Two days ago, she got violently sick when one of the members put a pill in her drink. She was lucky that Noah had noticed and got her a medicine to get her to empty her stomach, she would have died if it had not been for him. Noah had done a panel of blood work on her and he had confronted her in the apartment they had been sharing the last six weeks today.
He had stared at her on the couch while she had looked at him in confusion, "What?" She finally asked.
He shook his head at her, hands on his hips, "Why didn't you tell me?" He asked her softly.
She looked at him in confusion. "Tell you what?" She asked him.
She sat back in surprise when he yelled at her for the first time ever, "The truth LUCY… the FUCKING TRUTH." He snarled.
Lucy sat up slowly, still weak from being poisoned and the recovery, "About what?" She asked him.
Noah narrowed his eyes at her, "That you are pregnant." He said carefully.
Lucy's eyes flared and then she started laughing, "Nice joke." She said until she looked at his face, "no." She whispered.
Noah paused and looked at her face carefully, "Yes, Lucy, a few weeks at least," He said carefully, "Is it that soldiers?"
Lucy closed her eyes, her entire body starting to shake, "No…. no, I can't, not a baby." She said.
Noah realized that she really didn't know, "Lucy…who's is it?" He asked.
Lucy opened her eyes, "Ummmm, not Wyatt's." She said.
Noah nodded at her and held her hands, "We have to keep this silent for a while…. Until we figure out what you want to do." He said softly.
She couldn't speak as the fear and worry was rolling through her mind, it was one thing for her to risk her life… but now there was a baby…. She couldn't think, she started to panic and gasp for breath. Noah saw the signs of a panic attack and tried to walk her through calming down. In the end he had to give her a sleeping pill and help her rest. When she woke up a few hours later, he was gone out of the apartment and she knew she couldn't stay here any longer, what she had done so far would have to be enough. She would have to rush her time table and get out.
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It took her a moment to catch her breath before she could speak…. "I need your help." She whispered into the phone.
"Yes." The voice said carefully.
"I need to finish and get out." Lucy said softly. "It needs to end now."
"Plan." The voice said.
"Burn it all." Lucy said her voice thick with tears.
"You?" The voice asked carefully.
"I will try, but all that matters is ending it all." Lucy said eyes closed.
"Are you ok?" The voice asked.
"No." Lucy said softy. "Nothing will be ok."
"Come out, walk out and we will pick you up." The voice said carefully.
"I can't, this all has to be for something. I have the power to end it all, to stop it all." Lucy said eyes closed.
"Its not worth losing you." The voice said.
"Did you get R yet?" Lucy asked, changing the direction of the conversation.
"Last week, just like you said we would." The voice said smiling.
"Good, phase 2 and 3 will be started tonight." Lucy said into the phone.
"You?" the voice asked again.
"I will try…... I will fight…. but if not, tell them all… that I love them… that they were everything…..." she whispered her voice breaking.
"L— ", the voice started but Lucy cut her off. "NO…. no names."
"What are you not saying?" The voice asked her.
Lucy covered her mouth as a sob took over, "Tell him…. Tell him…. He was it... my one and only…... tell him that he was my sun in the dark… that he was my light, my warmth…. my heart." She said voice breaking.
"What are you not telling me?" The voice asked.
Lucy closed her eyes and held a hand to her stomach, "I am pregnant…. You can not tell him… ever…especially if something happens to me…... I am only telling you encase you find me and I need help…... you can't tell anyone." Lucy said softly, the water still falling almost drowning her out.
"No… do not do this… come back now... walk out. We will come and get you… walk away." Thee voice demanded, now desperate.
"I can't…. not when I have the power to destroy them all…. Or stop them enough for you too…. I have to do it for you guys…... for him… for the baby…... I can't let it go…... not when we are right here. I won't lose all of the work from the last six weeks." Lucy paused and took a deep breath, "We will never get another chance like this and how many other people will be destroyed if we wait."
"No, please I am begging you." The voice said trying to breathe through a panic.
"Are you there?" Lucy asked softly.
The voice sighed, "Yes…... in the office right now."
"Can you get them all together and put me on speaker and then Mute it, so I can't hear any of them and nothing will come through encase we are being listened too?" Lucy asked softly.
"Are you sure about this?" The voice asked.
"NO." Lucy laughed with no humor. "But I want to say goodbye just encase." Lucy whispered. "IS R up?"
"Ok, hold on." The voice whispered.
Lucy listened as the voice gathered everyone into one area, then the voice said to her, "Ok putting you on speaker and then muting it."
Lucy waited another minute before she whispered into the phone, "I miss you guys." She said softly. "SO much, it is like missing a limb. I miss you …. but soon, it will be over soon. She will explain everything to you. I am so glad you are all back and safe. I can't wait to kiss and hug each of you…. I love you."
Lucy sobbed at the last part, knowing he was listening to her, she spoke directly to him, remembering what she had written to him. "I love you….. I love the way that you tilt your head and half smile at me when you think that I am not looking. I love the way that you snort when you are reading something that you don't agree with. The way that I can sit with you and talk about history and politics and a million other things. The way that you do not just agree with me, to make me happy. But instead purposely argue against me." Lucy paused as her voice broke, "I know that you do it, just to irritate me. But it also makes me love you and want you so much more. You once told me that you could go on forever, for a million different reasons. I can do that too, because I LOVE YOU!" She gasped through to the end, "No matter what." She whispered tears running down her face, her breath dragging out in gasps. "I want you to hear that from me…. I want you to hear me say it…. I LOVE YOU."
She hung up the phone then took the battery out and then finally cracked it in half her hands shaking as she sobbed. She dropped the phone and watched it slide over to the drain as she slide down to lay on the cooling tiles.
She knew that might be the last time she was ever able to talk to them and it was killing her. She was going to fight, she was going to do everything she could to win… but right now, she lay in the shower, sobbing as her heart shattered, broken and alone.