Kensi and Deeks retreated back to there room.
"Thank you for making me come here," Kensi kissed her husband gently on the cheek.
"ThAnk you for coming." He put his hand on her belly, caressing it gently. "I can't believe he'll be here in two months."
Kensi sighed happily. "I'm ready to meet him." She smiled tiredly. "Penny for your thoughts," she said looking at her husband who's eyes seemed to drift away.
"Do you think I'll be a good dad?"
"If I can be a good mom, you'll certainly be a good dad. I'm sure of it."
Deeks smiled wearily. "I've made a lot of bad decisions. Then again, I've also made a lot of good ones." He kissed her lightly. "Our thing being the best one."
Kensi smiled. "Our thing was definitely a good decision. We all make good and bad decisions, baby, we aren't going to be perfect parents, but as long as we have each other's backs and do our best, that's all anyone can ask for."
"Plus we do have a pretty bad ass team behind our backs." Deeks matter of factly stated.
"Nell and Eric as Godparents along with Uncle Callen and Uncle Sam, I think he's gonna be alright," she winked.
"How soon can we start working on a little sister for him?" He started nibbling her neck.
"Well, in case you forgot how we made him, it's. It gonna happen right now."
"But we can practice, right?"
Kensi rolled her eyes with a smile, "if you're lucky," she trailed off into the bedroom.
"Oh girl!" He exclaimed following after her.
The couple returned home and continued their routine, while preparing for baby Owen's arrival. It was early evening and the whole gang was over helping paint the nursery.
"This looks amazing," Kensi began to get a little sappy.
"Kens, what's wrong?" Callen asked not seeing Kensi tear often.
Deeks shook his head and waved his arms behind her as to tell Callen to stop before real waterworks flew from her hormones.
"G," Sam caught on. "Hormones, pregnant woman, you'll never learn. And now that you and Anna are back on track, you better learn."
Callen rolled his eyes as Kensi continued.
"I'm just so, so happy,," she sobbed. "I'm sorry," she continued.
"It's ok Kens," Sam consoled her being very much aware of how pregnancy affects a woman.
"I for one can't wait for my Godson to arrive," Nell beamed trying to make Kensi smile a bit.
Deeks watched his friends prepare his son's nursery. He couldn't remember a time when he had felt so loved.
"You ok there, Shaggy?" Sam questioned noticing Deeks peering off.
"Ya, I'm good," he thought for a few minutes. "Hey guys, can we talk."
"Oh no, I feel a long winded Deeks speech coming on." Callen joked.
"No, no, this is more," he let out a deep puff of air, "More a confession," he said after glancing at Kensi.
"Ok," Callen said wearily.
"How bout we head downstairs for some beers. Well not Kensi of course," he smirked.
"I do miss having a cold one with you guys," she lamented, "but well worth it."
The team nodded following downstairs and each got comfortable in a seat. Deeks leaned against the wall. "I'm pretty sure since you're all skilled agents, you've figured it out like Kensi did."
"Hey man, you don't have to do this," Sam rose and stood next to Deeks and put his hand on His back.
"Thanks Sam Dog, but I do." He took a deep breath and puffed it out. "I killed Boyle. And those words just came out of my mouth."
"We know," Sam assured.
"I figured. But I want you guys to know the story behind it."
"We've all done things, Deeks," Callen assured. "I'm sure your reasons were justified. You're a good man, and you've showed us that."
"Thank you, Callen. That means a lot coming from you."
"I did kill him for a good reason, even though I'm not sure it makes it right. He was gonna kill Tiffany. She came to me the night Quinn set her up. Boyle beat the shit out of her. She was crying uncontrollably. Bloody beaten. Her nose, her eyes," Deeks shuttered. "I saw my mom in those eyes. That night I shot my father. The same look. She was scared beyond belief. Scared for her life." Deeks' sighed.
"Deeks," Kensi stood and walked over to stand beside him. "Remember why you said you did the things you did."
"All's I've wanted to do is protect people." He looked at his team, so supportive and understanding. "How did I get so lucky," he whispered before he continued. "Anyway, Tiffany was just crying in my arms. I felt like I needed to protect her, just like I did my mom. I told her she was better than this life. I helped her by getting her a new identity and getting her to be a CI when I needed her to. I gave her money to help her stay on her feet, to stay out of that life." He continued on "There was just such a resemblance to my mom. I realize that sounds creepy, but I just mean, I never slept with Tiffany or anything like that," he said assuring Kensi" but, she was struggling to have a better life and the cards were against her. She was a good person caught in a shitty situation. I finally got her to calm down and tell me where she last saw Boyle. He was passed out in the hotel room. Tiffany's blood was splattered around. There were bruises forming on his knuckles. I kicked him awake."
He flashed back to that night.
"Deeks what the hell man. Where's the girl?"
"What girl?" Deeks played dumb.
"That slut! What's her name, I don't know the blonde little whore, ya that's good enough! Great little piece of ass. You should try her sometime. See if you're man enough."
Deeks hauled off and punched Boyle in the jaw. Boyle stumbled back and grabbed his gun.
"I should shoot you right now, you self righteous son of a bitch. Nobody wants to be your partner. No one even wants you on the force. Why do you think they sent you to UC?"
"I transferred to get away from you. You are the reason we need IA, you dirty bastard!"
"Watch your mouth kid," he waived his gun at Deeks.
Deeks reacted and grabbed the gun pointing it back at Boyle. The gun went off. Deeks back away dropping the gun. He never actually touched the gun only Boyle's hands as the trigger squeezed in the fight.
Deeks ran, he ran far and as fast as he could. The case was deemed a cold case as Deeks made sure he dropped Tiffany off a local cafe before he headed to the hotel. Her alibi was validated and the case closed as cold until IA began investigating Deeks.
Deeks snapped out of his flashback. "I confessed to Whiting, I promised her if she helped us save Kens, I'd tell her everything. I may have done some horrible things, but I'm a man of my word. And now, she uses it against me, I guess to still help people, but," he lets out another breath.
Kensi rubbed her husband's back gently. "You're a good man, Martin Deeks. We all see it. We all know it. It's time for you to realize it"
He fought back the tears, "I'm sorry I didn't tell you guys sooner. I jneed to get rid of all my demons before this little guy comes. I'm gonna get some air." His confession seemed to overcome him.
"Baby," Kensi began to follow.
"Let me," Sam said holding her back.
Deeks was on their back porch staring out. "You came for more torturous words of Deeks?" He asked half smiling.
Sam patted his back. "Kensi's right ya know."
"Isn't she always?"
Sam chuckled. "You're a good man, Martin Deeks."
"Wait am I dying? Sam Hanna used my full name and not some random nickname. Also, the fact that both you and Callen called me a good man in the same night."
"I may rag on you, but that's only cause I love you man. You, me, G, and Kens. Even those meerkats. We're family. Nothing can tear us apart."
"I must have died already cause Sam Hanna is now getting sappy on me."
"Ya man, I have it in me sometimes. I will always be grateful for you giving me four more years with Michelle. You could have outed her and she would have been taken from me then. You went through hell for my family, I'd do the same for yours."
"But we failed her four years later."
"No, you didn't. We all didn't have clear heads. I miss her man, but I'll tell you I cherished every moment I had with her. I had more time because of you. No matter the wrong things you've done, you've done so many right."
"Ha," Deeks let out a small laugh. "That means a lot coming from you Sam. You always seem to get it done on the straight an arrow."
Sam looked down. "Not always brother."
"Come on, name a time."
"One person, the reason my wife is dead. Jada."
"Sam, you were doing a job."
"But I got too emotional, too attached. A mistake I'll regret the rest of my life. The point is, it doesn't change the man I know I am deep inside. We do good work. But we all make mistakes. We make sacrifices. We make decisions. Sometimes right, sometimes wrong but we figure it out."
"I just want to be a good dad. Give my son what I didn't have."
"You will. You and Kensi are a good team. In everything you do. Trust in that. She won't let you fall, just like you won't let her."
"I don't what I did to deserve this life."
"You're you, Deeks, Shaggy hair and all, you're you." He patted his friends back. "Come back inside when you're ready. We'll all be there for you."
Sam headed back in to see Kensi's worried eyes. "He'll be alright."
Kensi nodded an appreciative thank you.
"So Kensi, Nell broke the silence. Baby shower in two weeks, are you ready for the invasion of the cupcake girls."
Kensi eyes lit up. "Kat, Mindy, Mandy, Tiffany and Tiffany. So ready! A last little bit of fun before Owen makes his appearance," she grinned.
"What are you boys gonna do that day? Besides Deeks, he'll be here surrounded by the ladies." Nell wondered.
"As long as Talia keeps her paws to herself, all will be well," Kensi glared.
"We might just hang at my place," Callen said. "I do have a fully stocked bar at my fingertips."
"If you want those fingertips cut off, Mister. That's my son's future," Kensi cackled.
"Speaking of future, have you guys thought anymore yet about work after the baby comes?" Callen anxiously wanted his team together, but understood the risks.
"Not really. I guess we will just figure it out when the time comes," she shrugged.
Deeks wandered back in. "What did I miss?" He smirked.
"Oh not much, except the amazing day you're gonna have surrounded by women at The baby shower." Sam said.
"And the threat Kensi has already put on Talia," Callen added.
"You sure I have to be there baby, I could hang with the guys at the bar?"
"Deeks!" Kensi shouted.
"I know, I know," he rolled his eyes. "It's just, Talia, the Tiffany's. A pregnant hormonal you, not a good combo."
"No Deeks! You'll be there with me, with the biggest smile on your face."
"You're right," he sighed kissing her and placing his hand on her belly. "Anything for this little one. Even if it is spent fending off Talia's inappropriateness. Callen, make sure u guys clean up this time. Mama, was on fire." Knowing all well, the remaining men would be hanging there during the event.
Callen let out a bellow, "don't wanna upset mama Deeks again!"
"Let's keep in on the dl this time, if she knows while she's at the shower, we'll never have fun. Either of us."
"You got it!"
The team finished touching up and then cleaning up the nearly complete nursery.
"Thank you guys, again, for everything. Kensi and I couldn't ask for a better, more supportive team. You've been beside us, behind us, for so much."
"Can this be the last winded Deeks speech for awhile now?" Callen teased.
"Probably not," Deeks widened his smile. "In all honesty though, you've been the best family someone could have ever had dropped in their lap."
"It wouldn't have been the same without you," Callen patted his shoulder.
"Remember Shaggy, you're never alone," Sam added.
"Never alone, Deeks," Kensi put her arms around her husband, "Never."