Chapter 3: Regret
Song- Nicki Minaj- Regret in your tears
Her lips were so soft against his. He had kissed her before but that was it, but this, in his bed with her straddling his lap, he couldn't resist it anymore. She was only 17 but he loved her so god damn much, trying for the last two years to keep it at bay had boiled over.
"Do you know how sweet you taste beautiful?" He whispered between kisses. She smiled and giggled. So innocent she had no idea what she was doing to him. "Fuck Bella, you have to stop moving your hips like that…" He sighed
"But why…" She whined
"Does it feel good?" He whispered
"So good… please" She whimpered
"Ok baby… I know… I've got you sweetheart" He sighed giving into her. Slowly he slipped his hand between them and up her thigh, beneath her dress slowly he could feel her shiver in pleasure. "Have you ever cum before baby?" He whispered. She shook her head no and her cheeks flamed red. "It's ok angel just let me show you ok?"
"Please touch me" she sighed as his hand slid over the cotton of her panties.
He pushed his hand down over her clit and she moaned, pushing harder he slid down further groaning at the warmth and wetness he could feel through her panties. She let out a woosh of breath and he pushed harder rubbing her up and down again.
"Feel good baby?" He asked stroking her up and down again.
"Yea…" She sighed.
"So fucking beautiful" He sighed pulling her lips back to his. Kissing her deep he picked up the pace, rubbing her harder and faster, feeling her panties get wetter and wetter with every stroke. Her pretty body writhed ontop of him and she was making the hottest little moans he had ever heard. This beautiful girl was becoming his undoing.
"Uhhhh" She whined grinding her hips into his hand.
Sucking and kissing on her neck he watched her eyes flutter open and closed.
"ohhh my god…. Edward" She sighed
"Yea baby? You like that?" He moaned pushing his cock against her he slid two fingers over her clit and began to rub small soft circles against her. "You feel so good in my hands Bella baby"
"Uhhhhh Edward…. more" She bucked her little hips against him.
"Fuck baby…. you're going to cum aren't you? Can you feel it baby …. let it go sweetheart, don't fight it" He groaned completely in awe of how beautiful she was rocking against him.
She started grinding harder and faster against him and he knew this was it. Baby girl was going to have her first orgasm just for him, and in that moment he swore to himself he would never let another motherfucker see her this way. She was his.
Shivering and shattering she clung to him so tight as she came whispering his name. Holding her tight he rocked her little body through it, pushing her harder against his cock.
Edward shot forward in bed at the sound of his alarm. Groaning at the time he laid back down shutting it off. The dream raced through his mid, the memory so precious to him. Last night Bella had basically told him she was done with him. He may never have her sweet beautiful body in his bed again.
That girl. That fucking girl had been driving him insane for years with her perfect little body. And my god she was so sweet… so different than what he was used to. He had always wanted to be with her, but the truth was that he never thought he was good enough for her. His beautiful baby deserved the world and he was Edward Cullen the man whore.
Now he realized it was his own fault. The hurt in her eyes last night was haunting him. The gravity at what he had been doing the past two years hit him hard.
If it had been him who walked in on her with someone else it would have wrecked him. Truth was, those girls, were nothing to him, just a way to avoid taking advantage of Bella or pushing her too far too soon. But now he realized he had hurt her beyond comprehension, that he had destroyed her perfect little heart. That perfect little heart he loved so much and was trying to protect.
And as he laid there all he could think was…. How the fuck do I fix this?
Sitting across from Rose, Bella avoided conversation by shoving her mouth full of French fries.
"So are we going to talk about this? Or are you going to act like a child and avoid it?" She said setting her fork down and throwing her napkin over her empty plate.
"What do you want me to say Rose. I told you, I blocked his number last night. I'm done." She sighed
"I find that hard to believe, but I'm glad your finally being strong and standing up for yourself, it only took 2 years." She laughed "come on B talk to me… this guy was your first kiss… your in love with him"
"And he doesn't love me… it is what it is Ro" She sighed
"God he's a fucking moron." She laughed. "If it makes you feel any better he and Em got into it last night, he's not really speaking to Edward at this point."
"Wish it did."
"Lets go out tonight!" She smiled taking Bellas hands in hers from across the table. "Jasper is spinning downtown, he can get you in … I'll sneak you a drink or two… it'll be so fun"
"Ugghhhh noooo Rose" Bella groaned dropping her head to the table.
"YESSSS. Edward will be there and we will show him what he's missing." She cheered.
Edward sat at the bar sipping whiskey, watching the love of his life dance and spin with Alice. She looked as perfect as ever. Pretty pink dress, heels, makeup, cute ponytail. Guys were surrounding her like fucking animals and all he could do was sit there and drink.
Rose left the girls walking in his direction and he groaned pushing his yankee cap down further to avoid eye contact.
"You ok?" She slid into the bar stool next to him
"You care now?" He laughed
"We have been friends since we were five dude. Ofcoarse I care." She signaled the bar tender for another glass of wine. "Talk."
"Why? So you can tell me I told you so? It hurts enough Ro, I don't need salt in the wound." he sulked leaning over his glass, depressed.
"Look. You deserve this, I hope you realize that by now. But your still my friend, so if you want to talk I'm here." She sighed turning his hat around so she could see his eyes.
"I fucking love her Rosalie." He whispered.
"I know you do. But you can't treat people you love that way and expect them to stick around forever Edward."
"I just always thought eventually… "
"Yea that's the problem Bud… when the fuck is eventually?"
"I know ok!?" Edward yelled "God the thought of her with someone else is fucking killing me…" he groaned glancing back at her on the dance floor. "She's so fucking perfect" He sighed
"She is. Bella is one of the good ones." Rose turned in her bar stool watching Bella dance.
"Do I even have a chance?" He asked
Rose froze glancing over at him, not expecting this. She had never in her life seen Edward Cullen sad, especially over a girl. He looked awful.
"Well, right now I would say no. Because instead of trying to get her back your acting like a child who just had their favorite toy taken away."
Edward sunk his gaze back to the floor ashamed.
"If you love her the way you say you do, why are you sitting here getting drunk instead of trying to change? That girl has loved you for years, while you broke her heart hooking up with other girls. She has never let anyone else touch her Edward. Do you have any idea how fucked up she was after she saw you with Victoria?"
"Fuck." He sighed
"Yea." Rose laughed "Listen to me Edward. If you want her back, its going to take a lot of hard work and change from you. It wont happen overnight. But if you really… really love her you'll put in the work." She sighed picking up her glass of wine and stepping away from the bar. "Here's a start for you … have you ever told her how much you love her?"