Chapter 4 : Take a bow

Song: Rihana- Take a bow

Crying Bella collapsed into Edwards bed. She had just come from the beach where she found him with Tanya Denali on his lap kissing his neck. Heartbroken she ran off as soon as she realized he saw her.

"BELLA" She heard him call for her and only sobbed harder

Throwing his door open he waltzed in and picked her up pulling her onto his lap. She kicked and fought but he wouldn't let her go.

"Stop baby." He sighed

"I hate you! Why her and not me? I don't understand" She sobbed into his chest.

"Bella she means nothing to me." He whispered "She's nothing baby…not like you… your my princess Bella you know that."

"Than why can't I be your girlfriend?" She cried

"Baby your so young we have lots of time for that, just give me time baby please?" He sighed kissing her hair.

"I just don't understand what I did wrong…"

"Nothing! Bella baby your perfect! Please don't think that way" He hugged her tighter "It's just not the right time for us. Baby look at me." He whispered lifting her chin up and wiping away her tears. "No other girl will ever be you, and I promise one day we can be together, we just can't right now sweetheart. Please don't give up on us"

She nodded her head, tears still streaming down it broke his heart. He had to give her something to show her he meant it. Leaning forward he did what he had been dreaming about for months and pressed his lips to hers. She froze and he pulled her closer coaxing her gently she pressed her lips against his harder and he groaned at her sweet taste. After a few moments he pulled away stroking the tears away from her pink cheeks.

"That was my first kiss" she whispered embarrassed resting her forehead against his.

"Good" He smiled pecking her lips again.

Flowers. There was a new delivery every day and her apartment was flooded.

"Bella what the fuck?" Alice screamed as she walked into the living room to find room for the latest delivery. "Can you just sit down and talk to him already this is ridiculous"

"Yeah, no." Bella laughed pulling out the latest card.

I remember every kiss every touch baby, please just talk to me. Your my everything- Edward

"Look I know he's an ass and he fucked up beyond belief, but please for the love of god put a stop to this." She sighed

It had been three weeks since she even laid eyes on him at the bar downtown. From what she was hearing from her friends Edward was beside himself. He showed up at the door last weekend banging on the door, She had Alice send him away.

That picture in her mind hadn't gone away. She couldn't face him.

"Why should i?" She asked Alice

"Bella he needs to hear it! He needs to know how you feel, not for nothing girl but as much as he is to blame so are you! You knew what he was doing and you stuck around, you let him hurt you over and over and never really told him what it did to you!" She yelled standing up from the couch to hug her. "He needs to hear it Bella." She sighed

"Yeah I guess you have a point." She sighed. For so long she let what he was doing effect her. Her self esteem was in the toilet, she felt like she was never good enough for him, and she never breathed a word of that to him.

Picking up another card off a set of flowers that came yesterday she sighed opening it.

I was so wrong, and I know I don't deserve you, but I can't stop, and I wont because I Love You Bella- Edward

With that she broke, dropping to her knees clutching the card to her chest she sobbed, Alice dropping with her. "How could he write that… he's never even said it… how could he?"

"Shhhh, I know B" She rubbed her back "I know it hurts, and I'm so sorry."

"Love you Al"

"Love you too B"

Edward sighed glanced staring at his phone. Still nothing. He had no idea what else to do. He hadn't seen her beautiful face in three weeks and it was destroying him. All he could think was… how could he have been so stupid? So careless with her heart… with his own? Why did he do it?

"Dude. Stop with the phone already." Emmett sighed dropping down next to him on the couch

"Sorry." He sighed tossing it to the side.

"Alice just texted me, said the girls were coming over to the beach tonight." Jasper said surprised. They hadn't been hanging out as a group much the last three weeks. The girls had avoided the boys beach house like the plague.

"Seriously? Bella Too?" Edward asked excited.

"Yea, dude." He said wide eyed.

"Well this is your chance bro." Emmett sighed "Make sure you make it worth it."

"Fuck." He groaned taking off toward the shower.

Later that night he lay in bed. Emmett said he would text when Bella showed up. He wasn't coming out before then, she was the only person he wanted to see. Laying there he closed his eyes remembering her sweet soft skin, the way she felt in his hands, how good she smelled. Memories flooded his mind.

After a few drinks, Bella was wild tonight, usually she was so shy and afraid to push things forward physically.

"Please please please" She begged between kisses in that sweet voice. "Make me feel good like last time"

"mmmm baby fuck your killing me. You want me to touch you again?" He moaned watching her body rock and push up underneath him. To his utter shock she pushed him back and sat up, pulling her dress over her head, leaving her only in a pink bra and panties. "Baby…." He sighed

"Please, I want you too Edward…"

"God Bella, your so fucking sexy baby." he groaned, sliding his hands up her soft thighs and up to her stomach. Just like last time he slid his hand between her legs and cupped her pussy pressing down on her.

"uhhhhh please" She begged and it absolutely broke him.

"Shhhh baby ok…" He pushed again rubbing her hard. Her panties were soaked and he had to have more, to really feel her. He slid his hand back up and she whined. "I'm not stopping baby…. im just going to touch you underneath these, ok?" He said stroking his fingers back and forth over the lace seam of her panties. She nodded her head yes and he slid his hand underneath touching her bare pussy for the first time. She froze nervously. "It's ok babylove, don't be afraid" he soothed her sliding his fingers up and down her soft wet pussy.

This time he dipped his fingers inside her just a little bit a few times and she bucked up off the bed.

"Come on baby, tell me what feels good. Does it feel good when I push inside?" He whispered between kisses

"mmmm ye… yesss" she sighed

"Like this beautiful?" he asked pumping a finger in and out of her gently. She was soaked and so tight it took every thing in him not to take her right then and there.

She nodded her head and he continued slowly increasing his pace. Pumping in and out he was amazed at how precious she was to him, loving that he was the one making her feel this way, that she trusted him this way.

"Mine baby, every pretty inch of you is mine Bella." He whispered sucking and licking down her neck.

"I'm yours Edward…. Love you" she whispered as she came.

Edward groaned cumming hard into his fist.

"Fuck" He groaned as the real world came back to him and the sadness came back over him. It wasn't real, she wasn't here with him in his bed. Cleaning himself up he was fighting tears. He needed her so badly, just to hold her in his arms.

His phone went off a few minutes later, Emmett alerting him that the girls just pulled in. He took a deep breathe threw on his hat and hoodie and swung open his door. Stopping short, there she was ready to knock on his door.

"Ummm hi" she said beautiful as ever

"Bella…" he sighed reaching for her. At first she stepped back, but quickly changed her mind jumping into his arms and hugging him tight. She was sobbing and clutching at him, picking her up gently she wrapped her legs around him. Closing the door he backed up to sit on the bed squeezing her tight.

"I hate you." She cried

"I know baby, I know."