Description: My version of how Joey and Pacey got together set before season three.
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Disclaimer: I do not own the character's or show, just the original story line.
Crazy Love
Chapter #7
(Pacey/Joey pov; split conversation)
" Dawson, I have a dilemma.", I greet with a sigh before climbing through Dawson's window. Potter and I have not spoken in two days. It is beginning to worry me. We had an amazing night together. I am not just talking about the sex either, though that was unexpected and great. The next morning Jo all but ignored me. She wanted nothing to do with me and I have no idea why. Here I thought that after having slept together it would have brought us closer together. This was far from the case and I just do not know what I did wrong.
" Whoa, whats wrong Pace? You look like hell. Everything alright?", questions Dawson while sifting through a pile of movies. He is right, I do look like hell. This is because I haven't slept since Jo and I spent the night together. Afterward Joey slept in my arms all night. We woke up in the morning and it was like she could not get away from me fast enough. When I tried to ask her what was wrong she just sort of told me that I should probably go. Much as I didn't want to, what other choice did I have? The last I wanted was to fight with Potter.
" You know how you and the others are always joking that Jo and I are into one another and just won't admit it?", I inquire while sitting on the edge of his bed. Turns out they were all right. Joey and I are most definitely into one another. Or...well, I am into her. For a while I thought that she felt the sae. How could I not? We slept together. But now? It is as though she wants absolutely nothing to do with me. I am truly at a loss right now. Joey won't take my calls or even answer the door when I come knocking. All I want to do is see her and talk about whatever it is that happened between us but she refuses to see me.
… " Because you are and it is obvious to everyone except the two of you? Yes, I'm aware of this. What of it Joey?", acknowledges Jen with an arched eyebrow. The smug smirk on her face is not making this conversation any easier for me. Fairly certain once I confide in Jen that Pacey and I...well, slept together that I am never going to hear the end of it. Maybe I should have gone to someone else for advice. Who though? It is not like I could just tell Bess that I slet with Pacey while she was away. Pretty sure that if I did? She would never leave me alone for the weekend again. I am not even sure how it happened either. When he whispered in my ear a shudder went through me and I just wanted him.
" ...Are you done Lindley?", I ask in agitation before folding my arms across my chest. Really wish that I had literally anyone else to talk to about this. Seeing as how I don't, might as well get this conversation over with. Maybe Jen could give me advice on how to handle things. Do I like Pacey? Apparently I must if I slept with him. I know that it was not a moment of uncontrolable hormones either. Not once have I ever had a problem resisting Pacey's goofball charms before. I don't even know how to explain it, I just...needed him. The next morning I felt so embarrassed of how I had behaved and I sort of just shut Pacey out in the confusion.
" Yes, I am. Sorry, go on Joey.", urges before leaning forward in her seat. Taking a moment to compose myself, I close my eyes and gather my thoughts. To be honest I am not sure why I pushed Pacey away the way that I did. Guess that I was just scared. I had no idea what that night meant to Pacey or even what it meant to me. All that I knew is we had slept together and it was amazing. Now I don't know what to think. Am I in love with Pacey? Is he in love with me? Was this just one big mistake? Does he want to be with me or is he only looking for sex? These questions along with a million others are all running through my mind and I just have no idea what to do.
..." Well, see the thing is...Potter and I...we slept together.", I admit hesitantly before glancing at Dawson for his reaction. The look on his face is one of shock. He was not expecting me to tell him this. Hell I was not anticipating ever haing the chance to yet here I am. Not sure why I told him this. Could have just left that part out and told him they were all right about the two of us. The whole sex part would have come out eventually though, there is just no hiding something like that. Right now I can't tell if Dawson is shocked or if he is angry. It is no secret that his and Joey's friendship these last few months has been… well complicated to say the least. While they never dated, there was a time where it was made known that Jo was into him. Nothing ever came of this knowledge though since they both decided thatthey were better as friends. In reality Dawson has no reason to be upset ith me. He has no claim whatsoever on Potter.
Taking a careful seat, Dawson turns his full attention to me," That is impossible Pacey, you and Joey despise one another."
Running a frustrated hand through my hair, I reluctantly nod my agreement," That we do, your right. This does not change the fact that we slept together though."
..." Alright, you're going to have to give a minute Joey. I need to process what you just told me.", informs Jen with a confused shake of her head. Oh, you need to process what I just told you? Welcome to the club. Pacey and I are supposed to hate each other yet for whatever reason, this is no longer the case. This knowledge alone is enough to terrify me. I really let my guard down with him the other night. If it meant nothing to Pacey...I would be completely crushed and heart broke. This is why I have shut him out if I were to be honest.
" You're not the only one, trust me.", I reassure Jen with a growing frown. This conversation is not one that I ever expected to have, let alone with Jen of all people. Admitting to her that she and the others were right about the two of us all along? This was not an easy task. Thing is, I needed someone to talk with and Jen was the only person I could think of. Pacey and ihave not spoken since that not. This is my doing though, I have all but gone out of my way to avoid him like the plague. The thought of him rejectiong me...well it is enough to kill me.
" Rewind a little Joey, how did this happen?", ponders Jen while leaning forward in her seat. This is a complicted question. Truth is I have no idea how this happened. That morning, I woke to find Pacey had made me breakfast. We spent the whole day together. First we worked on his boat, had fun swimming in the creek, then he made me dinner and I ased him to stay the night so I wouldn't have to be alone. Before I knew what had happened my lips were on his and the rest just happened so quick. I don't even regret a single minute of any of it either. How could I? Pacey was so kind and gentle the entire time. It was as though he were afraid of hurting me.
..." To be honest, I am not even sure. Potter and I hungout, we worked on my boat, swam and I cooked her dinner. I was all set to leave when Jo asked if I could stay since she didn't want to be alone. Next thing I knew...well, you know.", I finish in a gruff manner. Not really wanting to go into details, I decide to leave the rest to Dawson's imagination. What I need now is his advice more then anything. Joey won't speak to me and I have no idea why or even what to do. To be honest I was hoping Dawson could help me figure out a way to get Potter to see me. We need to talk about this and figure out what it meant. The sooner I am able to figure out what is going on with Jo the better. Who better to come to for a solution to making her see this then Dawson?
Grabbing himself a soda, Dawson tosses another to me," so, what? Was it just a one night hook up or did it mean something Pacey?
Frowning to myself at his question, I make it a point to look Dawson in the eye," You and I both know it was not meaningless. Joey would not have sex with someone if it meant nothing."
..." Point taken, sorry Jo. Have you talked with Pacey about it?", pries Jen much to my disliking. No, I have not. Truth is I am afraid to. I know what that night meant to me. But I have not even the faintest clue what it meant to Pacey. If he told me it was nothing more then sex? My heart would be shattered. I don't know when or how it happened but I somehow managed to fall for Pacey Witter and I went down hard. Never once have I felt so strongly towards anyone ever. This thought alone is what scares the hell out of me the most.
" There in lies the difficult part Jen, I am afraid to.", I confess in a low voice while lowering my eyes toward thr ground. Part of me knows that talking to Pacey about whatever it is that happened between the two of us is inevitable. But I just cannot bring myself to do so. Of mortified of how the conversation will turn out. Did our night together mean something to Pacey? Be cause most certainly meant a hell of a lot to me. If he were to tell me that he did not feel the same, I am not sure that I could handle it. The mere thought is enough to ruin me. How could I have left myself so vulnerable?
" Hate to say it Joey, but you are going to have to deal with this eventually. Take my advice, go talk to Pacey.", encourages Jen with a nudge. Ugh, I hate it when she is right. Talking with Pacey is sort of the last thing I want to do. Jen is one hundred percent right though. I need to have an actual conversation with Pacey. Is it going to be easy? No. Will he more then likely be upset that I have been avoiding him the last two days? Yes. This is something that I am going to have to deal with though and I suppose now is as good a time as ever.
..." You're right. I knew coming to you with this was a good idea. I am going to find Potter right now and talk things out. Thanks man, I will let you know how it goes. Wish me luck, I am going to need it.", I remark with only a hint of sarcasm in my voice. It is the truth though. Talking to Joey is not going to be an easy task. The girl basically made it known that she wants nothing to do with me. This is killing me because I thought that we had a pretty amazing time the other day and I am not just talking about the sex either. It might not be easy getting Joey to listen to me but I have at least try to. So that is precisely what I am going to do. After finishing a little work on the boat, I am headed over to Potter's house to hopefully settle things between the two of us once and for all.