Description: My version of how Joey and Pacey got together set before season three.
Author's Note: reviews are appreciated, please leave some.
Disclaimer: I do not own the character's or show, just the original story line.
Crazy Love
Chapter #8
(Pacey's pov)
" Was hoping that I might find you, think we could talk Potter?", I question as I walk upbehind her on the docks near her house. It has taken me twenty minutes to work up the courage just to walk up and say something to Joey during that time I sat in my jeep just staring at her. I couldn't keep myself from wondering how a girl like that would ever sleep with a guy like me. Was it poor judgmenton Joey's part? It had to be right? I am not the guy that gets a girl like Jo. Maybe she realized this too and is too ashamed to admit to herself that we slept together. Fact of the matter is that we did though. Now we have to talk about what it meant. This is the difficult part.
" About what Witter?", asks Joey not even bothering to glance back at me. Is she kidding me right now? About what? How about the fact that we slept together. Does any of that possibly ring a bell? Is she honestly telling me that she is perfectly fine pretending that we didn't have sex? Sorry, but I am not Joey. That night meant a great deal to me and I would hope that it did to her as well. Considering that it was both our first times, I would hope it was special for Potter as it was for me. If she wants to hate me that is fine but don't ignore the fact we slept together, it's hurtful.
" Come on, Jo. You know what I am talking about.", I point out with a growing frown. Why is she trying to brush what happened the other night under the table? Is Joey ashamed to have slept with me? Because I have to be honest, the feel is not mutual for me. Under normal circumstances, I know Josephine Potter is completely out of my league. But for whatever reason, we collided the other night under her bed sheets and it just felt so...right. It was as though Jo and I were meant to be even if only for that brief moment in time. I could not have been the only one who felt it.
" Fine, you and I had sex Pacey. Did I think that it could have meant more than it did? Call me crazy but yes. I am not an idiot though, I know that is not the case. So please save me the speech about how your sorry and hope that this won't ruin our already non existent friendship.", snaps Joey in agitation before turning to glare up at me. She thought that I came her to tell her the other night meant nothing? How little does Joey think of me? Of course it meant something to me! How could it not? I am only head over heels in love with the girl. Have been since I stole that kiss from Jo in first grade and she called me gross and pushed me to the ground. The girl has only had me chasing her around ever since. All I want is for Potter to finally let me catch her.
Standing beside Joey on the dock, stare out across the creek at the night sky," That is why you think that I came here Joey?"
Rolling her eyes in frustration, Joey brushes a stray strand of hair behind her ear," I am not an idiot Pacey. You and I both know that the two of us would never work."
" We wouldn't?", I ask after a minute or so of silence? Joey's words cut through me like a knife. Sleeping with her was too good to be true, but to hear Jo say we could never work...that hurts like hell. While I know that I may not be Joey's ideal guy, if given the chance I know that I could make her happy. At the very least, I would do whatever it took trying to at least. She just seems hell bent on looking for reasons as to why the two of us could never be though. Am I the only one hoping that this weren't the case though? How can Potter not see how clearly into her I am?
" No, we couldn't. How could we? I sicken you and well lets just say you're not my favorite person either Pace.", reminds Joey much to my displeasure. Alright, if she is going to throw hurtful and angry words around, I can do the same too. What the hell was I even thinking coming here in the first place? Joey had been avoiding me for the last two days. Instead of being upset, I should have just taken the hint. If she wants nothing to do with me than I am alright with that. This said that does not mean I am going to stand here and let her lash out at me. I am not going to let Joey walk over me, I did nothingwrong and do not deserve it.
" You know what Joey? You're absolutely right. Coming here was a mistake. Excuse me for thinking the other night might have meant something since it obviously didn't.", I vent in agitation before turning to leave. Stopping when Joey reaches for my hand, I reluctantly turn around. Taking a chance, I glance into her eyes. In them I see confusion and complete vulnerability.Not knowing what to do, I sit beside Joey on the dock and stare out across the creek. I am not entirely sure what is going on between the two of us. Wish I had even the faintest clue as to what Jo was thinking right about now. Unfortunately for me, I don't. Did the other night mean anything to her? Because it meant a great deal to me.
" Pace, I didn't mean to lash out at you. I'm just scared is all.", confesses Joey in a low voice. She's scared? That is a relief because I am too. We both sort of took a giant leap. One I am not sure either of us was ready for. Now we are both left with a thousand unanswered questions. For starters, where do we go from here? Was the other night only a one time deal? Do I want to be with Potter? Does she want to be with me? Is our friendship ruined? What I wouldn't give to know what Jo was thinking right now. All this uncertainty is enough to drive me up the walls.
Placing an arm around Joey, I whisper into her ear," You think that I am not Potter?"
Lying her head on my shoulder, Joey hugs my arm gently," Think maybe we could both be terrified and confused together Witter?"
" I would like that very much Joey.", I confide with a growing smile. Placing a kiss on her forehead, I hug Joey close. This is all that I have ever wanted. Joey has no idea how amazed I am that she would even consider wanting to be seen with a guy like me. Lets face it, this girl could have her pick of about any guy she wanted and yet I am the one she chose. Why Jo would ever want to be with the likes of me is beyond me. We both know that she deserves better. If Joey is willing to give me a chance though, who am I not to take it then?
" What happens now Pacey?", ponders Joey with an arched eyebrow. Funny, I was just about to ask her the exact same thing. Where do we go from here? It is no secret by now that I am into Joey. The question is, are the feelings mutual? Sure we may have slept together but that doesn't mean anything. For all I know that could have been a momentarylapse in judgmenton Potter's part. It is killing me inside not to knowwhether the other night meant something to Joey. She could have any guy she wants but she is the only girl I want. This fact alone scares the hell out of me.
" That all depends on you Jo.", I point out in a gruff manner. Lifting her head from my shoulder, Joey peeks up at me quietly. I am met with a questioning look. Come on, we both know full well that the ball is in your court Potter. You either want to be with me every bit as much as I want to be with you, or you don't. I don't have a choice in the matter. My intentions have been made perfectly clear. You are the girl that I want Jo. It has always been you, ever since I could remember. Nothing is going to change that, not that I would want something to.
" I guess if you are willing to take a chance on me? Then I am willing to do the same Witter. Just please don't ever make me regret it?", reasons Joey while climbing into my arms. Huh, she is willing to give me a shot? What lottery did I win? Not that I am going to question Joey's thought process. This is what I was hoping for after all. Joey feels the same about me as I do her. This is great, never thought that she would. Just when I think I have this girl all figured out she goes and throws me another unexpected curve ball. Wonder if Jo knows just how much it is that I am in love with her? One day I am going to make it a point to tell her because I think she deserves to know.
Description: My version of how Joey and Pacey got together set before season three.
Author's Note: reviews are appreciated, please leave some.
Disclaimer: I do not own the character's or show, just the original story line.
Crazy Love
Chapter #9
(Fast forward 3 years; Jen's pov)
" You know, it might help you to talk about it Joey.", I advise while taking a seat beside her on the docks. Poor girl has not been herself ever since things between her and Pacey went south. Really would like to know what happened between the two of them. From what I could tell those two were happy. Never once saw them argue or fight. Then the night of senior prom came and well Joey and Pacey had it out in front of our entiresenior class. The two of them broke up and have not spoken a word to one another since. It is sad really, if those two can't make things work what hope is there for the rest of us?
" While I appreciate the offer, I would much rather not.", dead pans Joey with a frown taking over her features. This girl sure knows how to be stubborn when she wants to be. I don't even have a clue as the why the two of them fought in the first place. Things looked like they were great between the two of them. Brief pregnancy scare aside, Joey seemed to be happier then ever. Apparently that was not the case with Pacey. That night at prom he sure had a lot of anger and frustration to get off his chest. If he had only waited to speak with Joey I can't help thinking that things could have ended differently.
" Come on Joey, what the hell happened between the two of you?", I pry not wanting to drop the subject. This in turn earns me a scowl. Fine be like that. All I am trying to do is help. What is so wrong with wanting to see my two best friends both happy and in love again? It just sucks knowing that Joey and Pacey aren't together anymore, I really thought those two would go the distance. Hell they were only together for the last little over two and a half years. What could have possibly gone so wrong? This is what I don't get.
" You are asking the wrong person Jen because I honestly have no clue. Pacey is the one who had the melt down at prom, not me. I am just the one left picking up the shattered pieces of her broken heart.", remarks Joey with a bitter tone. Perhaps Pacey is the one that I should be talking to. She is absolutely right. He is the one that just tore Joey to pieces. She has no idea why and neither do the rest of us. How do you go from happy in love couple to two people who can't stand the sight of each other? This whole thing has me completely baffled.
Pulling Joey into my arms, I hug her tight against me," You are right Jo, I'm sorry. Look, I don't know what is up with Pacey. But I promise to try and figure out what his deal is."
Swiping at her eyes, Joey shakes her head before brushing a strand of hair behind her ear," Thanks Jen, but there is no use. Pacey made his decision, he wants nothing to do with me. Which sucks royally but there is not much that I can do about it."
(Dawson's pov)
" Alright Witter, start talking. Where the hell do you get off just flat out breaking Joey's heart the way you did?", I question with a sigh before taking a seat beside him on the deck ofTrue Love. Personally, I think the guy is an idiot. He hadJosephine Potter and just let her walk away. What moron in their right minds would ever want to do a stupid thing like that? From where I was standing I had it on fairly good authority that the two of them were happy together. What the hell could have happened to change this? Where did Pacey's anger and hate filled outburst come from? How do you go from being in love to hating one another in such a short amount of time?
" Sorry, I am failing to see how this is any of your business Dawson?", remarks Pacey with a bitter laugh. Is he serious right now? How is this not my business? For the last two and a half years, I watchedthose two grow closer then ever to one another and in one night Pacey stupidly throws everything away and for what? That is my question. Why the hell would Pacey ever want to risk losing Joey Potter? Did he not once tell me that he could not believe how lucky he was to land a girl like Joey? If this is the case then why the hell would he ever want to end things with her? I am sorry but it just makes no sense what so ever.
" It is my business when my best friend completely wrecks the heart of a girl who just so happens to be my other best friend. What reason could you possibly have for doing that Pacey?", I remark with resentment in my tone. I have every right to resent Pacey, he realized what I failed to. He noticed just exactly what an amazing catch our miss Josephine Potter truly is. Sometimes I find myself wondering how I could have ever let her slip through my finger tips the way that I did. Pacey did not waste a second swooping in and staking his claim on her either. There are times I am jealous of what him and Joey have. It is something I often wonder if we could have had if only we hadn't decided our friendship was more important. Pacey doesn't know how good he has it.
" Do you know that Joey was talking about forfeitingher scholarship to Worthington just to be with me and go to community college here? How could I ever let her do something like that when I know that she would regret it Dawson?", argues Pacey to my surprise. This is something that I did not know. Joey never once mentioned wanting to give up her scholarship. Even if she had what would be the big deal? She knew what she wanted. Joey wanted more then anything to be with Pacey? Who is to say not going to Worthington would have been such a bad decision on her part? Joey is a smart girl, she would still end up landing whatever career she wanted on a community college education. The point is she was willing to give it all up just to be with Pacey and he repaid her by stomping on her heart?
Grabbing myself a beer from the cooler, I hand another to Pacey," So you lash out and break up with her because of this? How does that solve anything Pacey?"
Taking a long drink from his beer, Pacey lets out a frustrated sigh," It was never my intention to snap on Jo the way that I did Dawson, that is something I regret. This said it does not exactly change anything. Maybe this isn't the ending I had hoped for with Potter but its the one the both of us were dealt."
(Pacey/Joey's pov split conversation)
" This is your last chance Pacey.", points out Dawson much to my disliking. Much as I would like to not know what he is talking about, I do. He is referring to Joey. Not a day has gone by in which Dawson, Jen and even Jack have pointed out that Joey and I have seemed to left a lot unspoken between the two of us. Unfortunately for me that is just how things are going to stay. Joey has made oh so clear that she wants nothing what so ever to do with me. The numerous attempts I have made to try and patch things up even if only for the sake of our friendship? They have all proven worthless. Potter hates my guts, as she rightly should. There is nothing I can do to change this and to be honest I am tired of trying.
" Last chance for what exactly Dawson?", I ponder deciding to play dumb. While I may know just exactly what he is talking about, dawson does not need to know this. Truth be told I would much rather not be having this conversation right now. There is no point to it. What is done is done. Do I regret how things ended between Joey and I? Of course, there is not a day that goes by that I wish I couldn't take back all of the hurtful words I spoke to Joey that night at prom. Sadly there is no way to undo the damage my brief moment of frustration and pent up agitation caused. The damage is done and Jo wants literally nothing to do with me, not that I could blame her.
" Cut the crap Pacey, you know exactly what I mean. Joey is leaving for Worthington tomorrow, once she does your chances of reconciling things with her are through. Is that what you want Pacey?", inquires Dawson with a frown taking over his features. Is that what he wants to talk about? There is nothing between Potter and I anymore and hasn't been for two and a half months. The girl wants nothing to do with me. Who the hell could blame her? Me being the jerk that I am, well I ripped her heart out and handed it back to her in pieces. A simple talk with Joey is not going to change this fact and Dawson is insane to think that it ever could. Why does he care so much? He should be happy Jo and I aren't together anymore.
..." I am very much aware of this Jen, thank you for bringing me up to date.", I deadpan in a sarcastic manner with a roll of my eyes. This in turn frustrates Jen as she gives me a light shove. What is it that she wants from me? Pacey is the one who ended things. He is the one who said we were over. I was completely left out of the decision making process that involved our future together. Jen knows all of this, she was there while I bawled my eyes out. Why does she insist on making me revisit such a painful moment in my past? Shouldn't she be encouraging me to move on? This is what a good friend would be doing at least.
Snatching my slice of pizza from me, Jen takes a few bites while shaking her head," Are you honestly going to leave without attempting to sort things out with Pacey?"
Regarding Jen with an aggravatedscowl, I grab myself another slice to enjoy before I even bother to answer," What do you want from me Jen? Even if I wanted to work things out with Pacey he made it painfully clear at prom that he did not want to be with me anymore. Nothing I can say will change this."
..." Pacey, do you love her or not man?", asks Dawson not bothering to beat around the bush anymore. Do I love Joey? What the hell kind of question is that? Obviously I love Potter. Did I make a stupid rash decision about our future together? Yes. Is there anything I could do to change my mistake? Something tells me the likely hood of Jo wanting to mend fences with me are probably slim to none. I did the one thing I once swore I would never do. I broke Josephine Potter's heart, for christ sake I wrecked the poor girl. How could I ever expect her to forgive me?
" Come on, Dawson. That is a ridiculousquestion, you know that I do.", I confide with an exhausted sigh. Scratching at the back of my neck, I close my eyes. How could I not love Jo? Out of all the guys she had her pick from, I am the one she chose. I am the one who won the lottery. Only thing is I am also the one who was dumb enough to let Joey walk away. What the hell was I thinking? This is a question I have asked myself every single day since that night at prom when my world came crumpling down as I know it.
" Then trust me when I tell you that if you let Jo leave tomorrow without telling her how you feel and asking for her forgiveness...it is something you will come to regret for the rest of your life.", advises Dawson with a hard slap on my back. Without another word he leaves me with my thoughts. Watching as he walks off, I let out a groan in anger. Why does he always have to be right? Do I think that I should go and speak with Joey? To be honest, yes I do. Do I think that any good will come of it? No, I can't say that I do. The girl hates me, hell Jo practically told me so after I concluded my rant. There is nothing I can do to change this. It would be stupid of me to assume otherwise.