Kenzi found Bo outside in the cool air leaning up against the wall with her arms crossed. She was staring out into space and looked despondent when she approached.

Kenzi knew Bo wanted to be left alone and was not really in the talking mood. As such, Kenzi took a seat on the bench hunched over with her elbows on her knees.

After sitting for a time, Kenzi broke the silence and just mentioned off hand, "Parents can just be plain annoying to put it mildly. They kind of treat you like a kid since you are their child that they raised. But, all through that, they still love you and want the best for you."

Bo just shook her head in disgust. Then talking to the floor, she just cut to the chase, "My mom wants me to use Tamsin's and Lauren's love for me to push them harder to find a cure."

"They are doing their very best and then some," Kenzi clarified calmly not really knowing why Bo was even entertaining what her mother was saying. "As for T-sam she is still trying to recover from her own issues with the bond and all."

"I know," Bo exhaled sharply.

Kenzi just let the conversation drop since she knew there was a 'but' in there somewhere.

Bo continued, "Aife claims that I can't love, so therefore I should use what I have to my advantage. But… but what bugs me is that she claims that Lauren is holding me down on purpose and so is Tamsin who will just dominate me. I will be theirs to use as they please."

Kenzi gingerly put her hand on Bo's forearm and shook her gently, "AND they are yours, Bo bear. They will do what you ask of them. It's a 2 way street."

Bo nodded still not making eye contact with her best friend.

Kenzi then added, "I don't know how many nights Lauren didn't get but an hours' sleep to find a way, ANY way, get you out of your comma. LAUREN was the one that thought of using the bond you had with Tamsin. Also if Lauren wanted you as hers, then WHY has she not given up on finding the cure to get you your powers back? She could have just offered to make you a human."

Bo was confused and dead panned to Kenzi, "Wait. Lauren has something that can make me human?"

"Yup-a-roni. She did it to Evony, she can do it for you. She already has the injection ready to go," Kenzi chipped in.

Bo flared her brown in curiosity, "Why hasn't she told me?"

"Doc hottie knows that if she made you human then the Bo she knows goes with it too. Bo Bo, you are you partly because of you being a succubus. And she also knows that you have a great destiny ahead of you and doesn't want to be the one to take your powers away unless it is the final option. She does love you and will serve you. She will never give up until she finds a cure for you, and not something that will make you any less than you are. OK?"

Bo nodded once more, and hugged Kenzi, "Thanks, and Tamsin?"

"Iiiiii may be a little biased as her mom, but Tammy Fae, would never use you. She could have bolted all this time, even killed you for … emmmmm…. Toying with her heart. She is with you now. The sisterhood, her 'new' life and her last life IS YOURS since she refused to go on that path all for you," Kenzi put forth firmly.

Kenzi added, "Ask them for the world and THEY will give it to you. You depend on them, they depend on you. That's friendship. But when you ARE their world, and their entire world is yours, that is true love."

Bo then asked, "I want to be a normal monogamous human Kenz. I … I … may have to choose…."

Bo knew this topic was unavoidable, and since Kenzi was Tamsin's mom, this was an area she felt that needed some finesse.

Kenzi heard Bo loud and clear, "Choose and choose quickly. Tamsin has a life on standby and Lauren needs to know so she can move on. Dyson, from what I hear already has so no biggie there."

"It's not that easy. I do want to love Tamsin unconditionally but I want to do that to Lauren too if we can back up enough from what we were. Tamsin is making inroads into my heart as we speak, but Lauren's in roads are already there. Even though I ended it with Lauren, those roads take time to go away," Bo looked down at her feet in defeat.

Kenzi then put it bluntly, "Do you want them BOTH in the same capacity?"

"I… I ….. don't know," Bo furrowed her brows in deep in concentration.

Kenzi put an arm around her, "Come on, let's at least explore it now ok? I'm your bestie remember? I'd rather you make an informed choice taking in all the options rather than eliminating them all off the get go."

Bo nodded and exhaled deeply. She was about to tell Kenzi only things she listed in her diary.

"OK. Tamsin has given me a green light to sleep with Lauren, Dyson and whomever I want. Lauren gives me the same but it has limits to no ex's. However, I know even though Lauren and I never talked about it again, and now especially that she is no longer my girlfriend, she will allow ex's too. She let Tamsin back in right when she could have just made me human. Lauren also tolerates Tamsin a lot better now too."

Bo continued, "Dyson, Lauren and Tamsin would rather me be in their lives than not at all."

Kenzi steered it back on track and asked, "So do you want all 3?"

Bo felt miserable and finally confessed, "Yes. At least Dyson is taken care of for now with emmm Kendra, but I know he still wants me. He'll come pining after me soon or later. Kendra is human after all. …. I mean she is probably a great person, but she has a human life span."

"So does the hot doc," Kenzi offered leading Bo.

"Yea but she'll find a way to be with me sooner or later even if t means becoming Fae herself," Bo confessed. "Even if she remains human, I will love her until the end of her days, she knows that Dyson will have his turn."

"What about Tammy?" Kenzi asked knowing that Tamsin too had a long life as well.

"Tamsin? I don't know where she fits exactly. I want her. All of her. She has promised to be patient with me and not judge me. She's essentially forgiving me for everything I am about to do in exchange for…"

Kenzi completed, "Access to your diary."

"Yea, I'm beginning to have second thoughts. My diary is where I think things through BEFORE I make my decisions. Tamsin will see and can influence my actions. She may also shy away from me if I talk about her in my inside voice. CRAP. I'm screwed and I promised her I'd keep writing," Bo shook her head.

"Well you CAN ask her to not read recent events within say the past month," Kenzi offered.

"Yea. Either that or I lag by that amount of time but keeping it in will drive me nuts," Bo confessed.

"So Bo bear, tell her your dilemma and maybe Tamsin already has a middle ground," Kenzi chipped in. "So if Tamsin essentially needs you to be an open book, so that the bond does not hurt her, then what about Lauren? She's no longer your girlfriend, but you still want her."

"Yes. She's still irresistible but I fear the only reason why she is so tolerant of Tamsin is because she is no longer my GF AND that Tamsin just saved my life. If she were to come back into my life, I don't know how'd she feel about Tamsin. GOD Kenzi am I really talking about having BOTH of them! " Bo threw her hands up in the air upset. "This can't be happening to me! God I HATE being a succubus sometimes!"

"No, even regular humans want more but I'll tell you this much, you won't have the complete picture to go one way or the other if you don't go clean with Tamsin AND Lauren. T-Sam will grant you leniency, I know it, just ask. As for Lauren, you need to ask her to be lenient on you as it pertains to your feeds and Tamsin," Kenzi analyzed. "If she says no, then it's easy, just go with Detective Slaminson. If she says yes, you need to allow her a chance again. See how far she will go for you and find out if she will accept this triangle situation."

Bo plopped down on the bench and covered her face from the world, 'Kenzi. I'm so screwed. If I go on this path it goes against the way I was brought up."

"Did you know unicorns can't regret?" Kenzi mentioned switching gears. "They can't because they live forever. If they did regret then their lives would be a living hell."

Bo nodded hesitantly trying to follow.

"You want NO regrets whichever way you go. Tamsin and Lauren will be OK so long as you make a choice. Dyson can wait for now. Divide and conquer right?" Kenzi lightly punched Bo arms.

Bo nodded once more.

Just then Bo observed that Tamsin came out hanging on Dyson. Dyson looked like he was in really bad shape ignoring everyone.

Kenzi patted Bo on the back, saying, "I'm gonna be inside checking my email."

Kenzi strode calmly inside looking over to a distraught Dyson. She needed to know why without asking him since Dyson, she knew, was in no mood to talk.

Bo strode over quickly concerned and put her hand caringly on Dyson's shoulder, "Dyson? What happened?"

Dyson looked over and just solemnly noted, "It's nothing Bo. Nothing that I can't deal with."

Tamsin just interjected scrunching her face, "Yea nothing that a bar tab won't take care of."

"Dyson? Can I help in any way?" Bo empathized.

"No Bo. I'll be fine. Really," Dyson weakly replied. "I just need some time ok?"

Bo nodded and then looked over to Tamsin asking, "Tamsin, may I have a word with you please?"

Tamsin patted Dyson the back and guided him towards the car, "Wolf Boy, just wait for me in the car and I'll be there in a minute."

Dyson nodded and slinked away.

Tamsin just raised a brow waiting for Bo to spill. She knew this had something to do with access to the diary.

"Tammy?" Bo started until she saw a scowl but Tamsin surprised her and smirked ever so slightly and replied, "Bo, I'll allow you to use that. NO ONE ELSE. Make very sure you don't use it in other company and I won't kick your ass."

Bo lifted a brow and grinned even wider, "Tammy, I feel so special."

"Don't tell me I never gave you anything," she gently tapped Bo nose with her index finger.

Bo laughed but cut to the chase, "Yes, you can have access to my dairy ok? I just need a little leeway to think and work things out for my most recent entries."

Tamsin frowned but knew this was coming, "So if that is the case, how much leeway do you need?"

"A month."

"Done," Tamsin clicked.

Bo lunged in and kissed the surprised Valkyrie.

Tamsin loved Bo's simple carefree touch.

"So, I will keep writing but just try to stay away from anything less than a month … unless there is some sort of emergency like I go missing. Deal?" Bo clarified.

"Yup. Anything else 'cus I need to ask something of my most FAVORITE succubus," Tamsin clicked.

Bo draped her arms around Tamsin's neck and melted at Tamsin comment's and cooed, "Favorite Succubus?"

Tamsin huffed out a laugh then sarcastic added, "You're the only succubus I know that is STILL alive so of course my list is kinda short."

"So?" Bo asked.

Tamsin needed space but needed to relay it in such a way so that Bo accepted it and hence not hurt her via the bond.

Tamsin stuttered you, "Kendra is going home with her husband now. NEEDLESS to say, Dyson isn't a happy camper. He needs to howl at the moon or something depressing. So I'm taking dog for a walk to a dark Fae bar I know of."

"Tamsin, No. Drinking your sorrows away won't help," Bo broke the hug and put her hand on Tamsin's forearm.

"Yea I know, but it dulls the pain. I know what it's like to get your heart broken," Tamsin noted seriously.

Bo backed up and looked at her feet and frowned.

Tamsin held Bo at arm's length and said, "No Bo. No regrets ok? What happened… happened. Let's move past it and … emmmm… I'm … I'm sorry for hurting you with that last comment. I just need to be there for Dyson ok? It has nothing to do with you.. with us ok?"

Bo looked into her green eyes and knew she was being on the level. What also moved Bo was that she actually apologized.

"So you later tonight?" Bo asked.

"Emmmm about that, I'll probably be crashing at Dyson's tonight. Moral support you know," Tamsin replied knowing it wasn't the whole truth but Kenzi's warning caught up with her.

Tamsin then added out of guilty, "I … emmmmm … sorry Bo. I need to give it all to you straight since I have access to your diary."

Tamsin paused.

Bo knew that Tamsin always gave things straight to her but what Tamsin was going to say was probably something big if she was given a half truth.

Bo gave her best puppy dog stare which always worked on Tamsin.

Tamsin finally gave up, "I read sections of your diary since I thought after your talk with your mom, you'd take it back. You want me, Dyson and Lauren. Right?"

Bo was shocked and didn't know that to say. To just say 'yes' made her feel like a horrible person.

Tamsin quickly reassured, "Bo, I will not judge you and it won't affect have I feel about you. Ok?"

Bo nodded meekly, her cheeks getting red.

Bo whispered softly ashamed, "Yes."

"Bo I still love you and I do forgive you for breaking my heart. But I need time to think too and adjust to this… well our new reality," Tamsin mentioned and Bo looked like she was about to cry.

"Tamsin… no don't do this," Bo was hurting backing up slightly. Tamsin was going to end it.

Tamsin felt her heart constrict and in pain and immediately knew what Bo was thinking and immediately added, "BO! I'm not going anywhere. I AM YOURS and that hasn't changed. I love you."

Bo smirked a little and exhaled like she just averted a huge disaster. So what did Tamsin really want to say?

Bo was hesitant, "So you just need a little space like I do with my diary?"

Tamsin nodded.

"Can I think things through and I PROMISE to come back to you. PROMISE PROMISE PROMISE," Tamsin near begged. She oddly cared about Bo's opinion.

"OK," Bo murmured and hugged Tamsin again. She LOVED it when Tamsin begged. Tamsin never did that but Bo knew it was only for her.

Tamsin then asked, "Arin told me that you'd go ballistic if you found me in Dyson's shirt in his bed. Bo, I need to know how you'd feel if that happened. NOT to say it will."

Bo just replied, "I'm ok with it. Dyson needs someone with him tonight and IF something did happen between you 2, I really have no right to judge. Not only that, you went with Dyson for a while. Meanwhile I'm fracking everyone. I can't be a hypocrite."

Then she thought about it and knew it would hit her diary sooner or later so Bo added nuzzling her head under Tamsin chin in defeat, "Tammy?"

"Uh huh," Tamsin stroked her back.

"I'd get jealous. Really jealous. I know I have no right to, but you're mine. And…. Crap was Dyson… Is… SHIT! I'm so fucked up. I've done enough damage already and I don't want to micro manage you two," Bo stated.

"What if I told you I was thinking about all the ways to torture you sexually while I was at Dyson's?"

Bo just chuckled still in the hug, "OK I guess that'd make it better."

"OK. What if I allow you to punish me for being a bad bad girl?" Tamsin added knowing that Bo jealousness had a price.

"Cuffs?"

"Yes"

"Whips?"

"You bet"

"Toys?"

"Whatever you want and if you agree now, I'll bring the chocolate syrup to lick off my nude body which you just chained to your bed," Tamsin smirked knowing she just gave Bo her dream come true.

Bo backed up and covered her mouth in shock. TAMSIN already read one of her fantasies.

"Luck guess," Tamsin huffed out a laugh to soften the blow.

Bo just pecked her on the cheek and asked, "Would you use all of my most lascivious desires in my diary against me?"

"YES," Tamsin smirked looking in the air like she was the greatest.

"My mom was right about you. You would use my diary have dominion over me? Good luck with that," Bo purred.

"I don't know about dominion over you since you are so hard headed and stubborn, but I guarantee that you'd enjoy EVERY moment of it. THAT I promise you," Tamsin clicked.

"EVIL. You are pure evil," Bo shook he head getting turned on.

Tamsin loved the complement and put her hands on her heart hopping up and down slightly, "Iiiiiii know! God I love you Bo for being sooooooooo good and just and being such a gullible baby Fae. God yes, I'm the one your mom warned you about and you are ALL mine!"

Tamsin forgot that Bo was a succubus for a brief moment but no matter, she was going to own Bo. But was Bo what she really wanted? She'd have to duke it out with Lauren. Dyson was still in the game too. She needed time to think.

Tamsin then circled back, "So succubus, can I get the lonely hearts party started with Dyson?"

Bo nodded knowing that she still had Tamsin and liked the fact they were talking honestly to each other.

Tamsin teased walking powerfully away, "Kiss and make up with the doc ok? I'll punish you later if I catch you in bed with her."

"Come over and find out," Bo jeered trying to get Tamsin in bed with her.

Tamsin just huffed out a laugh getting into her SUV.

Bo just chuckled and walked back to her car. No, she didn't need Lauren's company. Not tonight.

Bo popped some food in the microwave and was about to hit start when Kenzi and Lauren sauntered in with grocery bags.

Kenzi announced to all like a professional MC, "And now the moment you have all been waiting for! Doctor Lewis is going to cook a 10 course meal fit for a queen!"

Lauren walked over to Bo and smirked opening the microwave and throwing the left over pepperoni pizza into the trash, plate and all, mentioning, "The nitrate levels contained in this mystery mean are far too high not to mention cheese is a high-calorie product loaded with saturated fat, sodium, and cholesterol which can lead to heart disease and diabetes."

Bo lifted a brow but whined, "But I like my pizza."

"After this meal Bo, pizza will end by being your least favorite food," Lauren bravely put forth. She was going to wine and dine Bo to death.

Kenzi just smirked and pulled items hurriedly out of the bags not even looking at either of them, "Ohhhh sounds like a dare! Care to scrub in and assist with this operation doc?"

"With pleasure," Lauren blew a kiss at Bo. "Now take a seat and watch the magic."

Within less than an hour, Lauren and Kenzi were all done with cooking and creating multi course meal complete with desert.

Lauren even brought wine.

They laughed and had a grand time. They talked about old times and Kenzi made sure to skirt relationship conversations. For Kenzi, she needed Bo bear to not feel so burdened by her present or past romantic interests because in the end, they were all her family.

For Kenzi, the family the slayed together, stayed together.

Oddly enough, she noted that it took a little time, but Bo and Lauren were back to their old selves. Bo and Lauren played off one another and it was kind of cute but what about Tamsin?

Sure Tamsin was not that touchy feely and expressive, but while Lauren wore her emotions on her sleeve, Tamsin SHOWED her emotions in deed. Tamsin was just opening up to Bo and it was probably that bond that was forcing her to change at a much faster pace. If Tamsin didn't communicate her needs in a way that Bo, the succubus, understood and was comfortable with, Tamsin would be in pain through the bond. Strangely enough Tamsin never mentioned that as a problem, probably because Tamsin loved Bo that much where she didn't mind.

Lauren did love Bo enough forgive and move on or was she? She seemed, the way she was acting now moving right back in. The dinner was wonderful and no one could even come close to Lauren's talent. She had bake times down to a T and not only that, she brought her own oven thermometer so get a more accurate reading.

Kenzi zoned out of the conversation as a revelation came to her. Lauren was showing up Tamsin in an area Tamsin had really no experience in. Dyson couldn't compete either. Tamsin was licking her wounds and finding out how to love Bo, but it seemed the Lauren went on the offensive during the Tamsin respite.

Kenzi shook her head to get back into the conversation when the 2 laughed boisterously.

She finished her desert quickly and excused herself and went to Tamsin's room since she knew Tamsin was staying with D-Man.

She hated to do that but Bo and Lauren needed their time together. Bo needed to find a place for Lauren and it wasn't her place to judge.

Kenzi out of curiosity pulled out her phone and text the Valkyrie:

'Hey. What up?'

'Drinkin Dyson under d table.'

'Oh? Who is winning?'

'IDK. But I'll come out ahead.'

'Thought u drank alone when u needed to think?'

'Welp this is kinda alone. Dyson and I haven't really said much to ea other'

'U know Lauren is here eating din with us.'

Kenzi then heard Bo emphatically exclaim, "No LAUREN, you are staying here tonight. You are in no condition to drive!"

Kenzi then head Bo again reply, "My bed has plenty to room."

'Yea, kinda figured, bet L will find a way into B bed.'

Kenzi was amazed. She knew Bo habits as well and Lauren's moves.

'How'd you know? Lauren got drunk off her ass and Bo is offering to bed with her?'

'Figured as much mom.'

There was her daughter. Tamsin just called her mom.

Kenzi replied back, 'R U ok with that?'

'Do I hve a choice?'

Kenzi felt bad since they both knew the answer, 'No'

'Sh** sorry Tammers. Lauren is making a move on Bo.'

'I know.'

'And?'

'Lauren is fghtin 4 Bo's heart. If she gets it, I am free from bond'

'Any do u want to let her go?'

There was an extremely long pause as laughter could be heard from Bo's room. Kenzi was almost ready to call her when the next text from Tamsin came back.

'IDK. So confused. I love Bo and I want her, but how/what way is the question. I GTG. L8r mom.'

Lauren pulled off her pants and blouse tucking herself next to Bo but not touching her. She was only left her bra and thong. Lauren knew it was a matter of time before Bo warmed up to her as the one that belonged in bed with her. With some luck Tamsin's memory would fade away.

Bo needed to feed although she couldn't. She salivated over the sexy human doctor in her bed. Try as she might, she was irresistible.

Bo held strong however. Not being able to have Tamsin too made her feel guilty for sleeping with Lauren. Bo felt that this was a test and she was never one to lose.

Bo waited for Lauren to fall asleep and stealthily got out of the bed, put on a robe and went down stairs to the fridge and pulled out 2 bottles of dark belch then crashed into the couch.

It was going to be a long night Bo brooded taking a sip of her beer. She knew she could crash on Kenzi's spare futon in her room but Bo was still deciding whether to bed with Lauren or not.

After some time passed, Bo decided to just get smashed and pass out on the couch. She just watched re-runs of Buffy the vampire slayer.

This was the best for everyone. The last thing she needed to do was to bang anyone in her bizarre love square.

Night turned into early morning and Bo could not get any sleep but like a zombie kept binge watching.

It was like a dream when she saw Tamsin walk in care free, immediately grabbed a beer, opened it and sat next to Bo.

Bo smirked weakly still tired making room for her.

There they sat watching the show in silence for several minutes.

Her Valkyrie finally spoke up scrunching her face after she took a drink, "Oh and I thought I had a tough life in high school."

Bo just murmured, "Yea but this is a classic, don't ya think?"

"Soooo WHY are you down here Bo?" the Valkyrie asked raising a brow.

"Lauren is sleeping in my bed so I'm crashing on the couch tonight," Bo admitted not knowing how to say that she didn't want to make matters worse between the 2 of them by bedding with Lauren.

"Oh really? You know Kenzi has a spare bed too."

"Yea, I know but … but …" Bo stammered and was at a loss for words. She wanted Tamsin in her bed too. If both were there then there was no one to cheat on.

The Valkyrie nodded in understanding, stood up and took Bo's hand gently and guided her up the steps.

Bo loved how understanding Tamsin was and was surprised at how gently and effortlessly Tamsin slid her robe off her person in front of the bed.

Bo was now nude again.

Bo for her part slowly pulled Tamsin's shirt over her head as Tamsin kicked off her boots stealthily.

The Valkyrie removed her pants and snuggled into bed with Bo with only her bra and panties on.

Bo put her arm around her Valkyrie but Tamsin must have felt the awkwardness as she replied in an angelic whisper, "Bo, it's ok to hold Lauren. Let's just get some sleep all right?"

Bo smirked and pecked Tamsin on the lips and brought Lauren into a hug on her other side.

There Bo felt much better holding Tamsin and Lauren. They both had a place in her heart and at least they were on equal ground right now.

Sleep finally found Bo quickly as she drifted off and didn't even dream. There was no need to since the people that were important to her were in her arms.

Arin observed Bo fall asleep taking in her features. Bo was finally asleep and at least Tamsin had more time to think about what Bo meant to her without the pull of the bond. She also hoped that Tamsin was making the right moves as it pertained to her Ex Dyson.

A/N: Comment, Fav and follow!

Sorry, had to do it, this story ALSO has a 'director's cut' edition on archiveofourown! This is MA all the way and then some. So no longer do you need to wonder what really went down before chap 16. Go to my profile and there will be link for it. Lemme know!