hey everyone i own nothing in this story, but here's the thing, I need your help. check bottom of the story for continuation of this note.

Pony woke up in his soft cloud bed in his parents house. He was achy all over and didn't want to get out of bed. Luckily this was heaven and he didn't have to do anything he didn't want to. The smell of his mom's cooking was wafting through the house, he knew she'd probably bring him breakfast in bed and give him a hug, it was nice to be the center of his parents attention for a while. It was also nice to see his parents unburdened by money or any worries, his dad laughed more, they both acted younger. He didn't have to wait for his dad to get home from work, he didn't have to here his mom crying in her room worrying about bills or anything. She came in with food and set it on his bedside table before pulling him into her arms

"good morning sweetie, are you feeling any better" she asked

"Just sore mostly" replied pony wincing as he stretched. His mom pulled him into a warm hug again. Pony sighed

"Mom, is there any way I can talk to Johnny, I-I didn't think I'd be leaving him" said Pony

"You can try to go into his dream, you two are still connected, spiritual twins i think is the term, the connection was much stronger when both of you were on Earth but it's still there. I'll leave you to concentrate" said pony's mom leaving the room. Pony sighed and closed his eyes trying to focus on his connection to Johnny. Eventually his surroundings began to change and he was standing in a grass field. He saw Johnny looking around confused. Pony ran to his best friend as fast as he could. Johnny turned around and saw Pony. he felt his best friend crash into him and wrapped him in a hug, both boys clinging to each other and not wanting to let go.

"I'm so so sorry Johnny, I-I never thought I was the one leaving you behind, everything just hurt so much and the voices just kept telling me it was for the best, I thought once i got up here you'd be angry at me." Pony rambled, tears flowing down his face.

"Shsh, it's not your fault Pone, it's the guys fault for hurting you, honestly when I could feel your heart breaking it was the worst pain I'd ever felt, worse than being literally stabbed in the heart. You're my brother Pony, I love you. I'm not mad at you" soothed Johnny, holding Pony who relaxed in his best friends warm hug. The two boys stayed wrapped in each other's embrace, the knowledge that his best friend wasn't angry with him soothed his aching soul. Pony felt loved and wanted and happy again.

"Pony, I don't know what I'm going to do without you, maybe i should come be with you, it would fix everything" said Johnny clinging to Pony

"No Johnny, the gang needs you, Darry and Soda need you, you're their new little brother, they need you" said Pony

"It's not the same, Soda bursts into tears every picture of you he sees, Darry is overworking himself to the point where he passes out on the couch, he doesn't have time to stay in the house. Please Pony I need you

"I-I can't, Two-Bit, Dally and Steve hate me and would only hurt me more once they got here if they found i let you take your life too"

"Pony no they wouldn't I might hate them for what they did to you and I can't forgive them no matter how sorry they say they are, but they aren't the types to make the same type of mistake twice" said Johnny

"Johnny, listen your life is worth far more than mine was…

"No Pony, don't you dare say that, you mean the world to everyone, they are falling apart without you, they can deal without me but you have a family who loves you" cried Johnny holding Pony close

"Please Johnny, you have to live for the guys, I was stupid and weak, but you are strong and resilient and everyone needs you, Darry and Soda will heal but if you leave everyone the gang is destroyed" said Pony

"It was destroyed the instant the guys blamed you for a simple accident that was preventable by people way smarter than you or I" countered Johnny, Pony clung to his best friend, there was a war between his head and heart, his head told him that Johnny needed to stay on Earth with the guys but his heart yearned for him best friend to come be with him to help heal him.

"Johnny, please, as much as I want you to stay with me,you have to stay with the need you too" sighed Pony

"NO! I'm not leaving you, I need you more than they need me, please Pony" Johnny was on the brink of tears.

"But it's not your time Johnny" said Pony

"I DON'T CARE! Pony I need you, I feel empty without you. You're like my twin brother, I need you." said Johnny, tears starting to fall from his eyes. Pony sat in thought for a while, still wrapped tightly in Johnny's arms.

"Johnny, I want to be able to come back, really I do, but I can't, the guys need you. However, I might be able to make a deal. If in six months there is no change in how you feel of if the guys start getting better or treating you like crap then I can let you end everything. Can you do that for me?" asked Pony clinging tightly to his best friend. Johnny sighed and nodded. After one last tight squeeze the let go of each other and Johnny awoke. Pony secretly hoped Johnny didn't change his mind but he knew this thought was selfish and cruel of him but it hurt both physically and emotionally to be without his brother. He sighed and went back to his parents house, the aching slowly returning after he had let go of Johnny, it was a lot more bearable now but he still didn't like it.

so what do you guys think, should Johnny die in six months or get the gang back together another way. its up to you guys. I personally want him to die because it will make the story even more tragic but whichever gets the most votes I will write.