hi guys so it currently 50/50 on whether Johnny should live or die. but my decision won't come till at least chapter 8.
Johnny stared out the window of Darry's truck, even though he knew Pony wanted him to stay with the guys he really couldn't deal with life without his brother.
"Johnny? Are you alright?" asked Darry softly, they were on their way to Pony's funeral.
"Fine" said Johnny quietly
"Johnny, it's okay to be upset, I miss him too. I wish I could have done more to help him, he was and always will be my baby brother and I failed him" said Darry, tears flowing from his eyes.
"I should have woken up sooner, I should have been more careful while walking, I just feel so helpless and guilty" said Johnny, Darry pulled into the parking lot of the funeral home and hugged johnny.
*Flashback Darry's Pov*
Pony's eyes closed and we had all just heard him say he was sorry. I grab Pony from Soda's arms, trying to find a pulse on our baby brother. I can't find one.
"PONY!" I cry cradling my baby brother's fragile form. I run my hand through his hair, this can't be happening, not him, not my baby brother.
"Darry, what are we gonna do?" cries Soda. I don't know what to do, I want to be angry at everyone but grief is choking out all my anger. I know exactly who's to blame but yet still, I know it's my fault. I should have done more, I should have held him and told him Johnny wasn't dead, that he did nothing wrong. So much I should have done, so much I could have done, everything I ever wanted to tell him, all the time I should have spent being the big brother he needed, all that chance is gone now. I hold his body close to me, as the paramedics arrive and do everything they can to revive him but we all know it's too late, he's gone, never to come back.
*end flashback*
"If I ever see Dally, Two-Bit, or Steve again it will be too soon" grumbled Johnny.
"Johnny, they're gonna be at the funeral" said Darry
"Well I'm not sitting near them" humphed Johnny folding his arms in anger before going back to staring out the window. Eventually the two got out of the truck. Both were dressed in black pants and shirts, Johnny was actually wearing one of Pony's old shirts just to try to feel closer to his best friend. Out of the corner of his eye Darry would sometimes see Johnny burying his face in the black t shirt, still trying to feel close to Pony. They sat in the pews listening to people talk about Pony, Johnny gave the eulogy speech, doing everything he could not to cry through the whole thing. They buried Pony next to his parents, Johnny imagined that Pony was being hugged by his mom all day every day. Eventually they all went home, Steve, Dally and Two Bit were trying to avoid the Curtis house. Johnny went right back to bed, he had taken Pony's room, curling up in the blankets trying to feel as if Pony was hugging him. Suddenly there was a knock at the door.
"Come in" said Johnny sadly, Darry and Soda entered
"Hey Johnny, how ya doing" asked Darry softly, sitting on the bed next to him and pulling him into a hug
"I want Pony back" whimpered Johnny
"I know, I want him back too, we all do" said Darry softly. Johnny buried his face in Darry's chest and started sobbing.
"He was like my twin brother, I NEED him" sobbed Johnny
"Shh, it's going to be okay Johnny, we'll get through this, somehow" said Darry, though not sure if he even believed himself. Suddenly a small meek voice entered Johnny's head, it was Pony's voice
"It's all my fault, I'm so so sorry Johnny,please make sure they know I miss them, tell Darry I'm sorry". This only made Johnny cry harder, he knew Pony wasn't able to be at peace until Dally, Steve and Two-Bit apologized to him and who knows how long that would take.