Filler Chapter! This will all just be their thoughts on the situation!

(Third Person POV)
It's been three months since John left, he got all his classes transferred to online courses. He hasn't talked to anyone from the group since he answered a call said he was fine and safe and told them to stop calling him then hung up.
John has been living in Philadelphia with Ben Franklin, an old friend from boarding school. He was a TA when John had first gotten there and he helped John get better before and he hopes he can again.

(Alex's POV)
Three months… It's been three months without John, my life, my rock, my everything. He never answered any of my calls, he only answered once, for Peggy and told her to tell us all to stop calling. He said he was safe, but I don't believe him. I'm scared that he's still doing it. I know he got all his classes transferred to the online courses because he's not on the rosters anymore. I asked George if the school told him anything but they didn't, or he's not telling me.

Wherever you are John I love you, please be safe and stay alive.

(Peggy's POV)
I'm really worried about John, I know he told me he's fine and safe, but I have this gut feeling. It's telling me he's not as fun and safe as he says he is. John is my best friend and Alex is like my brother and without John Alex isn't himself. I really hope nothing happened to him because I'd feel so guilty because I'm the one he answered, I'm the only one he has talked to and I didn't try hard enough.

Alex needs the love of his life back and I need my best friend back, please come home John.

(Laf's POV)
I miss John, I miss my little turtle boy. I can't help but feel guilty for this, I knew what could happen as a result of a visit from his father, I knew something like this would happen after what happened during his fathers visit. I can't believe I let this happen, I should have checked on him, talked to him, do literally anything aside from what I did do, let him be.

Please come back John, so I can hug you and then yell at you for leaving and then hug you again

(Herc's POV)
God damn it John! Why did you have to leave?! We all miss you, Alex and Laf are practically falling apart over this. They both blame themselves, I have been comforted them and helping them but I miss you too John. Sure, we fight and bicker like brothers but that's because we are, I need my brother. Peggy misses you too, she thinks that anything you do for yourself will be her fault because she didn't try hard enough to get you to come home.

Stay safe little brother and come home soon.

(George's POV)
I'm worried about John and worried about Alex and his friends. I know that John is in Philadelphia with an old friend. I didn't tell Alex when he asked because I knew he and the boys would go to try and force him back.
I emailed after the first week and he responded telling me where he was and that he was sorry for all the trouble he's caused. I reassured that no one is mad at him and that we all still care for him and miss him dearly. He promised he'd be back eventually saying sorry in person if nothing else.

Good luck John, I believe in you. I know you are strong and can pull through whatever is going on in that young mind of yours.

(Ben's POV)
I was really worried when John just showed up at my apartment, he was a mess, tear stained cheeks, red puffy eyes, visibly shaking, and stuttering. It wasn't until later when I got him calmed down that he told me about hi boyfriend and how his dad came to his college for Christmas and then beat him and his boyfriend up. Then he told me about how they had a great Christmas with his boyfriend and his foster family and about his turtle. Yes, I knew he was stalling to tell me why he was actually here but I let him. After about twenty minutes he tells me about how he was relapsing into his depression again, how he had started cutting again, how his boyfriend walked in and saw, and then how he ran and ended up here.

He had started crying again and I held him and calmed him down like I had back at the boarding school. John was like my little brother, I had helped him before and I would do it again.

It's now been about three months and I had John set up with a friend and therapist in New York and he promised he would get to him when he goes back to New York whenever that is. He says he misses his boyfriend, Alex, well he doesn't think they will still be together when they go back, which is why I think he hasn't gone back yet. I told him to talk to him and explain as best as he could and go from there. I can tell from the emails that John has shared with Alex's foster father that no one is really mad more just scared and worried.

I hope you John soon realize that you deserve the love they give you and that you find the courage to go back home with your boyfriend and friends.

(John's POV)
I miss Alex, I really do, but I don't want to go back just for him to tell me what I already knows he's going to. I don't want to hear the words 'I don't love you anymore.' or 'I can't be with you anymore.' come out of his mouth. I'm better and still getting better, but hearing that would just wreck all the work I've done to get to the point I'm at.

I promised Ben I'd go to the therapist back in New York when I go back, if I go back. I've stayed in touch with Mr. Washington and he promises no one is mad, just sad and worried. Every time I imagine going back all I can see is Alex's face when he came into my room. He looked so scared and sad, and in all his texts and voicemails he says he feels like it's his fault and that he could've helped more. I know Laf won't say it, but I know he feels the same as Alex, he always did back in high school even though none of it was ever his fault just like now.

I'm coming home guys, I promise. I don't know when but I know I'll be home before the month is over.

(Third Person POV)
With that last thought John went to the computer and sent Washington one last email before he returned to New York, but more importantly, he returned to his family.

Happy New Year everyone! I've had this done since before Christmas but I was super busy and didn't get it published till now. I hope everyone had a good holiday season. See you all in the new year.