It slowly dawned on Tamsin that THIS wasn't Bo. Bo was stooping to the same level as Lauren and it wasn't right. Before she met Bo, she'd be ok with this, but now, she had adopted Bo's virtues. Bo, Tamsin realized, was turning toward the dark. It was a slippery slope and finally, Tamsin implored Bo with Lauren crying out for mercy, "BO! Stop please, I agree to Lauren's terms. OK!"
"NEVER! Not after what she put me … put us through!" Bo spat back really pissed off but held an evil smirk like a part of her was actually enjoying this.
"It's HER life, and SHE asked ME and I accept," Tamsin begged grabbing Bo by her shoulders firmly. "DON'T turn into her! She took something from you and it's WRONG, but don't let her take away the succubus I know and LOVE. Please grant her the mercy and clemency you give me and everyone else. DON'T LET HER TAKE AWAY YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL!"
Bo demurred but she took Tamsin's word for it. She trusted her without question now. She earned it. Tamsin had grown on her so much she went from not being Bo's moral compass to being everything.
Lauren in sheer torturous pain from the thrall finally crawled into Bo's lap begging to make the pain stop. Finally relenting saying through her howls of pain, "I'll tell you ok! PLEASE stop hurting me!"
Bo knew at that instant Tamsin was right. This wasn't her and she quickly said, "You don't need to answer that Lauren. Thank you for help us thus far."
Lauren was rocked to her core. Even in a thralled state, she had never seen Bo or even comprehend that Bo, her once lover, could willfully inflict pain with such malice. What Tamsin told Bo was what she would have said, and strangely kept Bo accountable. For that she owed Tamsin a debt, but she was unwilling to acknowledge it right now.
Lauren felt the pain lifted in an instant but backed off from Bo. She needed permission to touch her but Bo stroked her hand and then charmed her.
There the doctor was now on cloud 9 and Bo just mentioned finally in defeat said, "I'm sorry Lauren, I'm not fit to determine your fate after all this."
Bo then turned back to Tamsin and in a delicate whisper asked, "Will you do that for me, please Tamsin? I'm sorry, I'm not perfect like you say."
Tamsin nodded and replied, "Neither am I, but I'll do it Bo." Tamsin turned to Lauren who stood up again dusting herself off, "Lauren, I accept and respect what you do with your life. You don't trust me and I sure don't trust you even in a thralled state but we can at least be ugggg…. Cordial to one another and somehow work together."
Lauren nodded and thought hard to find how to answer this. She was somewhat commanded by Bo to be her sister in a way, and didn't know if this was a good or not, but what choice did she have? "I agree, Thanks."
She was still on a charm high but finally gave up the ghost, "The bond not forming is due to in part you and in part me as well, Tamsin."
Lauren looked up and rubbing her chin and then said lamenting, "I think that I told you that you were incapably of love and that is why the bond didn't form initially, but it more along the lines of your insecurities. In … in my opinion, … I think it's because deep down you doubt that your relationship with Bo will work. You doubted yourself more after that encounter with me and if you are carrying that, then it will remain the wedge in your relationship which only you have to remove. Now if you will excuse me."
With that Lauren took her leave picking up her medical bag getting a huge pleasure high from obeying the wishes of Bo and headed towards the rickety house.
ALONE FINALLY.
Bo just sprawled out in the bucolic field and patted that space next to her and Tamsin was laying by her side a couple seconds later.
They just shared beautiful lucid silence for several minutes.
Finally Bo just talked to the sky, "Thanks for the assist with Suzie, Tammy. How did you do it?"
Tamsin just huffed out a laugh and rested a hand on her chest to boast, "Well I knew you were in trouble via the bond we have and then broken in to Lauren's network, made her vents, lab robotic arm, and strong electro magnet, well …. do LOTS of bad things."
Bo got it and chuckled reaching over to hold Tamsin's hand, "Thanks for backing me up my lovely wife."
Tamsin just grunted with an eye roll, "Uggggg sounds of matronly!"
"How about lover?" Bo smirked turning to see Tamsin still trying to find a way to categorize their relationship.
"Well bonded partner," Tamsin scrunched her face. "That's probably better but that also assumes that we fully bond."
"OK my bonded partner. I know you can already see my day dreams if I allow you. I haven't tried, but does that mean I can see yours if you allow it."
"Yes," Tamsin turned to Bo but confessed, "You can do it without or without my permission .. from what I hear …. and … well I may or may not even know."
Bo pouted and Tamsin just kissed her since Bo was so cute that way.
Bo then murmured, "That doesn't seem fair."
"Well I serve me hero… so I guess….. YET another darn reason why Valkyries run away from a bond," Tamsin frowned.
Bo changed tact and then asked, "So Tammy, I know you love me just fine. I feel it …." Bo stopped observing Tamsin's smirk ever so slightly and knew she mind went right into the gutter. As such she nudged her, "You demonstrated your boundless love when you broke into Lauren's network to find out that I was drugged. I know I might have not done the same."
Tamsin just looked back to the stars but closed her eyes, "I….. I sometimes feel that I'm…"
Bo turned to her side and kissed her cheek, "It's ok Tamtam. Please."
The Valkyrie just growled lowly at the 'Tamtam' comment but requested, "Succu_lover… Bo… my bonded partner, I'm trying to talk. No offense to you, when you do that I … well can't concentrate."
Bo understood and just stayed propped up on her side taking in her other half since she was really beautiful.
Tamsin just added a little more sternly, "I can FEEL you staring at me. Please just … let go back to just lying in the grass?"
"OK," Bo rolled onto her back once more to face the sky.
Several minutes passed and finally Tamsin confessed, "I do have my …. Doub… MISGIVINGS on our relationship working. One you're a good, naughty depraved succubus that knows how to work me."
"You mean push all your buttons? And undo them?" Bo couldn't help but jeer Tamsin a little.
"Ugggggggg I hate to say this, can we just… I can't believe I'm go to ask this. TALK honestly for 5 minutes without you jumping my bones or head going into the gutter and I'll do the same," Tamsin asked with her eyes still closed tightly as if irritated.
Bo just smirked and closed her eyes as well. This was rare and so she just gave in, "Fine Tamsin. I'm listening."
Tamsin finally gave up and confessed, "I feel like I'm the biggest sucker in the world for rescuing you from the Lauren pheromone thingie although you hail me as a hero. I just don't know if I'm thinking straight or is it you and your wiles? Also even if I am, PUTTING aside my past deeds which I still think I have to answer for, I have the overwhelming urge to…. To" Tamsin transitioned to a whisper shutting her eyes closed even tighter, "have dominion over you." The Valkyrie when cleared her throat and said somewhat formally, "You are the unaligned succubus and leader to your family and major forced to be reckoned with by light or dark. I…. I don't know how you'll take me …. SHIT…. I want you to BE you ok? That strong willed stuck up succu-good-two-shoes leader who has issues keeping both feet on the ground. … and staying clothed. OK? But I my desires as a Valkyrie with lifetimes worth bad deeds as a bounty hunter … well that and keeping horny heroes and their friends at bay keeps cropping up."
The succubus took this in stride and replied, "I read all there is to know about you and your deeds, also you've done plenty of depraved things to me already Tammy. It's safe to say, I know that side of you too. Remember? You made me your slave when I crested in the same room as Lauren in her clinic? Also As for your exploits and yes I am extremely disappointed by them but you are good to me and make the right decisions NOW, OK? As for dominating me, I was a little miffed about that Lauren in the lab tryst, but deep down I ….."
Tamsin smirked maniacally and knew in that aspect she already won but WANTED Bo to admit it.
Bo just barely whispered, "I loved it."
Tamsin didn't really hear it that well, but wanted to jeer her succubus and said loudly, "WHAT was that? I didn't hear you?"
Bo batted her eyes open then just shoved Tamsin playfully propping herself up on her side, "You heard it ok?"
"Nope I didn't," Tamsin clicked turned and observed the neon blue eyed Bo.
Bo then offered, "I'll say it ONLY if I can I dominate you in the same way you do me from time to time."
"Yes, I only will yield to you," Tamsin finally admitted face to face with Bo's neon blue eyes hovering over her now on top of her like a cat. She knew by Bo's expression she was keeping the conversation serious but her body was screaming otherwise. It was all too tempting to just not even fess up and keep Bo a slave to her desires, but she respected Bo way too much to do that, but also, Bo wasn't dumb. She knew, just not to the extent the books wrote about since some of her evil deeds were lost in time.
Bo pecked Tamsin on the cheek and espoused with a purr, "I LOVE what you do to me Tammy and you are the ONLY person or Fae that I'll accept that from. Oh! Can we can just take turns dominating each other and maybe we can even be equals," Bo concluded. "So what's the problem?"
"I…. Bo I have access to your diary which are you inner most thoughts and deeds. As such, I need to you access my thoughts about what I want to do with you.. and AHEM! do TO you. Also, you need to see from my eyes my past. I guess I am …. Well …. Afraid once you see all of me you won't want to be associated with me. If you're ok with it after all that, I'll make me feel better with the bond fully forming," Tamsin requested scrunching her face once more.
Bo murmured clearing Tamsin face of some stray locks of hair and frowned, "No Tammy, I can't use you like that. I trust you. Unconditional love remember?"
"JUST this once. PLLLLLEASE," Tamsin begged but was surprised that by her own actions, she reversed positions with Bo rolling with her to be on top. She had no idea why she was even trying this. First she was begging, which never really happens, second, she was ASKING someone to see all her evils. Bo was the love of her life and it would be the biggest risk she'd ever undertake. It had to be done however to give the full bond any chance of forming. Tamsin hugged Bo and brought in her close mid pout. First it was to loosen up Bo to the proposition, the second was more self-serving. If Bo shied away from her afterwards, this may be the last time she might be able to hold Bo.
Bo brooded that Tamsin would essentially be presenting her with her past as well as her probably depraved and maybe dark fantasies but to make sure Tamsin was game and to get the most benefit out of it Bo kissed Tamsin and the Valkyrie proceeded to rest her forehead on hers. The succubus then asked, "Then hold NOTHING back Tamsin. If you have doubts about me accepting you for who you are, SHOW ME EVERYTHING and be brutally honest ok?"
"Sure, now just concentrate on my thoughts and well just give it a try," Tamsin closed her eyes tightly a little scared but Bo was holding her too so those thoughts just flitted away. With that, she began to replay all her past history in her head.
Bo wasn't really sure how this bond worked but surprisingly, it was almost second nature. Once she centered on Tamsin she saw all her day dreams like they were real. She felt like a bystander in Tamsin's dreams but first came that hard pill to swallow. Tamsin was replaying all her biggest evils, some of which were in the ebook Bo read from Kenzi, but reading it was different from seeing it.
She was a good Valkyrie at first but took side gigs for additional money, but some side gigs required that she finding innocent and good people that were on the run at return them giving them a death sentence and if not eternal servitude. She was the best, and was hungry for gold and fame. Then it was a slow fade into the darkness as more time passed. The more and more that she took contracts for the dark, she gradually traded her ethics away and lost her way totally. She was EVIL.
Bo hate to see her Valkyrie do this and instinctually coaxed Tamsin's face to be next to hers so that she wouldn't see the tears of pain and disappointment. It didn't matter though, soon her body was trebling as she began to sob openly. HOW COULD SHE? WHY? Was all Bo could ask herself. She never dared to speak it out loud in order to give Tamsin the benefit of the doubt.
Tamsin HATED to hurt her love like this. Bo's opinion matter the most to her and here she was destroying it and the bond with it too. Bo didn't need to say a word, but she knew what Bo was thinking without using any powers, 'How could you do this?!' It was further confirmed when Bo was trebling beneath her wailing in misery. Bo held onto her in a vise like hug and Tamsin knew it wasn't a sign of affection, but more along the lines of holding onto the good and just Valkyrie she knew however minuscule and ephemeral. Bo just didn't want to believe anything she saw but it was too late. The only way out now was through.
Tamsin resigned herself to just keep going since Bo may already be lost but at least she tried. How could it be that in order to show love her succubus, she needed to hurt Bo? This irony and cruel paradox was something she never experienced before.
Bo just held on to dear life praying to any higher power that this evil streak of hers would end. She just didn't know how much more she could take in. Her love for Tamsin was all she had to hold onto and it was near its breaking point.
Bo finally grunted painfully but dared to never say a word about how aghast she was at her at times macabre deeds all for money.
Tamsin was about to stop since she found herself sobbing too. HOW could she hurt Bo like this? Bo just said she was perfect, but she was anything but.
Bo quickly grabbed the back of her neck and pinned her down to prevent her from moving away, "ALL OF IT TAMSIN! NOW!" Bo demanded even through her hitched breathing not knowing if she could continue herself.
The Valkyrie bowed deeper into the succubus obeyed then hissed with regret, "Yes, Bo"
Then she made a deal with Trick for more lives, but even though she got it, it came with a steep price as she was kicked out of the sisterhood.
It was then Tamsin just did it all for money and Blaze was her backup. Not only were the lines of good and bad blurred, but anything went. If someone paid her enough, she willing sent innocent people to their death HENCE the reason why Tamsin was tracking her in the first place.
Bo HATED to see her angel commit such atrocities and was shaken to the core.
She was at her breaking point, Tamsin split with Blaze and at that point Tamsin was a lost girl who couldn't find her way in this world no matter which life she was in. The succubus was a miserable and murmured through her uneven breaths in disappointment shaking her head in disbelief, "Ohhhh Tamsin, why?"
Tamsin just replied with a little too much snark, but it was her defense mechanism "For the money. I told you I was evil." Tamsin tried to slink away but Bo held her strong.
In a burst of strength, Bo aggressively rolled on top of Tamsin and grabbed her by her shirt and yanked her in close. Bo didn't know what got into her but she was really enraged at what Tamsin did.
Bo shook her finger sternly at Tamsin just mere inches away in her face, "HOW CLOUD YOU!"
Tamsin looked away, but Bo grabbed her chin and forced her to look in the eyes.
"HOW COULD YOU!" Bo demanded even louder shaking her.
"I'm sooo sooo sorry."
Tamsin had no words just tears of regret facing the gale force of a raging mad succubus. What shocked her the most was when out of nowhere her left cheek felt stinging pain from the impact of hard slap.
OH SHIT. Bo was pissed. Tamsin tasted her own blood. Bo was almost using her Fae strength.
The Valkyrie wanted to run, but she surmised that it was better to accept her lumps now rather then later.
Bo brought her hand back to take another even hard swing at Tamsin, but stop yelled, "INNOCENT Women!" Bo just pushed her away from her and to the ground and Bo stood up and biriskly took sereral steps away facing away from Tamsin. Bo KNEW it was wrong to hit her especially after she had forgiven her just minutes earlier.
Tamsin felt dizzy still from the first slap but she had nothing to say. Her past was her past. There was no running away from it now.
"and CHILDREN!" Bo lashed out to the clouds in the sky but was STILL raging mad and it was getting more amplified by the second.
Tamsin noted the lower octave voice after that one. SHIT Bo was turning red and the only rhyme that came to her was the word 'dead'.
"YOU sent them ALL … hundreds of them to their deaths!" Bo spat on the ground in distain.
Tamsin had no idea what got into her as she scampered in front of Bo and cowered falling prostate at her feet. She had no excuse and her heart felt like it was on fire through the bond. She normally would avoid her past and dodge justice, but Bo WAS in her mind justice. Therefore, she would accept it from her and no other.
Why did love have to hurt? Tamsin in shambles just sobbed ready to take her lumps. Apparently she wasn't perfect enough. In any case it was time to face the music. At this point Tamsin didn't know if their bond would survive this.
A/N: Pausing here. Don't know how long, but muse is tapped out.