I opened my eyes as I groaned, my stomach roared to life making his presence known. I moved to get up but as I tried to lift myself with my left hand but it didn't respond making all the anger and frustration appear in my mind just as fast. A knock came on the door bringing me out of my thoughts. "Sam... you awake." Hal's voice came out from the other side of the door which was completely barricaded with furniture from all over my room. "WHAT!" I yelled at him as all the frustration and anger exited me.
"I heard what happened... can I come in?" His voice is too hurt.
"... Leave me alone." I told him as I made myself as small as possible and reclined myself into the bed as I covered myself in blankets to bring me a bit of... safety. 'Not sure if safety can describe it.' Like this I feel in control of everything as of right now everything is out of control in my life... but I can only question myself. What is my purpose? Why am I here? And Did I made the right choice?
"... If you want anything I'll be here Sammy, I'm your father and know that I love you." Hal's voice sounded in my ears making my heart ache physically. After a few hours of sleep and thinking a knock sounded again. "Sam... Can I come in?" Hal's voice sounded again, I wanted to make him go away but right now I needed a hug.
"Yes..." I admitted, the door began to try and open but the furniture made a good counter weight to the force that was being placed upon the door.
"Sam can you move the furniture?" Dad's voice came from the door. "No." I said in a low voice, I don't even want to move from this ball of blankets or move at all. I heard a sigh a green light made its way through the door the furniture slowly moved out of the way of the door.
"Let us help." I heard a deep voice coming from the hallway. 'Is John there?' another hush response told him something I didn't understand.
"Hey Sammy, how are you feeling little light?" Hal's soft voice came as he entered my room, slowly making steps the little nickname brought a response from me. I just lied there covered completely by blankets enveloped in the warmth and comfort that it made me feel, I just mumbled incomprehensibly as I felt the bed shift around. "What was that sweetie?" Hal's voice asked me as he moved around the blankets to see my face, I looked at him; he has a worried look on his face his eyes stuck on mine as if trying to solve a puzzle. "Sammy, I know you're strong; but it's okay to show weakness, it's part of being human." He told me as he moved my hair out of my face, he was making hesitant to movements as if not knowing what to do around me. He was trying to move to hug me but hesitated, a hug right now is what I need but I'm not sure as to how to ask for it. 'Just ask for one!' My mind screamed at me. I sniffled as I tried to breathe through my nose.
"But I... ah... want a hug." I admitted as I felt a hand on my head, I slowly sat on the bed and unwrapped myself from my giant ball of blankets sloppily with only my right arm making the movement as slowly as possible.
"Come here little light." Dad told me as he wrapped his arms around me, I felt little comfort in the warmth he was providing me we stood in there for a few seconds I might not like physical contact that since it puts me on edge but I can only feel exhausted after crying for like felt like an entire day and night.
"Can we stay like this?" I whispered as he tightened his hug.
"Sure thing sweetie." He whispered to me as he tightened the hug.
"Thanks... daddy... I'm angry you know..." I admitted, slowly all the buildup in my chest was about to boil out if he kept hugging me, it's as if I was being hugged by my sister or well my dad... something that can only be described as love.
"Dad... how do I know you won't die one day?" I asked him, he froze his breath hitched.
"Well, you never know... but I can promise you that I will always come home to you."
"How do you know you can keep this promise?"
"Because we are a family, you, me, John, Kyle, and Guy. I already told you, you will never have to survive, you can live. Actually they're here for you, they came worried for you." Dad told me as he released the hug both of us sitting in the bed.
"Dad, I'm sorry... ah, I..." Tears began to reach my eyes as my chest constricted making it hurt. " I saw you and everyone else disappear, I felt lost..." Tears began to go out of my eyes as sobs ran out of my throat. "I really really love you. Please don't leave me like everyone else." I begged him as tears ran out of my eyes after admitting that losing him and everyone else affected me more than it should have.
"I love you too Sammy a lot." He told me as he placed a hand on my left shoulder I didn't felt the touch but the weight on my arm. The anger in my chest remained by the anxiety of the uselessness of not being able to move my entire arm. I looked down at my left arm with uncertainty, watching as it as if no strength was left in it tears ran through my cheeks.
"Let me look at your arm." Dad told me as he began to move his hands around my arm squeezing it along the way.
"I can't feel it..." I said as tears began to flow from my eyes again, he extended my arm but it bent at the middle, he had his hands running through my left arm but I only saw the pressure same as when Canary did it, earning the same result as he let it go the arm flopped into the mattress. That display of weakness made me cry harder sobs left me.
"Hey, don't cry; we'll go to the best doctors we can get and help you; okay?" He told me as he comforted me.
"I want it back, she took it away." I said as I cried harder by the feeling of uselessness and anger.
"It's okay Sam; we'll see what we can do alright?" His voice made me feel relief, and comfort. The entire weight in my chest was relieved, leaving a small ache in my chest that was only a minor bother.
"Thank you daddy." I said as I cried not even bothering that I was staining his shirt, I don't know when I fell asleep but I did.
I walked into the cave 3 days later, Hal and I have been to every doctor available to the League in the US, Martian Manhunter tried in making my arm return to its normal functions but it didn't work, we even went to the medics in the core, but none of them have been able to determine what happened to my arm, everyone has given me the same answer. "I don't know what is happening to you, and why you're not able to move your arm." The only answer I've been given was by an earth doctors he told me that my spinal medulla is not responding to my brain signals to distribute it towards my arm. The medics in the core said that the only way would be a procedure of removing my arm and placing a cybernetic implant that could resonate with my ring but it wasn't worth it knowing how the guardians are, they would make me become an Alpha Lantern and forget this life I currently have in favor to have a mindless soldier.
Overall I'm not as affected by what happened anymore, after all dad promised me that he will always be there for me, but what I can't help but feel anger at M'gann for doing this to my arm, it was her fault that she grew to believe what was happening was real. But there is another thing bothered me, and that was the way I made a visit to my sister the voice told me this was payment but what did he meant by heart? No doctors said anything about my heart, but they didn't even check anything on my heart every doctor checked only my arm and gave me the same answer; all except one doctor.
I walked into the main room and saw it completely empty I looked around the cave hoping to see Kara, but the thought of that kiss... what did it meant? I mean she said it was for good luck; so now we are not talking, and I really miss her voice sounding in my ears... but I mean what do I tell her? 'Hey I like you do you like me back?' that would go really bad, I mean how can you tell you like someone? It doesn't matter right now, well it does but... I kept walking to the kitchen lost in thought.
"Hey, how are you?" Artemis asked me softly as I walked into the room snapping me out of my thoughts.
"No, it looks like it's permanent; my spine is not able to send medulla into the arm to move it, there is no cure. They told me that I don't have to amputate it; maybe in the future there may be a way to cure it but right now. I won't be able to have my arm back not even Martian Manhunter was able to do anything to fix it." I told her, I turned to look around the only one missing was Superboy, everyone looked defeated. M'gann looked at me as I responded to Artemis, out of reflex I glared at her, remembering that it's her fault that I'm in this state; she turned away with a saddened expression.
Kara was seated in the couch looking at her feet her eyes were so devoid of life. I knew the team would be in this state, I'm still shook, and I'm fairly certain that if I talk about it I will cry and get angry again, I'm still not sure what the voice meant by piece of my heart. I don't really remember what happened after I saw Kara die; I only remember my vision turning red and ... rage, blinding hot red rage. I remembered all my pain, my suffering, but it all culminated in rage at its most basic form me lashing out at everyone.
"Sam could you come with me for a sec?" I heard Black Canary's voice over the hallway; I followed her knowing what comes next. We walked into the room where I could see that wall fountain that made the water produce that relaxing sound.
"Sit." Black Canary told me as she took a seat, crossed her legs and interlocked her fingers. I took seat in front of her and kept looking at her until it became awkward. "So you attacked M'gann..." I moved my arm to cross it as a scowl formed on my face.
"She deserved it." I said as anger rose through me.
"And why does she deserve it?" Canary asked incredulously.
"Oh I don't know, other than the fact THAT SHE LEFT ME WITHOUT AN ARM!" I yelled at her as I got to my feet, by the feeling of my arm not being useful, only that it's deteriorating from the lack of use, the only sound in the room being the water running.
"I get that you're angry." Canary said in a low tone making me angrier as I stomped with my foot on the ground doing my best to not kick the couch behind me.
"I'm beyond angry, not even a month before her boyfriend which is a clone I defended at first; he threatened to hurt me as I had a broken hand. If it was by me he should not be here in the first place he should be at Cadmus as an experiment." I admitted as my anger was flowing out saying what came to mind at first.
"Sam..." Canary tried to interrupt me but my anger was already at an all-time high.
"NO! That ungrateful green Martian did this because she saw a friend die; well guess what? People die! They leave you alone with a sister in an orphanage where you have to fight bullies leave you and your sister alone while people try to take her away. Then you run away to go find a better life and guess where you end up? You end up in a city where you have to fight for money at night while working as a waitress at day." I said as I remembered what I did wrong in my life.
"I know, you had a... rough childhood... but." Canary tried to calm me down by her voice but I wasn't having none of it.
"It wasn't rough, I didn't have a way to get money; I was a 10 year old girl getting beaten up against people in their mid-twenties for money. While Batman was out there with boy wonder training him to do whatever the dynamic duo did!" I yelled as I felt a pang in my chest.
"Sam, everyone has a different way to lash out; right now you're angry. I know that your life was not a good one." Canary said incredulously.
"HA! NOT A GOOD ONE, my life was miserable. I never had a choice to what did I had to do. Yes I was a really smart kid going to a public dead end school." I admitted as all her comments were hitting too close to home and I don't all these years it's something that has always bothered me.
"I don't mean it like that, I want to know how you feel after the incident you seem affected but mainly you're angry." Canary was trying to defuse my anger but it's too late for that.
"I WAS affected; I saw my family die AGAIN! Why can't I have a family like everyone else and let me keep them. It's always been like this, I get someone who really loves me and they die because of me!" I said admitting that my life went to hell every time I had a person who loved me, they got hurt because of my actions or related to my actions.
"What do you mean by because of you?" Canary asked as she turned serious.
"It's the truth, when I lost my mom... it was because of her buying me that stupid doll, if I had asked for something on my birthday; if I had been selfish that day and asked for that doll earlier or an ice cream, it was my fault! It was my fault that my aunt was in that bank before she got killed; it was my fighting that got me... my sister killed. It was..." I told her remembering how it was my actions that got my family killed, that's why I ran from Hal at first and pretended to have a home; if he wasn't near me as someone I cared about he could save himself from dying by my fault.
"That wasn't your fault; you know that" Canary said in a tone that can be described as caring.
"It was... at least my mother's death that was entirely my fault. But that doesn't matter; you know what? I'm done; I already talked to my Dad about this. I can get over this, but I WONT be making peace with the green idiot, it's already annoying that I decided to trust her." I said as I scowled remembering the mistake I decided to do by trusting her, I thought it wouldn't be as grave as this, but that green idiot is at fault here. If she had more control I would have my arm back.
"Sam you can't stay angry at her, she's just trying to make friends. She wasn't in full control of her abilities she was confused..." Canary tried to reason with me.
"No! I called her a friend and her lack of control was able to leave me without an arm." I said as I got up from my seat.
"Sam, I need to ask you a few questions." Canary told me as she sat back and took out a tablet.
"What do you want?" I asked as I sat back down.
"Very well, I have a question for you; are you really a Green Lantern?" Canary asked me with seriousness in her eyes.
"What do you mean by really a Green Lantern?" I said as confusion filled me.
"Check this footage... during the exercise you switched colors." She said as she showed me a video of what happened in the training exercise.
"What do you mean by colors?" I began to watch the clip I switched from green to blue for a few seconds after that I switched to green again then pink then green, finally red and something I didn't believe I could see. Red liquid coming from my mouth, more exactly red napalm. After that I saw how I "died" Batman ripped my shirt open to expose my chest and placed the plaques in my chest in an attempt to resuscitate me, the video ended when I woke up, shooting up from the table, and changing again into red as I charged M'gann. Slowly I began to connect the dots of what was happening to me through the past months and during the exercise.
"So the vision was a vision of hope... that also explains the blinding rage." I mumbled in a hushed tone, my mind came to a halt remembering what happened to everyone who used a red ring. "Ring check my heart status search for red napalm." I talked to my ring. "Checking... no sign of red napalm, heart status normal no foreign substance detected." My ring told me.
"What the hell?" I said aloud as I began to think of the possibilities of what was happening, and slowly thinking of everything that happened.
"You didn't answer my question." Canary told me insisting on what she wanted to know.
"Not right now, let me think." I responded, but as soon as that happened I remembered of the messages that I heard, Rage accessed, love accessed, hope accessed. 'That explains when I glowed pink when I was around Kaldur and Supergirl.'
"What is it Sam? Why did you change red, pink and blue?" Canary asked me as I placed a hand on my chest trying to feel my heart remembering of the effect of a ring napalm on a red lantern feeling a little ache in there but slowly going away.
"Secrets, more exactly some of the most heavily guarded secrets in the universe. But it's something that doesn't make sense, there is no way I change colors; this is an anomaly on the emotional spectrum, which no one is supposed to know about." I said as I removed my ring and began looking for details I looked for any change of the color after looking thoroughly I began discarding the result after seeing no change in the same green emerald ring.
"Why did you remove your ring with your mouth? What is the emotional spectrum?" Canary asked me with confusion in her voice.
"That doesn't make sense... red napalm is extremely toxic, but there is no damage to my heart and no change to my ring." I mumbled as I made my ring float to my finger
again.
"What that doesn't make sense?" Canary asked me.
"My ring, I don't get it, I need to find answers." I said walking to the door, I need to think.
"Sam wait! You didn't answer my question. Who are you? Stop! Sam who are you?" Canary asked me as if she suspected something.
"That doesn't matter; right now I need to investigate this." I said as I kept walking to the door.
"Sam, stay there; you have not answered my question!" Canary exclaimed as she took a stance as if she was getting ready to fight.
"My birthday is in 2 days, I don't know if that helps now move out of the way I need to verify some things." I told her as I walked out the room; I heard a loud sigh coming from her. 'Wait she's actually suspecting of me as the mole... but I haven't done anything suspicious aside from not having any type of documents in this world, and not existing previously... crap.'
"Green Lantern, report to the caves main room." I heard Batman's voice in my comm, I made my way to the main room to see batman investigating a wavelengths.
"I'm here boss what's up?" I said aloud towards Batman which made his lips go downward from every time I have called him that made him annoyed.
"There has been information that arrived just now." Batman said in his stern voice, I'm fearing the worst but I already have my escape plan.
"What's that information?" I asked as my knees trembled a little.
"There's been an anomaly in Tonopah, Nevada; the signal it's similar to your ring." Batman said as I felt my body relax.
"So there's another green lantern on earth?" 'Weird the new green lanterns appear after the rise of the third army, so that can't be them, that only means...'
"Not exactly, it is the same signal but it's a different wavelength." Batman said as a chart of light waves signal was pulled through the wavelength on the screen looked like the one labeled Green Lantern the one on the waves on the other screen were fluctuating more.
"Meaning?" I asked as I inspected closer the waves.
"You're going to go investigate what is happening. Find out what happens after that you come back and report." Batman ordered as I began to the doors
"Very well, give me the coordinates." I told him as I powered up and began to fly to the hangar.
"Coordinates sent." Batman told me as I began to fly out through the hangar door.
I began to fly towards the location as I neared the coordinates I began to scan the area only to get shot out of the sky by an explosion in my back. My back touched the ground as I landed, I focused on my arm as I did in the simulation that is the conclusion for me to use my arm in combat a construct to surround it, eventually the arm will come as a second nature but right now I need to focus on what was happening around me. I began to look around out of the corner of my eye I saw a yellow beam coming at me; I ducked to the side avoiding the beam. I aimed and shot at the direction, until a yellow form go above the trees it had a humanlike form but I couldn't identify it. The form stopped and I saw what looked like a missile gets shot in my direction. I made a shield as big as I could, to stop it from damaging me. 'Wait yellow missile, oh no. It's a yellow lantern.'
"Who are you?" I asked her.
"That doesn't matter right now. What matters is that you're the prey here." I heard her but her voice was different.
"Then come and let's find out who is prey." I taunted as I lowered the shield and flew up to meet her; I got a good view of her. It's an alien with tanned skin and humanoid lithe form, she has short brown hair that reaches up to her neck, her eyes are just gold like pupils while the rest of them completely black. Her suit is the skintight spandex but hers is different her boots were completely yellow, her suit has six spikes of yellow cloth in her neck while at the one in the center of her breasts is the yellow lantern core symbol, at her hands what looks like metal ring bracelets that go from her wrist up to her forearm, the rest of her suit is just the skin tight black. She doesn't have lips they look like they were cut as she has nasty scars around her lips, but what looks threatening of her are her teeth; those teeth show her alien physiology as they are a lot but every single one of them look sharp some correctly sharpened while the rest are at odd angles.
"Nice teeth." I told her.
"Nice arm." She responded I smirked as a construct surrounded it giving me movement
"Well I mean you look kinda cute, but like your face is a turnoff. Can you cover that up?" I told her, she growled and bared her teeth, she powered her ring and two beasts came at me, one had the form of a wolf like creature while the other the form of a bearlike creature. I smirked as I mirrored her construct and saw them clash she looked so focused on the construct, I flew at her as fast as I could; she seemed to notice that I disappeared too late as I decked her in the face my left fist surrounded by a light construct of the same arm. I saw her fall to the ground of the dessert, I turned to see her constructs loosing against my constructs.
I flew at her and focused to make my left arm bigger, I swung at her only for her to disappear from where she was. 'What? How?' I began to look around but I got smacked to ground by big metal disc, I landed on my back and dispelled all my constructs except the one on my arm. I saw her standing above me in what looked to be a smirk. "Looks like you're good, but not as good as me." She taunted, I began to focus on the form of a bus behind her.
"Well, so you noticed the bus right?" I told her as I made the bus collide with her, sending her to the ground a few feet from me; I stood up and brushed the dirt from me, she began to get up and I placed my left arm behind my back and began to use the same trick I used against Mr. Twister while a stream of light was covered by my left leg she was getting up.
"Tell me your name." I demanded as I kept the construct moving under the ground.
"Very well." She said as she got up on her feet and moved with her right hand the hair out of her face. "My name is Karu-Sil. Yours?"
"Samantha." I told her plainly, my construct is just a few feet away. "What are you doing here?" 'Stall'
"I'm new to the yellow lantern core, and to prove my superiors I'm better. I came to earth to kill a green lantern, for what is to come." She said as she snarled at me.
"Too bad, you're done." I told her as I made the construct change direction and hit her in the stomach, making her gasp for air. She fell to the ground after my hit knocked her a few feet back.
"Who says... I'm done?" She said I saw in front of me a pillar of steel come towards me I tried to dodge but couldn't as it hit me square in stomach taking all the air out of my lungs. My mouth let out a gasp as I tried to get air into my lungs again.
"Okay... you're good... are going down." I told her as I made a pillar spiked tipped construct pursue her in order to make her fly where I needed her, she began to fly away from it and I began to fly with her in order to get in position she began shooting missiles at me as she avoided my construct. I made a bubble around me to protect myself, as
I neared the position I dispelled the construct and flew at her she was too focused and confused when my construct dispelled that my tackle took her off guard.
We landed in the dirt and before she tried to fly away I took her with my left arm construct and pulled with all my willpower to stop her from leaving.
She crashed against the ground making cracks around her, I tried to step on her head with a metal boot construct but she rolled out of the way. She scrambled to her feet and lunged at me we crashed to ground she was on top of me and began to try biting me. "Hey! No biting." I told her as I kneed her in the stomach, a groan left her throat and spit fell on my face. I followed up by head-butting her, but as I hit her it felt like hitting a brick wall with your forehead. I saw her little dazed and placed my legs around her in a lock and began to apply pressure. But as she struggled I saw chance and made a construct on both hands of small curved plates and brought them towards where her ears should be, her head faltered and fell limply another groan left her.
I let her go of the lock trying to place myself better she kept shaking her head as she slowly was regaining her balance, I got up as fast as I could and made another boot construct in all fours I lunged at her moving my body with all my flexibility and drop kicked her in the face. She got thrown across the ground, I flew following her body getting thrown she turned to me as she skidded to a stop and pointed her ring at me I constructed a metal pole to smack her unconscious, but as I neared her she screeched in my direction the scream hurt my ears. The feeling of needles in my ears constantly piercing my drums, it hurt a lot the pain is so acute that I fell to my knees, the sting in my drums to acute my concentration broke and I felt my left arm fell limp to my side, leaving my left ear uncovered making the pain unbearable.
The screech stopped, I looked at my opponent and felt hot liquid run down my left cheek. "Have fun, Samantha. Now, show me what you fear." Karu-Sil told me as she struggled to get up, but her feet became weak as she trembled to get up again. 'Her screech tires her out.' I thought before she pointed her ring at me once again yellow light began to glow from it, out of it a construct was taking form but instead of a monster I saw Hal, and my sister all grown up.
"Hey Sam, give up. You know you're a failure; you have no family left, no friends left, you don't have an arm, give up. You will never be happy, you will never know happiness, and you don't deserve to be happy." My sister's voice pounded against my ears, his voice sounded disappointed it made my chest ache.
"You know I was wrong about adopting you, look at you so weak and broken, heck I don't even know how you made it to become a Green Lantern; you falter too easily and well you're part of the cannon fodder easily replaceable. You're about to be alone as it always was supposed to be. I should've left you in that alley. "I tried to ignore his comments but a part of me knew it was true, I tried to remember of his promises of our talks but none of them were coming to me. I knew that it was a fear construct but a part of me even though it was small it told me that the construct was right. "You will never know what happiness is, and at this pace you will never know it. You're not my daughter, you're the complete package I mean an orphan, troublemaker, now disabled and to top it all off you like girls, I cannot call you a daughter. I took you in out of pity, a way to keep my image as a hero." He finished talking a sense of dread fell on my stomach, the words stung me made me realize that there might be a truth in there and I was ready to run away but I'm frozen in place, my heart felt as if it was breaking to pieces a pain was filling my chest.
"Hey sis, I don't know how could you leave me; you were always so strong now you're just a weak, but in the end you were always weak, you left me to die. It was your fault that mom died, it was your fault why aunty died, But now no one will miss you, not Hal, not Kara, nobody." That was my breaking point, that voice reminding me how I failed in life, how it was my fault. "I will kill you now, and you won't be able to do anything. Die here like the weak one you are. In your failure of a life." She disappeared, but was replaced with a monster spikes and bones transforming her arms growing in length, hands came out of the ground and held me in place, dread filled my entire body the fear became too mind numbing. I was about to pee out of fear, the sense of dread in my head pounding as the constructs disappeared. I saw Karu-Sil approach me slowly walking towards me a spike in what was her hand, I began to try and crawl away but my right arm gave making me crash down on my back trying to move, but as I tried to move but
I was paralyzed, I felt a tear run down my eye as I feared this was my end, my chest was in so much pain as dread filled me.
"Fear accessed." I heard faintly, Karu stopped in place I felt that sense of dread to be almost comforting, but at the same time scary. It's like being nervous before something new. I raised my hand as Karu swung at me I just pictured a shield and as I closed my eyes waiting for the worst I heard a loud clang, I opened my eyes slowly, I looked up to see a yellow construct shield.
"That's impossible!" she said but I scrambled to my feet and did the only thing I could, I lunged at her and began to punch anything that I could, she punched back a few times but I didn't care. I don't know how much time we spent there fighting, punching and kicking each other, forgetting everything about constructs just plain old fighting without any form or martial art. We kept fighting until I head-butted her again at her nose as dark purple liquid came out she fell to the ground. I made a construct of a sword but as I was about to drive a sword through her as many times as I could to kill her but I remembered something that stopped me in place. My sister, she grew up, she became someone who I sacrificed myself for; my head began to hurt a strong headache. I saw Karu beginning to move again stirring awake slowly bringing me to focus in what I was about to do once again.
Right now killing her sounds good, but I have a better idea killing her slowly would be better a way to vent my anger. "I should kill you! Yes should be fun." I said as I pictured the same sword as it appeared in my hand as I approached her, she was trying to scramble to her feet but tripped and fell on her back, her face showed what I can describe as dread.
"Oh man this is rich, but let's sees if this works." I told her as I did the same thing she did to me; I saw a glimpse of her mind, a little girl with blood on her boots as she was running through the woods away from a green glow that was gaining up on her.
"Hey Karu, It's time I kill you." A rough voice filled my ears. "Last time I killed your parents who were just beasts, this time you won't escape." I looked at the construct; it was a monster like green lantern.
"No, please! Not this, never this! HELP! HELP!" She screamed pleading as the construct moved closer to her with a wolf like monsters head in its hand. She began screaming scared out of her mind; her fear is invigorating; I can feel my ring growing stronger as if I was getting a charge from when I recharge my ring. "AWW so cute screaming for help, actually..." I said tapping my chin with my left fingers that were in a yellow construct. "I would let you leave earth, but your fear is giving me power, it's addicting." I told her as I dispelled the construct. "YOU!" I heard her scream at me as she scrambled to her feet once again, I knew she was about to screech again; but I made a construct of a leather bosal to stop her from speaking. She began to claw at the construct leaving scratches in her face.
"Not yet sweetie, no screaming for you, your fear is giving me power but I wonder if your blood will be a better fuel." I said as I made chains to leave her in place, I began to slowly change the shape of the chain slabs; one by one making spikes surround each slab, her muffled screams made me stronger filling me with power, as she struggled to move more, a foul smell filled my nose as she struggled, drops began fell from her legs as they fell down to the ground her screams muffled.
"Ugh you peed, that's disgusting...but anyway. Time to die." I told her as a chain wrapped around her neck, the slabs slowly changing. Her eyes were wide open as tears ran down her cheeks.
"Samantha stop!" A voice said behind me, I turned to see Kyle standing there along with Guy.
"Oh hey, you're on time for her execution." I told them as sweetly as I could, I turned to Karu and began to change the slabs faster her screams filling my ears and my construct with more power.
"Wait Sam, we're green lanterns, heroes. We don't kill. You! Don't kill." Kyle told me that made me stop.
"You're not a yellow, you're a green and you know it. Fight the mind numbing fear, you're strong, fight it." Guy told me, my head began to pulse again I gripped my head loosing concentration I fell to my knees, my left arm fell limp to my side.
"Remember who you are." Kyle told me as the headache amplified. I screamed as the headache was too much.
"Fight it, don't let fear run your emotions; don't let it control you." The headache stopped in an instant I could think clearly that was enough for me to get my bearings back.
"Oh god, I almost killed someone." I said aloud and turned to Karu dissolving all constructs. "Go, I don't want you here." Karu nodded and flew away as fast as she could, seconds later she disappeared from view. I looked up to see Kyle giving me a hand, I took it and stood up.
"Want to tell us what was all that about?" He asked
"Don't know, my ring is acting up. I turned yellow... I also turned red... something is definitely wrong with me and my ring." I told him admitting defeat.
"Why did you turned yellow? Is the ring controlling you? And what do you mean by red?" Guy asked me.
"No, I was in complete control over my actions. I enjoyed feeling that fear, and the fear I produced made me feel powerful. But it stopped once you stopped me; every idea of making someone experience fear and pain was like an addiction to keep going on and on for more power. But that was all me, I mean I completely controlled what I did." I explained them recalling what I did.
"Sam we need to do something about this." Kyle told me
"Like what? For now we need to keep it a secret, nobody should know about this." I looked at both of them, they had worried expressions but both of them sighed.
"Okay shrimp, but I'm against this, figure it out or we're going to Oa." Guy told me.
"I knew you cared, you jerk." I responded as he ruffled my hair and laughed.
"Watch the hair jerk." I told him as I tried to fix how I had my hair, he kept laughing. "What are you doing here?" I asked them
"We detected alien signatures, and weird light signatures from our rings and we came to investigate and saw you about to kill a yellow while you were yellow." Guy explained.
"Well sorry about that." I told them as we began to fly upward.
"It's okay you gave me time to mentally prepare to ask Ice on a date." Guy admitted as we stayed there floating.
"Yeah he is too thick headed, even if I kept telling him to ask her out." Kyle admitted.
"Oh man that's rich. Ugh is anyone else hearing a constant beep?" I asked aloud.
"Is that blood coming from your ear?" Kyle told me in an angry tone.
"Fucking aliens." I said as I moved my right hand to touch it, looking at it my fingers had blood in them.
"Language!" Guy and Kyle reminded me I just groaned in annoyance.
As I flew to the nearest zeta tube which was all the way to coast city, I can't help but wonder about my arm being as limp as a log good thing the ring can help me in making it usable. But I can see that blaming M'gann for my actions for my desperate plea for something that I wanted to see after so long. I... I can forgive her; it's my fault that I lost my arm. It's not fair for her to be carrying this type of guilt inside her. I need to apologize, it is her fault but it's my decisions that took me to this point I'm not going to forgive her just yet. But now I can only smile fondly at the memory of my sister, how she grew up, how she became someone, and how beautiful she became. I can only feel proud that my sister became someone and studied hard for that and I can only smile and remember how her voice changed but also those eyes that seemed to never lose hope. I felt a sense that all will be well on the end, and how I can finally move on and make my own path and stop finally grieving for my past; accept my family and learn that I can only love them.
"Hey boss, I'm back, report later, injury now; my left ear is bleeding by an alien screeching, going to the infirmary." I said as I came out of the zeta tube, I just heard a loud sigh as I walked through the main room and into the same infirmary room. I reached the room which had my name on it as a running joke; I searched for a cloth to clean the blood that had dried. A few seconds later Canary came into the room. "Rough fight?" She asked smugly.
"Stupid yellow lantern alien screeched, broke my constructs, and made my left ear bleed. Almost lost that fight, fighting a yellow lantern it's no fun. Now help me with something that stops pain from a sonic screech." I told her.
"Here this will stop the pain, sit, and place this on your ear so you can clean it and then I'll do it for you." She told me as she took a cotton swab that had some disinfectant cream on it. I sat on the bed and she sat down with me.
"God your ears are gross." She said as she took another cotton swab repeating the process and began to clean my ears.
"You're saying this to a girl who burps as loud as Wally." I responded as Canary moved the cotton swab to hit my inner ear.
"OUCH, you did that on purpose." I told her as I saw her out of the corner of my eye smirking, she leaned over me, my eyes unconsciously traveled downward to her cleavage.
"You have something on your mind, or are enjoying the view?" She asked me my eyes shot forward and my face felt hot.
"Are you blushing?" Canary asked me.
"I-ah-I ah...umm." I tried to come up with something but nothing came out.
"Cat got your tongue?" Canary asked me as she moved to show more of her cleavage making my face warmer. I could not answer as my cheeks heated.
"Sam can I ask you a personal question?" Canary asked cautiously
"Sure might as well, you're the one with experience on sonic screams. It's not like I can leave anyway." I responded as I made myself comfortable while she worked on my ear.
"Sam... How long have you been...hmm... Bluntly placed... gay." Canary asked me, every doubt I've had the past month came crashing onto me.
"You don't make it that obvious that you like Kara you have to pay attention to notice, and during the training exercise you were out of the comms for a few minutes I wonder what happened those minutes?" Canary said sultrily
"We were facing death…it was for good luck... I mean… nothing happened." I said as my face began to heat up remembering that kiss. "...But I don't know if I'm attracted to both." I told her admitting a small part.
"Okay, what do you find attractive about boys?" Canary asked objectively, my eyes widened and just as fast I made all the walls on a green square construct to avoid listening ears. Canary sighed in annoyance at my reaction; I cleared my throat and thought over what I liked about boys.
"Well muscles for starters, lips, nose, arms, height." I said remembering what I saw on Kaldur.
"And girls?"
"Well... How they smile, their laughs, eyes, hair, how they know about feelings, and legs damn those legs." I said without noticing that I smiled and remembered what I liked about Kara.
"Notice any difference in what you just said?" Canary asked me with a smug smile on her lips.
"One is hotter than the other?" I responded trying to leave my seat but another tap on my ear stopped me.
"Sam, one is physical and the other is both physical and emotional." It dawned on me as I thought over Kara and how she looked good in everything she wore, how she smiled and how her laugh sounds.
I had something going on with Kaldur..."
"And has he done anything to get your attention lately?"
"No, not after... Kara ... Showed... Up. Oh come on! He knew before I did." I groaned and all the facts dawned on me realizing that I do like girls more than boys. "But...
There is no one in the entire League that is gay... ah... I can't be the first."
"What's so wrong with it?"
"I don't know, what would dad think? What would everyone think? I mean, what if my dad kicks me out for being like this."
"Don't think so low of your father, from what he always says, you think so little of him; also Sam you might not make it obvious that you liked her, but she does show interest in you." I knew that kiss meant something.
"And what should I do? I mean I don't know anything about love. How am I supposed to respond to her?" I said as I began thinking of possible ways to what tell Kara how I felt.
"Well that's up to you to decide. But if you want my advice then tell her something only you and her should know about. And I told her your birthday is in 2 days. But don't worry your secret is safe with me, that is until you decide to tell the people that care about you."
"But if that comes out and bites me in the butt it's your fault."
"I think I can handle the guilt; oh and if you need advice come to me, I'm good at relationships." Canary said smugly as she crossed her arms.
"But what would everyone else think? I think my dad needs to know about this along with the other lanterns."
"Sam, you're gay, not about to grow a head out of thin air."
"But these days it's like the same thing!" I responded after reading recent news on LGBT movements in major cities.
"You need to be true to yourself, if you keep lying to yourself you will have a problem later on." Canary responded bluntly but her words stung.
"What would I do? Hey dad I'm gay, you probably won't like me like this, and throw me to the streets." I said as I dramatically moved my right arm.
"It won't go that far Sam. Tell me why are you always looking on the wrong side of things?" She said but I remembered the constructs.
"I saw my worst fear coming to life." I told her remembering everything those constructs made.
"What is your worst fear?" Canary asked me.
"That happiness will never come my way, I know will never know happiness; happiness has never come my way and Hal adopting me out of pity, and knowing that I cannot be accepted that's what I'm most afraid off." I admitted.
"Why are you so afraid of happiness? You know that he loves you right?" She asked
"It always ends badly for me." I said as Canary stopped working on my ears
"Look something no one knows is that but that doesn't matter, I can at least tell you my past." I told her bracing for the next outcome.
"You don't really have to." She said in a troubled voice.
"I need to, the day my mother died I should've just asked for that doll and she would be alive, or that cashier if she would've been faster she would be alive. Me being a dumb kid got her killed, and she died on my birthday. An estranged aunt adopted us but she died 8 months later when she was making a deposit for our school." I sighed.
"Where are their graves? If you don't mind me asking." Canary asked, I knew there were no graves. I did think about making false records on my family, marking them as dead.
"I don't know; don't really know if there are tombstones with names on them." I sighed.
"It really was a difficult life for you. So you got into illegal fighting rings to get money and don't feel emotional pain."
"And I don't cry, I'm as tough as they come. I'm really scared, but yeah fear and willpower are opposites. I faced my worst fear and that fear was rejection... and being alone, I don't have anyone left. No mother, no aunt, no sister... No family. I'm an orphan, legally I don't even exist. Even if I have a genius level intellect I can see that my only logical solution is to move on after so much loss. But I can't move on, I got punched half to death half the time for money..." I sighed in defeat.
"But be proud in yourself, you didn't fell to a pit of despair. You fought for what was right, and stood on your track."
"But in the end I can forgive M'gann for being an idiot not yet because I'm still angry, but I can finally move on and become someone. I can live a normal life; I can have a family, someone who cares for me and don't really bother to be a burden anymore even makes someone proud." I admitted finally feeling good that I can have a normal life.
"What do you want to do? What do you really want to do?" Canary asked me.
"I don't know, I feel like being a hero is good and all but this life I don't really want to fight for a good or a bad cause. I want to live, not survive, not run; I want to live." I admitted after so many years I never truly wanted to fight, but it was enough to survive I pulled the barrier around the room down as the past conversation clearly over.
"Then you have to tell me Sam. Who are you? Not an excuse, not lies tell me." Canary demanded.
"I already told you, I'm no one. There is no information about me." I told her. 'Having no record of me on this world, I knew it would get me in trouble.'
"You are LYING! Are you a clone? WHAT ARE YOU? WHO SENT YOU?!" Canary demanded. 'She's accusing me of being the mole.'
"You can kick me off the team, doubt my loyalties. But just know that I'm not a mole or a traitor. I am not a clone or an experiment. I'm a human being, not an impostor I am someone." I told her.
"Why are there no records of your existence previous to adoption by Hal? And how did you have that ring?" Canary asked me.
"I told you, I swear on my position on the team that I don't have a birth certificate."
"Very well, you're off the team. We will keep your identity secret even if it doesn't matter as you're withholding information. For all we know you're the mole. Come with me for interrogation." Canary said as she began to drag me away 'I don't believe it, I'm getting betrayed... after all this, all I've done for this team, this show.'
"Well I knew something would go wrong, that's my life." I sighed as I walked with Canary, but I can't go and tell what will happen, it will go horrible changing something will have an effect that can change everything. "Oh well see ya Canary, thanks for the patch up and the documents." I said as I was getting walked towards the zeta tubes and my escape plan set into motion, getting a Martian in my head will not be good for me and for the information I have.
"Canary what is the meaning of this?" Batman asked as he talked with Robin in his civilian clothes.
"She's withholding information, only way for this to be explained is that she's the mole or a clone. Because you already exist in this world." Canary said as the screens Batman was working lit up and expanded across the room names I knew too well but with different last names. Samantha Jessica Oakden Jackson sister to Annette Charlotte Jackson, mother Jessica Oakden, father Anthony Jackson. "Your plan didn't work Batman; tell us who you work for!" Canary tried once again as a screen with someone with my face appeared in the middle of the room. We reached the zeta tubes, and my escape plan went into motion but before I had to do something. "Override black canary 0 9, delete green lantern access to all tubes. Justice League." Canary said as she blocked my plan to escape via zeta tubes.
"Override confirmed." The computer complied.
"Watchtower." Canary said aloud the zeta tube powered up.
"Wait! Before I go if I'm innocent, do I still have the scholarship if I'm innocent? I can come back... right? Boss? I was about to quit, please!" I asked with panic in my voice. Batman just shook his head. 'Then I don't know what I'm doing here. All of this for nothing.' I said as I planned my escape.
"Very well, at least I get to stay with my ring. I'm not a clone, please believe me!" I struggled fighting the grip but I'm too tired after fighting a yellow lantern. 'Now I'm going to get sent to Belle Reve for being me, I can't get sent to jail. I didn't do anything!' Canary gripped my arm tighter, my eyes narrowed she inhaled I quickly made a hand construct as she inhaled I punched her in the throat. She staggered and her grip slacked as she coughed and heaved trying to get air into her lungs, I moved as fast as I could and flew at my top speed to the nearest exit.
"Cave initiate lock down override Batman 0 2. Calling justice League for backup to the cave." Alarms blared in my ears, I reached the front door but the ramp slammed shut,
I heard Captain Marvel and Green Arrow enter the cave by the computer system. 'Superboy arrives in his super cycle around this hour that is my chance to get out of here.' I flew back towards the hangar passing the kitchen intersection but Miss Martian appeared in front of me along with Artemis both ready to fight. "I'm not the mole, please let me pass." I pleaded.
"Why are you running? You're not helping your case." Artemis said as she pointed an arrow at me. "Ye-yeah" Miss Martian said aloud, her eyes glowed green I panicked fearing losing my mind in a brain blast.
"We are not letting you pass! Traitor." Artemis said as she fired I placed a barrier and sighed as the arrow collided to the ground.
"Then you leave me with no choice. MOVE!" I said as I made a construct of a bus to run the hallway. I saw both of them move out of the way. 'I'm not in the clear yet.' I reached the hangar to see Aqualad, Supergirl and Kid Flash standing there blocking my exit.
"Please just let me pass... I'm not the mole." I pleaded.
"You're the mole, you were leader. You betrayed us!" Kid Flash told me as he placed his goggles on.
"No, you don't understand. Let me pass please! I'm not the mole, I swear." I heard steps coming from the hallway. I watched Supergirl in the eye, she sighed and cocked her fist I charged up my ring preparing to fight my friends, Aqualad got his bearers out water rose from the hangar. But to my surprise Supergirl punched Aqualad sending him into the wall, Kid Flash began to run at me but I made a shackle on his feet to make him trip. "Go!" She said as I realized she saved me I flew towards the opening door as Superboy arrived.
"I'm sorry Kara." I said in a whisper as I exited the cave passing Superboy as he went in. I began to fly faster towards coast city. I need the money, I have only a hundred dollars but that should be enough, the flip phone in case of emergencies. I need to disappear, the Justice League will be looking for me so I need to make sure I don't want happiness ever again, it was too good to be true.
I arrived to my room and went straight for my escape box stashed in a secret compartment under my bed. It has money, a flip phone and photographs of the team, me and Hal, and one of my past life with Annie, Earl and I the picture I had in my pocket when I arrived here. "Sammy?" I heard a voice behind me preparing for the worst I prepared myself.
"Hey Hal, what's up?" I asked as I put away everything in my bag to escape, preparing for a fight.
"Why are they after you?" Hal asked me as I closed my bag and began to take clothes and placing it into another bag that was ready.
"Oh you know having no birth certificate or documents can get you in trouble." I said as I took out my food supplies and storing them in the bag, my entire world falling apart and I'm trying to stay afloat.
"Were you ready to run away?" Hal asked me as I finished packing.
"Yeah, it was too good to be true." I admitted as I went for my black hoodie.
"Sammy." The heartbroken tone made me stop; I felt tears in my eyes, by the hurt in his voice.
"Hal you were my first official dad, and I will always love you. But I need to go, I failed you and I'm sorry, but I need to go now. They will come and I need to run, and disappear. I'm sorry I didn't make you proud." I admitted as I hugged him with my only arm.
"You didn't fail, you were an amazing daughter. I love you; now go before someone comes here. I'll cover for you." Hal said as he ended the hug, I didn't want it to end but I needed to begin moving.
"Thanks dad, I love you." I told him as I heard a sniff coming from him, I took the computer that he gave me when the schoolyear began, I need my computer to type two words that would lock up all my information in a secure system that not even Robin will be able to access 'goodnight Annie' that will place me a couple of steps in front of them. I took my things, my left arm unusable became annoying, but I'm slowly getting used to it.
"Run, I'm sorry. Take this, it's not much but it will help you." Hal said as he took out money and handed it to me.
"Thanks dad. I love you" I said as I jumped out the window and landed on my feet, I began to run towards the center city, as I reached the city I took out the flip phone and called the only number saved on it.
"Hello?" That same voice answered.
"It's me, give me directions to the ring and tell every contact you have, that Light Fist is looking for jobs as a mercenary." I said as I walked towards the city.
"Finally! Light you are amazing." His voice sounded too happy.
"Be my liaison to the underground and a place to live and I'll give you 30 percent."
''35" He bargained.
"I'll break your nose if you dare raise it, 30 or nothing. I still have other numbers I could call." I lied to threaten him.
"Okay, okay I get 30 and give you a place to live where you won't get caught." He added.
"I accept, see ya in a few." I told him as I followed the directions he gave me.
So recap yesterday I had finished applying for the last universities here in America. Now I'm running away... again, I really want to fight away my sorrows, like I always did.
"Hello light, it's been a long time. What happened to your arm?" He asked me as he looked at my left arm.
"Blame that Martian bitch." I told her as anger settled in once again.
"That places you in a higher market you fought a superhero and survived." He said as he guided me towards the ring, I heard cheers and punches landing on people.
"Actually, I think you're going to have me at super jobs. Let's get somewhere private." I told him as we walked towards his office, he guided me and we entered the empty room.
"So what are we doing here, no one will get here."
"I'm a Green Lantern." I admitted as I made my ring glow and made a small cube construct.
"But aren't green lanterns good guys?" He said barely surprised.
"Yeah, but I'm currently a wanted case for the Justice League. So not all green lanterns are good guys or superheroes." I admitted as I powered down.
"Then it's even better, you and I will be rich. You were on high demand for jobs now you'll be a superstar." He said excitedly. "What is your name light?" He asked me as I took out my computer and began to run the program.
"I don't exist anymore, so from now on I'm light fists." I admitted as I pressed enter in my computer, I gave up on my civilian life the moment I admitted I didn't want to fight anymore.
"Very well light, you and I will get rich real fast. Names Simon, and I'll be you manager." Simon said excitedly.
"Don't care put me in a fight I need to find out if I have to use my ring to use my arm to fight or not." I told him as I took off my ring making it float in the air as I placed the bags in the floor.
"Of course light, I'm at your service." He said as we walked out the room, and got into the ring, maybe I don't want to fight anymore but it does feel good to be back in a ring to knock out someone and not care about what may happen just fight and forget.
"That was not hard yet not easy." I admitted as I moved my right wrist hearing the normal crack and the pain in my knuckles still remaining but overall my anger and stress subsided.
"You won with only one arm and using weird combat style." Simon told me almost drooling over the money he could make with my future jobs.
"Yeah, I need a place to sleep somewhere I won't get caught by the Justice League." I told him as I felt money fall on my hand.
"I have just the place. Heavy! Take light to an apartment she works for me now. Light I'll make you have a job in the next few days. I'll visit you tomorrow or today." Simon told me as the man known as heavy took me to an apartment complex in the center of the city.
"Alright light, you'll be living in here." The man known as heavy told me.
"Thanks heavy, could you at least tell me your name?" I asked him
"Sure thing, my name is Henry. Can you tell me yours? I'm sure light isn't your name." He told me his big frame covering most of the door.
"My name is Samantha, or it was my name. I don't have a birth certificate, and the Justice League is after me I don't have any family, any friends. I lost the person I loved she would've been my girlfriend." I admitted as I felt every feeling in my chest about to come out.
"Don't worry Samantha it will be alright." Henry told me, as he placed a hand on my left shoulder I didn't really felt the warms only the weight.
"I had a chance to go to college, to become a better person. To leave superhero life behind, be a member of society. But don't worry about it, go back to Simon tell him to bring my part of the money from the fight here." I sighed as I really want to be alone.
"It's okay, don't worry I'm a good listener." Henry said as he left the apartment lowering his head to pass through the door.
"Oh and I need green, yellow, red, orange, blue, indigo and pink paint. I need it ASAP." I told him as he walked out the apartment, I turned the lights on.
"Of course as soon as I get the chance I'll send someone by tomorrow morning." Henry said as he left, I closed the door and looked around. The apartment is just a kitchen, a one person bedroom with a bathroom. 'At least I can have somewhere to bathe now along with a roof.' I sighed.
"So much for a happy life, guess I'm better on my own. I should just retire go somewhere else, live in a field to work there. But that would be ignorant so I'm better off doing nothing just being muscle actually I can leave small clues regarding the light. But first I need to mark that I'm here so no one in this apartment tries to charge me for protection." I walked out and pointed my ring towards the wall beside my door, I shot at the numbers taking them down; and decided I'd make the symbol of a fist with a ring.
Well life was really hard; at least they were a few good years. Now it's time to move on, I just now can curl up and cry. I went to the door and closed it, as I did the final lock. I felt the entire day crash upon me, and I cried. I was so close to have a life, same as Annie did without me… now I'm worse; I'm a criminal for reasons unknown to me. I… can now only survive, no more school, I was so close to live, no more friends or family, I miss Kara, and Hal so much. It crashed upon me like a bag of bricks, and I cried and cried for what felt like hours. A knock brought me out of my grief. The door began to slam faster.
"Open up, if you know what's good for you!" the voice announced as the door slammed
"Knock the door one more time and you will regret it!" I threatened as anger flowed out from me the door was banged again and anger took over. "Rage accessed." I opened the door to reveal a group of gang members, in undershirts and jeans 3 sizes too big for them with bandanas, and tattoos with tanned skin.
"It's just a kid, who was crying." One of the members said his accent reminded me of someone I will never forget and will always be a source of anger."
"Leave now and you won't know what it feels like to be stabbed with light." I threatened as rage stirred within me.
"Oh please like a little girl would stop us. We can have some fun with you before making you pay for your insolence." The one in the middle told me, I powered my ring.
"Umm Carlos, I don't think it's a good idea. That symbol I've been told that the bearer of that symbol is dangerous. There is a rumor going around that, that person is back and now is more dangerous." One of them said scared but the name Carlos made anger rise.
"Who is it from?" The man now known as Carlos asked confused, as I took a step forward.
"Light fists, now Carlos if you don't leave my sight you will end up in pain."
"Oh please it's just a ruse to get us to run away. She is just a girl, she will never beat me." Carlos bragged, as everything snapped I recognized his face and anger rose even more.
"REVENGE!" I yelled out as I made lunged at them, punching Carlos in the stomach I felt my punch hit his stomach square in the center and a crack. I turned around as I felt something hit me but barely felt it, I saw the fear in the man I grabbed his arm he screamed in pain as a hiss left him I swung him as strong as I could he crashed against the man that was running away, a crack on the wall was left as both of them collapsed on each other as they fell. I saw 2 other men with the same type off clothes both took out guns and began to shoot at me. That brought out more painful memories and made anger flow out of me. "YOU WILL STOP!" I yelled out as I charged at them bullets bouncing off of me, one tried to run but I grabbed him by the back of his shirt, the other pointed his gun at my head point blank but I consciously made bile rise in my throat and spat at it, red napalm coming out melting the gun.
"Let me go, please I did nothing." One pleaded but I don't care I'm too angry. "NO!" I yelled as I pulled the man back to the other. The one who pointed his gun was crying out of fear, the other had wetted his pants. "Fear accessed. Rage override." My mind became kind of clear because I was acting as I would do but not as losing control, the same comforting fear I felt it but now it wasn't as overwhelming it was like having my normal ring only it was powered by my fears and those were at an all-time high; add the fear produced by these guys.
"I'm back in control now, I'll enjoy this." I said as I made a construct to pin both of them to the wall. "Fear me." I said as I saw a glimpse of both their minds, one a small kid hiding in a closet. The other was a dog pursuing him. "Give me power." I said as I used my ring now yellow to feed their fear and make it into strength into me, their eyes glowed yellow and both fell unconscious after a few seconds I let them fall to the ground. I turned around to see Carlos struggling to reach the stairs crawling. "YOU! I knew you reminded me of someone. YOU KILLED ME!" I yelled as I made a construct to pin him to a wall and anger rose again. "Rage accessed. Fear override." I felt anger in me as Carlos screamed. "Please, I didn't do it. Please mercy." I walked to where he was chained to.
"Sorry just ran out of it." I said as I began to punch him, getting all my hate and anger out. After he was swollen and bleeding I let him go he couldn't get up. I just left him there and walked into my apartment, a part of me felt completely at peace. 'I got revenge to punch someone who sent me here, not exactly him. But it does feel good; I looked at the clock on the kitchen. It's 3 in the morning; I can wait for Simon or sleep I think I'll go to sleep. As I began to walk to my new room I heard a knock on the door.
"Knock again and you'll end up like the rest out there." I yelled out as I walked to the door. "Who is it?" I said behind the door anger clear in my voice.
"It's me, Simon." With that I opened the door, to reveal Simon in his suit he always wears.
"Hey light. Why are there 5 gang members beaten to a pulp out there?" Simon asked as he pointed towards the hallway.
"They knocked, and didn't follow instructions." Simon tensed.
"Why are you here?" I asked.
"I'm here to give you this." He said as he handed me cash.
"A thousand dollars, thanks; idiots think that only because I don't have an arm they can beat me." I said as I finished counting.
"The rest is for the things you asked for. May I come in?" Simon asked cautiously.
"No." Those words made him stop in his tracks.
"Well... there's a job in Gotham, you were immediately requested there. Payment is of fifty thousand they paid in advance by the joker gang, to act as muscle and body guard." Simon explained.
"I'll do it."
"Good because they already paid, come to this address tomorrow so I can give you all you need so you can receive all your payments"
That ending was just an idea that I played around with when writing this, it's actually the best way to follow the story since it does not make sense that she just follows what was going to happen in cannon, and thinking about what would've been the best option to follow is actually the best way since there is no documents or anything that can demonstrate that she does exist, and it was previously hinted as to what was going to happen since it was supposed to be since what other evidence there is as if she doesn't exist already in that world. But I will be re-writing the story at the really early chapters, I already have the first 4 chapters and the re write of the first one. More so I can say that it will be heading in this exact same direction but I want this time to have sense and a better motivation for the main character. So now I will update a little more constantly since I have nothing else to do right now as in I don't have a job anymore.
Now the next section is what would've been if she was not betrayed a story I will not be following cannon since it actually deviates from original since most of the chapters takes place in different parts of the world and missions with just some members of the team. Now I do have plans for the story since I almost wrote myself into a corner and the story as well, so now we will be following the rouge life of a green lantern that was betrayed by the league and with someone with the knowledge of future events and a high IQ.
"What do you want to do? What do you really want to do?" Canary asked me.
"I don't know I feel like being a hero is good and all but this life I don't really want to fight for a good or a bad cause. I want to live, not survive, not run; for the first time in my life I can choose, and not get run over by life. I'm going to graduate school in a few months, and maybe enter college any college that I want and it won't cost Hal a cent after all the debts he is in." I admitted after so many years I never truly wanted to fight, but it was enough to survive and looking forward to my future.
"What do you mean by debts?" Canary asked as she finished by place a piece of cotton inside my ear. "Remove it before you go to bed and you'll be alright. But what did you mean by debt?"
"Right now Hal and I are living by loans Hal makes to either banks or other companies."
"Why did he never mention it?"
"He's too prideful the only one that knows is Barry Allen, he has helped us but it always gets spent in food among other necessities such as bills and what not. There is no food at home some days that's why I come here to cook sometimes. I won't be coming in the next few days but I'll see what I can do."
"Tell him that we can help him."
"You know him as much as I do; he won't like the help."
"I'm going to tell this to Batman he should be able to help."
"Okay, you do that; thanks Canary. Before I go I need to talk with Kara. Wish me luck, or else it's your fault." I said as I exited the room and dissolved the construct. "Good luck kid."
"Hey Sam, what did you wanted to talk about?" Kara arrived at the Hangar near the zeta tubes where the water ran and the Bioship was stationed.
"I, ah, I... my second name is Jessica..." I said in panic of saying something.
"... Okay?" Kara said confused, as she looked kinda off place for my comment her face making a face of confusion.
"That's something no one knows, that I have a second name... that didn't came out right." I tried talking but nothing came to mind as to what I had to say, Kara was expecting something from me.
"Ah, we kissed... and you told me it was for good luck; which we died later after... that's also not right." I'm about to slam my head to the nearest wall to think of something.
"I mean, I don't know we kissed and it was fast and weird."
"Weird?" Kara's voice sounded annoyed and kinda angry.
"No! I mean it was nice and you're a good kisser... not that I know how someone is a good kisser..." My mind began to stop working and now my mouth is just running on what I'm thinking about.
"Sam."
"I'm just a normal girl, well not normal since I have an alien ring from space. That is not normal and you're an alien; and that came out wrong. Okay let's begin again, I partially know what I'm doing and I'm a mess... that's also not correct."
"Sam."
"So you're from krypton and I'm from here, Earth." My mind kept rambling and I was not thinking on what I was about to say.
"Sam."
"And I don't know how to say this, because you're you and I'm me; and I can see us both together together, but not just together. Like burger and fries, and now I'm thinking about food, which is wrong. We could go together like..."
"SAM!" Her voice pulled me out of my ramble.
"Yes?" I answered not knowing what to do or say.
"Shut up, I do too." She said as she smiled her cheeks having a red tint.
"Umm what?" I responded dumbfounded
"You're an idiot." She said as she took a step closer to me her face centimeters away from me.
"I'm not an idiot I have just been accepted into all the colleges in US, along with a ..." My sentence was cut off as I felt something crash against my lips; slowly I realized that she kissed me, my eyes widened. But before I could even react it was over, I saw Kara open her eyes with an expression of doubt as I kept looking at her.
"Umm Sam, you've been staring at me for a while."
"Sorry almost died of happiness..." Kara smirked and my face heated up once again. "I mean... please remove foot from mouth." She stopped me by kissing me once again, only this time I kissed back.
"Better?" Kara said as she stepped back from the first real kiss that I just gave.
"Y-ye-yeah." I said as my feet wobbled.
"Good." This time I leaned in and we met half way, my mind began to wander after a few minutes. 'What if someone walks in right now?'
"Wait." I told her making distance between us, she stopped and looked in doubt. "I think we should keep it in secret." I told her motioning to our surroundings with my hand.
"I understand, back in Krypton these types of relationships were not seen at all. Those who had them were interloping, hiding and doing discreet ways to show affection."
"Do you think it's okay if we keep it a secret from everyone else? At least for a while... I mean that was my first kiss, or kisses. But I still have to tell my dad and all my family."
"I understand, but yeah I knew you would ask for something like that. But I agree with you, but you have to take me on those things here called "dates"."
"That we can do." I told her as I smiled, my face felt like it was in a burner
"Oh I think it's time I go home, it's getting late and I don't want my dad to be mad that I arrived late."
"Someone here? Dad I have to tell you something really important." I asked as I placed my keys on the bowl near the door of my house, feeling happy that I can call someplace home, maybe I can finally unpack the escape plan.
"Yes Sam, here in the living room." I heard my dad's voice, I walked to the living room but instead of just my dad everyone is here, even Kyle and they looked sternly at me, the first thing came to mind and out my mouth without a filter.
"Okay, if this is about the secret door under my bed I swear I was about to unpack them." I confessed if they found out, all of them looked in doubt.
"Sam, please take a seat." 'Oh this is not good.' I moved to my usual seat on the living room everyone stared down at me.
"So... am I in trouble." I made the O longer making an emphasis to break the tension.
"No." John responded flatly, in a serious tone; the one he usually uses when he scolds me; I looked over to Kyle and Guy who are usually the ones who help me out.
"We have some... news for you, the tension between the Lantern Core and the Sinestro Core are rising, and from the looks of it we're going to go to war. Due to you being underage and after a few talks with the guardians we were able to convince them that you will not be going, your ring has to be reprogramed."
"What do you mean? I can't go to fight in my job? My core?" I said aloud clearly bothered by this statement.
"Ring, protocol 312 override Hal Jordan sector 2814, order authorized by Ganthet of the guardians of the universe." Hal said aloud.
"Emergency protocols and recall to Oa have been overwritten by senior lantern, authorization needed to be completed." My ring spoke from my finger.
"Hey, not cool; I can fly to Oa."
"Actually protocol 312 prevents you from leaving the planet, only way to remove it is by Lantern Jordan or Lantern Stewart since he is his partner." My ring told me.
"That's not fair, I can fight; you know I can fight, you've seen it." I argued
"Yes but look at how much you get hurt by being careless, every time I fear that you don't come back home after one of Batman's missions for your self sacrifice. You scared John, Kyle, Guy, and I was afraid of not seeing you again; it hasn't even been 3 days when you locked yourself in your room for a day without coming out. We had to go and talk with Batman, I swear if I hadn't spoken with you before I would've punched Batman first thing before he even directed a word at me."
"..." I had no words to speak or an answer.
"Sammy, we care for you we know you want to fight or else you would not be using that ring; but we want to keep you safe not as a coworker or as a senior, but as family."
"But why are you going to these lengths?"
"It's obvious you knuckle head." Guy approached me and tapped the top of my head with his fist, what he always did when reasoning with me. "We care a lot for you so,
don't go doing dumb things."
"Gee Gardner I didn't knew you cared." I responded as he ruffled my hair, I tried to swat him away but he kept going; I powered up my ring to make him remove his hand but I also saw the light from his ring I laughed as we both got ready.
"Kids no fighting in the house." Kyle acted a mediator. "Sammy you had something important to tell us what was it?" Dad asked me as he sat down in the couch and pushed Guy away from me. I felt my heart rise to my throat and nerves getting to my stomach.
"Come on kiddo out with it; don't tell me you're afraid?" Guy teased but he received a smack on the back of his head by Kyle.
"Thanks Kyle." I said aloud.
"So what's what you wanted to tell me?" Dad asked with interest in his eyes.
"Well you see... umm... how can I say it..." I tried on different ways to break it down without coming as a shock to everyone.
"Just say it, don't worry." Dad told me, I just swallowed hard and decided to just say it bluntly.
"I, uh, I... I have, I like girls... as in I... I have a girlfriend." I spoke aloud, I felt how the whole house went silent, and I can hear the blood rushing to my face as I'm now sure it's completely red.
"HA PAY UP GARDNER!" Kyle broke the silence as he extended a hand towards Guy as Guy only growled in annoyment.
"Wait what?" I asked as I saw Guy taking out a few hundred dollar bills.
"You made a bet on if I liked boys or girls?" I asked shocked about this, but I saw Kyle passing 2 bills to Dad as he just smiled at me, John stood up and left the house; I know that he might not like these types of relationships. But I couldn't do anything to change his views, but it feels... bad knowing that he might not support me. I felt bad for not being what John hoped for me to be.
"Don't worry little light, I will talk to him." Dad said as he walked out the living room and the door opening and closing made me know that he went after John, but looking at the 2 idiots in front of me made me annoyed as Guy sulked and Kyle looked at me with mischief in his eyes.
"Why did you bet I'm gay?" I asked Kyle as he just smiled at me.
"Oh please, it was kinda obvious the way you look at girls on the street not bothering to look at boys and your haircut and attitude I knew you would never like a boy." Kyle explained matter of factly. But the doors opened and closed as a pair of footsteps sounded in the house I turned around to see Dad and John walking in and John had a plushie of a dolphin.
"So... um, I don't really know what to say. But I heard dolphins like other dolphins of the same sex and I believe that you can identify with one... right, just know that I support you, we do need another lantern with a degree in this sector since the other three didn't finished college." He said as I took the dolphin and I thanked him by hugging him.
"Hey! I do have a degree." Kyle said as he raised his voice.
"Art doesn't count, it's more like a way of living rather than something worth a diploma." Guy told him as he snickered.
"Shut up gardner you only graduated from the police academy." Kyle told him as Guy got angry and grabbed Kyle in a lock.
"Kids no fighting in the house." Dad told them as a bike came in the driveway making its presence known.
"Did you order pizza?" Dad asked as John just took out his wallet and walked out the door, later on the night we just had pizza and laughed oblivious as to what would happen in the next few weeks.
This was supposed to be the correct ending of this chapter, I have had this chapter written since March and never actually published it. From what I can say is that during some episodes of the series the green lanterns were off world due to some issues that were never mentioned, I thought that the most logical was the invasion from the sinestro core to the green lantern core. So that's the conclusion now I did work on a few chapters after this one, but after re reading what I wrote and published I saw that I had so many errors which now I'm going to re write and make some changes in the story as for it to make more sense since I did made a few changes since Karu-Sil does exist in the main dc universe. But anywho right now I do have regrets as to what I wrote before, from all the typos and all the errors and how the dialogue doesn't make sense sometimes. So I will be making some updates such as the first chapters and subsequently until I reach this exact direction.
Really sorry about not updating even though this story is one that I write about a lot and the other is a side project but it doesn't matter, I will be updating soon.
Thanks for the follows and favorites during my time that I was absent, I will try and update in the next few weeks to come before school starts.