Hey again just reminding you i dont owe anyone you recognise... this is fan 'fiction' so it may not all be factual...
This is now in my stories present time which is 2003...
Present day
Kailua-kona, Hawaii
'lillie ray... jj cmon on were leaving now... your daddy is sick we gotta get to the airport to go see him ok' i yell to my two babies, well not babies there nine now...
Ok well i better fill you all in on whats happening since i walked away 10 years ago
Well after spending a few weeks in cali with the family i moved to baja and then finally waimea... only sonny and lani knew but they never once told the chapman family my big secret...
i was pregnant when i left leland... i just didnt know till about 3 months after...
beth and dog knew i moved back just not where and that was fine with me... i changed my hair from blonde to a brown red colour
Well i gave birth to twins jesse james leland chapman and lillian rayne teresa chapman in august 1994 all alone with only a picture of leland next to the bed and a home video of leland and myself so the babies could hear his voice coming into the world
When i turned 18 i was given my inheritence from the life insurance from all my family, which was quite alot of money, so i bought a house in waimea and i then bought the blue bulldog gym franchise one in waimea, honolulu and Hawaii Kai
Yes i continued training but used my mothers maiden name hetfield for all the publicity stuff for fights etc...
I found out that leland married maui after there son dakota was born... which was 3 weeks after my kids were born...
i cried for weeks after that thinking he didnt love me at all but both lani and sonny told me he only did it for his son and that there relationship was no where near mine and lelands, i was a little happy when i heard that...
But now where on our way kona airport to go to honolulu because leland is in straub clinic and hospital and may never walk again...
You see i continued to watch every mma fight he was in all these years with sonnys help and also went by myself to meet beth when he dog and tim where in jail in mexico and it was then that maui filed for divorce the cowardly lil whore she is...
He threw himself into his fighting when that happened and now hes hurt real bad... so i decided to suck it up and go see him and break the news about his kids... i think he will hate me but love his babies...
So we get off the plane and lani is waiting for us... she takes the kids with her and drops me and da kine bail bonds...
As i walk through the doors the bell jingles above my head...
'hey can i help you sista' my cousin gracie leigh asks me not recognising me
'well well well i thought my own family would remember me even after all this time darlin' i say lifting my sunnies on to my head
'AHHHH NO WAY LITTLE BIRD OMG' she yells leaping the desk and tackling me to the couch tears now running down both our faces
'hey little gem i missed you too' i say sitting back up noticing the room filling up with faces i have missed so much and some i dont know
The whole chapman family greet me with open arms all while im thinking there gonna hate me soon enough...
'So hows it everyone?' I say to them
'great to see you pretty bird hope you have been well we were just heading to see leland' dog says to me knowing i know hes in the hospital after all it was on the news about him being hurt
'do you mind if i come too i dunno if he will want to see me but i have to see him for myself ya know' i ask hoping they say yes
'im sure he would love to see you LB' DL says to me hugging me
So we all get in the cars and head to the hospital... all the while im a nervous wreck... i text lani telling her where im going and i will let her know when im coming for the kids, i know its a cowards way out but im gonna tell him while hes in the hospital so he cant kill me lol...
As we walk into the elevator to go to lelands room i tell them to all go in first but dont mention me yet
Beth pulls me aside 'i will text you when we know he will be ok for you to come in ok' she says hugging me and walking into his room...
Sitting there im trying to figure out the best way to tell him and decide that i will speak with them all then ask for a minute alone with him and then bring them all in when its time...
beth texts me
* its time pretty bird he seems in a good mood *
* ok here goes nothing... *
I walk to the door and knock, he says come in and i almost collapse just hearing his voice...
'umm hey everyone hows it' i say with a tremor in my voice on seeing him within my touch
'omg nani is it really you... i cant be dreaming or are these pain meds really really good...' he says looking at me with tears in his eyes
'no my panioloa its really me' i say walking over to the bed and taking his hand
He lifts my hand to his lips and kisses it
'its good to see you tj i have missed you' he says as everyone decides to give us some space and they go get coffee
'i missed you to lele... im just glad your ok now...' i say taking a seat next to him... Beth texts me
*hey pretty bird its only me and big daddy still here...let us know when its ok to come back in*
i text back
* trust me you will know when to come back in*
I look back up at leland and know its now or never
'i need to tell you something and i need you to be calm and hear me out' we both say at the same time
'great minds think alike and seems we sure still think alike nani' he says to me '
'ok lele you first i insist' i say
'ok well first maui and i are no longer together im sure you know we got married and have 2 sons... since the internet and news love updating the world on my love life ' he says
'yes lele i knew all that i mean i still care i have my ways of keeping up to date with all you guys... i also know you tim and ur dad were in jail for a bullshit charge and were freed about 3 months ago' i say to him
'yea and thats when my sons mother decided to file divorce paperwork... but enough about me since you seem to me up to date... what about you what did you have to tell me' he asks
'ok pls promise me you wont get angry till the end and you will let me get it all out coz if you stop me mid way i dont think i will be able to continue' i ask him with tears already forming in my eyes
'ok yes i promise... pls continue you your scaring me now' he says worried
'ok well when i left i went back to cali for 2 weeks and then baja for awhile but the call of the islands got the better of me and i moved back near xmas 1994 i have been watching you all from a distance so i know your safe... so yea i have seen your beautiful boys... but i couldnt come see you all it was too hard and too painful and i had 2 very good reasons not to... i know it seems selfish but i had to think of jesse and lillie first...' i say to him...
'so you where close all this time and new friends stopped you from seeing everyone?' He asks getting a little worked up...
'no its not like that there more than friends there family too and i didnt know how to fix all the parts that were broken' i say trying to find the right words to say
'so what this jesse guy your new man and wouldnt let you see us... is that it?' He yells getting more angry
'no leland listen jesse and lillie are your daughter and son' i yell back at him
'WHAT DID YOU SAY... what do you mean i have a son and daughter... how is that even possible... why would you keep them from me?' He asks yelling so loud dog and beth come bursting into the room
'leland son calm down' dog says as tries to calm leland down
'no dad i will not calm down she just told me i have 2 kids who i didnt even know existed' he yells looking right in my eyes as he says it
I look back at him and see the pain and anger in them ' im sorry lele i just didnt know what to do or say to you... damn it i was 17 years old just a kid myself i didnt know ok im sorry' i say with tears streaming down my face
'sorry dont help now my kids are 9 years old and they dont know me and i have no idea what they even look like' he says alot calmer now but more hurt and upset now
' they do know you lele... they watched videos of you... watched you on tv... looked at pictures of the whole family... if i was to bring them here they would run and jump all over you they know who there daddy is... who there brothers are... and who there whole family is...'
'im sorry i kept them from you ...at first i was selfish... then as time went on i just didnt know how to do it...' i say trying to explain to them my pain and sorrow for what i have done
'I know its not the same but i have millions of hours of videos of them from every single day of there lives... i know its not the same but its something... i know you hate me but pls dont hate them' i say
'i could never ever hate them... and i will not hate you forever just what you did but in time i think it will fade but for now i will be civil... i just wanna meet them thats all' he says with tears running down his face
'I will go get them now and you can meet them ok, again im so sorry lele... one day i hope you will forgive me' i say getting on the phone to lani getting here to meet me with the kids
'What are they gonna think seeing me like this' leland asks me
'They know your in the hospital thats why there here... all they wanna do is come see daddy and make him better... see you soon' i say walking out the door...
Thanks for reading... again pls review... good or bad im not fussed...