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Ch. 38 Do I Hate You? Do I Date You?
(JEFF)
"Since Clare is taken are you going to go after another girl?" Anya asks as we drive to school in my car Tuesday morning.
"I don't know Anya, it kind of depends on what she wants but I will say that no other girl at that school has captured my interest. I did see you flirting with Peter last night," I comment.
"He's hot? What do you know about him?" She asks.
"Divorced parents, he plays guitar, and hockey obviously. That's about it, for as loud and brash as he is he doesn't talk about himself much," I reply.
"Maybe I can show him around after practice," she grins and I just shake my head.
I park at school and we get out, we start walking toward the entrance but my phone rings. When I pull my phone from my pocket I see it's my sister so answer.
"Hey Samantha."
"Hey how's Toronto?"
"It's good, how's Europe?"
"It was amazing but I'm out of money so it's time to come home. I'm flying home in a couple of days but I applied to U of T. I'm not sure that I got in yet and I have nowhere to stay. Anyway I called Uncle Harold and he said I could stay with them as long as Anya doesn't mind sharing her room for a bit. They're going to talk to her after school."
"I'm sure she won't mind and it will be great to have you home again."
"I'll let you go, I know you just got to school. I'll be at home for a few days and then I'll, hopefully, be in Toronto this weekend. See you soon," Samantha says and hangs up.
It's been months since I've seen my sister that wasn't over video chat so I'm very happy that she's coming home. When I get inside I find the rest of my team in the foyer.
"Hey you're smiling did Clare talk to you?" Dallas jokes.
"My sister is coming home; she's hopefully starting at U of T."
"Sweet is she hot?" Jimmy questions.
"She's my sister so I'm not answering that," I reply.
Morning classes aren't that interesting and I eat lunch with the team. A couple of guys ask about Sam but I don't tell them much. After lunch I have drama with Clare, I was happy to see that I have her in the class yesterday but the teacher did a lot of talking and then we did some exercises so I didn't really get to talk to her. Clare did not look very happy at all to be in the class but maybe it was just that both me and Fitz are in the class. Actually Fitz and I have most of our classes together which should be interesting.
"We're going to work on emotions, emotions are important in acting and everyday life. Each of these scenes focuses on a single emotion. I'll break you into groups of two or three and give you a scene to work on and preform at the end of class. Eli, Fitz and Toby anger," Miss Dawes says holding some papers out for them. Before Fitz gets out of his seat he kisses Clare's temple. "Jeff and Clare sorrow," Miss Dawes says and I grin at Clare while she bites her lip.
We get up and grab our script while Mrs. Dawes is calling other names. The drama room is pretty big, tables near the front where we sit and some open area with sofas and beanbag chairs in the back, room to move around for scenes. Clare and I move to the back of the room standing in a corner.
"I wonder if we can get another scene," Clare comments after flipping through the pages.
"Why what's the problem?" I question.
"It's just…" she pauses biting her lip and looks over her shoulder at Fitz. He doesn't see it as he's reading through his script with Toby and Eli. "It's a little…never mind it's fine. You have the first line," she comments.
Our scenes are only a couple minutes each so it's only a page. The scene is about a couple breaking up because the girl wants to be with someone else, I wonder if that's the reason she was hesitant to do the scene. Is she having second thoughts about her and Fitz now that I'm here? Everyone gets ten minutes to run through scenes before we start preforming. Eli, Toby and Fitz go first, neither Eli nor Toby is much of an actor but Fitz is certainly able to tap into some anger. Then it's me and Clare, we go up and go through our scene, not sure that I'm a very good actor either but I think I do okay. Clare is either a great actress or she can tap into some deep sorrow because she actually manages to cry on queue. The scene ends with her giving me a quick kiss, it's supposed to be on the cheek but she kisses my lips instead and then she runs, which is in the scene.
"Brava Miss Mason, bravo Mr. MacPherson that was wonderful you two have a lot of chemistry together," Miss Dawes says and I notice Fitz tensing up as Clare sits next to him again. She takes his hand interlacing their fingers on the table so everyone can see and he kisses her. "Well I think after that emotionally moving scene we could use some laughter, why don't we see lust with Drew and Craig," Miss Dawes comments.
The whole class is in stitches watching Drew and Craig in a scene where they lust for each other. We watch the rest of the scenes before the bell, some are good some are terrible but I spend as much time watching Clare from the corner of my eye as watching the scenes. Clare goes out of class with Fitz's arm around her. I happen to know she has forces of nature: physical process and disaster next period with J.T., I know because J.T. told me yesterday. So I text him asking him to get Clare to the storage room after school.
I sit anxiously though my English class, wondering if Clare will come to the storage room. When class is out I leave the classroom quickly and pretty much run to the storage room. She's not there yet but the bell only rang a moment ago. I send a quick text to Dallas that I need to talk to Clare and I might be a few minutes late to the bus. When I hear the door I look over and smile when Clare comes in.
"J.T. told me you wanted to talk," Clare says when she closes the door.
"About earlier in drama…"
"It was a scene for drama class Jeff," she cuts me off.
"Yeah one that you didn't want to do and wouldn't tell me why. It was a scene about a breakup because the girl was in love with another guy."
"Yeah and the scene was awkward with my boyfriend in the room."
"Why was it awkward? Was it what the scene was about or was it working with me?"
"It was just awkward okay? I have to go I have to meet Fitz," she replies turning around to leave the storage room.
"Clare wait…" I say grabbing her hand and turning her back to me.
"No you don't get to do this Jeff. You ambushed me at my school, you didn't even give me warning that you were coming. You can't just show up without warning, not just show up like you wanted to see me but show up because you're going to school here. Show up without even mentioning it in all the times we talked and then ask me about my relationship with Fitz," she censures me pulling her hand away before storming out of the room.
"Well that did not go well," I sigh leaving the room after her.
"So how'd it go?" Dallas questions.
"How'd what go and where the heck have you been?" Owen questions as I sit down and the bus starts going.
"Doesn't matter it didn't go well," I sigh.
"Yeah well put it out of your head MacPherson we got practice," Owen tells me and I nod.
It's not easy to put Clare out of my mind for practice but I manage. Of course I'm thinking of her all the way home, when I get home I find Anya moving some stuff around her room.
"Does this mean Sam is coming?"
"Yeah this weekend and Mom and Dad are going out Saturday night so we can have a party welcoming her. You should invite the whole team," Anya smiles.
I smile and go to my room to start my homework. It will be nice to have my sister here.
(CLARE)
"Where were you?" Fitz asks when I get out to the steps.
"Washroom," I reply.
"What did J.T. want?" Adam questions.
"He was asking about Owen," I reply and pull Fitz toward his car before anyone else starts to ask questions.
Adam and Maya come with us getting into the back, we're the only ones going to our house this afternoon. Owen of course has Ice Hounds practice, Drew has work in an hour, Bianca is going with him to the mall and they'll do homework until he has start work. Jenna and K.C. have a birthing class to go to and then are meeting with Joey and Caitlin. And Tris, as usual, is going to Zane's house to be with his boyfriends.
I think about Jeff all the way home. That scene in drama was beyond awkward, if Miss Dawes wasn't totally clueless about the situation I would swear she did it on purpose. Not that I'm in love with Jeff but I do have strong feelings for him. I'm not thinking of leaving Fitz for him either but ever since Jeff showed up yesterday morning and I found out he was here for good, or least until school is out for the summer, my hearts been in turmoil. His confrontation just a short time ago didn't help.
Spinner opened today so he's home when we get there. We greet Spin and I take Fitz to my room to do homework. We sit on my bed, I look at my science homework and he begins with English. I'm looking at my book but I'm not doing homework I'm thinking about Jeff.
"How did I get into university track English? It might as well be Greek," Fitz huffs tossing his book across the room and startling me from my thoughts. I put down my book and pick his up, taking it back to him and sitting in his lap.
"I'll help you, do well and you'll get rewarded," I tell him and he grins.
"I like doing homework with you," he smiles kissing my neck. I help him with his English homework, it's pretty easy but he keeps getting distracted by me. "So do I get my reward now?" Fitz asks when he's finished writing his paper.
"Don't you have more homework?" I question and he grimaces at me.
He makes a playfully growl and flips me to my back on the bed. He lifts my shirt and kisses my belly as his hand slides under my jeans and panties. He keeps kissing my abdomen, lifting my shirt a little more and his hand in my jeans finds my clit. He applies a little pressure to my clit and I let out a moan.
"You know if you were a school subject I think I'd get an A," Fitz says and I giggle.
"You know two of my brothers are home," I comment after he begins pulling my jeans down my legs.
"They know we're having sex. I doubt they want to hear you moan but they're not going to come in and kill me," he replies with a licentious grin as he shimmies my jeans and panties to my ankles.
I open my mouth but his tongue slides over my pussy lips and I release a moan instead of a word. His tongue slides around drinking in my juices and I grip his hair. His tongue rapidly brings me to orgasm and then he withdraws his tongue pulling my jeans up my legs and fastening them again. He kisses me softly and sits down again.
"Okay I'll finish my homework now," he smiles.
I grab my science book and actually get to my homework now. Everyone is home for dinner except for Drew who closes tonight and Bianca who decides to stay with him. After dinner we return to my room, Fitz sends a text to Sean to check in and see how Jay is. When Drew and Bianca do get home we go out to say hi and spend some time watching TV with Adam and Maya. Since Spin got up at three he crashes early but Fitz and I are up until after midnight before going to bed. I don't sleep very long, I have a dream about me and Fitz and Jeff. An odd and slightly disturbing dream, not quite a nightmare but I wake up with a gasp and in a cold sweat. Fitz is sleeping soundly, snoring lightly, I get up and he doesn't stir. I go out to the living room and watch TV doing my best not to think about boys in general, it's not working very well. I do eventually fall asleep again, waking up Spinner says my name brushing some hair from my face.
"Clare, wake up sis," Spinner says and my eyes shoot open. "What are you doing sleeping on the sofa?"
"Couldn't sleep," I reply.
"Well it's only three why don't you go back to your room and get a few more hours," he says helping me up.
I nod and sleepily walk back to my room, lifting the covers and flopping onto the bed which wakes Fitz up a little. He kind of snorts and rolls over putting his arm around me.
"You okay?" He yawns.
"Yeah, go back to sleep," I tell him kissing the corner of his mouth softly. He smiles and goes back to sleep.
I too get back to sleep, if I do dream again I don't remember it but we're awoken by our alarms at 6:30 and get up with the rest of the house. Paige is in the kitchen drinking coffee, Drew seems to be in the washroom with Bianca so I use the one in Paige and Spinner's room. I don't eat breakfast because I'm not hungry and I'm thinking about Jeff again. As usual I ride with Fitz, Adam and Maya come with us and Bianca rides with Drew leaving her car at the house.
When we get inside I see most of the Ice Hounds in the foyer, I look at Jeff and then bite my lip turning away. Taking Fitz's hand I pull him with me to my locker and get out books. We start walking to Fitz's locker and my heart sinks when I see a puck bunny draped on Jeff. She's batting her eyelashes and he's grinning at her with that grin that makes my knees shake.
"I need to use the washroom I'll see you at lunch," I tell Fitz and he looks over at Jeff and the puck bunny.
"You okay?" Fitz questions.
"Yeah I just need to use the washroom," I assure him with a smile and give him a passionate kiss before I turn and walk toward the washroom.
I don't actually go the washroom I just didn't want to watch Jeff with that girl. I go up to the roof, it's starting to snow a bit but I don't care I need fresh air and space. I pace up here a bit watching the snow fall but when I hear the door open again I look over and see Owen walk out.
"What's wrong?" Owen asks.
"How'd you know I was here?"
"I saw you pacing when I pulled in now spill," Owen commands.
"I saw Jeff with…I'm not sure I can talk to you about this."
"Saw Jeff with what Clare? C'mon we've been friends forever and it wasn't that long ago we were more than that," Owen prods.
"That's kind of my point, we've been intimate, you're on the team with Jeff and Fitz is one of your best friends I'm not sure I can talk to you about the two of them."
"I'll understand better than anyone else. No one else has been intimate with you, no one else knows Jeff or Fitz the way I do except for the two of them and I know you won't talk to them. So you saw Jeff with what?"
"Not what, who. I saw him with a puck bunny, she was draped on him and I was jealous. I still love Fitz and I want to be with him but I want to be with Jeff too. Am I terrible person? Does that make me extremely selfish to want them both?"
"No I don't think so. I know you have strong feelings for both and I knew it was going to be hard for you when Jeff was at the school. I wanted to tell you Clare but Jeff wanted to do it and I listened, I'm sorry. I don't think wanting to be with them makes you selfish I think it's understandable given the situation."
"So what do I do?"
"Sorry can't tell you that. You'll just have to listen to your heart and give it some time you'll know what to do."
"In some ways I really hate this situation, I want them both I care about them both and I can only have one," I huff.
"I know matters of the heart are hard," Owen sighs and I look at him.
"You like someone," I grin.
"Yeah Dallas' ex and the mother of his kid. She came here with their son so he could still see his son. On Monday he seemed fine with it, he even told Vanessa at the party that I thought she was hot and told her I was a good guy. I asked her out yesterday and he mentioned it at practice, he wasn't exactly upset but he didn't seem happy about it either and he's been a little tense around me since then," Owen sighs and then looks at his phone. "Come on we should get in there before the bell rings," Owen says putting his arm loosely around my shoulders and walking me back to the door. We go down to the school and walk down the hall a little ways before Principal Simpson comes running over.
"Owen your mom just called, your brother is in the hospital in critical condition. You c…" Simpson is saying but Owen is already running for the doors to get to the hospital and see his brother.
My own heart is pounding wondering if Tris will be okay and what happened to him?
That's not that cruel is it? Well it's only a week until the update. The update next Saturday will begin with Owen's pov getting to the hospital.