Hey again just reminding you i dont owe anyone you recognise... this is 'fan fiction' so it may not all be factual...

Tatum POV

We headed to dog and beths house, where leland would be staying till he was more mobile as his house has stairs...

The kids all piled out of the car and i helped leland out and we all headed inside, my kids were amazed at there grandma and grandpas house but just followed their little brothers inside...

'tj can i speak with you outside pls' leland asks me

'Yea sure just give me a second to check on the kids and im good' i say going to walk further into the house

'Tj the kids will be fine... there all good so pls cmon outside with me... i have to sit my leg is still sore from sugery' he said limping on his crutches out the door towards the pool area

I followed him out sliding the door shut behind me and walked over and took a seat on the banana lounge next to him

'Ok so i asked you to come out so i could talk without interuptions... the kids wont come out looking for us i text dad and beth on the way over and there feeding them and taking them to the beach and when were done were gonna meet everyone there' he said getting comforatble

'Umm ok then...' i say a little nervously

'Ok so first off im going to start by saying i have never loved anyone not even maui as much as i love you and i regret everyday for hurting you like i did... everyday since it happened i have felt like an ass... i thought we could sort things out... i thought you would go stay with your family for a little while and then call and sort things out... but when i spoke to jax and opie they told me you didnt want to speak to me... and after a month of your phone being off DL and i went to cali to see you... GL wasnt even allowed to speak to you so she came with us and cut sick on her mom and brother coz they wouldnt tell her where you were' he said looking at me with those beautiful eyes i love so much tears forming in them as he speaks...

'Lele they didnt even know where i was... i was only there 2 weeks then i even left them and moved to baja coz i wanted to be near the ocean... but i couldnt tell anyone i needed time... then one day i felt dizzy and the lady i was working for took me to a clinic and they told me i was 6 weeks pregnant... i counted back and figured out it was the night uncle john died... the last time i was truly happy... i was scared lele...' i said as the tears started again like they always do

'I really want to ask you questions but right now if i dont keep going with what i want to say it will never get said ok... but believe me when im finshed there will be questions ok...'

I nodded

'So we came back home and i lost it... tore up my room, hardly said boo to anyone and drank and drank so i could get you out of my head but even that didnt help... maui would not leave me alone and it took beth and gracie to make her back off although gracie wanted to do it permanetly... one night i was so drunk and i fell asleep right here, i dreamt of you sitting just like this and you said to me that my son needed me and hes the innocent one in all this... you said i will always love you lele but that baby needs you now... maybe one day we will see each other again and then i woke up... that day i went to the ultrasound and found out i was having a dakota... but throughout the whole 9 nine years i couldnt love her like i love you... i stayed for my sons nothing else... cobie wasnt even a month old and we were sleeping in seprate beds... then when we got arrested she filed for divorce... i only stayed for my boys thats all... i only married her coz i thought i would never see you or have you as mine ever again... i trained harder than ever and had more fights and pushed myself too far just to feel anything and now here i am... im not proud of what i did in the past, but my future looked so much brighter when you walked in that door today and then you tell me i have 2 more beautiful babies and im just so overwhelmed now... ' he says with tears streaming out of his beauitful eyes

I dont know what to say to him... i just feel so incredibly nasty and selfish for keeping our babies from him all this time, i mean yes he cheated but did one time cheating really equate to 9 years of not seeing his kids...

Thanks for reading... again pls review... good or bad im not fussed...