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Ch. 43 I've Lost Her Now For Sure
(ADAM)
"SPINNER ADAM!" I hear my brother scream for us and I leap out of bed. I run to Clare's room and then freeze in terror when I see Clare on her bed because she's pale and unconscious. Drew is trying to wake her up but he can't. Bianca's on the phone with 911 telling them that Clare passed out.
"What the hell happened?" Spinner asks rushing into the room followed closely by Paige.
"She was having a nightmare and I came in and woke her up. We talked for a moment and then she said she felt sick. I started to help her up and she just passed out she won't wake up," Drew tells us. I think it's hearing the fear in my brother's voice that frightens me most. Not much scares him but he sounds terrified.
I can't move, I'm just watching Clare and I'm worried I'm about to watch her die. Paige rushes to her side and so does Spinner but I stay frozen.
"Her pulse is extremely weak," Paige says with urgency and fear in her voice.
"The paramedics are on their way," Bianca tells us, "is she breathing?"
"Yes but not very well," Paige replies.
"Clare wake up, come on sis wake up," Drew commands.
"Check her eyes," Spinner orders but then pulls Drew out of the way so that he can do it.
I can hear sirens in the distance now and my heart begins to race. They aren't coming fast enough, the ambulance won't get here fast enough and my sister is going to die on her bed! Suddenly I can move, I run over in a few short steps and take my sister's hand.
"Clare wake up, you have to wake up," I command her urging her to open her eyes, to give us some sign that she'll be okay.
"I hear the ambulance I'll let them in," Bianca says running to the front door.
Suddenly Clare groans, a terrible morbid agonized sounding groan but it's a sign of life!
"Clare," I say to her desperately.
"I don't feel good," she complains and barely opens her eyes.
"Move out of the way please we need to get to her," the EMT orders as they come into the room.
I don't want to let go of her but I don't want to lose her either so I step back to let them work. They take her pulse and look in her eyes. Then quickly get her on the backboard.
"We need to get her to the hospital right now," an EMT tells us.
"Adam," Clare calls for me in a frightened voice that scares me.
"Can I ride in the ambulance?" I ask them and the EMT nods. I follow them out and get in the back with Clare and two of the EMTs.
"What happened?" One of the EMTs asks me while they check Clare's blood pressure.
"I'm not really sure I woke up when our older brother screamed for us and Clare was passed out on her bed," I reply.
"She's hypotensive, systolic is 85 and dropping, start her on O-neg and fluids," another EMT orders and I watch as they hook Clare to an IV to give her blood.
"Did she fall?" The EMT asks looking at her busted lip.
"No she was in a fight earlier tonight," I tell them just as Clare takes a sharp breath and her eyes roll back! "Clare!" I shriek.
"Clare look at me, stay with us we'll be at the hospital in a moment," the EMT closest to her head tells her as he looks in her eyes.
"Did she get hit in the stomach?" The EMT sitting near me questions and I have to think back to what Clare told us.
"Yeah she said she did," I tell him.
I hear the EMT driving telling the hospital our ETA is one minute. At the same time the EMT that's sitting closest to me and has been asking me most of the questions lifts the shirt Clare was sleeping in and I see her stomach is bruised pretty bad and it also looks wrong.
"Distended stomach, probable internal bleeding," the EMT calls up to the front and I can feel all the blood drain from my face when they say internal bleeding.
We get to the hospital and the EMT makes me get out and stand out of the way. They get Clare out and run her in and I follow behind. I hear them telling the doctors and nurses about Clare's vitals and then she's rushed down the hall. I try to follow her but a nurse catches me.
"The doctors need room to work are you a relative?"
"I'm her brother, her twin," I reply still watching the gurney be rolled down the hall.
"Okay the doctors need to look at her and then they'll come and talk to you. I'm going to take you the family waiting room," the nurse tells me.
"My brothers are on their way."
"I'll show them where to find you when they get here," the nurse assures me taking me back to the waiting room.
She takes me into the room and closes the door. I sink down in the chair, I feel like crying but I can't, I'm too worried to cry. It feels like I'm in the room for a long time before the door opens again and everyone comes in.
"They won't tell us anything," Spinner says sitting next to me. Paige sits next to him, Drew and Bianca sit across from us.
"In the ambulance they said she was bleeding internally and she passed out again," I inform everyone and watch as my brothers faces drain of blood at this knowledge.
"Why would she be bleeding in internally?" Spinner questions.
"The fight with Reese I guess, her stomach was all bruised up," I inform them and then the door opens.
"I'm Doctor Jasper your sister is being taken to surgery, she has some pretty severe internal bleeding. We believe the blunt trauma to her abdomen caused a tear or rupture of one or more of her internal organs. Right now we need to drain the blood so we can figure out where the bleeding is coming from and stop it. Are her parents on the way?"
"I'm her guardian our parents are dead," Spinner informs her.
"We'll need you to sign consent forms. There's always risk with surgery but because of her bleeding she has essentially no blood pressure. Because of this she's not stable but if we don't do the surgery she will die," the doctor tells us and I feel like I'm going to pass out.
The thought of losing my twin is like thinking I'm going to die. Losing Clare would be hard for all of us but she's my twin if she dies I lose a part of me. I grip Spinner's hand and a few tears fall my eyes, the only thing I can think about now is that my twin might die and what I'd do if I lost her.
"Just do whatever you have to do to save her life. I'll sign whatever you need me to," Spinner tells her.
"An administrative nurse will bring you the forms and someone will keep you updated on your sister's condition. She's in the operating room now and I have to get back to the ER but I promise you'll be well informed about Clare's progress and the surgery," the doctor tells us before leaving the room.
"We should call people they'll want to be here," Paige speaks up after a moment. "I'll call Emma, Owen and Jay," Paige comments getting out her phone.
"I'll call Lucas, Johnny and K.C.," Bianca says.
"She can't die," I whisper to no one and Spinner puts his arm around me.
A nurse comes back in and gives Spinner some forms which he fills out and signs. The nurse takes them and we're alone in the waiting room again. Paige and Bianca get off their phones and tell us that everyone is coming, it's the middle of the night but it doesn't matter one of us is in trouble and the rest of the group wants to be here. Within half an hour Owen, Johnny, Jay, Sean, Emma, Jenna, Maya, K.C., Lucas and even Mia are in the waiting room with us. I've been looking at my hands this whole time and didn't see them come in but I see them sitting around the room. Fitz sits with his brother, looking at his hands but I can see fear and shame on his face.
"What the hell happened? She was a little rattled when she came to my apartment but she didn't look sick. She did pass out but I didn't think that was serious she was pretty out of breath when she got to my place," Lucas says.
"We don't know she told me she was sick and then went pale and passed out. They said something about internal bleeding," Drew tells them.
We fall into silence waiting for someone to tell us how Clare's doing. I start to get impatient when it's been nearly an hour and no one's told us anything. So I leave the waiting room to find out what's going on.
"Adam where are you going?" Lucas asks following me out.
"To get some information, they said they'd keep us updated," I reply going to the nurse's station. "You told us that we'd be kept informed of my sister's condition but we haven't been told anything," I say with an irritated tone to the nurse.
"Clare Mason she was brought in by ambulance," Johnny adds.
"She's in surgery right now I'll see if I can get update for you," the nurse tells us.
He calls on a phone and asks for an update, when he hangs up I can tell by the look on his face that it's not good.
"She has a ruptured spleen and may need a splenectomy, she had some bleeding in her stomach and they're trying to find the source. She's in critical condition right now, they're busy trying to save her life that's why they haven't come to talk to you."
"What's a splenectomy?" I question.
"It would mean they have to remove her spleen," the nurse replies. I feel ill and weak when I hear this, I begin to feel woozy and the next thing I know Johnny is holding me and saying my name over and over.
"Adam, Adam, Adam."
"What?" I question sharply wondering why he's saying my name so much.
"Don't do that to me, you passed out I thought I was going to have to go tell your brothers you were now a patient in the hospital," Johnny says.
"Here drink this, you want a doctor to look at you?" The nurse asks and I shake my head as I take the cup of water.
"No I'm okay it's just you told us that she might lose her spleen and all my blood drained. Can she live without a spleen?"
"Yes she can with some precautions. Look you guys should go back to the waiting room and I'll get someone to come talk to you."
Johnny keeps an arm around me and we go back to the family waiting room. Everyone looks at us when we walk in and Drew can tell I don't feel well. He leaps up and helps me into a seat between him and Bianca.
"What's wrong?" Spinner questions.
"We tried to get an update on Clare Adam passed out when he heard that they might be removing Clare's spleen."
"Where's her spleen? What does it do? Why can't I remember anything from anatomy and biology right now?" Drew exclaims with some frustration.
"The nurse said someone would come explain things to us, I think he was pretty determined after watching Adam pass out," Johnny tells them and then a doctor comes in. A female doctor in maybe her forties with dark hair.
"I'm Doctor Cardillo I'm a trauma surgeon at the hospital. I'm not one of the doctors working on Clare I just finished with another surgery but Jason asked me to come talk to you about what's happening with her. I went into the OR and spoke with Doctor Mykos, Clare does have to have a splenectomy, that means they have to remove her spleen. She can live a long and normal life without a spleen with a few precautions. They are getting the bleeding under control and she will be in surgery for a few more hours. Clare also had a tear in her stomach which they are repairing but there is a risk of septicemia. When they've finished she'll be moved into ICU and then you'll be able to see her. She's young and strong and that all works in her favor but she did have some pretty serious trauma to her internal organs and with all surgeries there is risk of complication. I know this is frightening but I promise you the doctors are doing all that they can. If you have any questions or you need anything Jason is at the nursing desk and he'll take care of you."
Spinner nods a little but the rest of us are silent. When we don't say anything or ask any questions for a moment the doctor leaves the room. The only thing I can think is to wonder if my sister is even going to live.
While most of us sit in silence, probably all wondering if Clare's going to live or trying not to think about it, Fitz gets up. He begins pacing the room, slowly at first and then faster and faster and then his anger, or possibly his fear, explode and he makes a primal scream before punching his fist straight through the wall!
Sean leaps up to look at his brother's hand, and the hole in the wall. Emma and Owen also go over to look, Fitz doesn't seem to be in pain but his knuckles are a bit scraped up.
"I'm going to take him and get his hand looked at, and find out how we pay for the hole," Sean comments putting an arm around his brother. Emma and Owen leave the room with them and everything is silent again.
"Should we maybe call Jeff? He cares about her too I feel like he'd want to be here," Johnny remarks after several moments.
"It's barely four in the morning we can call him in a few hours and hopefully by then we'll know something," Paige replies.
"Shit I have to open the café," Spinner says.
"Call one of the other employees and ask them to open," Paige tells him once again being the voice of reason.
Spin gets out his phone and calls Karen asking her to open and explaining that Clare's in surgery right now. Karen must say she'll do it because Spin puts his phone away and we go silent again. The next sound that we hear is the door opening when Fitz, Sean and Emma come back.
"Owen went to see his brother he'll come back in a bit. They gave Fitz some ice but said nothing looked broken or even sprained and he's lucky, but if it starts to hurt or he has trouble moving his hand or wrist to let them know. And they'll bill me for the wall which Fitz can work off in the garage," Sean informs us.
Now we're silent again, the minutes tick by and melt into hours. Owen returns tells us that Tris was asleep of course and then he sits and we wait, and wait. A nurse does come in a couple of times to let us know Clare is alive and still in surgery. Then finally after several hours a doctor enters the room and it's obvious that he came straight from surgery.
"I'm Doctor Monge, Clare is being closed up and will be put into a room in the ICU. She'll be asleep for a several hours still but you can go in and see her if you'd like. The rupture to her spleen was not able to be closed and we had to remove her spleen. She can live a normal life without a spleen however because she's still young and in school she's going to need to begin a daily regimen of antibiotics. She'll also need vaccines while in the hospital, the spleen is a vital part of the immune system in fighting off infections, and Clare's case was further complicated because of a tear in her stomach leaving her at risk for septicemia due to the bacteria in the stomach. The risk of infection is greatest after surgery and she'll need to be in the hospital for several days. When Clare is set up in recovery someone will come get you but you will all need to wash your hands before you go inside and anyone with a cold should not go in so that she doesn't get sick."
"Thanks Doc," Spinner nods.
"It's almost nine we should call Jeff he'll want to be here," Johnny comments.
"I'll call him, I'm going to go down and tell Tris that Clare's in the hospital too," Owen remarks getting up.
Owen leaves the room and a few moments later a nurse comes in and tells us we can go in to see Clare now. We all file out of the room, no one is sick or feeling sick so we can all go in. Everyone washes their hands and gathers around the door to Clare's room. Spinner opens the door leading us in, Drew and I are right behind him. Paige and Bianca are behind us, Johnny, Lucas and Mia follow them in. Jenna and K.C. come in after Mia, Sean and Emma bring Fitz in between them and he looks worried but also sort of ashamed and the last one in the room is Maya.
I go immediately to my sister's bedside, sitting on it and taking her hand. Drew sits at the foot of the bed, Spinner sits in the chair near the head of her bed. I look at my twin and burst into tears because despite what the doctor said she looks dead. Clare's always had fair skin but now she's sort of grey and pallid despite the two units of blood that are going into her through the IV. Her eyes are closed she's on oxygen and a lot of IV fluids and I know the doctor said she'd be okay but all I can think about is her dying.
"She'll be okay Adam, the doctor said she'd be okay," Spinner tries to assure me putting a hand on my back.
I nod and I want to believe it but all I can think about is Clare dying, a vision of it is in my head and it won't leave. Maybe I'm the only one because I can feel her, I can feel how weak she is and how she's fading and trying to leave us. I squeeze her hand tight and continue to cry despite everyone's assurances that she's going to be okay.
"Jeff's on his way and Tris wants to come up and see her if he can," Owen tells us when he comes in the room. He looks at Clare and touches her foot before he wanders back and leans against the wall.
"You can't leave me," I whisper to Clare squeezing her hand and the tears of fear fall from my eyes and still all I can think is that I'm going to watch my sister die.
(JOHNNY)
We've been in Clare's hospital room for almost an hour and Adam has been crying the whole time. Completely inconsolable in spite of the doctor telling him she'd be fine. When the door opens I think that it's Jeff but instead Tris and Zane come in the room. I'm not sure when Zane got here but he's pushing Tris in a wheelchair, he's got an IV in and the IV pole attaches to the wheelchair.
"Hey everyone I came to have breakfast with Tris and he told me about Clare. The doctor said he could come up and see her and we washed our hands really thoroughly. How's Clare doing?" Zane asks and then in a softer voice adds, "How's Adam?"
"They had to remove Clare's spleen and she had a small tear in her stomach. The doctor told us that she'd be okay though, she'll have to stay in the hospital a few days and she'll need to take daily antibiotics and be careful about infections and stuff. Adam won't stop crying, we keep telling him that she'll be okay but he won't stop. They are twins though maybe he can feel something we can't," I tell them.
"Can you take me closer I can't see her," Tris requests.
"I got it," Owen says taking Tristan's wheelchair from Zane.
Owen pushes Tristan's wheelchair closer to Clare's bedside and the door opens again this time it is Jeff and he rushes in. He sees Clare and goes white I almost think he's going to pass out but he walks to the side of Clare's bed around Tristan's wheelchair. As soon as Jeff moves to Clare's bedside Fitz moves to the other side right between Drew and Adam. When Fitz touches her leg in a loving tender fashion Jeff does the same with her arm, the boys sort of glare at each other and that's when Drew loses it.
"No you two out," Drew commands standing up and taking Fitz's arm. He reaches over grabbing Jeff by the jacket and Owen helps by moving Jeff back around Tristan's wheelchair.
"No I'm not leaving her, I want to be here with her. She's my girlfriend I love her," Fitz asserts trying to move back to Clare's bedside.
"I love her too," Jeff insists trying to get out of Owen's grasp.
"I know but you two fighting over her is the reason she ran off in the first place. If you hadn't been fighting she wouldn't have run off and had to fight and get away from Reese and his cronies and she wouldn't even be here right now. You're fighting over her still. You cannot both be in the room with her at the same time and right now you both need to leave it's not helping. All I care about right now is my sister getting better and making sure Adam doesn't lose it being with her and watching her like this. I can't deal with you both right now or with you fighting over her. Out I'll deal with you both later," Drew orders.
"Come on Jeff," I say taking him from Owen.
"Let's go home and eat some breakfast we'll come back later," Sean says to his brother taking him from Drew.
Both boys reluctantly leave, being dragged out by us. When we get to the hallway Jeff and Fitz exchange a look. It's a strange look of resentfulness and dislike yet an understanding and almost apologetic with a lot of shame.
"Samantha dropped me off, I thought I'd be here for a couple hours at least," Jeff comments when we're out at the parking lot.
"Let's get some breakfast and I'll take you home," I tell him. Jeff nods and follows me to my car. I drive us to a diner that's a couple blocks away and we're seated in a booth. "Don't take it personal, Drew's protective and when they lost their dad last year he got more protective. All they're worried about right now is Clare and if something happened to her it would devastate them all," I tell Jeff.
"Morning can I get you boys some coffee or something else to drink?" A waitress questions coming over before Jeff can answer.
"Yeah coffee," I reply to the waitress and Jeff nods.
"I know all that," Jeff says when the waitress walks away, "about her protective brothers and them being so close. I'm not taking it personal, well not much anyway, but Drew's right it's our fault."
"No it isn't, not entirely. You had no way of knowing that she'd manage to run into Reese we all thought he was still in juvie. If she hadn't crossed paths with Reese she would have run for a few blocks, gathered her thoughts and gone to Lucas' place or home or Jay's. Clare knows she can go to any one of us at any time. When she got somewhere safe she would have called her brothers to tell them she was okay and by morning she would have been talking to you and Fitz again. What you and Fitz have responsibility for is fighting, not just competing but physically fighting for her affections," I scold him lightly. The waitress has brought our coffee and we mix it up the way we like.
"I know it was stupid I can't think when it comes to that girl. Like not telling her that I made the team and was moving to Toronto and kissing her at the hospital even though she's dating Fitz. I found them in my room and making out on my bed and I confronted her about her feelings for me. I just really want her to be with me, no offense to Fitz but I want to be with her and it's not fair to anyone if she doesn't give us a chance. I was really determined to convince her of that last night," Jeff says with remorse seeped into his voice. The waitress comes back and asks what we want to eat, we order and I look back at Jeff.
"I wish I could say that I understand but I really don't. Clare's sort of like a sister to me, okay not quite like a sister because I do think Clare is hot, not enough to fight Fitz for her though. Our whole gang is really close we're like family. Actually I've never been crazy enough about any girl to want to fight for her. Obviously you feel very strongly for her, strongly enough to fight with Fitz which is not something many people are brave enough to do. I know you have strong feelings for Clare but so does Fitz and you have to understand he's been crazy about her for forever. Sean and Spin went to school together and Clare and Fitz have known each other since they were toddlers. She knows Fitz better, he's done a lot for her and it's not going to be easy for her to break up with him even to be with you. She also hates being pushed to do anything, she'll either do the opposite or she'll act out. If you want your chance with Clare then don't come at her full force or try convince her, essentially command her, to be with you. Be around for her, talk with her like you guys have been, remind her of your feelings and hers for you through action not words and don't fight with Fitz, don't provoke him that won't help anything."
"Good advice, I'll follow it thanks," Jeff smiles just as our food comes. "You know Sam couldn't stop talking about you after left last night. And I noticed that you two spent all night on the sofa together," Jeff comments as we begin eating.
"We spent the whole time talking, we just connected I've never spent all night talking with just one girl," I grin thinking about Samantha.
"Yeah that's how I feel about Clare, although we did not start out by talking. Samantha's only had a couple of boyfriends and neither relationship ended very well so be good to her."
"I will," I assure him and he grins.
While we eat I ask him some questions about Samantha. When the bill comes Jeff insists on paying for breakfast telling me it's a fair trade off for the advice I gave him. Then we get back in the car and I drive him home.
"You want to come in? Looks like Samantha is back," Jeff says.
"Yeah thanks," I grin. We get out of the car and I follow him inside.
"I'm back, Johnny brought me home," Jeff calls into the house. Samantha and Anya come out of their bedroom.
"Hey Johnny how's Clare?" Anya questions.
"Hi Johnny," Samantha smiles before looking at her brother, "I could have picked you up."
"It's okay I kind of got kicked out by Drew and Johnny offered to bring me home. Um I'm going to take shower," Jeff comments before going down the hall.
"How's Clare? Jeff said her spleen was removed?" Sam asks.
"Yeah I guess Reese hit her in the stomach pretty hard or she fell and it caused a rupture. They said she'd be okay but Adam was pretty upset. They're twins though I can't even imagine having a twin and having to watch them in the hospital. She'll be fine, the doctors said she would and she's young and strong and stubborn as all hell. Uh look I have some time, I hate sitting around at the hospital and if anything changes with Clare one of them will call me. Do you want to go do something? I mean I could show you around if you have some time?" I offer and Samantha smiles.
"I think that's a great idea you two should go out and have some fun I'll tell Jeff," Anya replies.
"Let me just get my shoes, jacket and purse," Samantha smiles.
(LUCAS)
Mia puts her head on my shoulder and I think she's falling asleep. I look at her and look at the time and realize we've been at the hospital for over twelve hours now and Clare is still unconscious. Every time the doctors come back in they tell us the same thing; she's weak but stable, although they keep giving her blood and other IVs. Still if there was something to worry about they would have told Spinner and he would have told us. Fitz, Sean and Emma came back a couple of hours ago but they only stayed about an hour, Fitz was worried and couldn't even look at Adam. Emma thought it best that they go home and come back when Clare was awake.
"I need to get Mia some food and get her home and I should probably get some sleep before I work tonight. If anything changes at all then call me right away," I insist.
"Yeah we will, she'll probably just sleep through to tomorrow anyway," Spinner comments.
"I'll come and check on Clare, and whoever stays with her tonight, on my lunch," I tell them getting up and helping Mia up. We go over to Clare's bedside and lightly touch her leg. "Get better Clare," I whisper to her. Bianca and Paige wave to us but Owen gets up too.
"I'm going to go see Tris and then go home for a bit myself but I'll be back in a couple of hours," Owen says waving to them. Jenna and K.C. left with Emma, Fitz and Sean earlier, because Jenna was tired and wanted to go home to rest. Maya had decided to go with them, there really wasn't anything she could do for Adam and he was so focused on Clare I doubted he even knew we were in the room. Shortly after that Zane had taken Tris back to his room. I stayed though I was hoping Clare would wake up and Mia stayed with me.
Owen walks a little ways with us and waves to us before he goes to Tristan's room. Mia and I go out to my car and I take us for some lunch. Over lunch we avoid talking about Clare mostly because we just don't want to think about the hospital or what happened to Clare. I do feel partially responsible after all she came to my apartment and she passed out, maybe we should have called 911 instead of calling Drew.
"Jenna's birthday is next week, there's going to be a party at Above the Dot if you want to go with me," I tell Mia as we eat.
"Of course," Mia smiles.
"Great, you're still coming with me to Owen's first game on Friday?"
"Absolutely," she grins and I smile. We finish eating and I pay the bill and we go out to my car.
"If you're just going to sleep maybe I can come back to your place with you. I'd just be getting sleep myself and I don't really want to go back to my dorm room," Mia tells me as I begin driving.
"Sounds good to me, I always sleep better with you in my bed anyway. Maybe having you there will keep me from thinking about Clare, I feel a little responsible."
"I know me too. I always sleep better with you in your bed too," Mia says and I grin.
"Yeah? Maybe you should move in," I remark.
"Lucas," she laughs, "we've only been dating two and half months."
"So I'm crazy about you. I love you more anything and I'd love to have you living with me," I assert.
"You really love me?" Mia asks.
"More than anything," I tell her.
"I love you too," Mia grins taking my hand and interlacing our fingers.
I grin wider and bigger than I have in my entire life and kiss the back of her hand. I park at my building and we go up to my apartment. We shed our coats and shoes in the living room and then go to my bedroom. We undress and get in my bed, I wrap her in my arms and hold her close falling asleep happy and thinking how very lucky I am to have this amazing girl. We only get about three and half hours of sleep before my alarm goes off and Mia groans.
"I have to get ready for work but you can stay here and sleep if you want," I tell Mia as I very reluctantly let go of her and get out of bed.
"Yes I'd like to stay here and sleep if that's okay I am still very tired," Mia yawns.
"Of course," I smile kissing her softly before I start getting ready for work.
I grab my clothes and get ready in the washroom. I kiss Mia again before leaving for work. It's pretty quiet tonight and I get one of the others to cover my area so I can go back to the hospital for lunch. We're not supposed to leave for lunch we usually just eat in the office or our cars in our areas but after telling my boss about Clare he okays it as long as someone covers my area. It's almost one in the morning when I get to the hospital but I have no trouble walking in and straight to Clare's room. The only one in here at this hour is Adam, in the same place we left him ten hours ago, he's not crying any longer but he hasn't moved.
"Have you slept or even eaten?" I ask Adam as I close the door and he just shakes his head. "Adam you need to sleep, at least eat something," I tell him.
"I'm not hungry or tired I need to be with her," Adam replies.
"Where's Spinner and Drew?"
"The doctor told them to go home and get some sleep, Paige and Bianca forced them to leave to go home and get some sleep. They tried to make me go too but I won't leave her."
"Adam the doctor said she'd be okay a…"
"I don't care what the doctor said," Adam snaps and then takes a breath. "I can feel her they can't. I feel her slipping, like she wants to leave. She talked about feeling like she shouldn't be here and I feel her getting weaker. They keep telling me that the surgery was exhausting and she'll wake up soon but they can't feel her like I can."
"I know you're worried Adam but…" I stop talking and look at Clare's heart monitor as the beeps begin to slow down and then it suddenly flatlines and an alarm sounds!
"CLARE!" Adam screams.
"We need help in here," I call down the hall but they're already running this way.
"She's coding move out of the way we need to shock her," a nurse says pulling Adam from the bedside.
"Clare no you can't leave me," Adam sobs turning into me as the doctors try to shock his sister back to life.
All I can do is hold Adam and watch in horror hoping that Clare survives this.
Yes yes I know a terrible cliffhanger to leave you on. It won't be that long until the update and it will pick up from here.