Okay, guys, you know me, don't you... I have been writing stories for the last three years, they have all been the same paring. Believe me when I say that I am not changing that any time soon...

I am a Mergana shipper through and through... Okay? I had an idea and I decided to follow it... Okay? I am not saying that it was a good idea... Okay?

Now that is cleared up... Back on with the story.

I'm calling you up, you tell me it's over
Say what you want, but it's hard when you're young

Chapter 6

2011

The last thing that Merlin had expected was for Morgana to be calling him. He had told her that he just needed a few hours just to concentrate and then he would help her with anything that she wanted to go through. He had to get these exams. He had to do well.

As his phone rang for the second time, and he just hoped that Morgana could wait for him to write down what he was thinking. She was persistent and he picked up the call as she rang him for the fifth time in succession.

"Merlin, I think I am in trouble."

He could hear the noise behind her. "Where are you? I can come and get you."

"I don't need you to come and get me nor do I want you to worry about me. I am at Euston, about to board a train to get me as far from London as I can."

"Why? Why do you think that you are in trouble?"

"Because I can't be around Uther any more. I just feel like I have been lied to my whole life and it makes no sense to me. Uther is going to want to find me. You have to get Arthur to put him off. I don't want to be found. I just want to find out about my real parents without him getting in the way."

"Morgana, are you thinking rationally?"

"Merlin, I don't know what to think."

"Don't do this now. We can go looking for answers together. The summer holidays are coming up in a couple of weeks. We can't escape London for the summer."

"But can you afford to Merlin? Can you afford to take six weeks away from your family? How will Gaius cope in the busy months? How will your mum find the extra money to pay the bills? I am sure that they will find a way but this is something I have to do on my own. Merlin, I am breaking up with you."

Her words hit him hard. "What?" He breathed.

"I have been nothing but trouble Merlin. Look how your life has changed massively with Arthur and myself in your life. Arthur has opened up possibilities that I am sure that you had only dreamed of. I have only brought trouble and misery to your life. You have found out about your father because of our relationship and his connection to Uther. I can't put you under the same strain that he put your father under. I won't and can't do that to you. Look, I will treasure the time that I had with you but Merlin, you always have deserved better than me."

He could think of the words that he wanted to say but he felt his world fall apart as his phone beeped, signalling that she had ended the call.

"She will be back."

Merlin wanted to believe Arthur's words but every time it went to Morgana's voicemail, he knew that she was slipping further away from them. Arthur swiped the phone off of the table before Merlin was able to call her again.

"She has done this before. She will be back. She just needs a little space."

"I am not sure she will."

"Whys that?"

"She broke up with me. Who do you think brought her home when she said that she was going only a few weeks ago? She has cut all ties. She isn't coming back and I don't even know where to start to look for her." Merlin couldn't hold his anger any longer. "I told her to wait. She brought it up again the other day. I told her to wait. I just had to do my exams. We could have run together. She waited a year, a whole year, for me once. Now she couldn't even wait a couple of weeks. Why couldn't she have waited?"

He saw Arthur's confused look and Gwen reminding him by pointing to her ring finger. All Morgana had to do was to wait for his exams to be over. He needed at least his GCSEs. He couldn't just run off with her without any qualifications. He wasn't that stupid. She was obviously. She could have gone to university. She could have had the thought that she was free from Uther in a couple of months time. He had even told her that she was welcomed at his if she didn't want to stay at the Pendragon mansion. He had given her a way to escape Uther.

"It will get better Merlin," Gwen said.

He looked up at his friends. These two were the only ones who knew the true extent to which he had fallen for Morgana. They were the ones that he had trusted with his secret. They were the ones that had watched him work hard to get the money together. He knew that they would be the ones to help him over this but he knew that he would probably shut himself off from them. They didn't need him getting in the middle of what they had.

"I don't see how it will."

Gwen was the first one to hug him. The way that she wrapped her arms around him meant that she lost her balance and ended up falling into his lap. Arthur joined them and even if Merlin didn't want to get in the middle of what they had, he knew that they weren't going to let him do this alone. In fact, Merlin could probably pinpoint that to the moment when he thought that he might actually like to be in between his two best friends.

Or at least that was the beginning of his crush on Arthur.