Again, there might not be a chapter tomorrow. We will see how things go.

I'm sick of covering up
I'm tired of feeling so broken

Chapter 17

There was both a good and bad side to Morgause joining her in London. She was more than glad to see her sister again but she knew that she would have to be more careful with her affair with Merlin. Her sister was much more observant but she wasn't pushing it past Alvarr that he might be catching on to what she was doing in the last week or so. He was leaving more love bits that he would usually and she was glad that it was the weather for jumpers and scarves.

Morgana couldn't really believe where the time had gone. It had only been a few months ago that she had said goodbye to her sister outside Glasgow Central station. It was unbelievable that in a few short moments that she would be meeting Morgause in Euston station. She stood on her tiptoes to try and see her sister in the flood of people.

She hoped with Morgause in London she could finally have some to properly talk to about Alvarr and her thoughts about breaking up with him. Morgana knew that she must have heard the same rumour as her. She would just value an opinion of someone who had a slightly different opinion of him. It didn't mean that Morgause thought that Alvarr was some great guy. It just wasn't an opinion that was going to be instantly biased against him.

She already knew what she would have to plan to do if she broke up with Alvarr. She knew that she would have to fly Merlin to the other side of the world a week before she did it and head to some distant location herself. Alvarr would probably kill her and Merlin if she broke up with him. That was if she was to believe the rumour, which she believed more with each day that passed.

A smile rose on her lips as she saw Morgause leave the platform and started to walk over to her. She instantly hugged her sister tightly.

"How was your journey?" Morgana said as she helped Morgause with her bags.

"Long. Four and half hours I have been on that train. I had thought about getting off at one point."

"I know. Sorry, but we have got to get the tube for a bit."

"Just get me a coffee and I will be fine."

Morgana smiled at her. "As long as you can wait, I know just the coffee shop."

With Merlin rehired as Arthur's PA, Morgana felt rest assured that they wouldn't bump into each other. She was completely certain that she could talk to her sister and making her decision before she told him what she had been thinking about for the last few weeks. But luck wasn't on her side and part of her did feel for Merlin as they walked up to the counter.

"He hasn't sacked you again, has he? This quickly?"

Merlin laughed. "You do not want to know the reason."

"At least you get given a reason. Come on. Tell me. I am sure Arthur will tell me if I ask him."

"Uther Pendragon has fired me due to his suspicion that the reason that his son, Arthur Pendragon, has turned down every eligible woman in his elite circle is that Arthur is developing a crush on me and that we were too close as… I can't remember his exact wording but it felt like Uther was basically calling me Arthur's servant. I don't think the kiss helped."

"For God's sake."

"I know. It is not because Uther suffers from shortsightedness that he forgets that his son has been in a stable-ish relationship for the past eight or so years and that is the reason why he has been turning down all the potentially arranged marriages."

"Oh, Merlin."

She felt for him and she felt even more for him when the first sentence that Morgause said to him happened to be the three words that he was beginning to hate.

"You're the ex."

"Merlin, this is my sister Morgause. Morgause, this is Merlin. A very good friend."

"So you're the sister."

Morgana could have easily turned around and scold him for that but she felt like she could allow him that moment, for she was thinking about how she had told Morgause that she had gone out with a good friend and she had really only talked about Arthur, Gwen and Merlin. It was easy to assume that Merlin was the one that she went out with when she would have mentioned that Arthur was her brother. She noted that she should try and ask Morgause whether she was the one that told Alvarr that Merlin was her ex. She really wanted to know. It had spoilt everything that she had planned in London.

"Merlin, I will have my usual and I am sure that Morgause would be extremely grateful for a latte. Make sure it is a double shot of coffee."

"Coming right up. I will bring it over."

"Good, because I want to nab the sofa."

"Go for it."

She watched as he turned to start to make the drinks. She tried to keep her gaze looking as friendly as possible but she knew that he had changed a lot from when they were children. She liked that he had put on a little muscle and padded out a little more.

They sat down on the sofa and Morgana knew that it was not the time to bring up her thoughts about Alvarr. Merlin was in earshot and it was probably best as a private conversation kept between them.

"When did Alvarr come down?" Morgause asked.

"A couple of months ago. I wished that he gave me a little bit of warning. He showed up and almost caused a fight with my friends. He said completely the wrong thing."

"What did he say?"

"He asked if someone had died when Merlin had just buried his girlfriend. It was just..." She paused as Merlin put the drinks down. "I just can't explain what I was feeling it was just awful."

"I wish I could have warned you. By the time I knew that he was gone, Cenred had already said that he was with you."

"It is by the buy now. Anyway, I am sure that we have a few things to catch up on in these last few months than including the boyfriends. What have you been up to?"