I'm sorry it took me so long to update.

A little explanation : I finally came up with a name for Ludwig's superior. His name will be Meier. I will change this in earlier chapters soon.

Ludwig's point of view

I have the day off which is why I'm in the bathroom, shaving .Hauptsturmfuhrer Meier didn't come to see me at my office for a week, because he went back to Berlin for a meeting. I will never forget about what happened, he broke me. I have nightmares because of him. Being around Feliciano makes me feel safe.. it sounds ridiculous because I've never been afraid before. I feel trapped.. not being able to show him my feelings, I even have trouble speaking to him, to anyone. Speaking seems to be so difficult, all day I'm living in my own little world. People at work noticed the change in my behaviour too.

I could cry constantly. A real man that's what I used to be, now I'm nothing but a pathetic loser, being raped by Meier and not being able to fuck his lover properly.

I'm afraid Feliciano will break up with me soon. He deserves a better lover. When I look into the mirror again I scream, watching my superior, Meier, standing behind me with a big grin on his face.

I quickly turn around to face him. " How did you get in! I have the day off.."

Meier still smiles at me. " That's not important. Calm down boy, aren't you glad to see me?" His arms are around my waist and he pulls me closer to kiss me , bruising my lips.

He watches me carefully, noticing the dark circles under my eyes, my skinny waist.

" Follow me to the bedroom.. " Meier states and I obey very slowly. He throws me on the bed , my head hitting the headboard, then turns me on my back . Suddenly his hands are around my throat , squeezing tightly and cutting off my breath. I thrash around but he squeezes more tightly on my neck artery. It takes only a minute for me to pass out.

When I open my eyes again I have a heavy nosebleed. I try to move my right arm, but I can't... I'm only able to lift my left arm a bit. I want to say something but even that seems to be impossible. Meier's watching me with his predatory eyes, clearly enjoying the sight.

" Don't waste your energy, trying to move. Your brain has been cut off all oxygen for a while that's why you can't move. Exactly the way I planned this all. You'll go crazy after the traumatic experiences.. I just had to make sure you will never tell anyone, I'm sorry I didn't have a choice. "

Tears slowly trickle down my face. I can still move my legs, only slowly.

" Oh I almost forgot, I've spoken to your brother in Berlin. He told me he really misses his Bruderlein."

I stare at him angrily.

knock knock.. knockknocknock LUDWIG! VE LUDWIG OPEN THE DOOR, IT'S ME FELICIANO!"

Panick rushes over me. He will let him in and hurt him too!

Meier stands up and disappears out of the bedroom. I hear him open the door and Feliciano asking where I am.

" Come in, Ludwig's already waiting for you" A minute later they both enter my bedroom and I watch Feliciano's mouth opening, a scream coming out.

" My God, Ludwig! what happened? What did you do to him, you sick .. eh.. you sick bastard!"

Feliciano must have seen the fear showing in my eyes because he immediately grabs my gun from the night table, something I didn't expect him to do. He must have seen Meier before or he knows what happened to me because he doesn't wait a minute longer and shoots... right there and then, before Meier could say one more thing.. . BANG.

It happened in only a few minutes. Feliciano's actions surprised me very much.

He shot him in the head, his blood splattered on my face.

Feliciano stands there awkwardly and I try to show him with my eyes, that I'm happy he saved me.

" Ludwig, what happened? We.. we should hide, the Nazi's will find out about his death.. "

I just can't answer him, instead I get up.. very very slowly. Feliciano grabs my jacket and pulls it loosely around my shoulders.

" Please Ludwig , talk to me.. I just did something terrible" He almost begs me. When I don't answer him again he continuous talking.

" I know some very bad things happened to you, and I understand why you don't want to talk... but you can't stay here, so I will take you to my house and hide you inside my room because nobody ever comes there. "

Thanks for reading again, I will update again if you leave a review =D