Wooh another SHORT (Yes very short)chapter. It's easier for me to write shorter chapters at the moment.
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I'm sick I need to sleep grrr...
"I hate to say t-this but I think the SS ar- arrested him. They caught s-some Resistance members" I don't tell him they will be executed at Friday and that I'll lead the firing squad.
"Oh please Ludwig do something about it!"
"There's n-nothing I can do for today, tom-morrow I'll see what I can d-do. I just came t-to deliver this, mein Bruder's waiting and Gott I-I'm tired" I hand him the work passes and identification papers.
He wants to kiss me but I pull away quickly.
"You can't kiss m-me outside, you s-should be more careful"
"I'm sorry.. "
"I'm going h-home. Bye"
...
" So you want to help his brother escape?" Gilbert asks worriedly.
" Well, I-I'm not sure if he's in prison, b-but yes I love Feliciano he will n-never forgive me if I let his b-brother die"
" Ludwig listen to me, you're doing very dangerous things.. if they find out you're stealing lists and identification papers and helping Resistance members escape, they will kill you. And you're sick, you won't be able to defend yourself.. I'm sorry but I think you're just young and naive"
" So you won't h-help me? Why don't y-you go back to Berlin and party everyday wear-ing expensive clothes and eat as much as .. as you can while other people DIE!"
He jumps up from the couch and grabs my shoulders , shaking me.
" We already lost our parents, I don't want to lose my little brother too!"
" That won't happen" I snap at him.
" What happened to you? We both joined the SS because we hated those Jews and wanted to help our country to become a powerful nation! You killed many Jews and you enjoyed doing it! and now you're helping them? I don't understand what happened to mein Bruderlein."
"I'm in love .. and I don't w-want to hear those awful things e-ever again! It was so wrong "
"I'm sure that if your Italian boyfriend found out about those things he never wants to see you again" He laughs.
I don't answer him and go to my bedroom.
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That night in bed I'm crying, feeling guilty about all the cruel things I've done the last couple of years. If Feliciano ever finds out... He will leave me.. of course he will, he deserves a better boyfriend. I want to make it up to the world but what if I'm too late? God will punish me someday.
...
I walk passed all cells and in the last one I find Lovino, his hands cuffed behind his back.
" Open it up for me , bitte" I order the guard. He unlocks the door for me and locks it again behind me.
" Do you want me to stay here for your safety, Lieutenant?"
" That won't be necessary. Danke" I wait for him to disappear out of sight and step closer to Lovino who's glaring at me angrily.
" You're going to torture me to get some information? Stupid Nazi bastard!"
" Please shut up! I'm here to help you" I found out that if I talk very slowly, I almost don't stutter at all.
"To help me? Why would you do that, you had to leave our house because of me. . and all I do is insulting you"
" Ssht! Keep your voice down. Because I think it would be the right thing to do. Are you hungry? I have some bread for you"
Lovino nods, he still doesn't like me very much but he seems very surprised about me helping him out.
I undo his handcuffs with the small key I got from the guard and hand him the piece of bread.
He doesn't thank me, just takes it from me and eats it fast.
" I keep wondering what is it that my fratello likes so much about you? Is it your blonde hair... Your strong body? You're not handsome after all" I recognize a bit of jealousy in his voice.
" Talk to me, Nazi bastard"
" I don't know.." I smile at him. He glares back at me , his expression changing from hateful to admiring , His eyes linger a bit too long on me.
" I'm going to put your handcuffs on again, I'm coming back tonight or maybe tomorrow. Don't worry I will get you out of this" I kneel beside him to put on his handcuffs . I'm busy with his left hand when his right hand touches my arm. I quickly put those things on and step back.
" Don't be scared , you will survive this"
" Please come back, don't leave me here"
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