Reaping's/Pre-reaping's part 2

Sawyer Macibay 17, District 4 Male

"What is this" My mother screeches rudely opening my door, talk about invasion of privacy, unfortunately I pulled off my door handle a few weeks ago so I can't put on a pad lock

I smirk at the newspaper article she has in her hand about the crazed boy who tried to bomb one of the loading docks I forgot to get rid of the cameras, so they got a clear photo of me before the peacekeepers stopped it

See my father is the mayor and my mother the lady of District 4 both elite morons that I am having fun destroying their credibility by acting out

I have obedience issues if it's random outburst in public, vandalism, theft, assault, attempted dock bombings, I'm the guy and since my father is the only one willing to be the mayor, I can't be arrested

"I was experimenting with creating bombs, I sadly didn't think that when the peacekeepers throw it in the water no damage would be done, hey at least there wasn't materials on the boat" I say

"No but Capitol citizens were on there don't tell me you're a murderer sawyer" She says

"Calm down, I may beat a few kids up, but unnecessary murder is weak, murder of Capitol citizens is necessary" I say

"You're a disgrace" She screams walking out

My parent's disappointment of me honestly makes me feel better, they don't get me, understand me, they want me to be this image, sadly I always had issues with authority, I was always slightly violent as a child and I seek the thrill, being some rich snob is not that

I prefer destroying yards then being in fancy dinners, burning expensive suits then wearing them, I decorated my room a few years ago and my parents lock it when someone comes in they think I'm a gothic freak that needs help, I'm not I just don't really like the sun and I'm into comics and replicas, I just love annoying them which is why I did try to bomb the docks

I wouldn't go out of my way to murder someone though, what's the point, if I do I will get executed mayors son or not, they can deal with teenage tantrums but not murder, they are also annoyed I actually take training seriously, it's a anger reliever where I can take my mace and smash all the anger growing inside me

Sadly I have actually shown skill to get attention but I made it clear I will not be volunteer even I cut the electricity off and burnt half the weapons the other week, Jayden wanted me kicked out but Lukas and Archer loved me so much I have my personal training room they said I was being creative, I honestly was curious to see what would happen if I cut electric wires with a knife or what happens when metal burns, it was totally worth it

My parents neglected me and wanted me to be something else I didn't know anything wrong, so I got curious about it that's all I see now, I don't like the elite so why should I listen to my elite parents, I hate the district so why should I be a loyal citizen

Now they hate being seen or associated with me, so I act worse the peacekeepers are getting a bit fed up with me

I'm not like everyone else, I don't want to follow the crowd, I live for the thrill of the moment, A need for adventure and to do something dangerous like, jumping from a large boat onto a building or jumping 5 metres into water, the peacekeepers let me do it because they say it's my choice, it's when I do something that's puts others in danger or annoy the elite they care

I'm not a criminal though, criminals want to cause harm, I just want to cause chaos and panic within the elite, like when I sent death notes to the parents of the elite, there reaction was funny and since there are a few murderous boys here, no one looked at me but if it's vandalism or robbery I'm the guy

I hear footsteps once more "What now" I say I have been busy reading novels all day because believe it all nor I'm not really a sociable guy, I'm going to training later but apart from my clear hatred of authority I'm a tough one to read not that I purposely hide my emotions

This time it's my father "Your behaviour if getting out of control" He says

"I call myself ambitious" I say

"First petty crimes, then clear disobedience of orders, public outburst, not taking the medication you were given now attempted bombing, your becoming too much" He says

I look at him "Like you care what I do, all you care about is running this District" I say

"I am mayor which may be taken away due to your behaviour" He says

"Or did you think it could be because everyone hates how you run the District, people want to be cared for and given basic needs you give the rich more money making them snobs have you seen this fucking District it's like the dark and bright side, the poor is where all our workers are the people that make money and you don't give a shit about them, which is why crime and murder rates are growing and the willingness to represent this district has decreased, I fucking wish I had other parents and was born in the outskirts at least I would be understood, I hate the both of you" I scream

"We have people coming over tonight, either behave like a human or leave" He says walking out

If I didn't behave like a human half this district would be dead, I hate my parents, but I also hate the Capitol and district my hate won't stop

I realise that the people coming over tonight is for their annual party, great, last year some bitch thought I was touching her in the wrong place and I got grounded, clearly that didn't end well for my parents but all I did was walk to the bathroom and she bumped into me, they remind of Capitol citizens to be honest, as much as I hated Theon at least he got rid of the teenage ones

So, I take a hammer walk into my parent's room smashing the window and jumping out running before they can say something, they will probably have some avox clean that up, like we live in District 4 not the Capitol, but they still act like them, I don't like Avox's I gave one concussion when he was touching my stuff

Haven't seen him again and now no avox's go in my room, not that I need them

I walk to the training centre, I am annoyed now, because my grand plan to bomb the loading docks which would stop food supply going into the rich areas and that in that current boat there were Capitol people didn't work

In the outskirts the fishermen get their own food, that's really one of the only jobs you can get here, unless you work in the shops in the city or by the bays, the fishermen's have to give three quarters to our district who make the prices way to high but I have also had my say in that

I tell them to only give a quarter to the District and I put a little bit of medicine to make people sick, the only people that can afford fish are the elite, the victors Catch it themselves there, now a lot of people catch fish at night illegally but do the peacekeepers care no

I know everything here if it's reading documents, spying on my parents, I may be a selfish person, but I do help the outskirts mostly Because it annoyed my parents and the elite population is growing and they need to be extinct

That's why I get great satisfaction by harassing them, I walk inside, they had to get two centres pretty much one for the rich and poor, the rich one use to have all the good weapons and stations because that's who my parents believe will become tributes then the poor get the crappy ones but once Archer won him and all the other victors changed it to skilled and recreational, with all the elite being in the second option since a lot of us males here are short tempered and attempted murder almost happened everyday

That's until they separated us, some actually want to train whether it is for the games, to let our anger out or for a job, being a fishermen here is very competitive and physical which is why they give priority to trainees, once I turn 18 I'm leaving to become a fishermen so I can finally have freedom and not have to turn to crime to get my point across

"Your father believed I am a bad influence on you" Archer says when I sign in

"Aren't you meant to be in the Capitol" I ask

"That dump, I would rather slit my throat, I do all my work here, preparation and stuff" He days

"My father just has a hard time believing him and my mother raised such an animal" I say

"I know your feeling believe me, I have one question for you Sawyer why not volunteer, you clearly don't care if you die, you love the thrill, you hate people and you want to send a message across what is pulling you away from the games" He says

"Being a puppet" I snarl

"I control mostly everything now, especially for my plan to get rid of Mr you know who, I thought Sebastian would be my guy but since I rigged his friend in this year and Raiden has gone from Psycho murderer to cry baby suicide freak I need another victor to join me" He says

"You said rigged, the Reaping's are rigged this year aren't they" I say

"I want entertainment and a victor I believe will benefit me, volunteering is totally two years ago, the districts are starting to realise how pointless the games are which is why no career tribute with an actual chance wants to volunteer only the delusional ones, and that means in the outers a lot of poor pulseless ones will be reaped, I defied the capitol last year and I'm going to keep doing it until I get power" He says

I really want to bash his head now "Don't give me that sadistic look Sawyer, you aren't unstable, yes I get it your angry because you know what I'm speaking about" He says

"I don't want to go into the fucking hunger games" I scream

Some people turn to look at us, and he sighs pushing me forward signalling to his office, I follow just because I know how influential he is "District four were made out to look like jokes last year, I chose the wrong tributes, your different, a career criminal and thrill seeker hasn't appeared yet plus you're not unstable but clearly you won't mind getting blood on your hands" He says

"That is not the point, I enjoy being a serial pest, not a serial killer, I do not want to be a victor because I would be the elite and my parents would just suck up to me" I say

"I have a lot of power as long as I don't start a rebellion, kill people from the Capitol, disobey the president I can do what I want, that means killing District mayors with a snap of my finger, your parents would be in a grave" He says

"Don't patronise me, Cleary I'm not the victor you want to win" I say

"The Capitol want an outer to win apart from District 8, I couldn't care less if it's a career or a 8 tribute, I'm being nice and telling you plus, Mr president did want a few criminals or murderers to be chosen to clean the districts of dirt, if you win then what a slap in the face that would be" He says

I am still pissed off and really want to punch him "I can snap you neck in a second don't think about attacking me" He says

I put my hands up "I do like the idea of the thrill and adventure the games give, but I do not want to act like some career follower or leader, fuck careers" I say

"I at first thought there would be a big career alliance, but I don't think so, don't join, I can't be your mentor and clearly you don't listen to authority so do what you want, I put faith in Theon last year and he absolutely blew it" He says

"Let me guess District two are the power houses this year" I say

"Boy yes, girl not physically but they have family issues that will confront them, plus there will be only four girls this year, only a few tributes have found out early" He says

"The ones you want to win" I say

"The ones that will give me a good show" He says

"I do have a temper" I say

"Which makes you a worthy fighter your mentally stable, Immature but stable which already helps you, just act like nothing had happened live the last day of your old life creating chaos" He says

"Don't worry I will leave my mark, plus I know you not to be trusted so I won't put all my faith in you" I say standing

"Smart boy I don't like fakers" He says

I nod my head, I don't even feel like training today because I know I will do something stupid, I guess I need to try and win, but I don't want to play by their game by being this loyal career that does anything to win, I want to get blood on my hands to get down and dirty and to fight where my life is hanging on the line

And I will, I never cared about public opinion, it made me be worse, I wanted to give a message, people will be relived to get rid of me, the criminal out of their way like my parents wished but I want to see their face when I come back, more mature, more vengeful that will get me to pay this game

Clayton Bagley 18, District 10 Male

"Gregory Bagley was a great man, one that lead the butchers in this district and was a representation of hope and hard work, his skills were flawless, his commitment to this district has been respected, he would work day and night slaughtering animals and sending them off, to the cities, now a dark cloud has arrived in this district and the unfortunate fact of him getting attacked by an animal outside the safety of this district while hunting for us"

My father was a butcher, one could name him the best others believe it was his sadistic nature and lack of care for any living being, human or animal, he would spend all the day and nights in his workshop cutting up, pulling apart animals, whether it was for their skin or meat, hundreds of animals that were living on this communal butcher farm have been done by his handy work

He was not a great man, cruel would be a better definition to define a man that just wanted wealth and reignition for a job he called sport, he made my mother flee loving me to be raised as a butcher, not a young boy

Just a butcher

However, he may be hard and cruel, I was curious of the works of the living and dead bodies the organs, the bones, the blood, I enjoyed it, just like my father, however I didn't enjoy slaughtering animals

They can't speak, or tell monstrous man with cleavers to not hurt them and their children, they are just like us however they have feelings

I realised what I wanted when I was 15, when I finally grew our if my shell and the far If abuse from my father, I saw a boy torture a baby animal on our farm, I felt this feeling I couldn't describe and I slaughtered him, pulled him apart and skinned him alive just like his an animal

That is what I enjoyed, human kind is growing evil, I knew my purpose, I also knew killing children or adults in the farm for butchers would not be safe, even killing in the farms that look after animals, I had to deliver the meat to the cities anyways

We have an area that we call the hell of District 10, an area that was burnt a many year ago, now is home to hundreds of people living in poverty, they can't get jobs, they must scour the cities for food, they are empty space, I need it, crave it

Not the feeling of killing

The bones or organs

I need the blood, I didn't mean to get it in my mouth but after that day I couldn't stop, I needed to drink blood, human blood

Mr Hamick a close friend of my father's step down, I had to attend this funeral I was his son after all the successor of his business, not that I want to be a butcher, I butcher humans and burn their bodies keeping jars of blood

Everyone softly claps his words were fake everyone knew how horrid this man was, he would beat and starved me when I Disobey lock me out with the cattle like I was some animal

They say he was killed by an animal

I guess he was, I didn't mean it, deep down I wanted to love him, but I just couldn't, and I had enough of the treatment, not just me but everyone else, he forced me to build an invisible shell for myself, an emotionless wordless shell

People hardly notice or see me anymore, I just hide from the public eye, and when I am in public I saw little, what's the point

If I express myself I will look insane, but I'm not I just have an uncontrollable desire for blood and murder that is too strong to stop

I had to make it look like a bear attack, we have them in the forest, and I am brutal the way I kill, I acted upset and the peacekeepers dropped it

Now I'm free

I could have burnt his body, but he deserves a funeral he has done good for this district, now we don't have any talented butchers apart from myself, but I don't want to be a slave for all my life

We may live in a nice area with enough money to survive but it comes with hard work, hours and hours, I can't do that though, I feel my hands shake slightly, the pain in my head getting worse, it's like an Illness, I told my father before he died thought he would help me instead he called me a beast, he screamed at me

They say I don't have emotions I do and what he did was like a stab to my heart that I attacked, in that split second I did not know what was happening until I saw his body, the peacekeepers came and I was a mess kept blubbering that I tried to help him, I isn't once say it wasn't me

It was true I was trying to help all the People I kill in the slums I try to help knowing there life for would be misery, or they will die of poverty or murder, the farms are safe, but the slums aren't, people are desperate to survive, only teenagers and children live in the slums due to no adult living past 25, there are pile of bodies there

You can't blame them we live in a district that encourages hunting and slaughtering of animals, they ahem shows that a people killing animals, all this District represents is death which is why the nice people living on the breeding farms the rest are scattered around

I need blood at least a few times a day and normally I kill weekly juts because I'm afraid what will happen to my mind state if 8 kill more, I'm not In Control I'm not going to lie and say I am "You alright Clayton" Mr Hamick asks

I didn't even realise this was over and people are slowly moving towards the food, a benefit of living in this area is we keep a quarter of the meat but whatever we hunt we keep, I don't eat meat, only Bread and rice, I don't find it right, 8 tried human flesh but I vomited our, I can only drink blood

"Just shocked" I say

That is not a lie, normally I am, good at disappearing places without being noticed, but I knew I couldn't leave today it is my father's funeral I have to at least be here, I am not changing my act because normally people can't read or get much out of me "You lost your father it is a tragedy isn't it" He says

The men are upset, my father was a great hunter and butcher and that's what the man of the butcher's farm like killing animals for fun an d money everyone else saw how nasty he was

"yeah" I mumble

"Don't worry you avenged him by killing that horrid beast" He says

I bite my lip to stop from biting back "my father told you don't eat me, how are you so well built, meat is our food and helps us grow stronger" He says

He is a meat packager and the way he treats the cattle is the way he treats humans, the men here disgust me sadly all the females are pretty much housewives and the men are butchers, it's different in the cities and the breeding farms "I should be going" I mumble beginning to walk off

He doesn't say anything they are used to me being absent to events like this, it's not that I don't like people it's just I don't like speaking, I quickly walk to my cabin behind my father's house he kicked me out of home but still forced me to work it was fine by me, I prefer to be alone unless there is a person that understand what I am going through

Or is a secret serial killer but doesn't enjoy killing and is only dong it out of necessity and has an addiction to it and people like that are very rare

I walk inside and to the Empty room when people come in they see tidiness and nothing out of the ordinary but I have a Empty room where I store all my weapons different type of cleavers I have collected from the black market and jars of blood, my heart lightly sinks when I see only one more jar and I quickly swallow it feeling no satisfaction

I know drinking from the neck vein would fulfil my thirst it's just I haven't found the right person or blood, I don't believe I am some delusional creature, I also didn't want to drink my father's blood as I don't drink anyone older than me because I'm worried I may get blood poisoning

I quickly fun to my bathroom panicking even more that I ran out of blood tablets, I must go to the doctor otherwise I will hurt someone, and it won't be a person I know won't be missed or did something bad, I don't feel anything when I kill but my emotions aren't stable

Then I realise doctor that use to give me those tablets were executed due to them being illegal, I need blood, or I will lose it and I don't want to

Not that I care if I hurt people, the more I kill the more distant I feel to humanity, when people cry and beg for mercy I barely give them a word, no apology, no reason, you can't have an emotional attachment to a stranger even speaking to a person makes them that more connected

I'm not immune to connection or emotions, I just shy away from them

My childhood shaped who I am today all I was shown was slaughter and abuse, I had to withdraw myself emotionally, I couldn't go to school and although I'm Street smart numbers and words confuse me which means once I turn 18 I will be either stuck in this hell hole of a butchery farm that acts nice and pleasant when really it isn't or sent to the slums as a meat packager

However with my height and build I will probably be the one of the people that catch and hold the animal while they are slowly getting ripped apart, none of those things sound pleasant to me but I need to stay under the radar, our district is one of the smallest population wise especially since only a fifth of the population live in the farmlands

I look out my window to see everyone talking and eating, occasions we get tighter and act like a community but really it isn't, My hands shake more and I know I have to, I can't control it, I quickly out a cleaver and some small jars of blood in my pockets walking out going the long way to avoid everyone

I quickly walk through the farm lands, all you see here is death, but people hide it by acting neighbourly, I get a better vibe from the city

"Clayton" I jump slightly but calm a little when I see Renly, one of my father's friend's cousins, I'm not friends with him never ask him and he would say we are best friend, he does annoy me but sometimes the company is night

"Were you following me" I ask

I was walking about ten minutes with no one insight and happens to see me, there are acres of Empty land surrounding the butchery farm from the city

"I saw you quickly walk away ever alright" He days

He should know I don't speak much, he is my age, but no one really takes him seriously he clings onto you and I don't want that, I nod my head beginning to walk away but he keeps following me "Where are you going" he asks

"Alone" I say not even turning around, I have barely spoken to him but just let him talk my ear off until I just walk away, and he didn't notice untold I hear him screaming my name, I don't want friends or people to care for me

I don't hide myself from people to protect them, I don't care if I kill people but the more blood I drink the less control I have, the more vulnerable I am "Let me come with you" he says

I look at him, my hand shaking, maybe the reason why the blood is lasting as long is because all the people I kill aren't nutritious they go through poverty, but this boy is one of the wealthier ones on the farm like me, maybe I have my targets all wrong

"Woods" I say

"Woods oh are you taking me hunting no one takes me hunting" He says following me

I ignore his blabbering when we make it far enough that I know no peacekeepers would hear, I can kill during the day but it's hard to get someone to the forest without making it look obvious or suspicious

"Now what am I going to do" He says

"Walk over there" I say pointing to some trees he nods turning his back on me that's when I quickly wrap an arm around his neck using my other hand to slit his throat, stabbing him in the mouth when he tries to scream, he drops to the ground and I slit his chest open

That was a quick kill mostly because I didn't have the reassurance that I wouldn't get caught hunter roam these areas and I don't know when plus I didn't bring anything to bound or gag him, I didn't think this through but at least his dead, I put my fingers to the wound on his neck then bringing my fingers to my mouth letting the blood drip down my throat

I feel relieved already like a weight has escaped my shoulders but my control slowly leaves me to the point where I grab his arm cutting it and sucking the blood, I image how good it would of been if he was alive maybe I should change the way I kill, that's unless I get reaped then I may need to show the world what I really am not that I want to but it's still late to stop

Evan Janson 17, District 7 Male

Reaping's

"He broke the code, he deserves death" Nathaniel says looking at me

"He swore to an oath, but he did not swear to the death oath" I say looking at Trantan

We are a group, we are a brotherhood, a bunch of outcasts and nobodies that found each other, me and Nathaniel created the brotherhood 5 years ago, we use to live in the orphanage tighter us and 6 other boys until it was burnt down and we were forced to live in the streets and it is hard especially since peacekeepers like to pester the homeless children and there are gangs that roam around causing trouble

They leaves us along we are more dangerous to the gang as we are a team, we dint abandoned each other, lie to each then, Nathaniel wrote the oath each member have to take however we give them a choice if they get to swear to the death oath most do, since it makes you more trusted bit fi you do and Break the code death so your path is you didn't take the death oath, you get vanished

Tran tan was a new more who just took the oath a few weeks ago it is difficult to get an invitation, we put them through tests, because at the end of the day we still are criminals we break the rules, cause trouble but we do it to survive we also do it because we get nurtured and a feeling of belonging with each other

My parents left me when I was younger, a few days later I found their body they say trauma scars a person changes them, but it made me stronger, more afraid of death and willing to fight and stay loyal

I am unforgiving, but I do not condone death if someone does not swear to death, we don't make our status obvious we don't go by recruiting members, boys come to us which is why we test them, we thought Tran tan was loyal however he left a brother behind causing him to die by the hands of a peacekeeper

That's a main take never leave a brother behind, we fight for each other and die for each other, we dint force anyone to sign and take the oath, to get the Tattoo that signifies who you are

"He got a member killed" Nathaniel says

"I know but Tran tan do you remember rule 5" I say

I dint like killing members Because it shows our weakness, Nathaniel is only annoyed because one of his closer brothers were killed "Never leave a member behind" He says

"This is not a club or gang; do you know what you signed up core" Nathaniel says

Boys come to us sometimes Because they are desperate they get turned back but Tran tan showed something we may have chosen wrongly "I was desperate, but I didn't know how strict the rules were" He says

"There are ten fucking rules didn't you read them, listen to us this is not a gang don't you understand" I growl

He shakes his head, we are currently a group of 16 which will now drop to 15 "Your choice" I say to Nathaniel walking out of the room

We are able to afford a home and basic needs now due to most of us working, however we need to be careful on who we Let in, but in a sense I can't blame him people care about their lives and when they are threatened they try to protect if, I am afraid to die alone and would sacrifice myself for a brother but not for anything else, like crime, starvation or the hunger games

I want to die honourably that means in a battle or sacrificing myself "What happened" Adrian asks

"He wanted the benefits of being in the brotherhood not the true meaning, a gang is better off than us but I knew he was not loyal, it's fine He was afraid, but we dint force our members" I say

"He deserves death, we need each other, we need loyalty, He was a run away as well not like us we were forced on the streets" He says

I don't murder but it is a necessity, that's what the Capitol Believe, they believe taking away children, parents, people are right, the hunger games, public execution even pointless murder, they agree with it even encourage it, in a sense I sort of understand but I don't like what they do

The hunger games encourage the murderous nature that occurs in the districts, like all District there is one area which is ridden with crime we have two, this area we live in is the worse bit it's also one of the cheapest areas to live in we may becoming wealthier, but our population is growing which means the peacekeepers are understaffed

Plus, all the money that use to go to the workers and orphanages are being put into building a training centre, unless both our tributes due in the bloodbath we become a career district replacing one, I don't agree with that either

"we may need stop recruiting all at least name the process harder, we have ever had to kill a member that had been here for more than three years but what we have to kill 5 newer ones, if we make violence our thing we would be just as bad as the big gangs that try and recruit to seem tough, we aren't like that and if we were I would leave" I say

I have clear values and morals I do everything to protect them even if that means breaking common morals other people have "I think we all would, the gangs wanted you, you know still do" he says

"That's because if my appearance and build" I say

"And you beat Ellis in a fight at the fight club" He says

"We we're friends and that was a fluke, I think he let me win" I mumble

"Still, I'm not questioning your loyalty at all, I know you would commit suicide before betraying a brother" He says

His right, I would, it's not easy living this life, every day you need to fight for survival and if I would lose all my friends, I probably would volunteer for the hunger games, not that I would otherwise, I hate the games they are a pathetic reminder of how the Capitol believe we are nothing but entertainment and slaves for their livelihood

I'm not a rebel but I am not a fan of them either, they don't have to work all they do is spend money on crap Nd force every district to work for them, we build their buildings, produce their food, give them clothes and wood, give them power and technology but that isn't enough for them

"That's part of the oath isn't it, you confess to your crimes by ending your life or you are murdered in cold blood, I would prefer to take my own life knowing I admitting to the horrid crime I have committed against the brotherhood, it does not matter if it was civil laws, rules in panel are created to be broken" I say

I trust Adrian, he is my best friend even close then me and Nathaniel due to the fact that we lived in the same orphanage tighter even shared a room, which is why he is the first person we recruited, I trust everyone in this group but me and Adrian have this extra bond "with all this drama with Trantan I completely forgot about Reaping's" He says

So, have I but I did see the District newspaper this morning, I just hope the Capitol Don't know the identity of the brotherhood, I know the mayor is looking for us they see us as a threat however the peacekeepers have been quiet "The tributes are hand chosen again and district 7 will give 2 boys" I say

"How did you know this" He asks

I throw him the newspaper "Don't you walk in the shop city areas posters are everywhere" I say

"I have a peacekeeper wanted to whip me since I'm not as subtle as you" He says

"Trying to kill some with an axe is not subtle" I say

"She broke up with Lyle after he put all his trust in her, don't her about the brotherhood then she cheated in him" he says

"Why do you think we kidnap and kill people that have wronged the brotherhood here then we bury the body up on the graveyard and no one knows what happened" I say

"oh my god what if she told the peacekeepers" He says

"Don't worry man, she won't be telling anyone" I say, I wouldn't hurt someone innocent, I don't like killing either but wrong me or the brotherhood and I do have an aggressive streak

"What did you do?" He asks

"I dealt with her don't worry she won't be able to tell anyone since she is buried under dirt" I say shrugging

"You haven't killed a girl before haven't you and it affects you" He says

I try and hide my emotions but sometimes there are cracks, I'm not heartless and even though I kill without thought at first, I do feel guilt afterwards no matter the crime they committed towards my group "Emotions hold me back you know that" I say

"Yet when you slit a throat you have no emotions, I don't judge you, if it wasn't for you and Nathaniel being level headed but also slightly merciless who knows what would have happened" He says

The door opens, and Nathaniel walks out dragging a body "That was slow" I say

"He played a game with fate he lost" He says

"Remember Reaping's are in fuck the minutes fuck" Adrian says looking at his watch then jumping of his seat and running to his room

"is he planning to volunteer or something" Nathaniel asks

"I don't know half the time don't worry no volunteer the tributes are chosen" I mumble

"I shouldn't worry because I'm 19 your 17 Evan the peacekeepers know we are the ring leaders how are we sure the Capitol Don't know and they haven't killed us because they think throwing you in the games would be a good idea" He says

"I know" I mumble

"You know if it was a normal year I would volunteer in a second, just don't ignore the chance" He says

I just nod my head and we wait for the others slowly walking to the city square, I'm hoping the newspaper is a lie and they will bring back to chance, at least with chance it is a gamble not a death sentence

I know someone like Nathaniel or Gabriel will want revenge if I were to get chosen and die, they aren't as calm as me and I believe they get themselves killed, I would volunteer if a brother was reaped, but to get forced I don't like it

I'm not a bad person I'm just forced to be like this because it's the only way to survive for teenage orphans

They pay you less in the lumber yards if you come from the outskirts like myself, I walk to my section barely saying a word to someone I get this sick feeling in my stomach when I know something bad will happen and this is one of the times our escort walks to stage, I barely Remember her name or her in general must be a new one

"Welcome, Welcome, Welcome"

Kill me now

Maybe I will be fine, I need to think positively and not worry about this escort blabbering shit that's when she utters the first tribute "Evan Janson"

Now I want to vomit, or lash out of the person closest to me but I keep cool like I always do, I lock Way my fears and emotions to look like a courageous boy, I walk up one stage, Eris looks at me impressed and I realise I need to hold my sleeve to hide the brotherhood tattoo I have in my wrist just in case

Everyone might think I'm from a gang and other tributes may target me "Landon Danel"

The kid that believes his cursed, news travels quick in District 7 a peacekeeper must drag him up as he screams about his curse and I agree with him this is a curse and the only way to live is to kill it