Warning: I won't put many warnings since, I did mention what this story would feature in my last story and it was quite obvious in the two first Reapings that a few don't have easy pasts or stable mind sets however Sawyer does say some homophobic things to Gabriel, only because it fits in wiht Sawyer's personality to insult people he doesn't like and is not a direct insult to bisexuality
Train Rides
Alistair Farrel 17, District 9 Male
I still haven't gotten over what happend, I was happy with my life, now they had to snatch it away
Fuck the Capitol and Fuck Archer
I had a reputation in 9 I wasn't like some wannabe be tough gang boy, I was the Lone Ranger That was nicknamed orphan boy from hell, I wasn't the nicest person, let's say all the kids in the orphanage would avoid me, I didn't want fear, I am naturally not a nice person
Someone bumps into me I have a go at them, they try to speak to me I tell the god damn truth about what I think about them, it's not my fault my parents gave me away because they were too poor to have children, it was there fault anyways, I always use to hope they were dead
Luckily for me they were killed by a virus
Again not heartless just find it hard to have attachments to people even if you have absolutely nothing in common with them, all my life I have felt out of place, I didn't fit in with the orphans, didn't want to fit in with the gangs, literally didn't fit in with society in general
It's hard to fit into a district known for their positivity, I don't get the point of finding a white cloud in a grey sky, District 9 is a pretty crap District to live in, especially for a orphan, I just wanted solicitude now I'm in the fucking hunger games where everyone will see me
Our stupid escort throught it would be a good idea to lock the doors so we can all talk, she has gone and Myren is just looking through papers in a seperate booth, I am sitting in the corner near the door trying to get it to open thankfully my District partner is being way over melodramatic crying to her mentor how she will die, while Serna gives her a shoulder to cry on, I never crossed pathd with her
And I don't actually know if your name is Kiara or Chiara, her fault for brushing me aside at Reapings like I'm a virus, I guess when you get compared to a devil, people don't like you but I have never killed someone, Yes I have hurt a lot of people even put them in hospital but really it was to get them away from me or if they found my hiding place, I would just scare them with my sledge hammer and some either fell over or got in it's way
It isn't a bladed weapon so no damage would be done, I wouldn't kill someone for stupid purpose like for money or fear, I don't want to be feared I just wanted to be alone, at the orphanage it was hard, I did have a friend once
He was like me didn't fit in with society, wanted isolation, you can bond with people like that, actually speak to them then he was reaped a few years ago and got killed, a part of me wants to avenge him but what's the point, his killer is dead brutally killed by Isaac, I got satisfaction watching her suffer
And I'm not a merciless person, maybe it is my hate for districts better off, Districts that if you are a orphan you actually get taken cared off instead of having to fend for your self or maybe I actually liked the guy
"There are a lot of rumours about you" I look up to see Myren sit down opposite me
"The murder ones are incorrect I have never ended a life, I am more just a bully I want my own space if someone comes to close I go defensive plus they don't hire orphans where I was from, so I stole a lot, people fell for my trick it was simple, unfortunately I got the title from the orphanage" I say
"But you would kill if you had to" He says
"Yes but you see what happens to outers who go out of their way to kill, Im not trained, I also don't have great self control" I say
"You and tanner are similar but different, you don't act tough and aggressive you naturally are, you never lost a fight as well I heard" He says
"Unlike most of the people I fought on the streets I have a brain" I say
"So I guess you undertsand what needs to be done, I can help you, issues I have had with my tributes is that they dont know what needs to be done, they dont want to kill or if they are like Tanne, think this can be a walk in the park, clearly you aren't going to Allie with your District partner" He says
"Do I look like a guy that makes friends" I mumble
"You are friends with Riley weren't you, you two seem really similar" He says
"Were, it is hard to be friends with someone who is in a coffin, after his death I just detached myself more" I say
I am only confining in Myren because he is my mentor he can help me win plus, he is respectful not like some kid that won and now cries over what he or she did
"You angry or upsets about that" He says
"Angry I don't get upset his death forced me to have to fend for myself, I did not have anyone that understood or trusted me, I only trusted two people and one of them backstabbed me but he didn't, so yes I did enjoy his killer getting brutally killed by Isaac and I would happily watch her death again to bring out my anger side but I sometimes get to aggressive where even if I am in control I look like the bad guy, so what is the point of me going out my way to target the district 2 girl if 2 are one of the District to reap a female when I know getting revenge on someone that wasn't even involved in his death will surely backfire for me" I say
"Smart, obviously killing is a thing you need to do but wiht 20 males this year and about a quarter who I know would not be citizen of the year, killing may not be necessary for you, unless you get in danger" He says
"I have ideas, I do have a bit of trouble controlling my emotions but it doesn't weaken me they make me more violent, I just knew what would happen if I killed someone, the security is more strict near the orphanage due to the murder rates that happen" I say
"I have been analysing the files, competition is stiff, the careers this year are strong, 3 of the Boys are physical and their districts best male, also seem to be on the hard hearted and emotional side which makes them that much more dangerous, the other boy from 4 is the most stable career boy, also strong and has good weaponary technique and the girl from 2 May be the underdog this year, physically not a threat, emotionally timid, but by far the most mentally prepared tribute with a skill that may save a life and is probably the only female that has a chance to make final 8, the boys are juts to strong this year" he says
"Doesn't seem like their will be a career alliance this year then" I say
"Smart you just worked that out by a few words" He says
"I read alot of books back home, the library was really the only place I felt normal" I say, I am not hunger games intelligent though, I am from 9 not 2 or 4, we don't analyse the hunger games we hate watching them
"Good, at the moment your calm" He says
"I'm calm because I know there is a chance I will die and I am okay with that, I will fight but at the end if the day only one win, what about the outer" I say
"Your not the only misunderstood outsider, the boy from 5 is openly a rebel hates the Capitol hates careers but his a bit too careless to be Lets say be a threat plus physically not the best against the others, one of the boys from 6 however is morphing addict isn't allowed any here but on his file he is filled with hates anger and wants solicitude, would recommend looking at him if you wanted an Allie, the boy from 7 is technically a orphan but a part of this brotherhood with strict morals and does kill members and others that betray them, the boy from 8 is noted as the strongest outer threat, a box carrying, physically stromp, emotionally strong but it's his determination that beats all the other tributes he has a daughter back home that is a spark to light his killer Inscint and then the boys from 10 one a gang member and another blank history but I am a bit concerned about him there is just something wrong about him" Myren says
I take into acount everything he says finding a clear pattern with a majority of the males this year rule breakers, or ones that don't follow the crowd, it is also difficult to tell who the hero and villain would be this year unless they want a different approach "Do they want a hero V villain or something different" I ask
"I'm not sure because as you may have notice there aren't really any clear heroes or villains, there will be ones once the games starts but last year it was pretty obvious, this year not so much" He says
"Did you guys know about the tributes already being hand chosen and the twenty four rule" I ask
"No, I spoke to Isaac though, he knew as did 2,7 and 4 so clearly the Capitol chose their favourites, it's a little odd that District 8 was told due to their performance last year but I guess the boy is a threat" He says
"The game I want to play is one where I can go under the radar, play to my strengths in a stealth and cunning way, sadly little things can make me flip, I still haven't gotten over Riley's death I'm worried the second I see the district 2 female I will attack even if I don't want to cause harm to her" I say
"That is what we need to work on however losing it in training may not be a bad thing this year is more like the strong and the weak, the careers or what ever strong boy alliances there are will target the weak before the strong, why target the strong and get injured where you can target the weak get kills which means sponsors and be healthy by the time you meet your biggest threat, you aren't a career, don't act like one but putting yourself in the strong category in the spotlight may give you a few more days to find a way to win if your afraid to kill" He says
"I'm not afaraid to kill" I snarl
Maybe I bit louder since my partner and her mentor look over but look back after a few second "your a sensitive one aren't out" he says
"Call me asshole to demon and I don't care I just don't like being called weak no one apart from an orphan understands what it is like, we don't have proper shelters there are holes in the walls, broken windows, no heating or air condition, not warm water, 20 of us crammed in a small room that only fits 5 bunk beds, we only get supplied water and stale bread once a day so if we want more food we must work or steal for it, and since the grain yards dont hire orphans in my area, I had to get money and food my own way, I was lucky the man at the scythe shop needed someone to smash the metal for him, that's how I'm strong but that only gave me enough for bether and warmer clothes since the food in my area was almost un eatable, I lived in the slums of the outriders the worst and poorest area of nine, the orpanages in the better areas were full by the time I needed help, no one in my area works apart from the shop owners, we only have a weapon store, clothing store and bakery, the bakery we are only given the most stale bread, the bread the district can't give to the workers or Capitol so they give it to us, I never eaten meat in my life, the rice sometimes give me food poisning and the city folks treat us and look at us like trash, the price for food is high, so don't you damn call me weak because I should be dead, I use manipulation and stealth to get food and money, I fight kids in the streets if they attack me for desperation" I say standing
"Alistair wait I just wanted to get a emotion out of You" He says
"You want me to get angry because you hate seeing District 9 look like a weak district, well I'm sorry but I don't want to win for you I want a better life and I don't appreciate you playing with my emotions because I work so hard to keep them at bay so why not you help mentor miss my life is over and leave me the fuck alone" I sneer walking over to the door smashing onto it the flicking escort
"It's still locked" Myren says
"Fucking leave me alone and you two stop fucking looking at me like I'm a freak and you fucking escort where ever the fuck You are open the damn door before I cause harm to your precious train and victors" I shout
I almost shout when the door opens and the escort is no where to be seen "Your room is on the other side" Myren says
I glare at him walking across the room and to the other now open door and to the corridor to find a sign with my name on it on a door
I know my emotions may kill me especially since they are all over the place and so what if they do, all I want is to be stopped being looked at like this demon, like this lowlife and if I have to get blood on my hand to get that freedom so fucking be it
Gabriel Tallier 18, District 4 Male
They found out, they had to, why else would I be reaped in a district that is a Capitol favourite that has Archer
He would choose the best two males that can bring victory or two that have a dirty past, I was one of the best but not top 3 plus I'm not mentally unstable I won't give them entertainment, I will be close to a typical career and the Capitol Don't like that, he must of found out and please the Capitol but sending a boy that has committed a crime to death
In my district they frown upon busexuality
It wasn't my fault but I love him and he loved me they say love at first sight is real for me it is, He was a fishermen I was a boy that operated the boats both of us trained, and due to all the drama in the centre, all the groups, all the boys who should be locked in mental ward we found eachother
Now I was stolen away from him just for being different, we had to keep our relationship a secret, my parents were elite which is maybe why sawyer is sitting as far away as me as he can and just looking out the window, since our mentors locked us in the small room to talk while they sort things out
Clearly our alliance won't work
I was born in the elite side but I was one of the nicer ones which is why Theon didn't target me, He was the mayors son but everyone knows Sawyer, he made it clear how much he hates us, threatens kids heaps in the centre, always gave me and Brent dirty looks
I doubt he knows what I am, but I wouldn't give it pass him, I fiddle with the ring in my hand
I was going to propose, after the Reapings I am finally an adult, I could of ran away and lived with him in area, in the District where the mayor doesn't visit, where we can finally not have to walk on nails
His parents understood, they liked me but my parents would get me killed if I left them, they wanted a victor, I was too in love to take things seriously
"So your a faggot"
I get shocked well his nice isn't he, he has a small smirk on his face "And your a criminal" I say
"That is me but come on man, atleast I didn't break a clear rule of the district don't fuck another man, you two aren't that subtle you know I heard you in the bathrooms once, could of gotten you killed but your man wasn't an elite" he says
I bite my lip "I'm reaped though" I say
"Because again dickhead you weren't so subtle, I bet you Archer saw you guys since his 19, He was safe plus your an elite, a enemy to almost every teenage boy that gets looked down by them, like myself actually more then my self" He says
"I'm not like the elite, I never judged you" I say
"You called me criminal, I'm a free man aren't I Or was" He says
I never really let bullies push me around, even at the centre the boys kept teasing me because I wouldn't go out to parties or dates, I actually worked which they didn't like, but I lived driving boats
"Well you called me something that was something I was afraid of, I'm sick of being judged because I love someone and maybe your just annoyed because you were never loved" I say
He stands up clenching his fist and I'm concerned I Provoked him but he sits down swearing under his breath "I'm sorry" I say
"I don't fucking care, I'm not joining the careers and I don't want you as a Allie so maybe we can try and actually get along otherwise I will do something that I don't really want to do" He growls
"doesn't seem like there will be a career alliance then because I'm not joining" I say
"Your definition a typical career, somewhat good looking, strong, weapon skills, realistic and not insane although never seen a gay career maybe you may cheat on your future husband" He says
His mouth is going to get him killed, his lucky I don't really care what he says "I'm not a killer though, I hated them, hated the elite" I say
"You always attended the dinner parties, spoke to the adult, acted like a good young man, if you hated the elite you would be like yours truley" He says
"I had to hide my sexuality because I was afraid to get killed, you were always going to be safe due to your parents" I say
"See man if you ran away from home you and your boyfriend could of been together and the peacekeepers in the slums are laid back that way, one even gave me his gun, sadly it was unloaded but it was fun to threaten elite with" He says
"I know I was there when you screamed out you will start a training centre shooting, but I knew the gun was unloaded" I say
"Observing, can our damn mentors just get in here since clearly you hate my company and I hate even being in the same room as an elite" He says
Like his wish was heard our mentors walk in, I actually don't know So is mentoring but seeing that all of them notice that we are in the opposite ends of the room as eachother it gives a clear image what will happen, it's hard to find the District partner bond where there is two males "I'm guessing one of you isn't joining the careers" Lukas says
I'm guessing Archer isn't mentoring which is good "Neither" Sawyer says
"Smart, so I guess you don't want to be trained together" He sayd
"I don't even want to be in the same room as this fag" Sawyer says
Kelsey looks disgusted by his word "Chill, he technically is one, should be happy you got the more normal tributes" Lukas says
"Normal" She says
"Is she my fucking mentor" Sawyer snaps
"Archer chose, since you don't want her and Daylen doesn't want Gabriel why not we just swap and not tell the Capitol year, Sawyer needs hard minds to mentor him and Gabriel well I don't give a shit" Lukas says
"Fine by us, come on Gabriel" Jayden says, I follow him and Kelsey giving Sawyer one more glance, I do want to know what the boy is really thinking to be honest, he just smirks to me and I don't know if the look he gives me is one where he will murder me or a stay out of his way probably both
"We want to test you, so here are all the files of the 6 tributes from career districts" Jayden says placing down six files, I didn't realise that there would be only one female from a career district, I guess the captiol really want a male to win
"See the way we won is Because we studied our rivals knew what would happen what might happen, Kelsey used it to avoid, I used it to try and fit in with the nicer crowd" He says
"So knowing the career dynamic may help me" I say
"If you know if there is a pack or not will be useful information, guessing alliances will help to" Kelsey says
I look at the files "Sawyer has found a match made in heaven hasnt he, the only thing that is a clear differences between the two is that the boy from 2 isn't a criminal and has a sister in the games which is more estranged" I say
"I guessed it two, the scary thing is Sawyer does click with someone like him, The boy from 2 is smart enough to work wiyh him" He says
"Clealry the girl from 2 won't join, too nice, not even close to a career mindset may be forced into a alliance for her medical skills" I say
"Would you consider her as a allie?" Kelsey's asks
"I don't really get along with females my age, I argue with them more, and I know she seems like one that would back out a fight but I don't want too ruin her chances" I say
"You dont have to be ashamed you know, it was only the elite that hated bisexuality not us" Jayden says
"But it's almost unknown in other districts, what if they see me as a easy target or a criminal" I say
"Look at Sawyer" Kelsey says
That does make me slightly better, I look back at the files "What is one of the boys from one file almost blank" I ask
"I don't kmow, Last year Payton's was almost blank, normally the tributes that hide very well are almost blank however knowing Archer he would purposely make it, same with boy from 10 but looking at their photos and Reapings they may be the insane tributes this year or maybe just hid very well" Jayden says
I just nod "Clealry there won't be a career alliance, Sawyer and Ciaran would most certainly got together, Serenity may find a allie she can fully trust and work with, Rhett is a unknown and Kian seems like a bloodbath" I say
"Going alone wouldn't be smart, Sawyer seems like the guy that would backstab his partner, or just cut down anyone he sees, plus some outer tributes are willing to kill for sponsor money, or supplies, a career alone will be the best bet, your strong we both know that but you don't have a heart as a killer and a desperate outer will indentify that and use that to their advantage" Jayden says
"I prefer to only trust myself but I get where your coming from" I say
"We won't tell you who to allie with, we did the same with Braelyn last year and she made a friend, I know you wouldn't look at allies for that purpose but go with your gut and someone you would work with" he says
"Obviousy would have to be a outer, unless the boy from 1 is actually compentant" I say
"He thinks his the best bit but unless you have high tolerance for pests go ahead, go with District 7 is you really want the boy seems like a good choice" He says
I just nod "What about sponsorship surely if Sawyer knows everyone will know, the Capitol Kill people like me" I say
"Sawyer only knows because Archer knows the only thing you should worry about is him mouthing off, the Capitol won't know, we will try and get you money but with the tributes this year you need to stand out yeah" He says
"How?" I ask
"Be yourself" Kelsey says
I raise an eyerbwow "Why die a fake person where you can die yourself aNd win yourself" Jayden says
They are right, all my life I had to be carful with the way I acted, what I said, how I look a males, how I am way more comfortable around them, how am somewhat moody like a female, now in the games I act like who I am because if I do win I will be safe from strunity and if Sebastian who was a lot worse then me last year won, so can I, I broke a petty rule made by 4 and the Capitol to make their districts and place perfect, other districts allow differences
The games should be no different
Brodie Wahner 16, District 6 Male
I have been banging on this god damn door for hours
I will literally kill the fucking person that had the good idea of locking me in here and I'm not a murderous person but want to see blood spill
It is not my fault, I need it, I crave it, when we first got on this stupid train I had a little bit of a hissy fit, punched my District partner because he gave me a stupid look and tried to cut the window open
I need morphing, no one understands what it's like to be addicted, honestly I hardly remember what I did with it, but I need a shot every 2 hours after that I start to withdraw I haven't had a shot for 2 days since the peacekeepers locked me in the justice building at the day of the Reapings after they caught me on the street and that I almost overdosed
I didn't mean to look suicidal that stuff is addictive and is important and I need it, it takes me away from the reality of the real world, of the person I became, I didn't want to be this way but when you live in the outskirts with drug addict parents you don't end up as let's aay a good person, especially if you see your parents overdose when your 10
I don't care what they did, or that I ended up in the streets, the morphling saved me, I dont actually know what I did with it, but I'm still alive, I'm not overly malnourished, I seemed to be strong enough to make a large dent in this door, although now blood is running down my arms, pain errupting in them
Without it I feel lost, I admit I can think straight and I know where I am but that is not the point, I feel sick, my head hurts, I hear this ringing if I am like this in the games I will die
Atleast now I'm less violent, apperantly I did kill quite a few people back home, again without my morphling I remember nothing but clearly I didn't get caught, the District does care if you kill other people it's killing yourself, our District is way overpopulated and with Payton gone no one is getting rid of loose ends
I was in the category, I don't think I saw him, I only know who he is because when I didn't have morphling I heard the news, I have survived times without it but I wasn't happy plus I had my friends with me not locked in a room like some rapid animal, I pull back, Holden is a morphling Addict and I don't see him locked in a room, they actually dont stop him either
I would survive better if I had some with me, if I'm clear headed all I feel is anger and hatred, I know people say that is a weapon but how would I find the determination to win, all I want is more morphling, I don't care if I have to die to do it, I give up sitting on the chair
There is no point breaking my hands, they won't give in, this isn't 6, this is the hunger games, and if I want to live I need to be clear headed, that's if I want to win
What is the point anymore?
The door opens and Corin walks in, I look up not saying anything, when I am clearminded I hardly speak, mostly because I'm not use to be like this, I am use to morphling, I need and crave it
I Feel my hands shake "Shit are you okay" Corin says running over to me, I feel a bit of wetness on my face, oh yeah I suffer from nose bleeds the morphling hide those
Or it could be withdrawal honestly I don't know anymore
I try and rub it wiht my sleeve but Corin gives me some tissues "I need morphling" I state
"you need medical care in your file it sees you suffer from headaches and nose bleeds, that's why you were addicted, you used it to hide from the physical pain" He says
"Mental pain" I say wiping my nose
He gives me a vile with some syrup aNd I drink it thinkings it's morphling but I dont feel the adreline rush, or the colourful world, my nose stops and my head clears, I still see Corin, I still see pain, I throw my tissue in the bin chucking the vile at him
"Morohling" I growl
He doesn't react or seem intimidated, who am I kidding this boy killed a few careers without blinking a eye, he killled his sister without blinking a eye "You feel better don't you" Corin says
I nod, he gives me a bottle of pills "These are sugar pills whenever you want morphling have one of these, it will help" Corin says
I grab it "Why can't I just have morphling" I ask
"Because you will be dead before you hear the sound of a cannon, you may have survived 6 but in the game tributes would see the weakness and will kill you, you don't have control of your mind, you will say or do something that will get you killed" He says
I sigh, he has a point, but without I feel lost, like I don't know who I am, what I am "I don't remember anything about my life" I say
"Then start over, this is your chance you go in the clear minded, you fight and win, you make a life, one where you don't need to turn to drugs, where you can make friends, feel happy for once, that's all you wanted right, you turned to morpling because you were afraid broken, you wanted that to hide it but why not try fixing it instead of hiding from it, believe me you experience the lowest points of your life before you can experiment the greatest" He says
"Will these pills help" I say
"Yes, it will make sure you don't even feel the urge, it worked for Holden a few years back but after his mother died we just couldn't help him anymore, the medicine helps your headaches and nose bleeds, take the sugar pills in wiht you but you need spnoses to get you the other stuff" He says
"So am I physically sick" I ask
"You look more pale then you should be, thankfully your still well built, but the headaches and nose bleeds aren't withdrawal, it's side effects of drugs your 16 and already dependant on them, when did you start" He asks
"When my parents died and I became a orphan, I don't remember 6 maybe 8 years ago" I say
"Let me guess your parents were both drug addicts you grew up in the outskirts they overdosed, you were alone and vane part of a gang that took morphling all day and because you took so much you don't remember anything" He says
"Sounds right" I mumble
I guess it does feel nice to be in reality, to be in control on my emotions and to remember the last hour "Your not violent either was that tantrum just withdrawal" He says
"I am violent but your not a threat or a annoyance to me" I say
He raises an eyebrow "But I'm not insane" I say
"Well without morphling, just forget that side of yourself okay, that boy is dead and now Is a new one trust your self, you don't need morphling, it will kill you, the games aren't easy, you will feel mentally broken but hiding from it, trying to relieve it will make you a coward" He sasy
I feel a bit of anger and he almost goes to grab my wrists but I just calm sinking into my chair and he pulls back "Thats a good start you pulled back" He says
"I don't get too angry" I mumble
At the moment all I feel is like violence is my only way to win that's what I turn too without thinking but the only way for me to win this is to stay rationale, to think for my self I can't change and be a good person because I know I don't work well wiht others, I feel distant, I missed so much of my life that I hardly remember what is use to be like to be a child
To actually live "That's good, just don't get too emotional, Alright" He says softly
I feel like telling him I don't get emotional, I almost bark it out bit I just keep y mouth shut, knowing he knows how to speak to someone like me "Will you help Tristan, as I'm not the one anyone in 6 would want to win" I say
"Believe it or not bit I actually helped Payton last year as well even if he wasn't my tribute, I was the only one that spoke to him, he was pure evil, Your just a boy that doesn't know wrong from right, or has a proper childhood, the games live to throw those kids in the game to show how savage the districts are but I know go on a physcotic killing soree" He says
When I was going through withdrawal back home I did hear the hunger games news, about Payton, even know they keep mentioning him, like although his dead, his a tribute that would me remember for ages "What was so memorable about him, I didn't aftualky remember last years game, who won" I ask
"Sebastian boy from 2, Payton was a assassin one that also didn't have a proper upbringing, you can't help but feel bad for him, bit he was just too far gone, he was more of a puppet master he did get a few kills, but he created rivalries, broke alliance, caused a mentally stable tribute to go insane but it was his actions in the final three which caused conservasery and made him a even bigger villain to Payton, revealed to Payton that his District partner was actually his sister before he was forced to kill her as Payton fatally wound her to the point even the Capitol wouldn't fit, I would watch last years game, this year had the theme of dominant male theme so if you keno's how to play against that you should be fine" He says
"Cause there are twenty males, right" I ask
"Yeah, the females come from 2,3,5 and 9, but none are a physical threat or ones that would kill to win, the onkynfemale I see making the final 8 is the girl from 2, for intelligence alone but the boys are certainly the ones to watch out for, your not the only one rough around the edges, maybe the only morpling Addict but there are quite a few orphans criminals, those sort somyou won't be the odd one out, just don't join a large alliance" He says
"I won't, I don't like interacting much, Your lucky I'm speaking this much" I say
I am hoping if I get close to him, he will give me more morphling but even if I have those sugar pills and that syrup would be fine
"I know what your doing, I'm not giving you morphling" Hs says
I don't say anything "But I appreciate your effort, if you win you can get morphling if you really want you would of wasted your life but you wouldn't be a kid anymore" He says
His right "I'm going outside you can say in here or try and make friends wiht your partner" He says
"I want an allie but not him" I say
"Well it's your choice if you need me you know where I am" He says
When he leaves I shove a pill in my mouth, it doesn't give me that pleasure like morphling but it does sort of help me and I know if I want to live through this, I need to go in like I am no and not some drug addict