Short chapter is short. I wanted to thank Meluzina who is a real angel for helping me out with this story! and of course all people who read/review this fic. Thank you all so much.

Ludwig's point of view

" Nein.. no doctor please. I want to stay home for today, but a nice warm bath would be nice" I feel ashamed for not being able to walk properly and I don't want any other officers to see me like this.. they would just be laughing at me, acting like the bastards they are.

I try to stand and take a few steps but I don't succeed and fall to the floor. Meier catches me before I hurt myself.

" I will help you" He starts slowly undressing me, his hands lingering on my body just a bit too long, then he lifts me up and carries me to the bathroom. He helps me get into the bathtub and fills it with warm water.

I flinch when he takes my glasses off and puts them away into his pocket.

" Nein, I can't see well enough.. just.. please I feel so bad right now" He can do whatever he wants to me, I'm vulnerable... I can't move , I can't see.. atleast not well enough to protect myself. I want Feliciano to help me.. mein Gott I wish he was here.

" Don't be scared. I won't hurt you, I just wanted to help you washing your hair" He adds some soap to my hair and starts massaging my scalp.

Half an hour later he helped putting on my pyjamas and carried me to the bedroom.

" Just lay down , give your body some rest. I'll make you breakfast" He places a kiss upon my forehead and I feel like I need to throw up. Needing help from Meier to do the most simple things in life is my worst nightmare.

" I'm not hungry"

" Ludwig, you have to eat something" He disappears into the kitchen and returns with a plate full of bread and cheese. " Eat something, even if it's just one piece of bread"

" Nein I don't want to" I almost whisper.

" YOU HAVE TO ! Do I have to force feed it to you! Because I will if I need to"

" Please don't shout at me I-I I'm just feeling s-sick" He's always so short tempered and it scares me.

I watch him grabbing one of the pieces of bread and he holds my head and tries to make me eat it. I start thrashing , tears streaming down my face.

" Nein please STOP IT! " I'm shaking by the time he finally stops.

" Fine, if you don't want my help then I will leave you on your own. Let's see if you can take care of yourself" He's smiling in a very creepy way. I watch him disappear, slamming the door.

Usually I would light a cigarette right now to release some tension, but I'm too tired to make it to the living room.

I need Feliciano. . but he doesn't know what happened to me and he will never come to visit me at my house.. and I will never make it to his house either..

The Vargas family doesn't have a phone,, their neighbors do though, because they are rich, and luckily I know the number. Feliciano told me the number so I can use it in case of emergency.. well this is an emergency right? If only I could make it to the phone. And what if I got him on the phone and I would ask him to come? He would come to my house immediately but what if Meier comes back? I'm sure he will, I just don't know when.

Thinking about this all makes me tired and I can't stop myself from drifting off to sleep.

...

When I wake up again it's already dark outside. I'm thirsty and I desperately want to smoke a cigarette. My stomach's hurting.. I need to go to the toilet but I'm too tired to get there. I start to cry when I can't hold it any longer and just let it go.. wetting myself. I've never felt this humiliated. That's when Meier comes in , he doesn't seem to be angry anymore, wearing a worried expression.

" I'm sorry for leaving you on your own , it's just that I needed to show you how much I care.. you need me" He approaches me and lifts the bed sheets.

" Aww poor boy, you wet yourself"

" I don't want to hear it, I don't want this!"

" Ssshht it's okay, I'll help you change into clean pyjamas. "

Feliciano's point of view

My father decided we need to sell the puppy dogs and I want to give one of them to Ludwig as a present. The one that ran away the first time I met him. I'm sure he would be very happy, because he misses his own dog a lot. I will give it to him when he comes to visit me tonight.

That night he still didn't visit me, it's already nine o' clock and I start to feel worried about him.

I don't dare to go to his apartment, because it's just too dangerous. Maybe he's just late, or he had a lot of work to do.

When it's eleven o ' clock I decide I need to do something.. what if something happened to him? That's why I find myself walking to his apartment. I'm staring up at one of the large windows to see candlelight. It means he's at home right?

Meier's black car is parked in front of his house and he must be the reason why Ludwig didn't come to visit me.

I decide to wait until he leaves, but after waiting for more than three hours I start to feel tired. Maybe Meier's staying over at his house for the night? I feel a bit jealous, even though I know Ludwig loves me instead of him, it's just so unfair he's with him right now and I'm not .

Lovino told me about a young Jewish boy who desperately needs a place to hide, and I wanted to talk to Ludwig about it. Maybe he knows a solution.

Meier's point of view

After helping Ludwig change into some clean pyjamas I watch him sleep. I touch his legs and he doesn't seem to feel anything. I decide to read the letter Ludwig wrote to his brother, Gilbert.

Dear Bruder,

I'm so sorry for disappointing you and I wanted to tell you how much I miss you.

I can't walk anymore and I don't know what to do .. I just really need your help.

Please help me.. please

Your Bruderlein

His handwriting is a mess, like it's an eight year old who wrote this letter.

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