I'm sorry for taking so long but I just didn't know how to end such an awesome fic! (Not to mention that my personal life is still a mess like always..) I know this is short, but what can I say? I just hate to write the last chapter of a fic, it makes me feel sad.

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The pain...

The pain in my heart is unbearable as I watch my boyfriend leave.

All those times we were together, all those feelings we shared ; they seem so far away right now.

I know we will be together again someday but it seems so unrealistic.

Schmuell's standing on his tip toes to stare out of the window with me, we both cry as we watch Ludwig disappear around the corner of the street.

Ludwig, my dear Ludwig please return to me soon.

We said goodbye in my bedroom and I didn't go downstairs with him, because to watch him close the front door with a sad look upon his face, would be too much for me. Now I can still pretend he left to go to the market. It sounds stupid and nobody will understand my feelings.

I'm so glad Schmuell's still with me, because I know the little boy needs me to take care of him and that's what encourages me to go on with a smile upon my face.

"Feliciano? Look what Ludwig gave to me before he left." The boy's holding a little book.

"What's that Schmuell?" Schmuell hands it to me.

"He told me it's his journal and that I had to give it to you and you should only read one page a day, because he promised that when you reached the last chapter, he will return to us"

I smile at Schmuell, hoping Ludwig will be right about that.

I open the book and on the first page it reads :

Dear Feliciano,

When you read this I already left and I know you feel bad about that so I decided to give you my journal. Not just because I want you to have something to remember me, but also because it will explain everything to you. Some of the things that happened in my past are too painful to talk about, but I wrote them all down and I want you to know about it. I want you to know everything about me Feliciano, because I trust you and because I love you. I hope you won't think bad about me after reading it all. But if you do, then I must deserve it.
Promise me to read one page a day, then I promise I'll be back when you've read the last page.

I love you,

Ludwig

...

Ten months later,

The war is over, the Allies won but Feliciano didn't celebrate this fact at all, not like all other people did. Yes he will celebrate that the war is over, but not without Ludwig.

The Italian is in their small garden playing with their dogs when his brother calls him.

"Feli? There's a letter for you!" Lovino calls

Feliciano runs inside the house, almost tripping over his own feet.

Please let it be a letter from Ludwig, please please please is all he thinks when he quickly opens the envelope.

Feliciano,

Did you miss me? I know I missed you a lot. I survived this war and I want to see you.

Since I'm not fit enough to travel, I hope you will come visit me in Germany. Of course not right now, you should help your grandfather and your brother around the house and celebrate your freedom with them. In a few months we will be able to touch each other again so be patient. Atleast you know I'm doing fine and I'm looking forward to your letter.

Much love,

Ludwig Beilschmidt

He doesn't want to wait, he wants to see him right now but he waited ten months so he can wait a few months longer. Like Ludwig said, atleast he knows Ludwig's ok so he doesn't have to worry about him anymore. In a few months he will go to Germany and he will see Ludwig again...

~fin

Woh I've been crying while writing this last chapter. I always feel a bit sad when ending such a long multichaptered fic and there's thunder and lightning to fit my mood ; stupid Dutch weather. Jeesh I have to close my window and it looks like my whole town is going to drown. (Just forget about my rambling)

I've had so much fun writing this and reading all of your reviews. You guys are really awesome! Please don't leave me just yet, because I'm going to write a new WW2 fic and you don't want to miss it, I promise! It will be a GerIta one, but there's just one more thing I have to figure out.. should it be just Italy or fem!italy? Please tell me what you think, I'm not going to tell you anything more about it, just read it in a few days hehe. Oh and please REVIEW!