Hey guys! This story got a little bit more dark then what I had planned, especially in this chapter. Things should get better for our dear characters in the next chapters.

Trigger Warning: Suicide Attempt

Sasuke drove all the way to Ottawa in his sweatpants and his sleep shirt, feeling numb. The trip passed in a heartbeat and Sasuke barely noticed the weird looks he got once inside his publisher's office. People were used to see him in a suit and his loose sweatpants were definitely far from being classy.

As he approached Kakashi's office, he looked at his watch. It was exactly 2 PM. He opened the door as soon as he got to it, not acknowledging Kakashi's secretary.

As usual, Kakashi was waiting for him. Both feet on his desk, he was laying back on his desk chair with his hands crossed behind his head.

"Ah Sasuke, so sweet of you to reward me with your presence!" Kakashi said as a welcome.

Sasuke didn't deign to answer. He just opened his laptop, typed in the password, and gave it to Kakashi, still opened on his draft and first chapters. He placed himself near the window in Kakashi's office and waited, looking over the town.

Kakashi frowned looking at Sasuke's back. This was a weird comportment, even for him. Sure, Kakashi always thought that Sasuke was the unusual type but he had never seen him like this. The other man appeared to be completely out of it. If Kakashi had not know Sasuke better he might have thought that he was ridiculously high.

He sighed silently and started reading Sasuke's work. He'd try to talk to him when he was done.

It took Kakashi a little bit over an hour to read over everything and to leave some notes in the margins. He then took a USB key out of his drawer and transfer the work on it.

"This is a good start." Kakashi said, closing the laptop and standing up to give it to Sasuke.

Sasuke had still not move from his spot by the window and he only looked back when Kakashi slightly touched his shoulder.

"I left some notes, as usual but all in all this is really good. I feel confident about this one." Kakashi said, handing the laptop back to Sasuke.

Sasuke took the laptop and Kakashi was not sure of how to approach him with his next question. They never spoke of personal things when they saw each other and Kakashi was pretty sure that Sasuke would not want to talk about his feeling with him.

"I need to ask you a serious question." Kakashi asked, putting his hands in his pocket. The only acknowledgement he got from Sasuke was a frown.

"Are you okay?"

Sasuke just rolled his eyes and left the office as silently as he had come in, leaving Kakashi alone, and a little worried. "At least I tried," Kakashi thought to himself. He would give Itachi a call later to feel better about it.

Sasuke's mind had been blank since he'd left his house at noon, but as he hitted the highway on his way back home, his mind swarmed with thoughts.

Itachi had cancer. His brother had cancer. The only family he had left was going to die. He had not stayed around to hear more about it, but he was pretty sure it was the case. If Itachi's cancer wouldn't have been lethal, he probably would have dealt with it in private and only told Sasuke about it once he was in remission. Sasuke was sure of this because he would have done the same.

He didn't know what he would do without his brother. They weren't the closest, mostly because Sasuke had never allowed himself to be really close to his brother after their parents death, but there was all those little things that would make it impossible for Sasuke to be happy without Itachi. Hell, he wasn't even happy when Itachi was around, how worse could it gets? A lot, probably.

Sasuke hadn't been happy since he was 18. His parents had died and he had not been able to cope with it. But Itachi had been. He had stayed strong, even in the face of death. Even in the face of his hating and suffering little brother.

Sasuke had not hated Itachi in particular, he pretty much hated everything at this point in his life. He hated life itself mostly, and he had reacted like a petty child. He had ignored Itachi, had accused him of thing that weren't his fault, and had threw some of the worst insults at him.

Itachi had reacted to all of that with little smiles and nice gestures, never giving up on Sasuke. Never giving up on trying to make him feel better even if he was not feeling that well himself.

It had been hard for both of them for a long time but thing had gotten better. Not good, but better. Well until now. Now it had gotten way worse. Worse than when their parents had died.

What was Sasuke supposed to do now? Wait and just watch Itachi died? Sasuke didn't thought he would be able to watch as his only person left deteriorated slowly and faded away.

If Sasuke had to talk about it later, he would probably referred to this as an impulse but to be honest this was a calculated act. He violently jerked the steering wheel, sending the car straight towards the trees.

If someone was going to watch the other die, it would not be him. "Rather it be Itachi," Sasuke thought as he lost consciousness.

Itachi was lying in his bed when he got the call. At first he just could not believe his ears but then it hit him. He hung up his phone and quickly ran to his car.

Sasuke had been in a car accident.

The memories of when he last had this type of conversation were heavy but he needed to push them back for now and go see if Sasuke was okay. The nurse calling him had barely had the time to tell him where his brother was. He acted too impulsively to know if he was alright. Not a good move.

He was lucky not to meet any cops on the way there because the usual 15 minutes drive to Kingston General Hospital only took him 5 minutes. He had ran several red lights and his stops had been of the nonexistent kind.

Once he's park near the hospital, he took a deep breath. He was not going to go in there in a panic. It would be useless and would probably freaked out the other patient. Also the nurses would hate him.

Once inside, he walked quickly to the reception desk. The lady behind the desk smiled to him as she saw him approached. She was often here when he came to consult his doctor and they always greeted each other.

"Hi, Mr Uchiha! How may I help you today?" She asked.

"I got a call, my brother was in a car accident. Can I have the room number?"

Her face saddened. "Oh, of course. Name?"

"Sasuke Uchiha."

She quickly looked in her computer and frowned. "It says here that no visitors are allowed. I'll page Dr. Senju, she's in charge of his case."

Itachi repeatedly drummed his fingers on the desk while he waited. The fact that he could not see him was probably not a good sign. He could be in surgery, but if that was the case the doctor in charge would definitely not have time to come converse with him about that.

A few minutes later, a middle aged woman wearing a white coat came walking towards them.

"Hi, I'm Dr. Tsunade Senju. You must be Sasuke Uchiha's brother." She quickly introduced herself, extending her hand to him.

"Itachi Uchiha." He said, taking her hand.

"Great. Walk with me."

Itachi frowned but followed her as she turned around and started walking towards the elevators.

"First and foremost, your brother is physically fine. He only has a split lips and some bruises on his chest because of the seat belt."

"If he's fine why can't I see him?" Itachi asked as they waited for the elevator.

"I was getting to that." She said giving him a pointed look. "He is physically fine. I'm not so sure about his mind. You'll be able to see him, that's exactly where I'm taking you right now. However, I could not let you walk straight into his room without talking to you a little first, that's why I added the 'no visitors' to his file."

Itachi waited for more but the woman did not say anything else. She still didn't say a work when they got on the elevator. She only started talking again when they stopped in front of a room.

"Look inside." She said. Itachi looked through the window and he could see his brother lying in his bed, a TV remote in hand.

"This is a man who got fucking lucky and does not give a fuck about it." Tsunade said. Itachi frowned at her in response.

"There's an investigation going on about what caused the accident. It's not going to take long because all witnesses are saying that there was nothing on the road when the accident occurred. We're in the middle of the summer and it hasn't rain in days, thus the ground wasn't slippery."

"What are you saying exactly?"

"Your brother voluntarily wrapped his car around a tree Itachi."

"Mr. Uchiha." Itachi corrected her. He was not comfortable hearing her calling him by his first name while she was saying that his brother had seemingly tried to kill himself today.

"Alright, Mr. Uchiha. You have an hour to talk to your brother, then we're bringing him upstair in the psych ward. He'll be on suicide watch for 72 hours and our psychologist will decide if he should be released after that."

Itachi was shock. He wanted to say something but before he could she opened the door and slightly pushed him outside before leaving.

Sasuke did not even look to see who had enter the hospital room. He just kept changing channel as Itachi watched him. After a couple of minutes, Itachi could not take the silence anymore.

"Why?" He asked.

Sasuke answer with a question of his own, still looking at the TV. "How long?"

"What?"

Sasuke threw the remote at the wall and looked at him furiously. "How long have you know?"

"For about a month." Itachi whispered as he came to sit in the chair near Sasuke's bed.

"For a month?" Sasuke's voice cracked on the last word. "And you didn't thought about telling me sooner?"

"I-" Itachi started.

Sasuke interrupted him. "Well I'll tell you why if you really wanna know."

Itachi looked at him attentively.

"Because I'm a selfish bastard, that's why. Now get the fuck out of this room." Sasuke said aggressively.

Itachi did not move from his chair. "GET THE FUCK OUT!" Sasuke screamed.

Itachi still hesitated but he finally stood up and started walking towards the door. When he was about to open it, Sasuke talked again. "Wait," he whispered. "Come back."

Itachi turned back to Sasuke and brought the chair closer to the bed. "Tell me." Sasuke said.

Thus Itachi talked. He told Sasuke everything about his illness, about the trials to cure him that could kill him, and about the fact that he's been seeing a therapist since to help him deal with it.

Sasuke stared at the ceiling the whole time, sometimes nodding his head in acknowledgement to Itachi's words. When Itachi was finally done, Sasuke talked.

"I think I should see a therapist too."

Itachi got out of Sasuke's room when his hour was done and stepped inside the nearest janitor's closet. He composed Naruto's phone number with difficulty as his hands are shaking uncontrollably.

"Dr. Uzumaki's office, Konohamaru speaking, how may I help you?"

"Hi, this is Itachi Uchiha. I need to talk to Dr. Uzumaki." Itachi said in the phone.

"I'm sorry but he his with a patient. He'll call you as soon as he's done."

"You don't understand, I really, really, need to talk to Naruto." Itachi said, his breathing becoming really fast.

Konohamaru might not be as good as his adoptive brother to read people, but he had seen enough panic attack to recognize one, even on the phone.

"I'll go fetch him."

Itachi sighed in relieve when he heard Naruto's voice on the other side. He tried to talk as Naruto asked what's happening but he could not control his breathing.

"Can you tell me where you are Itachi? I'll come to you."

"Kingston General Hospital." Itachi answered. Then, for the first time in a really long time, Itachi started crying.