Kyon sulks after what happened with Haruhi after school
But ends up inadvertently hurting someone close to him
Kyon lay on his bed quietly his eyes staring into oblivion. He hadn't moved from this spot in days. He had just stayed shut up in his room for the first week of Christmas break.
The rest of his school would be having Christmas parties, buying Christmas cake, singing carols and working part time jobs. The usual stuff that went down during this time of year.
But he was just lying here in his own misery. He didn't have the energy or will the will to do anything else. He was emotionally numb and he wanted to keep hiding for as long as possible. Until he couldn't feel anything anymore.
He hadn't eaten, he hadn't slept, he hadn't bathed, he hadn't done anything. The fact that he had hurt Itsuki was eating away at him. To know that the Esper prince who always smiled at everything; had made such an upset expression worried him. Because Itsuki hardly ever got upset at anything.
Every time he closed his eyes he kept seeing Itsuki. That same face with the pained look as he left. A look of total heartbreak spread across his face hidden by a charming smile.
No doubt he would be at home suffering in his own internal pain or trying to distract himself with work. Maybe telling his bosses about Haruhi's attempt to become closer at him.
He had made the boy he liked cry; he had hurt him so badly and he felt awful for it. He never meant to hurt anyone; but nobody could predict what Haruhi would do. She always had been hard to read.
Haruhi had always been spontaneous and went with the flow; but what she had done that day had come out of nowhere. It had even thrown Kyon for a loop. Seeing her act somewhat like a girl compared to her bossy and manipulative nature was new to him.
I mean she had been rough but no more than usual in his mind. He was more than used to her treating him like a servant and a pet; talking down to her and constantly giving him orders.
But to see her face flushed and anxious; at a loss for words and trying to say something serious. Now that had been a side of Haruhi he had never seen before. If anyone had asked he wouldn't have thought they were the same girl.
Haruhi trying to confess to him had hurt Itsuki; he had been hurt by the fact that God was trying to take away the boy he liked. Anyone who had feelings for someone else; to see the person they liked being flirted with by someone else. Now that would be enough to make anyone upset.
Kyon gripped his fists tightly and curled up; he wasn't gay by any stretch of the imagination. When it came to Itsuki it wasn't so much his gender he cared about but his personality.
Itsuki had always been odd and tended to come across as very forward; flirtatious even. However, he was charming, mischievous and intelligent; his unpredictability being his best trait.
The smooth talking, princely looking Esper had seduced him without meaning to and stolen Kyon's heart. But now he had probably broken the latter's with the possibility of dating God.
He growled crossly upon remembering and clenched his fists so hard the nails dug into his palms. It stung but he ignored it compared to the war that was going on inside his heart.
He had made Itsuki cry, he had allowed him to overhear Haruhi's attempted confession. He had rejected her mind you but because Itsuki left he could have quite possibly believed so.
"Damn it; why did this have to happen? Haruhi is always ruining my life" Kyon muttered bitterly. She just showed up out of nowhere and demanded things from people. Made them bend to her will and do whatever the hell she wanted.
She cared little about the feelings of other and what they wanted; how many times had he been pulled into her antics. Because of this she had hurt Itsuki and Kyon without realizing she had.
The bedroom door opened suddenly snapping his train of thought; his sister entered again. She was really worried about her big brother; she hadn't seen him in at least a week.
Whenever she spoke to him or asked him something he didn't respond. He just stayed in his room quietly and ignored her as if she didn't exist. He had just laid there in bed not eating, not sleeping, not talking, not doing anything. She was really worried about him.
"Kyon" she said hesitantly. She knew he liked to be left alone to peace and quiet but she was really worried about him. He hadn't eaten in a week meaning he might have lost weight. If he didn't eat he could die and she didn't want that.
She didn't know what was wrong but he had lied when he said he was ok. He wasn't acting like he normally would and it was scaring her. Was he sick? Had something bad happened? What about mummy and daddy were they ok? What wasn't he telling her?
Kyon didn't respond; he just kept laying there and blanked out what she said. He was barely even aware someone else was in the room with him. His mind was blank bar the feelings he had about Itsuki.
She stiffened and entered the room; she was gripping melon pan in her hand. They hadn't been shopping in a while so all they had were snacks. She didn't know how to cook but she helped out mama or Kyon when they were making dinner.
She wanted him to eat something but she didn't know how to make meals. She had always been told she was too young to use the cooker but when she started middle school she could take lessons.
She had searched through the cupboards before she eventually found something he may like. The last melon pan she had been saving for herself sitting in the back of the cupboard.
But there was sugar on it and sugar gave you energy. Maybe if Kyon ate this he might feel better and not stay in his room all day. "Kyon?" she asked again this time her voice braver.
She wanted to help him but she didn't know how. She didn't know what to say to make him happy. She was trying her best but it seemed that grown ups really did know best.
Kyon shifted but didn't reply; he didn't want to. He didn't have the energy to; he could barely even hear her speaking. Tears then began to well up in her eyes; had she done something wrong? Had she made him feel bad somehow?
She then gripped the melon pan tightly making it crunch and bowed her head. She didn't know what to do to make this better. "Kyon…. I…. I didn't mean to…. I'm sorry…please don't hate me" she sniffed quietly.
She would be a good girl from now on, she would behave better. She would help with the dishes, she would help clean the house, she wouldn't pester him anymore and she would go around to her friend's house more often.
As long as he didn't hate her anymore; she would do anything he wanted as long as he didn't hate her. She couldn't bare the thought of her big brother not liking her anymore.
Kyon's eyes snapped open and he heard someone crying. It was a girl; someone small. He began to gather his thought and came back to reality. Upon coming out of his daze he began to feel dizzy, hazy and weak. His stomach gurgled reminding him he hadn't eaten.
He felt weak and tired; lacking in energy but back to himself. How long had he been lying here? He had been so lost to his own thoughts. He turned around weakly to see his sister standing near his bed holding a snack and sobbing.
Had something happened? "Ai…." He said quietly his tone gentle. Had she hurt herself? Was she not feeling well? What had happened? He didn't really recall anything since their last conversation.
She perked up and rushed towards his bedside still crying "I'm sorry kyon! I'm sorry! Please don't be mad at me anymore!" she wept. Somehow she had messed up and done something wrong she just knew it.
Kyon stared at her in confusion; why would she be mad at him? He hadn't spoken to her in a week. He had barely even conversed with her. Then it hit him; his sister was still a kid thus misunderstood things very easily. Him sulking and hurting over Itsuki had affected her.
Because he had been sulking alone and not spoken to her she had somehow felt it to be her fault. Knowing this only made him feel worse about what he had done. He was supposed to be someone she could look up to at her age; not make her cry.
He sat up wearily and smiled at her "I'm not mad at you; I never could be. Big bro's just upset about something again. I'm sorry for being a jerk" he apologized softly. He had been a bad big brother.
She hiccuped and looked up at him with big eyes; one day she would be breaking hearts. Her baby face and big brown eyes would win any man over. But until then she was going to enjoy her childhood and would be dating no boys.
"You promise" she said tearfully her voice hopeful. She was glad he wasn't mad at her that really made her feel worried. Without their parents to consult about this she was all alone.
He smiled and nodded "I promise" he said kindly. Yet again he had made her cry without meaning to; which he felt bad for. The last time it had been over a week ago when he got home from school; now it was by ignoring her.
She wiped her tears away and smiled; she then handed him the melon pan proudly. If he ate this he might feel better. She knew it wasn't much but it was all they had left in the cupboard.
Kyon blinked and took the melon pan gently; they were her favourite yet she was giving it to him. She was that worried she was even giving him her favourite snack.
"You'll feel better now" she said kindly. Everyone got cranky when they were hungry; he was like a big kid. So if he ate this he would feel better and stop being upset right?
Kyon smiled and took it from her quietly; Ai had no idea of how to cook and she would most likely be getting hungry. If he recalled they had some ingredients to make curry.
"You want to share?" he said thoughtfully. This way she would have some energy while he got to make dinner. She blinked and then nodded; he patted the side of the bed gesturing her to come sit with him to which she obediently listened to him.
The two sat on the bed quietly to which he broke the melon pan causing sugar to explode in the packet. He then opened it and handed her the bigger piece of pan to eat. They then ate their snacks quietly and a gentle hum escaped his lips as the first piece of food in days entered his mouth.
"You feel better now?" she asked curiously taking a big bite of her own piece. That noise sounded like he was really enjoying the snack. Was he really that hungry?
Kyon smiled and ruffled her head affectionately. His sister truly was a sweet girl and he hoped she stayed this innocent a while longer before she grew up. "Yeah I feel much better" he said gratefully. Though it was only a small gesture it had meant a lot to him.
His sister smiled sweetly and hummed closing her eyes "I'm glad" she said happily. Kyon wasn't the same when he was feeling down and unhappy. She liked him better when he was in a happier mood.
Kyon looked at her with concern; she wouldn't be able to be left on her own for a while. She would most certainly have doubts that he was still ok. At her age girls were full of uncertainties and concerns.
"You wanna sleep with big bro tonight? Just to keep an eye on me?" he asked affectionately. It may ease some of her worries after all. Besides they didn't really spend much quality time together after all.
She perked up a little upon hearing this "Like a sleepover?" she asked eagerly. She had been to one in ages but if it meant she could spend time with Kyon she would be happy.
Kyon nodded smiling in slight amusement at her reaction "Mm hmm". After the way he had been ignoring her and making her worry; she deserved to be a little spoiled.
She then nodded eagerly and and her eyes lit up like stars "Yaay; thanks, Kyon you're the best" she said happily. She would have to find her teddy to snuggle with as Kyon may not want to.
Kyon smiled but his eyes became sad; his sister had cheered up but he was still sad. He was worried about Itsuki and what this would mean for the future. How would Haruhi's feelings effect the future?
He couldn't help the way he felt and he loved Itsuki; but would he be able to see him again? Or would he be forgotten because of Haruhi? Surely she would understand right?
He could only pray during Christmas he could bump into Itsuki again and say how he felt; to get these feelings off his chest. Otherwise he wouldn't know what he would do.