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Kyon sat quietly by the table, absentmindedly holding his cup while he allowed his mind to wonder. His thoughts spiraling out of control like a storm, if they were visible it would look like a dark cloud forming behind sound of the tv in the background, breaking the silence in the room. Some random show turned on for background noise.
They hadn't spoken much on the way home, as the whole thing had been emotional, and tension had been heavy. Not really knowing what to say to each other or how to explain everything that had happened between them. He hadn't expected to see Itsuki until next year and be able to explain what happened. The tension and guilt all but eating away at him.
Feeling as though he had committed a crime or betrayed him in some way, even though he had actually done nothing of the sort to him. He had simply been confronted by god and asked if he was in a relationship with anyone. Which at the time he had not but now he was indeed in a relationship with his classmate and club member Itsuki.
Something he wished he had done a long time ago, that he did in fact care about him. He felt bad for everything, even though he hadn't actually done anything wrong. He had seen it in his face as he had left. The heartbreak of knowing that Haruhi was interested in him romantically. He understood he would be upset and angry, there had been chemistry between them for a while.
But Haruhi being god there were places he could not interfere out of fear of what Haruhi would do. She was capable of manipulating reality into what she wanted, more often that not effecting Kyon. He could only what she would do once Kyon gave his answer and rejected her confession. Her abilities knew no limit after all, she could end the world for all he knew.
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned like the saying went. And Haruhi was already stubborn and hot headed, so god knows what she would do when she was rejected. Maybe tear apart the world, accidentally summon monsters to wreck havoc or maybe wish he would die. Sending Asakura after him in order to do as Haruhi wished.
The endless possibilities of what she would do to him knew no bound. She was unaware of her powers and what she was actually capable of, which made her even more dangerous. He hoped she never actually understood what she was capable of and how to control them, she would become some form of malevolent dictator.
But he didn't feel that way about her, sure he had grown accustomed to her. But he saw her more as an annoying friend or little sister, nothing romantic towards her whatsoever. She may have been able to control reality and dimensions, but she couldn't control him or his heart. He was free to do whatever he wanted, and she couldn't stop him from doing so.
He sighed under his breath as he gazed at the other boy beside him. A happiness he hadn't felt in a long time flowing through him, he couldn't remember the last time he had felt so relaxed. Though he didn't mind spending time with Yuki or Mikuru, Yuki was often absorbed with books and didn't make a good conversation companion. And Mikuru made little to no sense when speaking.
Itsuki was sat opposite him shyly, sipping his tea and occasionally eating his slice of cake. Not knowing what to say, after all it had been some time since he had spoken to Kyon. They hadn't spoken since that day when Haruhi pulled him out into the hall and attempt to confess. But he just couldn't stand to be nearby, to hear her confessing to the person he liked.
Though he had been on his mind a lot after what happened, he had kept his distance to allow him and Haruhi to develop a relationship. Understanding that it was best to back off despite his feelings for Kyon. Their relationship was considered taboo by human law, but it was slowly becoming accepted. However, there would still be many out there who would judge them. He couldn't bring himself to put Kyon through that.
It had hurt him greatly to do, hating that he had to give something up in order to appease god. But he knew if he didn't, that the outcome of the situation would be because of him. Not once had Kyon left his mind and he had thought of him all this time. Seeing him again had allowed him to confirm just how important to him Kyon actually was. Causing him to fear he would never get over him.
Though, he had never seen things going this way. To see Kyon again and realize that he was obtainable. Though he knew Haruhi would not be happy about it, they could worry about that later. For now, he wanted to make up for the lost time they had been apart from one another. Allowing him to look upon Kyon's face again, to gaze into those eyes and enjoy his company.
Kyon had felt guilty for leaving things the way they had been when they left school for Christmas. He thanked his luck that he was able to run into him and explain everything that had been on his mind. The two of them coming to terms with their feelings for each other. Aware of the fact that this would cause troubles in the SOS brigade and how they would have to keep it a secret.
He had invited him round after what had happened. Wanting to make up for causing Itsuki so much trouble and hurting him the way he did. I mean, he must have been sulking about it for some time. The guy may have worn a happy face and acted calm around others. But no doubt he would be hiding a storm of emotions inside of his heart. I mean aside from his powers the guy was still human.
Itsuki overheard everything that Haruhi had said that day, the expression he had worn when leaving. It had been obvious to see that he was heartbroken over what had happened that day. Though he acted like the nice guy and helpful, Itsuki wore a mask to hide his real feelings. Making sure nobody could ever read him. Due to being an Esper, he had to keep his personal life and work life separate.
Itsuki was the type of guy who would never show his real feelings to anyone, no matter what. Hiding it constantly with a sad smile despite the pain that would be lingering in his heart. Only those who were closest to him or could read him well, could see the real emotions in his eyes. Despite the expression he would be wearing on his face, Kyon being one of those few people.
His younger sister sat in the background quietly, eating her own cake while watching cartoons. This would keep her appeased until bedtime at least, giving them some peace and quiet to talk. She would occasionally look over at them or ask things from her brother, but she was a good girl and knew when to not disturb. However, that didn't stop her from worrying over her brother.
Eventually Itsuki broke the silence, easing the tension from the air. Wanting to speak up to create some form of conversation. As he himself was growing uncomfortable with the silence. He could sense that Kyon was worried about him and though he was trying hard to remain mature. He could feel himself becoming insecure and worrying over what the latter could be thinking about.
Instead of allowing him to worry over unnecessary things, it was best to break the silence. Allowing them to ease into comfort before any misunderstandings were to take place. "Y… Your uh home is very lovely, and your sister is quite cute" he replied awkwardly. This was the most common used form of social topic wasn't it? Usually speaking about a person's home or family member.
He wasn't used to socializing outside of the club or being an esper, so this was an alien experience to him. That being said he had been avoiding Kyon for some time after what had happened with Haruhi. He knew it had been a childish thing to do, but he felt he couldn't compete with god. So, he had backed down and decided to let her have what she wanted, despite how much it had hurt to do so.
Kyon blushed a frown on his face, he didn't need to sugar coat it to make him feel better. His home was an average house but well cared for, he didn't need to try and be polite about it. They could just act the way they always did, but accept that what had had happened between them did happen. Moving past it maturely and accepting their new relationship and the consequences it would bring.
"Its not much, your place and Yuki's is way better than this" he replied awkwardly. His parents had overseas jobs with companies, but they could afford a nice place like this after all. However, it was his home and he had been raised here. So though it was nothing fancy, he found comfort returning here after a long day and finding sanctuary in his room.
Itsuki smiled, this was what he had missed the most. Kyon's awkward, stuttering blushing face. How whenever he was complimented or shown kindness he immediately got embarrassed. This would be why Haruhi would take an interest in him, because he stood up to her. He didn't kiss her ass and he had an attitude when pushed enough. It was just a very rare thing to see.
This was what caused him to tease Kyon so much, he just loved to see this reaction. His usual calm demeanor crack and become a flustered mess that could barely get out a sentence. Kyon usually acted docile, quiet, indifferent and yet opinionated. Get him flustered or panicked enough, you had a completely different guy in front of you. Which was always interesting to watch.
Itsuki then reached out his hand slowly to take Kyon's hand in his own. Though they were now inside, his hands were still cold from the snow. The tea not really warming him fast enough. He sought warmth, comfort and the person who made him feel that was Kyon. So of course, he would seek what he wanted from the person he cared for. I mean, they were in private now, so nobody would see.
His younger sister would pay no attention and was off in her own little world. He doubted she would mind very much anyway, she appeared to be a very open minded young girl for her age. Right now all she cared about was her crayons, her sweets and whatever was on the TV, she would be happy with those for hours. So they could have their peace.
Kyon's hands were so soft, such slender fingers and well cared for. Stroking them absentmindedly before pulling it close to his face making Kyon blush harder. Pleased that he was able to get such a reaction out of the other male, as he was so interesting to watch. He then began to blow on Kyon's hands attempting to warm them.
Though it would take time to make up for hurting Kyon by ignoring him, he could start with this. Showing him the affection he had craved from him for so long but was never able to obtain. He knew that by being with Kyon he would upset Haruhi and cause problems as she was god. But he didn't care, he would happily let her have her meltdown, but he would not give up Kyon.
Kyon panicked, when he was comfortable enough Itsuki could be a very flirtatious individual without even trying. He was just a natural charmer allowing people to easily trust him and gain information he needed. Though he was popular with girls, Itsuki said he couldn't have a relationship with them. Saying how an outsider could never know about his true identity as an esper, or it would cause problems.
He could have dated Mikuru or even Yuki as they knew about Haruhi's true nature. I mean he and Mikuru did look good together but Yuki tended to act neutral about any form of relationship that came her way. But then again, he was on friendly terms with them, but neither were interested in a relationship. So, he did feel somewhat grateful that Itsuki liked him back.
However, though their relationship had now changed to an intimate one they had only been dating an hour. He wasn't used to this sort of familiar gesture or physical contact yet. He did have strong feelings for Itsuki, but he had never been the most popular guy. But that didn't mean he didn't care, he was just the type of guy who tended to keep his feelings to himself.
Sensing Kyo's shyness and hesitance, Itsuki couldn't help but want to tease him more. He just looked so cute right now that he couldn't help but get a rise out of him. Itsuki flashed him one of his signature sweet smiles that made Kyon go weak in the knees. "Can you warm me up?" he asked playfully. This way they would generate heat faster.
He was only doing what came naturally in this sort of situation, nothing more. The two of them had been out in the cold for a long time, their bodies losing heat due to the lower temperatures. So of course, they would need to heat their bodies before they got too cold. Otherwise they would get sick. Nothing serious of course, but a fever or cold may come from it.
Kyon blushed at the implied reference Itsuki just made, he could say anything, and it would immediately sound dirty. He just had that type of personality that screamed tease. Knowing just how to wind him up. It had become a habit of his to do so ever since he joined the damn club. Always picking on him the most, it was like the club was less about research and more about annoy Kyon day.
However, he never expected Itsuki to be the type of guy to be so forward in a relationship. He just sounded so casual and gentlemanly when they were at school, the type of guy girls dreamed about. But behind closed doors he was able to charm the pants off anyone, both figuratively and literally. Able to make anyone fall in love with him at first sight, though with Kyon it took more work.
Itsuki blinked as he saw Kyon's embarrassed face, he certainly was easy to mess with today. But he was simply asking for Kyon's hand in order to warm up a little due to being out in the cold for so long. He knew Kyon could take care of himself, but he felt bad for all he had put him through. So he was repaying him for his kindness, as well as taking the next step as their new role as lovers.
He stared at the other male silently, sensing he was embarrassed about something. Though he didn't seem uncomfortable with his physical contact so what could be wrong. He had not done anything to make him uncomfortable or overstep his boundaries, so what could be wrong. He tried to think of every possible option that could be the answer to Kyo's actions.
He then remembered that being a normal male, Kyon was of the teenage mindset. During this time his body would be learning all sorts about the female and in this case male body. He then smirked playfully and rubbed Kyon's hand "pervert" he teased. Turning such an innocent gesture into something of adult content, he really was still a teenager in that sense.
Kyon clicked his teeth, how was he supposed to act when Itsuki was stroking him and giving him those bedroom eyes. He hadn't had many relationships before, so this was all new to him. "Look whose talking" he retorted defiantly. Itsuki was as much as a perv as he was, so this made them equal in that area. So, he was simply calling him out on his bullshit.
Itsuki blinked and them chuckled, he wasn't wrong though. Many times, he had imagined Kyon. Kissing him, hugging him, holding his hand, what his face would be like when they fucked. But that was what someone did when they had a crush, they made you into a pervert. They made you want to do naughty things. That didn't make you a bad guy, just honest.
Kyon simply blushed as Itsuki continued to laugh, feeling as though he was being teased. But he was happy, because they were finally honest with each other. They had been able to confess how they felt. He knew he would have to face Haruhi again at some point, no doubt she would confront him about her confession. But he could worry about that later, he had plenty of time before that.
They had a lot of time to spend together during Christmas to look forward to. As long as he didn't run into Haruhi during that time they would be fine. Unless she wished to see him or something like that. So, until then, he would continue to live in this bliss. Silence and enjoying the quiet of the moment. Just being able to spend time with Itsuki, just like he had always wanted from the beginning.