Torn 13

"I don't like her."

"Who?" Eric asked as he lifted your shirt to check your bandages. You frowned to yourself, as this was the third time he has checked them since he and Mandy dropped you to his apartment. You were dead set on her not being your home nurse but there were no other nurses available at the time.

"Eric I'm fine!" you spat swatting his hands away from your stomach. "That Mandy chick. I don't trust her. I still think she gave me something that was too strong for me and the baby the other day."

Eric sat beside you in the bed and you grimace from pain of the dip in the mattress. He was so massive and heavy and you could really feel it now as your stomach was still extremely sore.

"I think you are being paranoid. You were in severe pain she needed to give you something to help with the pain. If she tries to hurt you in any way you know I will protect you and my child." Eric caressed your face and you felt a little better even though there was still a small feeling of dread when it came to the nurse.

"I'm going to make dinner. You haven't eaten all day." Eric slowly rose from the bed as he caught your grimace earlier when he laid beside you. "Don't go anywhere."

"Where am I going to go?"

"Don't be a smart ass." He snapped giving you one of his signature icy glares. You just shook your head and made yourself more comfortable in his king size.

You must have fallen asleep because Eric who had a tray of food for you woke you up. Sitting the tray down on his nightstand, he helped you sit up in bed. You gawked at all the food he piled on plates.

"Eric I can't eat all that." You stated as you stared at two breast of grilled chicken, a heaping serving of steamed veggies, brown rice and a slice of key lime pie.

"Eat as much as you can. Our baby needs to be strong and healthy."

You smiled softly when he said our baby. Eric quickly grabbed his plate from the kitchen, with another tray sat at the foot of the bed, and ate with you. You both mostly ate in silence and you caught yourself stealing glances at the father of your child. He was so handsome but how are you ever going to deal with him constantly for thirty days. Eric silently watched you eat and berated himself for letting Raven hurt you the way she did. You looked so tired and feeble as you struggled to eat the food he cooked. A knock at the door brought you both out of your thoughts. Eric sighed with frustration as he went to see who it was.

"Hi Y/N! How are you feeling?" Mandy asked in a singsong voice.

You hated the very sound of her voice.

"What do you want!" You found yourself snapping at her.

"I'm here to change your bandages for the night and check on your stitches. It won't take long." She explained as Eric moved the tray from you so Mandy can get to work. "Can you lay back?"

You sulked as you laid back in bed and looked at Mandy as she removed your old bandages, checked your stitching and put on new bandages. You notice she did not even look Eric's way. What was that about? One minute she is fawning over him and the next she acts like he does not exist. Maybe you were having Post Traumatic Stress Disorder after what Raven did to you and saw something that was not there.

"Thank you." You softly told Mandy when she was done. Mandy leaned over and rubbed your shoulder with such a caring look on her face.

"No problem. That is what I am here for. You have the number to the infirmary so call anytime and they will contact me. I will see you in the morning."

"Does everything look ok? Is she healing well?" Eric asked as he walked Mandy to the door.

"Yes she is doing very well. I'm going to have her walk with me a little tomorrow." Mandy dug her business card and a pen out of her medical bag. She wrote a number on the back.

"This is my personal number. YOU call me anytime you need anything and I mean anything Eric. I'm here if you need to talk or need to vent as it can be tough to take care of someone twenty-four seven." Mandy looked Eric up and down as she handed him her card.

"Thank you but I can handle it." Eric shoved the card back to her and she shoved it back to him.

"Just in case." She whispered giving him a sultry smile. Now Eric was not stupid and he knew when a woman was hitting on him. He did not have time for her throwing herself at him as he needed to get back to you.

"Ok." Eric said to appease her and kept her card. As soon as she walked out the door, he tore it in half and threw it in the trash.

"Did you want to finish your food?" Eric asked as he walked back into the bedroom. You shook your head no.

"I lost my appetite."

Eric looked at your tray of food that he sat on his dresser when Mandy arrived and was satisfied with the amount you ate. He decided to put what was left in the fridge and he would eat it later as he hated to waste food. About the time Eric had put up the food and cleaned the dishes he found you asleep again. Eric had wanted to go for a late night run but he did not feel comfortable leaving you alone so he took a shower and then crawled in bed slowly as not to wake you or cause you pain. He put his arm under your shoulders and pulled you to his chest. Snuggled against his chest you let out a long satisfied sigh in your sleep. Eric found his fingers playing in your hair as he listened to your steady breathing. He continued playing in your hair thinking what he was going to do besides take care of you for the next thirty days. Eric was deep in thought when sleep finally arrived.

You were calling Mandy every name in the book in your head as she made you walk a little further down the hall.

"We have to turn around. I can't go any further." You huffed as you were starting to become out of breath.

"You did good." Mandy complimented as you both turned around to head back to Eric's apartment. "We will have to do this every day so you can gather your strength and become more mobile. Just lying in bed all day will not help you heal."

"How is she doing?" You turned around when you heard Four's voice. You smiled when you saw his handsome face.

"Four!" You exclaimed excitedly. Four gently gave you a hug. It had been a few days since you had seen him.

"You look good Y/N. A little tired but good." Four removed a strand of hair from your forehead and let his fingers caress your cheek. He really missed you. Mandy stood to the side and watched the exchange between you and Four. The way Four was looking at you showed that he had feelings for you. How the hell did you a plain Jane girl pull two of the hottest Dauntless leaders. Mandy slightly shook her head in disgust with you. She could not stand you. You were giving Eric his first child and you had Four fawning all over you. Mandy wondered if you fucked Four.

"Lucky bitch." Mandy hissed under her breath.

"Did you say something?" You thought you heard Mandy speak.

"We need to get going. We don't want to do too much in one day." Mandy said with a smile successfully hiding her disgust with you. You gave Four another hug before you shuffled back to Eric's apartment. Eric gave you a key to his apartment just before he left out early that morning. He did not tell you where he was going and you did not ask.

"Now when you feel up to it move around a little. Don't just lie in bed." Mandy told you as she helped you back in bed.

"Ok." You agreed.

After Mandy left you called Jen to see how your best friend was doing as you missed her. Jen said she was gathering up some of your clothes and toiletries for you since you would be staying with Eric.

"Have you taken your prenatal lately?" Jen asked.

"Not in the past couple of days."

"I will bring them over."

"Are you sure you are ok?" Jen asked as you helped her sort out your clothes.

"Yeah. This is good for me." You said as you continued to stand and separate your clothes on Eric's bed.

You smiled to yourself when you heard the front door open.

"What the hell is that shit all over my bed!" Eric snapped when he saw his bed littered with clothes. You looked over at him and stifled a gasp. Eric looked so good walking toward you in a black tank top, jogging pants and a sheen of sweat glistening on his perfect body.

"Did you go for a run?" You asked looking him up and down.

"Clear this crap off my bed." Eric scolds ignoring your question.

"I need a place to put it. I need a drawer and some room in your closet."

Eric did little to hide his hesitation about your things being incorporated into his apartment.

"Fine! I will go back home!" You started to grab your items and stuff them back into the bag Jen had provided.

"You are not going anywhere." Eric grabbed your hand to stop you from filling up your bag.

"I can't just leave my stuff in a bag Eric."

"I will make room."

"I will leave you two to it then." Jen said wanting to remove herself from the situation. You gave your best friend a hug before she left. You looked at Eric as he busied himself around the room hanging your clothes beside his in the closet and making room in the top drawer for your under clothes.

"Thank you." You told him. Without a reply Eric stormed off in the bathroom to take a shower. You shook your head. He was going to be the death of you.

You were getting stronger as the weeks passed and you and Eric had started a routine together. You did at times felt you were walking on eggshells in his home, as he would become easily frustrated with you. You at times were extremely messy and you could hear Eric cursing and mumbling as he picked up after you. You wondered how he was going to ever tolerate your child together. Children were messy and you felt he would have a straight heart attack cleaning up after his child.

"Y/N?" Eric whispered in your ear just as you fell asleep.

"Hmm?" Your eyes fluttered open as you felt Eric's hand between your legs. You moaned as he inserted two fingers in you.

"I need you." He whispered in your ear.

"Eric we can't." It took all your will to pull his hands from between your legs.

"I'll be gentle."

"I can't chance it Eric." You slowly sat up in bed and looked over at him. His eyes were blazing with desire.

Eric muttered a few explicit words under his breath and turned over where his back was facing you.

You knew he was sexually frustrated and you racked your brain to figure out how to please him without setting your recovery back. You were due to get your stitches removed tomorrow and that will allow you to become even more mobile. You would be able to please him tomorrow if the doctor says it was ok and the very thought brought you joy. You missed him, you missed his touch, the way he would fill you up inside, and ravish your body until you could barely walk. You missed that feeling and you so desperately wanted to feel it again before you started to show and Eric's roughness would be too much for the baby. You turned toward him and wrapped your arms around his massive body. Eric grabbed your arm and pulled you closer to him and you both fell into a frustrated sleep.

The next morning you got up to make your man breakfast. You knew it was a poor substitute for what he really wanted but you hope making breakfast would put him in a better mood and hopefully later, after your stitches were out you will have him a great mood. You were almost done with breakfast when Eric walked in.

"What in the fuck!" He barked. Your heart fell as you looked at his kitchen. It was a mess and you had planned on having it cleaned before he woke up.

"I was going to clean it up Eric. I was making you breakfast."

"What are you three? Look at this kitchen. A child would have kept it cleaner than this!" Eric was yelling and you found yourself shrinking back from his anger.

"I was going to clean it." You choked out.

"Get out the kitchen!"

You looked at the food you made and became angry at his reaction after all the time and energy you put forth for him.

"Quit being an asshole! Can't you see I was trying to do something nice for you!"

"Fuck breakfast. You know what I want from you." Eric took two steps and towered over you.

"I told you I can't." You reiterated to him. Eric clenched his teeth together to keep from yelling again.

"Get out the kitchen." He seethed and you were hurt as you walked pass him. He was really angry at you. You went into the bedroom, slammed the door shut and locked it. You needed to get away from him so you decided you will visit Jen at work before your doctor's appointment. You pulled on some lose pants and a shirt when the door knob turned.

"Open this fuckin door!" Eric yelled. You sighed and opened the door.

"Don't you ever lock any door in my house!" he shouted at you. You were becoming use to Eric's moods but today you could not take it and you started to cry. Damn pregnancy hormones. Eric made no move to comfort you and just watch you leave. After you slammed the front door shut, Eric grabbed the lamp off the nightstand and threw it against the wall.

"You are healing nicely." The doctor told you as he clipped and pulled out the stitches. "Use this cream on the area and it will minimize scarring."

"Thanks. When can I be intimate again?" You asked sheepishly. You knew Eric's anger was mostly out of sexual frustration. Could you blame him? It wasn't like you didn't want him, if anything you wanted him more as your hormones ran rapid.

"You can now but take it slow. Don't put too much weight or pressure on your stomach." He told you unfazed by your question.

"Ok. Thank you."

Eric poured himself a hefty size glass of brown liquor and took a big gulp as he sat at the kitchen table after cleaning your mess and the mess he made in the bedroom. He knew he upset you earlier. All you were trying to do was make him breakfast however he could not ignore the pure mess you made in the kitchen and his pent up frustration did not help the situation. He needed a release and one bad before he pushed you away. The soft knock at the door pulled him from his thoughts. Eric gulped the rest of the liquor down and answered the door.

"She's not here. She's getting her stitches out." Eric told Mandy who was standing on the other side of the door.

"Can I come in and talk to you?"

Eric frowned at her. "Talk about what?"

"I see how tense you have been lately. Is Y/N not taking care of you?" Mandy asked as she slinked her way into Eric's apartment.

"You need to mind your own business." Eric snapped as he grabbed her arm to remove her from his home.

"Eric just give me five minutes. No one has to know." Mandy hands began to unbuckle Eric's belt.

"Just let me do all the work. All I need is five minutes." Mandy got on her knees in front of Eric. Eric looked down at Mandy as she released him from his pants. He was already hard. He wanted a release. He needed it and if this nurse wanted to just be a warm mouth to him so be it. As she took him in his mouth all thoughts of you vanished as the primal need for release took over.

You were hesitant to open the door to Eric's place as you thought about the argument from earlier. However, the desire for him won out and you opened the door to find the father of your child leaning up against the kitchen counter with his head back, moaning in ecstasy as Mandy was on her knees deep throating him.

"What the fuck!" You yelled. Anger instantly engulfed you and you went straight for Mandy.