Torn 15

Erudite

Eric rolled over in bed and reached for you. He slowly opened his eyes when he felt the side of the bed cold and bare. Every day since he got to Erudite he found his hands reaching for you on the other side of the bed whenever he woke up. It was a habit he wished he could get rid of but he knew he missed you and he most likely would be reaching for you the whole time he stayed at Erudite.
Eric sighed and got up to prepare for his day at Erudite. He had left Dauntless. He had left you and his unborn child. Eric needed to get his head on straight and he knew he could not do that at Dauntless. Too many distractions. Eric walked to the bathroom, turned on the light and looked at himself in the mirror. Eric was full of pride and he hated to admit when he fucked up or when he was in the wrong but he fucked up royally with you. He wondered if you would ever forgive him for what he did. Would he forgive you if he walked in and you were receiving head from someone? Eric shook his head to dispel the image out of his head before anger could creep up and swallow him. He needed to get to the gym before he officially starts his day. He needed to work out his frustrations. He hoped today would be the day you would not invade his thoughts at every waking moment.
"You need to go back to Dauntless son." Eric's mother told him. At the end of his day Eric always went home to see his mom before heading to his temporary home. His mom, rightfully so, was concern about you and your pregnancy. "You should be there to take care of her. She is carrying my first grandchild."
"I know mom." Eric knew what his mother said was right but he could not bring himself to go back to face you just yet. He knew he hurt you bad and if he did not care about you he would not have thought twice about his actions but he did truly care for you and the feeling was foreign to Eric and it puzzled him. He remembers telling you to give him a chance and that he wanted to be with you and he remembers the terror he felt when Raven stabbed you. So he knew he had feelings for you but when he saw the hurt in your eyes after you found him with Mandy something shifted for Eric and he could not put his finger on the emotion. Until he could figure out what was going on with him he decided to go visit the faction he was born in.

"Tell her I don't want to see her and to not come back again." Eric snapped before closing his door in the young Erudite's face. You had come all the way to Erudite to see him and Eric was not ready to face you. What could he possibly say?
Eric did have someone in leadership at Dauntless to keep an eye on you and report back to him daily of your activities. When it was reported that you were hanging around Four again Eric was furious. He let his anger at you consume him. Now anger was a familiar feeling and it wasn't as foreign to him as his true feelings for you. So he let his anger fester and when Mandy knocked on his door his anger at you was at an all-time high when it was reported that Four spent most of his nights at your place.
"What are you doing here Mandy? How did you find out where I was?"
"Where else would you be. I wanted to see you." Mandy had found out Eric had gone back to Erudite and she decided this was her chance to finally get Eric all to herself. She did at first stay in her old faction for a couple of months before she hunt down the man she so desperately wanted. She wanted to give him space and hopefully a chance to miss her. She was slightly disappointed by his reaction towards her. Eric looked Mandy up and down. She could be a nice distraction for him. She was literally throwing herself at him. Eric stepped to the side to let her in. He wondered if she could handle what he was about to dish out.

She wasn't you but she would have to do Eric thought as he got up from the bed to grab a blanket and pillow.
"You can take the couch." Eric told Mandy as he threw the blanket and pillow at her in the bed. Mandy shuddered as she gazed at Eric's naked body. He was splendid to look at and he was the best she ever had in bed. He was not gentle at all and did not show any affection to her during the act but she found that a turn on and she knew she could wear him down to where he would eventually show affection towards her.
"Do you make Y/N sleep on the couch?"
"You watch your mouth. You will never speak her name again. If you do, I will rip out your tongue!" Eric towered over Mandy and she coiled back.
"Ok…ok!" she said getting up from the bed. She took a deep breath to help her through the pain she felt between her legs and picked up her clothes that were strung on the floor. She walked out of Eric's room naked and as she turned around to say something Eric slammed the door in her face. Mandy shook her head as she put her underwear on. He was going to be a challenge but Mandy knew he would be worth it. So she stayed by his side during the rest of his assignment at Erudite. Her heart sunk when he informed her they would be heading back to Dauntless. She did not want to see you and deal with the competition for his affection. She knew Eric still harbored feelings for you as on more than one occasion he slipped and called her your name. She made the decision she would fight for him. You were not about to have him back. He was hers and hers alone.

"Are you ok?" Four asked you once you were in his home. You numbly shook your head yes. You were feeling so many emotions you felt as if you were drowning in them. You could not believe Eric could still conjure up all these feelings. Four could tell you were upset even though you told him otherwise.
"Here sit down." Four motion for you to sit on the couch. You gladly sat down and rubbed your baby belly.
"Is she kicking?" Four asked as he went to get you a glass of water.
"She's moving around now." You guzzled down the cold glass of water Four handed you. He sat by you on the couch and rubbed your belly. His face lit up in a smile when he felt your baby move around under his touch.
"She is going to be feisty."
"Yes she is."
"I'm going to go into work for a little while. Will you be ok?" Four leaned over and kissed your forehead.
"Yes I will be fine. I think I am going to lay down for a bit."
"Ok. If you need me just give me a call."
"I will. What do you want for dinner?"
"Why don't you surprise me." Four got up from the couch. You were all smiles as you watch him leave the apartment. You quickly changed into your pajamas and crawled into Four's bed. You tried your best not to let Eric seep into your thoughts but it was a lost cause. You closed your eyes tight and waited for sleep to arrive.

Four was getting frustrated as he worked. It seemed he would never get done in time to have dinner with you. He looked at the clock and it was past seven in the evening. He will have to give you a call to tell you he would not be home in time for dinner. Four was about to dial you when there was a sharp knock at his office door.
"Come in." He announced. A frown immediately surfaced on Four's handsome face when he saw Eric walk in his office.
"What the hell do you want?!" Four snapped getting up from his desk.
Eric had an amused look on his face and it pissed Four off.
"Max told me to get with you to divvy up the new initiates that arrived this week." Eric said in a tone that was laced with venom. Four sat back down and watch Eric as he sat across from him. Four pulled up the new initiates file on his computer and looked to see who would be the unlucky ones who would have Eric as their leader. Four was busy typing names for Eric on a new document when he heard a sinister chuckle escape Eric. Four looked up at Eric.
"You could not wait to get back in her pants could you?"
"Not today Eric. I am not in the mood." Four told him hoping to deflect whatever Eric was up too.
"So you like sloppy seconds huh?" Eric laughed louder as if what he said was humorous.
Four jumped up from his desk.
"You watch what you say about her. You are sick Eric. You do not deserve Y/N or her daughter!" Four's face turned a shade of red. Eric knew just how to get under his skin. Four caught the look of surprise on Eric's face when he learned he was having a girl. Eric quickly masked his face and jumped up to challenge Four. Four stepped up to Eric and they stood toe to toe. By the smile displaying on Eric's face he was enjoying every second of pissing Four off.
"That baby girl may share your DNA but she is not yours. You don't have it in you to be a good father and a loving man to Y/N. You will never be in their lives." Four told Eric while trying to hold his anger at bay. Four saw something change in Eric's eyes at what he told him and before Four could react Eric head butted Four causing him to fall back. Eric was on top of Four in a split second pounding him with everything he had.

You had a feeling Four would be working late as you prepared dinner. You decided to pack him up a plate to take to his office. All the offices were dark as everyone had mostly gone home. You stopped when you saw Eric's office light on and his door was open. Where was he? You headed to Four's office and you heard a loud crashing sound through Four's door. You rushed in to find Eric standing over an unconscious Four. The plate you were carrying fell to the floor breaking into pieces, splattering food all over the floor and walls.
"Eric what did you do?!" You shrieked as you pushed past him and fell to your knees to cradle Four. You looked up at Eric with tears in your eyes.
"I hate you! Get out! I hate you!" You screamed at the top of your lungs. Eric just stood in place staring at you. You stood up and faced Eric. He was so big compared to you but you did not let him intimidate you. You looked up into the eyes of the father of your unborn child. You found your fist pounding on his chest as tears spilled down your face. You hated him at that moment. You hated him for hurting Four, you hated him for the pull he had on you, you hated that you still loved him despite everything he did to you. Eric grabbed your wrist and pulled you to him and you went limp in his arms as he wrapped his arms around you. You stood in his tight embraced and cried. Eric let you cry in his arms until you calmed down and your cries became tiny whimpers. You pulled from his embrace as his scent was intoxicating and you felt your desire for him stir up. Looking up at Eric his face was stone cold, showing no emotion. Your attention turned back to Four as you saw him slowly sit up in your peripheral vision. You quickly turned from Eric and knelt down by Four.
"Can you make it to the infirmary?"
Four nodded his head yes. You turned around to Eric to give him a piece of your mind but he was gone.