Existentially Fucked

Final

5:29 PM

The shower hums while Shinji frantically opens the box of six condoms. Alright soooo ripp I think I open this andddd… where's the banana? He looks around and spots it at the bottom of the black plastic bag. Ok sooo, put it on the tip andddd pull it? SNIRR SHIT! I almost ripped it. Well I won't use this one anyway. He tosses it into the trash under the dripping sink with the banana. He decides to put the rest back in the bag and places it under the bed.

…..

Am I supposed to shower too? I think I saw that in a movie once? He puts his shirt to his nose. Sniff. I'm good. He leans on the bed awkwardly and nearly slips off just as the shower head goes off. He hears the sound of Rei shuffling and then a slide of the door.

"Holy shit."

"What?" Rei asks.

"You're not wearing clothes," Shinji mumbles. His eyes are glued to her groin, "You're… really hot." Shinji puts a hand to his forehead and cringes. That was so lame. Rei slightly laughs and reaches for a towel. "Wait wait-oh," Shinji realized she was just drying her hair, "Sorry". Rei leaves the towel around her neck and walks to push Shinji to sit on the bed with one hand. THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING?! Rei sits on top straddling his clothed waist. Shinji's so still she can't even tell if he's breathing at this point.

"Shinji?"

…..

"Shinji?"

"HM? Oh! Uh. Yeah. Sorry. Hah," Shinji shakes his head and starts to undo his shirt. Once it's off he immediately shivers and covers his torso with his arms. Jesus this place is cold.

"You could use me t-to get… warm," Rei stutters. Shinji looks up bewildered. Rei's so red. I've never even heard her stutter before. I need to get myself together. Shinji pulls Rei against him and hears a sound of contentment from her. She's loosely holding her arms around his trapezius muscle.

"Guess you were right Rei, I do feel warmer against you," Shinji whispers. Rei shivers at how close he is to her ear.

"That… feels good when you talk like that."

"Does it?" He says closer to her ear. She makes a mm sound and unwraps the towel from her neck. Shinji takes that as a sign to kiss timidly along the underside of her jaw. Mmmm she says again. He notices how she's slightly pushing down on his shoulders, so he decides to move to her breasts while holding just her waist.

"Nrgh, Shinji," Rei starts to slightly rock on his lap and nip her own lip. GAHHHH SHE'S TOO MUCH FOR ME! I can't TAKE IT! Shinji takes the initiative to flip Rei onto her back, stunning them both. Shinji takes a second to think about everything. I get to be here with her. Someone I can say I love and loves me back. This is… something really special. I'm not worth this. I don't deserve it. That makes Shinji stop, he frowns, I really don't deserve this. His eyes wander all over her body. Look how beautiful she is… what's she even doing with me?

"What's wrong?" Rei queries. She brushes the hair from his face with her tiny finger tips.

"Rei… we shouldn't. I'm not…"

….

"Are you not 'hard' enough?"

"What the? How'd you even hear of that?"

"Touji is loud in class."

"Jeeeez, why am I not surprised," Shinji lays down on top of Rei and wraps his arms around her back. She holds him back. "I'm just unsure Rei… I feel like I don't… deserve this."

"I believe what you deserve is all in your head. You do not 'deserve' anything," she states factually. It wasn't what Shinji wanted to hear.

"So what's the point of any of this. You're just leading me on like everyone else aren't you?" Shinji has not moved from his spot on Rei's chest.

"I am not. I do love you. I have never felt such a way before, and I'm not sure I will again. You may not 'deserve' it, but I am willing to give you everything I possibly could… Shinji."

….

"I love you too Rei, I'm… sorry I doubted you," Shinji says making eye contact with her. She kisses him so softly he could barely feel it. His heart and hers ache at the same moment. "Oh yeah," he interrupts, "I have to put the stuff on."

"Alright."

He hops off the bed now hurrying to break a pack open. RIPP crap I haven't even taken my pants off yet. Shinji glances up to see Rei staring at his body like he's done to her so many times. This is weird… bound to happen I guess. Rustle Clink Rustle. Shinji's pants fall to the floor along with his baggy pinstripe boxers. He stands and shuts his eyes.

"Sorry… not much to se- NYYGH. REI!"

Rei didn't give him a second's notice before taking his penis between her lips. MY BRAIN! I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS! I DIDN'T THINK SHE'D- "NMPPPHHH!" Shinji has to grasp the bed sheets for support. His mouth is so wide that both his fists could fit in it. Rei's holding onto his skinny waist while sucking hard on his head. Shinji's eyes roll into his head when he hears and feels the mmmmmm from the back of her neck travel from his penis to the rest of his body.

"R-Rei-it's too g-good I can't for-long nrgh!"

"Mmm-hmm" she chokes out, not willing to give up yet. He looks down to see her head bobbing up and down. Jesus Christ I'm gonna die. I can't TAKE this!

"Gyngh! Rei stop!"

She stands up immediately and licks the corners of her mouth. His heart is beating so rapidly they can both hear it over his frantic breaths.

"Jeeez Rei!" Shinji collapses onto the bed on his front side, "I can't believe how good you were at that. Howwww?"

"I paid attention to that video we saw at Misato-san's apartment last time."

Shinji cringes at the flashback. That was so embarrassing. But WOW. She… really learns fast.

"Shinji. I don't believe you will fit in me."

….

"So what do I do?"

"...I believe you'll need to use your fingers first."

Shinji jumps up and immediately pulls the sheets back to lay Rei down. He cautiously puts the condom on. Don't break don't break. Got it! He lays down next to Rei and rests on one bent arm using the other to pull up the covers.

"Rei have you e-ever used your f-fingers for that?"

"I've never felt the need. So I do not really know how, but I know where it is."

"R-right. Can you move my hand to it?"

Rei puts on bent leg over his thigh and spreads herself slightly. Shinji outwardly moans when Rei guides his slender wrist over her breasts and stomach to the apex of her thighs. His fingers dip into her folds to find them soaked with thin secretion.

"Grgnnnn!" they moan at the same time. Both of their mouths are slightly open in a mixture of surprise and arousal. Shinji stares at the expressions that pass over her face as he touches around and unintentionally forces his middle finger in her.

"UNGH! Shinji! Nff." Rei clutches his back as her head goes back. The veins in her neck tense and release as she quietly moans on and off while he slowly moves his finger inside her. He finds a spot that's slightly squishier and decides to press on that again and again. "Shinji, mnr, that spot is… mmf good." Shinji nods and tries to kiss her while pressing in the same spot. He starts moving faster and Rei's hips start jerking to the same pace. She starts to breathe so heavily that Shinji can't even kiss her anymore. He pushes in his other finger and starts to hit her as deep as possible. Wow. I'd have never imagined it'd feel this good just to watch her. "Shinji! N-no more right now-I want you to be in me."

"Alright. I'm ready too," Shinji breathlessly replies. He takes his fingers out of her and inspects them. I've never seen stuff like this before. I wonder if… he puts a finger to his mouth and licks. Rei looks at him wide eyed then winces. "No Rei, it's… really good." She lets out a breath and lays back down. He finally gets on top of her after getting his foot caught in the blanket. His elbows are holding him up over her locked tight while she rubs up and down his ribs. They're both too nervous to really say anything so they find comfort in their touches. "Can you lead it in?"

"Yes," Rei takes his covered penis in her hand and places his tip at her opening, "I want this. I really, really want this Shinji."

"Me too Rei, me too."

Shinji forces himself in her. Rei tenses up and makes a loud groan of pain.

"O-ow."

"I'm so sorry Rei," Shinji pauses and kisses the side of her face, "Should I stop?"

"No, just… be slow."

"I will," he whispers. Alright be slow. Be slow. Don't hurt her. His waist pulls back and pushes in a bit too far on his first attempt. She writhes around a bit in discomfort. He starts in then out trying to not let himself fall out of her. Ungh, this is starting to feel really really good. "Rei does it feel good? Are you ok?"

"It-nrr-hurts a little but-mmm-f-feels good too."

Shinji lowers his body onto his forearms and Rei easily wraps her legs and arms around his back. He starts moving a bit faster trying to reach different spots inside of her. Grr-I don't know how long I can hold this. Rei's insides pulsate against the latex over and over making them both grit their teeth. Shinji hides his face in Rei's neck as she continuously scratches his back. He starts to move faster once again and the headboard starts to dff dff dff on the wall. Again he speeds up to make a dfftr dfftr dfftr sound. Rei lets out an Unrgh and Shinji immediately lifts himself from his forearms and puts his forehead to hers. He pauses and they look straight at each other while panting.

"R-Rei… I c-can't for that l-long."

"Can you wait for me?"

"I c-can," Shinji stutters, "Can we go f-faster?"

"Yes."

Shinji beams and kisses Rei soft on the lips. Keeping his arms out and elbows locked as he starts. They both exhale. His hands grab and twists the sheets on either side of her body while he feels all of his back muscles stiffen up. His waist immediately starts to move and dig deeper inside of her. Mrr. Mfrr. He goes faster. Ungh. Fmm-ungh. Her hips start to move with him. Gngh, hmm. Shinji uses one hand to hold himself up on Rei's hipbone as leverage. NRGH! Hah-ng. Rei's fingers dig into his shoulder blade as her head falls back into the pillow. Fuuu-kyah. Shinji goes faster and jerks into her harder. Ungh. Unmmh. Rei and Shinji are both moving their hips so rapidly that their rhythms can hardly match anymore.

"Rei! Nrgh! I c-can-n't!"

"M-Mrghh-e either."

Shinji does what feels right and wraps his arms under Rei's back hugging her to him as he slams them to a finish.

"GYAH! NGGGG!" Shinji cries as he bursts.

"MFFFF! Hmmf!" Rei moans as her insides contract and release again and again with his penis completely emerged in her hymen. Shinji pulls out of Rei and immediately plops on to the jankey bed hitting the wall with a THUNK.

"Are you ok Shinji?" Rei turns her body to him and winces. He rubs his head and frowns.

"More than ok. Are you?"

Rei places a hand an inch below her navel and brings her legs tightly together.

"It seems as though it hurts more than expected." Dammit, I should've been slower.

"I'm sorry I didn't want to make it h-"

Rei stops him with a hard closed-mouth kiss.

"Don't be. I… never thought I'd experience such a thing. Especially with someone I would be in love with."

Rei's cold words bring a contrasting warmth to Shinji's heart. Her lips slightly turn upwards into a delicate smile and Shinji can't help but do the same. He takes her in his arms and whispers IloveyousomuchIloveryousomuchIloveyousomuch until he turns blue in the face.

Two Days Later

11:41 AM in Germany

"Misato-san," Rei uncomfortably shouts, "For what purpose are we visiting the U.N. at this moment?"

Misato dramatically turns around from her seat next to the helicopter pilot and stares at both Rei and Shinji. They're sitting as close as possible to one another in their restrictive seat belts. The doors to the black metallic helicopter are wide open as they slowly come to a landing on top of a German military ship.

"Well dear children, it seems as if there's another lucky pilot who will is willing to fight the good fight!" Misato says with a smirk and an exaggerated thumbs up. The two in the back were not amused.

"Why the hell would they WANT to?!" Shinji yelps wide-eyed. As if on que, the plane lands and they're ushered out the helicopter by German soldiers.

Misato with arms crossed sighs and shakes her head as the three of them stand on the creaky wooden deck of the ship. Rei stands with a straight back and her hands folded in front of her. Shinji wildly looks around feeling flabbergasted by how rude everyone seems to be here. All of a sudden…

"HEY YOU!"

All three of them look up, squinting at the sun, to spot a girl with her legs strongly planted on top of a landing pad.

"YOU ALL BETTER BE READY FOR ME! I'M THE BEST AROUND!"

"Aaaaand with that," Misato laughs, "You've officially met Asuka."

Both Rei and Shinji both look at each other….then back to Misato.

"Our new pilot."

…..

"WHAT?!"

END.