Totally just busted out another chapter for all my reader. Enjoy. Oh and as always leave me a review.

December 3rd

Emma

She had almost done it again. She almost left Henry in the car. Not that it would make it better, but she needed to get use to the idea of being a parent. Not that she didn't love Henry because, she did. It was that she just wasn't a kid's kind of person. She could have probably gone her whole life without changing a kid's diaper. The first time she tackles the massive load that left by her son almost caused her to puke. She just kept telling herself this is 'my kid' before diving knuckles deep into the diaper. Sighing she clumsily entered her house car seat and baby bag in hand.

"Emma your home," Her mother smiled drying her hands, "and you brought my grandson home."

"Yea," her mother rushed over to claim the infant, "I figured Regina needed a break."

"I'm surprised she allowed you to take him." Her mother said unclipping the boy.

"It took some convincing, but here we are." Emma rubbed the back of her neck.

"You got mail by the way," she pointed to the coffee table.

"What is it?" She picked up the letter. The seal belong to a medical office instantly Emma knew it was the DNA results.

"I think it's your DNA test."

"Oh…" Emma tore open the envelope, "Should I read it?"

"I mean that's up to you."

"Well that's not a helpful answer."

"This is the real world, Em. Sometimes there are no helpful answers. You should probably ask yourself why you really want to know the answer. Is it because you're still trying to find a way out or are you trying to enforce something you already know." With that her mother walked away carrying her son to the kitchen.

Regina

"So how is everything with the little man?" Robin asked taking a bite out of his chicken fingers.

"It's tiring." She picked at her salad. "But he is perfect."

"How are things with Emma?"

"They are okay I guess," she shrugged.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing really. She just seems terrified."

"What do you mean?" he took a sip of his coke.

"Like when Henry was first born she was afraid to hold him and today she offered to take him. Yet she seemed reluctant to actually take him."

"She is probably still in shock. She probably has had no real contact with an infant before; let alone one that she gave life too."

"I get that. I just wonder how long this shock will last."

"Other than that how are things between you two?"

"She has been coming over every day and has been trying to be helpful. I guess it also helps that I don't feel like killing her. It's been less than a week though so that might change."

"What makes you say that?"

"It's Emma. She is a runner. She runs when shit gets hard. It's who she is." Robin looked at her sadly. "Anyway how are you? Is anything special happening in your life?" Noticing the change in subject Robin went with it.

"By that you mean someone and no. I have gone on a few dates, but they all end as a one night stand."

"Oh so you have now become a hoe." Regina laughed teasingly.

"Hey!" Robin laughed.

Emma

Emma sat in her room staring at the still unread letter as Henry slept peacefully in his crib. Sighing Emma tossed the letter on to her dresser. Emma pulled out her laptop and pulled up some random opinion sight. She quickly typed in to the message box dilemma.

Eswan: My baby mama and I just had our first child. I asked for a DNA test. I don't think she would lie to me, but at the time I asked for it I wanted to be sure. She had a boyfriend at the time we slept together. The results just got in. I am not sure if I want to know the answer. What should I do?

After pressing enter she waited a minute or two for anyone to answer.

BigD: Fuk ya hoes now a day be tryin to trap niggas

tsks1255: BigD that's so ignorant of you. Not every woman is trying to trap a man. Eswan if you suspect something then you should look.

BigD: I aint ignorant my bro's baby mama claimed to luv him and then left him and now he is paying $700 in child support.

MattyQ1328: Dude u should just lok. Wats the worst that's gonna happen?

Eswan : He isn't mine.

Faguil243: Do you want him to be your son?

Eswan: Idk. I mean I am only going to 19 maybe I am not ready to be a parent.

DD6969: Sweetie if truth be told you should have figured that out before you stuck you penis in it. Now you have to man up and be there for you son. Or maybe you will get lucky and not be the father. If you're not maybe this will teach you to be more careful where you stick it.

BigD: Thats true bro thats y I triple wrap my shit. ;P

'Fuck' Emma thought watching as more people bantered on her post. Sighing she clicked of the screen and opened a new browser to search how to be a new parent. For the next couple of hours until Henry started to fuss for food Emma read and watched everything she could about parenting. Hearing the infant she quickly grabbed her son and headed to the fridge for a bottle.

"I know," she tried to comfort the child, "I suck. You are so hungry and I was slacking on the service." She passed her mother who had been reading a book and retrieved the chilled breast milk from the fridge.

"Emma," Her mother called out stopping her from sticking the cold milk in the child's mouth, "the milk is cold its best to warm it. Here let me show you," She grabbed a bowl of water and popped it into the microwave, "babies take to warm milk better, but you never want to put the milk in the microwave as it hard to regulate the temperature." The microwave dinged and Henry's cries got louder slightly panicking Emma. She placed the bottle into the water to let it warm. "Doing this warms the milk but not too fast." Seeing her daughter's slightly tensed body she continued, "I know it's stressful to hear him cry, but he is okay. He won't die in the two minutes it take to warm the milk." Finally, it seemed like forever, but the milk was ready. Emma popped the bottle into her wailing son's mouth and he instantly quieted.

"Is this your first time feeding him." Emma just nodded praying she didn't mess up.

"Regina usually breast feeds him, but she pumped for me. I didn't know there were instructions when it came to feeding a baby." She watched in fasciation as Henry pulled the milk from his bottle.

"Children don't have instructions it's more of a do it and hope you didn't mess up. It does help to know people who have had kids." She smiled reassuringly at Emma.

"Will you help me?" Emma asked softly knowing her vulnerability was showing.

"You're my child Emma until death parts us I will always help you."

Regina

Regina looked out the front window to see Emma talking to herself then slapped her forehead before returning to the car. She watches as Emma pulled Henry's car seat out then slam the car door. Regina knew Emma was having a hard time and she felt sorry for her. Emma was meant to be a fun person but this situation was forcing her to change. To be something she had trouble with all her life, responsible. Mid-thought Regina heard the knock on her door. Quickly she answered the door knowing it would be Emma and her son.

"Hey," Emma greeted with a fake smile. For a second though Regina was taken back by the intimacy of this simple moment. She quickly imaged what it would have been like if she was with Emma if they had planned the actually having a child together. Shaking her head Regina moved out of the way to allow Emma in.

"I see you both made it back in one piece." Regina jested.

"Actually," Emma's face deadpanned, "Henry got kidnapped by a pixie like woman claiming to be his grandmother. Knowing I couldn't come back empty handed I strapped a delicious ham into his car seat instead." Regina couldn't help but laugh.

"It would be like you to replace my child with a piece of meat." This was the Emma she loved.

"No, not just any piece of meat, but the finest hog the world has ever tasted."

"Shut up." Regina smiled pulling her sleeping son out of the car seat. "Do you want to come up for a minute? I would like to shower before he wakes up looking for food."

"Sure." They both quietly head for Regina's room. Shutting the door behind them Emma took of her jacket and tossed it on a chair. "Here hand him to me and I'll get id p.j.s on while you shower." Silently agreeing Regina handed her son into the arms of her awaiting mother. "How was your day?"

"It was fun. We eat then went to see a movie." Regina answered as she pulled out a warm sleeper for Henry.

"Cool. I'm glad you had a good time. What did you guys see?" Emma sat on the bed with their son sill in their arms.

"They Shape of Water. " Regina proceeded to pull out clothing for herself.

"How was it?" Regina let out a sigh. Not irritation, but in contentment, "If I am bothering you just let me know." Emma voiced her worry.

"You're not." Regina sat next to her, "I liked it. I like how it blended its fairy tale imagery with realism. And just the way it was filmed was beautiful." Regina looked at Emma's clearly interest in her day and found her being drawn in. Realizing this caused her to pull away. "You know," Regina decide to change the subject. "I know that being a new parent is difficult especially for someone who…" she stopped herself from unintentionally insulting Emma. "You are actually doing better than I thought you would and I am proud of you for it. I know there is a lot you still don't know." Emma seemed to be slightly dejected so she placed a caring hand on her arm, "There is a lot I don't know too. Just thank you for being there and trying." Regina stood and started heading for the bathroom.

"I love him." Regina stopped at the door. "From the moment I saw him I knew I loved him. I don't want to fuck up with him like I fuck up everything with everyone else." Regina turned around to look at Emma. "I have been doing a lot of thinking. He is the most important thing in my life right now."

"Emma, I will not say that you won't mess up but as long as you put him before everything else that is all that matters."

"Earlier I realized my parents; they love me no matter how many mistakes I have made and I love them no matter how much they mess up. I want that kind of relationship with Henry." Emma just stared at Henry. It was as if Emma was trying to say something she didn't know how to. "I don't want you to ever think that I am trying to hurt him or not love him, but -"

"Is this you telling me that for the better of him you are leaving us?" Regina's heart clenched at the thought. She knew at some point Emma might bail, but she had hoped it wouldn't ever come to this.

"What! No!" Regina took a deep breath unsuccessfully easing her worry, "I just want you to know that I will probably fuck up but it's not because I don't care. I'm just…me."

"Emma I don't expect you to be perfect I just expect you to give all can give. I will get angry with you and you will get angry with me, but we have to do what's best for Henry, even if it's not best for us." Regina walked over to Emma and again sat next to her. "Maybe instead of talking about wanting to be the best how about we talk about changing things to do our best."

"What do you mean?"

"How about we start with what we expect each other to do as parents." Emma just looked at her still confused. "I'll start. So I want you to put our son first." Emma tried to interrupt. "Let me finish. I mean I want you to think of how whatever choice you make will affect Henry before you do something. I want you to focus 100% on Henry when he is in the same vicinity of you. I want, and this goes without saying, you to never hit our son out of anger or take out your anger out on him. For example if I make you mad about something Henry is not be the victim of your rage. I don't want Henry to see, know, or find a woman who you are not serious serious about in your home or public."

"I would never hit him."

"I know, but I sometimes it things need to so they are clear."

"Okay." Emma put Henry on the bed, "I want to be a part of the decision making when it comes to raising him and you can just veto me it has to be a shared decision. When he gets older and doesn't need you to eat I want him to stay with me on a schedule or something. We can't mouth each other. I read online that stuff can really mess with a kid."

"Wait," Regina Held up her hand, "you read parenting stuff online?"

"Well yea. I don't know what I am doing so yea." Emma shrugged, "Oh and I want out families to share holidays together so he doesn't feel that much different than other family." Regina could help but laugh at Emma's enthusiasm. "What?"

"Nothing, your just…" Regina caught herself. She wanted to say cute. She wanted to tell Emma how amazing she is being at this moment. The fact that this showed her that Emma was trying to be great as a parent made her heart swell. This was the Emma she wanted to love. This was the Emma she wanted a future with. One that was so enthusiastic and willing to have roots. She wanted so badly to tell Emma that she suddenly felt happy to find out what the future held for them. But. She didn't. "Your Enthusiasm is endearing." She settled on, but her radiant smile did nothing to hide her feelings.