Hey guys, yes U know lastnchapter was pretth big for this story,but never fear under dog is here! Alright that was pretty lame. I had to do it thoug. Anyway enjoy let me know what you think. And just a reminder the youtube project chapters will be italicized and be note as season 1 episode whatever: then a title. These chapters jave nothing to do with the story yet but i figured everyone would be curious about what they actually are working on. Alright back to the story.

March 12

Regina

At some point realized she was in complete darkness, but at least she was warm and fuzzy. Then she realized the darkness was just her eyes being closed. She could hear a beeping noise in the background. She was in a hospital bed covered with a blanket. She then heard the silent footsteps of pacing back and forth against the linoleum floor. She tried to think back as to what happened that had led to be in a hospital bed. She remember being at work watching Emma flirt with a girl. She remembered being outside and unable to breathe. She remembered Emma finding her outside. She passed out. At least she thinks she did. Slowly she opened her eyes watching as Emma walked back and forth with a distraught look on her face. Staying quiet she watched the blonde as she focused on her thoughts. Wanting to end the misery Regina tried to speak only having her breath catch for a moment.

"Hey," she rasped out causing Emma to jump.

"Regina," Emma gasped rushing to the side were a chair had been placed by Emma earlier, "Jesus fucking Christ. Are you okay? Howa are you feeling?" Emma grabbed her hand. Regina did a quick assessment of her body finding she had a slight head ache.

"I have a slight head ache but either than that I'm fine." Regina shifted a little to find a more comfortable position, "What happened?"

"You had a massive panic attack then passed out. I almost wasn't able to catch you." Regina groaned. She had never had a panic attack, but she knew she would never forget the experience. "You had me worried."

"I'm sorry." Regina started to tear up. "about everything about the panic attack, about the over reacting at the bar, about Daniel."

"It's okay," Emma squeezed her hand before placing a small kiss on her knuckles.

"No it's not okay." Regina started to sob. "I miss lead you to believe that there was nothing going on when there was. I tried telling myself that we weren't together when we obviously were together. I tried convincing myself that I wasn't cheating on you even though I knew I was and the worst part is I knew I was willingly breaking your heart."

"Stop right now is not the time to do this," She could tell Emma was fighting her agitation.

"Then when is the time for this to happen. You have to go back to Boston soon. Then you will probably doge my text and calls again. You won't come home. Hell once you leave here you probably won't comeback unless it's to see Henry, but then you will just stop coming."

"You don't know that." Emma stood up.

"I do know that. I know that because every time I hurt you close up."

"Regina this is not the place-" Emma tried her hardest to control the situation.

"Why? Why is this not the place?" Regina pressed.

"Because I'm going to explode and a hospital is not the place to do this." She threw her hands up in the air then rubbed her face. "Come with me back to Boston."

"Okay,"

March 14

Emma

"Can we talk tonight or are you going to hide away again." It wasn't snappish more hurt then anything. It was true Emma had been avoiding Regina. They had driven back to Emma's place without too much being said. For the last two days they went into a routine of Emma getting up early going to the academy coming home around dinner time were Regina would have dinner waiting. The first night she came in it surprised her to have the delicious smell of lasagna hit her face. They would eat quietly except Henry who was now figuring out that the messier he at the more delicious his food tasted. Emma would give Henry a bath then out him to sleep. After she would go to her room to 'study' until the morning where she would duck out before Regina woke.

"Yeah," Emma sighed internally she knew they needed to talk, but she really didn't want too. Plopping down on the opposite side of the couch she watched Regina pull her legs into her chest. "So?"

"I don't know where to start." Regina chewed her lip. Emma could not resist the urge to scoot over and kiss Regina. No matter what this woman did Emma would always choose her. Emma had come to terms with this thought while in the hospital with Regina.

"Just start from the beginning." Emma said softly caressing Regina's face. She watched as the other woman melt at her touch.

"I didn't mean to end up dating Daniel. It just happened. We were supposed to be studying, but he asked me out and I said yes. We were never official." Regina sighed. Emma sat back and took what they said in. She had a lot of questions. "We never had sex. He tried, but I could never go that far."

"Has he met our son?"

"No. Again he tried, but I wouldn't do that."

"I just don't know what to think or anything like that."

"I didn't mean for this to happen."

"Which part you getting caught or me finding out?" Emma could keep the irritation out of her voice.

"Is it wrong for me to say both?" Emma Shifted away only to have Regina pull her back, "that day I-we were making out. He wanted more I told him no then he became jealous and insulting. I had been thinking about it long before it that day, but I ended it with him. I wasn't fair to him. Most of all it wasn't fair to you." Regina held her hand, "I wasn't going to tell you, because you would have been upset and I feared all progress we had made would go back to square on. When I got home I was just so happy to be free from him that I was going to tell you I was ready for the next step in our relationship. I didn't know he left a hickey. When you caught it I had no idea what I was going to say. I wanted to deny it, but I knew you would know I was lying." Tears started to build in Regina's eyes. "Then he showed up and everything just fell further apart. I didn't want to hurt you Emma." Emma stood up removing herself from Regina's circle that made her fuzzy.

"Do you know how stupid I feel?"

"I'm Sorry."

"Stop saying that!" Emma suddenly yelled causing them both to jump. For a moment she listened for any sign that Henry had woken up, "You're sorry I get it, but it doesn't change anything. You lied and kept secrets from me, you lead me on believing I was the only one. What hurts the most is that I have been trying to prove myself and now it like it's not worth it any more. Like this whole relationship or not relationship is not worth it."

"Em-"

"No you can't tell me that this is working you and me. I mean I thought it was."

"What are you saying?"

"I don't know anymore," Emma sighed, "it's like we aren't meant to be together no matter how much I want it." Emma sits on the love seat, "and fuck do I want it."

"You do?"

"Don't be stupid Regina." Emma felt her heart clench at the pain her viscous words caused, "you're all I have ever wanted." They sat their silently for a while.

"I know we can't change anything. I know that I am complicated. This whole thing is complicated. But maybe, if it okay with you, we can kind of start over."

"Regina we have started over-"

"A million time already, I know. What's a million and one? I don't mean start of as friends, because we are friends. I mean start over our relationship status. Be exclusive to one another." Emma wanted to protest, "We don't have to if you don't want to."

"It not that I don't want to do this, I just- I just need you to be in this 110% with me."

"I can do that."

"And I don't want you to be with me out of duty or pity, or whatever." Emma can feel Regina stand and moves over next to her. Regina takes Emma's hand into her comfortingly rubbing it.

"For almost a year now I have been fighting not being with you for many reasons. You were too immature, you couldn't keep your eyes or dick of other woman, you kept running, there are so many reasons."

"Regina-"

"Let me finish." She softly places her head on Emma's shoulder, but continued her rubbing of her hand. "You, Emma Swan, are a wanderer unable to sit still, but…maybe it's just that you haven't found that reason too. I have been thinking…a lot. Maybe you are right. Maybe you are meant for greater things you just need that thing to make you sit still and focus."

"I don't understand what you're getting at."

"Fate," Regina chuckled at a perplexed Emma, "I have noticed that you have started to focus on something other than your penis. At first I thought it was Henry. You have just been working so hard on bettering yourself and I chalked the reasoning to being Henry. But something happened Friday after breaking up Daniel and you finding out." She couldn't help the sudden fierce squeeze she had on Regina's hand. "I drove to the forest and it hit me, fate. I had been fighting fate. Fate brought us together. Fate kept shoving you into my life and when I thought I would be clear of you fate got me pregnant."

"I didn't think you were a believer in that kind of stuff."

"I'm not, but how else can I explain this mess of ours. I mean how many women have you had sex with; yet I am the only one that got pregnant?" Emma flinched slightly.

"So you're saying that fate has forced me into your life forever as a cruel joke on you?"

"Or maybe I am the thing that will make you stand still." They turned their heads looking at each other. For a brief moment both understood what Regina had said. Maybe she was right, but neither saying it.

"Wow you think really highly of yourself," Emma chuckled.

"I am serious Emma," Regina stood up. "What if we were meant to be together all those years ago, but my stubbornness just hindered us from being happy." Emma stood up and pulled Regina into her.

"If," she says softly hoping her voice would prove all the care and love she had for this woman, "this is fate then it is meant for use to be together now not a second before or a second after." She leans in kissing Regina sensually.

March 15

Regina

"Honey, I'm home!" Emma yelled as she came in the front door. Regina came out of the kitchen to greet Emma and saw Henry kicking enthusiastically at the site other mother. "Hey kid," Emma greeted Henry. Regina couldn't help, but smile at the interaction. Looking up Emma smiled happily at her, "hey, I got you these." Emma handed over a bouquet of lilies and baby's breath.

"They are beautiful Emma, thank you." Regina took the flowers giving Emma a kiss on the cheek. "I'm going to put these in water." Walking back into the kitchen Regina looked for a vase. Regina was slightly relieved that they talked about the elephant in the room. She was even more relieved to know that even after everything Emma was able to forgive her. They then for the first time that week went to bed with each other timidly at first. They didn't have sex although at one point they heavily found themselves making out. Mostly they talked though. About Daniel, high school, Emma's time in Arizona, and just everything they tried to avoid talking about. Regina found it to be nice to finally dive deeper into Emma's personality. She had always known Emma to be this cocky child, but the night before she got to see Emma as this lonely insecure being that longed to leave an imprint. After about 15 minutes Emma walked into the kitchen in black sweats and a tank top.

"So I have a proposition for you." Emma leaned on the wall.

"That kind of scares me," Regina chuckled while grabbing oven mitts. Opening the oven she pulled out the hot pan of lasagna. "What's this proposition?" Regina leaned against a counter opposite of Emma.

"I was talking to Killian and the short version of this conversation is that I need a villain."

"A villain?"

"For our YouTube channel."

"Okay I still am not getting the premise of you proposition."

"I want you as my villain."