You know its not a good sign when you feel yourself wake up but not remembering falling asleep. As Kirk started to regain consciousness he wasn't paying attention to the monitor beeping in his ear, nor the huge headache growing rapidly as he opened his eyes. For his brain could only focus on hearing Bones yelling with his southern accent at what sounded like Pike.

"You mean to tell me that the crazed lunatic who experimented on Jim on Tarsus IV is not in fact dead BUT looking for Jim to take him back so he could finish his crazy EXPERIMENTS!" Bones shouted at Pike.

"McCoy don't think for a second that I am not as worried or scared as you are on Jim's behalf. Have you forgot that he's like a son to me." Pike said trying to calm an already flaming Bones down.

"In all respect Admiral, I do know since I feel that same way. Ive had to clean up each scratch, bruise, broken bone that kids had since we both joined starfleet."

"Then you do understand that we need to tell the rest of his crew. We need you all to get back out there as soon as possible so Kodos doesn't get his hands back on Jim. Kodos thinks he's the key to something and wont stop till he has Jim bent over his knee."

"No" Kirk groaned out as he stared to sit up. He heard a slight 'kid' come from Bones as he rushed over to his best friends side.

"How are you feeling- and be honest- you took a nasty faint there. Lucky the admiral was able to catch you just before you hit the ground." Kirk looked around finally taking in his surroundings learning he is in the med bay of starfleet.

"Don't worry Bones I'm fine just a small headache." Kirk said showing his best smile. He wasn't fulling lying, he did have a headache but he was far from ok.

After so many years of trying to forget what happened on Tarsus IV it just had to come back and nip him in the butt. He tried everything he could to get rid of the horrific memories and nightmares that still keep him up at night. He's done medication, to therapy, to alcohol, he even had to spend a few months in hospitals after all the events drove him crazy and suicidal.

Nobody ever new he was KJ other then high starfleet officers and Bones, who found out by looking through his charts and putting two and two together. It killed Kirk to see that look of guilt and saddens in his best friends eyes. He had to forces Bones to never tell another living soul which wasn't that hard since Starfleet said they'd lock him away before he ever could.

The only thing that bothers Bones about keeping the secret is not telling the rest of the crew. As they all grew closer on the Enterprise the crew all tired into one big happy family. So for Bones and Kirk to keep one of the biggest secrets from them broke there hearts. Kirk always new it was for the best since he couldn't stand to see anyone cry for him like Bones did that night years ago.

"Jim… You know we have to te-"

"No we can't Pike you know they will never look at me the same." Kirk said looking up at his two father figures in fear.

"We will not be telling them all Jim, just the main command. Uhura, Chekov, Sulu, Scotty, and Spock they need to know."

Kirk looked down at his hands knowing they were right. They were his family and he knew they will always be there but, there still that feeling at the bottom of his stomach. Pity. He has heard them talk about Him and Kevin without knowing there identities on the anniversary of the massacre. He new how they all wanted to meet the two and help as much as they could. But he was scared of what they think to find out there captain was KJ.

Kirks head flew up to see the door flying open to revel a officer with a worried face. "Admiral you need to see this." Was all he said with leaving the PADD in Pikes hands. As pike turned it on he swore under his breath which surprised Kirk since Pike never swore.

As Pike read threw the article the two younger men could see the fear growing in his eyes. As it seemed he reach the end of the article Pike froze in what seemed fear.

"Pike what is it" Kirk asked curiously as Bones put his hand on his shoulders to make sure he didn't move to much.

"Oh no"

Confused Kirk took the PADD out of his hands and started to read.

The Last Of The Tarsus IV Survivors

As we all new years ago our galaxy had suffered a enormous massacre. With the authority of Governor Kodos Tarsus IV went into a massacre that killed hundreds people. One horrifying story was go 9 children being taken and experimented on for months. After finally finding the missing children we where reveals all but 2 had died. The children identities where hidden from the galaxy only knowing them as RK and KJ. We had no age, sex, gender to compare them too till today.

At 0800 a young starfleet officer known as Kevin Riley was found dead on the flag post infant of the enterprise building. Officials rushed to the scene quickly to start on the case. As people gathered around there was a message written in blood on the floor to have said 'Kevin Riley 'RK' a surviver of Tarsus IV for no longer.'

The name of the surviver RK is now known as Kevin Riley. As all of earth felt pity on the to our sources finally found out the other Childs name. After years of searching and the new murder the Kevin Riley we have finally been confirmed that KJ is no other that the famous captain who has saved earth and his crew multiple times.

James Tiberias Kirk

Kirk became more and more tense as the article went on but after seeing his name he felt his world stop yet again for the second time today. He felt the PADD fall and smash by his feet and Bones hand that was rested on his shoulder fall to his side.

All three of the men in the room where terrified. A secret that starfleet has kept safe and locked away for years was finally out to the galaxy.

"20,000,000 people have already read this." Bones said remembering the number of people that read it at the bottom.

Knowing that Kirk knew that by now his crew have found out. He was quickly confirmed by it when the door, yet again, flew open and he was greeted by the people he was most scared to confront.

There at the door stood a tear faced Uhura, a shaking Chekov, extremely worried looking Scotty and Sulu, and what seemed to be a sad yet pissed Spock. Kirk felt all eyes fall onto him since his situation didn't look good as he was in a hospital bed with a IV bad in.

"Greetings and Salutations." Kirk said shyly using the classic JD line from a super old movie Heathers.

Uhura stepped forward and pulled Kirk into a tight hug for about a minuet and Chekov joined in after 15 seconds. As the two let go, Kirk saw Sulu with his arms crossed and Scotty leaning on the wall. Spock took a step forward and spoke for the crew.

"Well Jim seems like you've got a lot of explaining to do."