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Friday, October 12

Olivia hadn't gotten any sleep last night. She wondered if Cole was just bluffing, or if he would really tell Brian about their affair. If she were to tell Brian, he would be heartbroken. Commitment was very important to him, something he had always mentioned when they first met and even after they had gotten married. But she knew if he were to hear from someone else it would be even worse.

She played scenarios in her head of how he would react, and she tried really hard to think of one where Brian forgave her. She came up blank. What the fuck had she been thinking? She had ruined her marriage and her family for some office romance with her boss. What would she do about work? She hadn't even thought about how the affair would affect her career. Would she have to quit? Would Cole fire her?

Instead of drowning her thoughts into a bottle of wine, like she usually did, she just cried. Olivia cried so hard she was sure the whole floor could hear her. She fucking hated herself.

She was so glad when the sun began to peak through her room, no longer leaving her alone with her thoughts. A wave of nausea hit her, and after she had thrown up all the contents in her stomach, she showered and tried to cover up the bags from crying. She took a step back and looked at herself in the mirror. Her eyes were puffy, her nose swollen, and when she looked closely she could see a small bump appearing through her skirt.

"Hi baby, I'm your momma." She smiled, rubbing her belly.

It was a rainy day in the city. After dropping Elliot off at school, Brian made his way into work. He was hoping for a slow day, but the second he stepped foot into the precinct, he was sent out to patrol for a "White/Caucasian male in their late 20's early 30's wearing a red beanie and work boots".

"That's half of fucking New York, ya don't got nothing else for me?" He had sighed.

"Sorry, Cassidy. You and Graham take 94th street, report back here in an hour." His captain ordered.

"Man, fuck this!" Brian slammed his locker shut as him and his partner got ready to head out.

"What's your problem? Gettin' tired of being on 'mom duty' already?" Jason joked.

"Screw you, man. She's actually coming home tonight, I was hoping we'd get out of here early so I could make dinner." Brian told him as he buckled his vest and packed his gun.

"Aww, look at you. You're trying so hard to get laid, it's cute actually." Graham pointed his finger in his face.

Brian smacked it away, "Trust me, I don't have to try to get laid."

"Yeah, I'm sure. C'mon, maybe if we catch this guy you'll have time to get some of those rose petal things to put in the bathtub." Graham closed the door to his locker and grabbed the keys.

"Have I ever told you how much I hate your annoying ass?" He told him as they walked out of the precinct.

"Yes, all the time, everyday."

"I'm real sorry Liv, they've got me all tied up here. Ya know I wanted to make it home to you tonight." Brian offered. He heard her let out a sigh before replying.

"I know, I get it. I was just really hoping we could all have dinner together as a family. I've missed you guys so much."

And he had missed her too. The past few days with just his daughter were great, they were able to bond and stay up past their bedtimes, a secret they had promised not to tell Olivia. But he had never realized how difficult Olivia had it. She was able to take care of her work, their home-life, and their daughter with no complaints. Olivia deserved all the credit she could get. He knew she was tired and had talked about going away for some time, so he took a shot.

"Tell ya what, I'll take off a couple days next week and we can go somewhere. El's off for fall break and we can take a little trip up to Long Island, Sara and Dustin will be there. It'll be a break from the city and work and we can spend some family time together. How about that?"

Olivia perked up at the announcement that Sara, Brian's sister, would be there. When Brian and Olivia first started dating, Sara instantly fell in love with Olivia. They spent summers together at their families' beach house, and before they knew it, they were inseparable. When Olivia was pregnant, Sara would come over night or day just to spend time with her. She was Olivia's maid of honor in the wedding and truly one of Olivia's best friends.

"A week away from work? Count me in." Brian could hear the excitement in her voice and he laughed at her comment.

"Sound like a plan?"

"Yes, Bri." She reassured him.

"Perfect. Well, I better get off here and catch some bad guys."

"Alright, be careful. I love you, I can't wait to see you. Oh, and I have a surprise for you."

"If it's not furry handcuffs, I'm gonna be pissed." She giggled at his comment.

"Guess you'll just have to wait and see."

"God, Liv, you're killing me here."

"Bye baby." She cooed.

After she hung up, he sat on the bench in the cribs smiling at his phone.

The plane ride seemed like ages, but the second they landed, Olivia couldn't make it soon enough to pick up her daughter. While she had been gone on her trip, Joannie had worked around her schedule to pick Elliot up from school and watch her until Brian could make it home. Something Olivia was and had always been grateful for; Brian's mother. Her own mother had passed away when Elliot was only nine months old, but ever since then Joannie had stepped up to the plate and knocked it out of the park being a full time Nana and Mom.

Olivia's parents had divorced while she was in school, and she had always resented her father for leaving and starting a new family halfway across the country. But upon her mother's passing, she had rekindled her relationship with him, something she thought she could never bring herself to do.

"Why don't we let bygones be bygones, Olive? It's what your mother would have wanted."

Her father's words repeated in her ear. After the funeral, Olivia's father had managed to stay a few months in the city. Seeing him with Elliot gave her a whole new perspective on life- he was patient, kind, loving, and forgiving. A man Olivia wasn't even sure existed in him. She was grateful for the time they spent together, but when it had came time for him to leave, Olivia wasn't sure she was ready to let go. Brian had taken a new job and he was rarely home, she was alone with their child, and it seemed like things were taking a turn for the worst. Her dad had promised to come visit more, a promise he so humbly kept, and told her to call anytime she needed someone to talk to. She looked forward to his staycations every summer, and the vivid memory reminded her to call him when she got home.

As she pulled into the driveway, she spotted a head full of curls bouncing around in the backyard. Getting out of the car and rounding the corner of the house, she threw out her arms.

"Hi baby girl!"

"Momma, momma, you're home!" Elliot screeched, dropping a handheld shovel and running into her mother's arms.

"I missed you so much, sweet girl. Have you had fun with Daddy and Nana?" Olivia peppered her daughter with kisses and gave her a light squeeze.

"She's been helping me plant my Pansies and Siberian Squills, haven't ya El?" Joannie said, wiping the dirt off her hands, raising up from her spot on the grass.

"Yeah, momma! Nana letted me dig the hole and she put the seed in it, but you have'ta put it bottom side up or they won't grow right."

"Oh yeah? Look at you, you're a little gardener aren't you?" Olivia gave her another squeeze before picking her up, kissing her on the cheek.

"She really likes it, Brian might have to build a flower-bed at the house." Joannie smiled, tapping her granddaughter on the nose.

"Speaking of my son, what time is he getting off tonight? He told me he'd be here at 5 to pick El up, but seeing as though it's 6:30 and he hasn't returned any of my calls or texts, I'm assuming he's working late again." She continued.

"Yeah, I talked to him right before I got on the plane and he told me they caught a case so he would be a little late home tonight." Olivia smiled sadly.

"Not this shit again! Don't they know he has a family?" Joannie had always hated Brian's work schedule. He was a good man and a hell of a cop, but as strong willed as he was, he always had a problem with saying 'No'. She assumed his boss knew that and took advantage of his work ethics.

"You know Bri, he wouldn't feel right leaving a man like that on the streets." Olivia reassured her.

"Yeah, you're right. Whaddya say we go grab some dinner? There's a new fusion pace down the street, one of my patients said it was to die for." She asked, Elliot's eyes lit up at the sound of food.

"I hope figuratively, of course." Olivia chuckled.

"That's a little hospital humor for ya!"

"I'm home! Anybody here?" Brian called out into the dark room. He stumbled through the house, tripping over shoes, knocking his shin into the coffee table.

"Fuck." He growled, finally reaching the light switch. He opened the refrigerator door and began picking through it.

"What do you think you're doing?" Olivia whispered, scaring the living shit out of her husband.

"Jesus Christ, Liv! You scared the fuck out of me." He howled, dropping the box of take out back in the fridge,

"Just now getting home?" She yawned. He closed the door and reached his arms out to her, holding her tight in his embrace.

"M'yeah, let's not talk about work tonight. I missed you too damn much." Brian kissed her forehead, her nose, and then her lips. She wrapped her arms around him and deepened their kiss.

"God, I fucking love you." He said, barely above a whisper. Brian's hand made it's way down her back until he was gripping her ass. They made out for a few minutes before they broke apart. She looked up into his eyes, placing her hand on his cheek, running her thumb across the thin line of his lips.

"I love you more." Olivia told him

"Let's go to bed."

Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! It was basically just a filler bc I have been so busy the past few weeks and haven't had much time to sit down and really write, and I am having a terrible case of writer's block so if you know how to get me out of this funk then let a girl know plz :) don't forget to leave a review and let me know what's going through those pretty little heads of yours