For over an hour now, Zed had searched the entire apartment, twice, with no success in locating his wife. This wasn't the first time, maybe more the third or fourth, he was starting to lose count as it happened at least once a week. He would search their home, again and again to avail, always coming up with no one there. He didn't want to sound controlling, or obsessed, but he hated not knowing where she was, it just made him that much more calm to know that wherever she was, that she was safe and sound. He didn't have any doubts that Addison might be cheating on him, and that was why she was gone and utterly terrible at hiding it, no. Addison wouldn't do that, she wasn't like that, Addison was the most caring and honest girl he had ever met, she wouldn't do that to him.

Addison would eventually turn up again, out of absolute nowhere, tears streaming down her face and looking ever so lost. It broke Zed's heart in so many ways when this would happen. She was usually gone between an hour or two tops, never longer than that, which he somewhat was grateful for.

1. Seeing his wife, the woman he loved more than anything, crying and having no clue as to why.

2. It sometimes seemed to him like she was avoiding him, or hiding something, and it made him very worried and anxious. Had he done something wrong? Was he the reason why she was crying?

And the third, and final reason, was that it seemed like whatever it was that bothered the white haired woman, she was trying to carry it on her own two shoulders when she didn't have to. It was in his vows that he would always be there for her, whether it'd be a hug, a shoulder to cry on, a kiss, lending an ear for her to rant to, for however she pleased. Everything he would do for her, and it killed him that he didn't know what was going on.

He did as he always did, he wrapped her up in his arms and let her cry into his chest, stroking her hair and whispering words of reassurance. Once she was all dried up and out of tears, he'd grab her hand and lead her into the living room, sit them on the couch and try and try to get her to reveal where she'd been. She never did tell him, only telling him not to worry and as you can guess, it had little effect for when she'd disappear next, like this exact moment.

He was running out of possible hiding spots, he had run around the apartment building twice, been to their little garden, checked her parent's home, all the places he always checked, and she was never in any of them. He didn't know why he kept checking there, it had been a few times after all, maybe he just hoped that she'd eventually go to one of them, but wherever she was, it somewhere he was clueless to where was.

The sound of the front door's creaking as it pushed open snapped him out of his worried thoughts, and his feet immediately moved towards to the sound. Sure enough, there she stood, his Addy, with tears streaming down her face, her eyes blank and her body shaking from the sobs breaking through. He went for her, like always, still worried, still confused, but a sense of calm washing through him at having her home, in his arms and safe.

"Addy, please, talk to me. I can't stand seeing you like this, I can't help you if I don't know. You can tell me anything baby, please don't shut me out." he begged, tightening his hold around her, almost afraid she'd try to escape. He could feel his own tears threatening to make an appearance, he squeezed his eyes shut, he had to be strong, whatever was going on, he had to be strong for her. She sobbed harder against his chest, her hands grabbing at his hoodie as she fought to keep herself together, desperately wanting to tell her husband why she was so upset. She knew she was being unfair to him, perhaps even cruel, at just disappearing without a word as to where or why, leaving him despair, but she just needed the room, to think, to calm down, but little did it help. She needed him, she always did, he always made everything so much better, he always managed to find the light in the dark.

Maybe because he was her light in the darkness.

But she was being stupid, a fool, and she hadn't been ready to admit that, but she couldn't go on like this any longer, and neither could he, it was hurting both of them, and she hated herself for having put them both through it when she should just have talked to him to start with. Let her worries out, her fears and they would have talked through it, like they always did and figured it out like they always did.

"I'm so sorry Zed, I never meant to worry you, I just thought that I would worry you even more if I told you what was wrong..." she started, trying her best to speak through the sobs, her tears never seeming to end. "I needed the space, well I thought I needed space anyway, turns out I didn't, which is why I'd always return within too long... I should have just spoken to you." she cried, clutching at his hoodie, finding comfort in having him close.

"What Addy? please tell me, I'm not angry, I'm just worried, I can't stand seeing you like this, and not knowing where you was, I was scared you was hurt! Please talk to me Addy." He rested his chin on the top of her head, letting a few tears fall now that he knew she couldn't see, the fear finally getting the best of him.

His pleas made it even harder for the tears to stop, the guilt building up inside her of hearing the desperation in his voice. She didn't know how he was still holding it together up till now, if he had gone and disappeared on her, like she had on him, she'd have been in pieces.

Pulling away slightly, she grabbed his hand and led him into the living room, like he usually did to her, and sat them on the couch, or more him on the couch and her on his lap. She rested her head in the croc between his neck and shoulder, letting out a deep breath that she didn't know she had been holding in.

"I'm scared I won't be a good mother." she whispered, and just as she did, she felt it. The massive weight that had been on her shoulders lifted, and she could breathe again. Sure she was still scared of how stupid she sounded, but having finally let it out, outweighed it easily.

Ever since she had discovered she was pregnant with their child, she had been ecstatic, over the moon, the happiness seemed to have no end after the wonderful surprise.

And then a couple of months down the line, the anxiety kicked in. The fear of having their child and having no idea of how to take care of it. What if he or she got sick? What if she couldn't make the baby stop crying when he or she was upset? What if she couldn't make her own baby smile? What if her own baby hated her? All kinds of negative thoughts and fears was washing over her and she didn't know what to do about them. Normally she would speak to Zed, she guessed she didn't tell him, because she was scared she'd sound like she was doubting him and his abilities. She wasn't, not at all, not him at least... Zed was going to be a brilliant father, she just knew it in her guts, she had no doubt in her mind or heart, that their child was going to have the best dad in the entire world.

It was only her own abilities as a mother that was troubling her.

"Addy, look at me."

She wasn't much for it, but reluctantly did so, her eyes coming up to meet with his. As always, there was nothing but love swimming in the deep brown orbs of his, a soft smile playing on his lips. He placed his hand on her cheek and pulled her face closer to his, closing the gap and enclosing them in a soft, and yet fierce kiss, knocking the air right out of Addison's lungs. She hadn't had any other kisses than Zed's, not that she wanted to, but he gave the best kisses, always leaving her craving for more.

He pulled away far too early for her liking, her body leaning into him, trying to pull his lips back to her own, he only chuckled and placed his hands gently on her shoulders, keeping a small space in-between them, grinning when she sulked.

"Addy, you are going to be the best mother there ever was, I know so. I've never met anyone as kind or caring as you, even if you disliked someone you still managed to be kind to them, and I'm telling you, not a lot of people would be able to be that. You're so selfless and always making sure everyone around you is wearing a smile, always there for anyone who needs someone, and I'm ever so proud when someone comes up to me, or you, and says thank you for having helped. The second we knew we were expected you were searching up the internet for anything baby related, hell, Addy, there's still 7 months until he or she is to arrive, and you've made sure we've got everything they could possibly need. Most parent's I know, or met are still needing a few things a month to due date! You've busted yourself making that room perfect for them, and it is!"

Addison's heart swelled with pride and happiness at her husbands words, her fears slowly turning into nothing, her mind instead going into thinking about how much of a happy family they will be. She knew that Zed would make it all go away, sure her fears might return, small stupid ones, but Zed would always chase them away, and she only wished she had come clean sooner. She really was a fool, and she really was lucky.

"They're going to love you Addy." Zed promised, moving his hands away and pulling her into a soft hug, placing a kiss at her hairline. Smiling happily against her skin.

He couldn't believe that this was what she had been running away over, but he somehow understood too, he knew that once Addison had something in her mind, that was negative, she was stubborn at admitting and tried to keep it to herself, believing it better that way. Again this was where Addison was the most selfless he had ever met, she didn't want to worry others about what feared or worried her, and yet still was there for others despite what she was carrying on her own two shoulders.

"Maybe almost as much as I love you, but I won't go down without a fight." Zed teased, earning a laugh from his wife. He moved his hands and instead placed them on the small oncoming bump that was her stomach, rubbing it softly. "I guess we'll have to share you and I." Addison couldn't help but smile at that, placing her own hands on top of his. "Same."

"You're going to be an amazing father Zed, whenever I was sad, it always eased me imagining you and our little one in your arms, you telling them stories to make them calm down."

"We'll be amazing the both of us my love." He promised, and for the first time, she didn't doubt herself in that matter. She had him by her side, and as long as they had each other, they could do anything. One last tear rolled down her cheek, but unlike it's many brothers and sisters from earlier, this one was out of happiness.

"Addy?"

"Hmm?"

"Where did you go?"

"There's a small sitting area with fairy lights and old couches lined up on the roof, it's got a little roof so it won't get wet. I discovered it some weeks ago when I went to hang up laundry. Usually we use them tumble dryer but the sun was out so I went up there. It's lovely."

"And you never told me?!"

"I thought you knew!"

"Nu-uh!"

And then the roles where reserved and Zed was the sulking one in the room. Addison eventually managed to turn it around again once she showed him the little spot and a promise of ice cream.

Hi everyone! I'm so sorry for how long this took, but life happened and I've been ever so busy and also extremely stressed. I'm trying to get more posted on here, but I don't know how often, but I promised this is not quite the end yet!

Thank you for the endless support on here!

Please, as always, leave me a review with your thoughts, I love it!

Until next time!