Natsu is just doing everything wrong... I wanted to add something before you read. It was just so obvious to me that I didn't even think you guys may be confused. So about Natsu and lucy, not lu. Have you guys seen miraculous ladybug, or at least know the basic gist of it? This fic was inspired by the show. So Natsu likes Lu. Like chat noir likes ladybug in miraculous ladybug. But that doesn't stop chat from flirting with marionette. That's how Natsu is with Lucy. He likes Lu, but that doesn't stop him from being flirty with Lucy. I hope that makes sense. And in this chapter, he gets scared Lucy will stop talking to him. He kind of freaked out a bit. Anyways... Lucy will continue to do bad things. Gajeel does want to be a tattoo artist so that's why he does piercings and stuff. I got my first tattoo my 18 birthday, but I have a friend who got one when she was 16. Anyways... Lucy will be a bad girl, or she'll do things to her body because she has control over that. She can control what she does with her skin, and she's just very... tired, I guess. Well I'm done blabbering so have fun!

Lucy was pissed. Absolutely livid. She's never been so irritated her whole life. And the core… the center… the person who Lucy cannot fucking stand is Natsu Dragneel, the asshole who's apparently so taken by her, but he doesn't know shit. He doesn't know who she is or what she has to go through. He doesn't just annoy her as Lu, but also Lucy because he just doesn't stop failing his tests. Does he find the way she tries so hard amusing? Does he think he's funny trying to make her crack? He doesn't realize how absolutely screwed she would be if she cussed out her classmate. Her father would find out somehow like he finds everything out. She just… he's so annoying. She cannot stand him and his stupid pink head. She wants to scream, and she found herself doing exactly that once her and Levy got out of the shopping plaza. She screamed to the sky, cursing Natsu and everything she has to go through. She must look crazy yelling like this with tears streaming down her cheeks, but she doesn't care. She needed to vent and now she can't even vent as Lu. How did she get so unlucky? How did she get stuck living in pain all the time? It doesn't seem worth it. All this heart ache and disappointment was exhausting and she just… she need to cry.

Lucy collapsed onto the side walk and balled her eyes out. Ugly tears wouldn't stop falling as she pounded her fists into the cement like she was having some temper tantrum. And she practically was. Her life was just god awful and she wanted to rebel. She wanted to fuck all these people making her feel like like crap every single day. She couldn't stand this. She shouldn't have to deal with all this shit every single day. It wasn't fair. Why was she the one who had to be so fucking dysfunctional when none of this was her damn fault. She felt insane being how she was, but Lucy still continued to yell to the ground. She cursed every person who fucked her life and grit her teeth so hard she felt numb. Everything was irritating. Why was the sky so blue? It was fucking annoying. Why were ants even alive when she could just squash them with no effort?

Lucy smashed her hand on the bug and felt a huge sigh of relief escape her. She knows she shouldn't be killing bugs. That little ant didn't deserve it, bit for some reason, fucking that ants life up made her feel a million times better. She has the urge to do the same to Natsu's.

"Lu…" Levy's hesitant voice spoke up beside her.

With another deep inhale, Lucy looked up at her best friend with a forced smile and red, blotchy cheeks. "I-I'm okay." Lucy just wanted to feel in control of her life and she maybe has a way to do that. "Can I barrow your phone Levy?"

She looked confused, but nodded and handed it over. "What are you doing?"

"I need Gajeel's help with something." She typed her message, which he responded to promptly. Probably because he thought she was Levy. After everything was set up, Lucy stood up straight and smiled at her friend genuinely. "Lets go see Gajeel. I need to vent my frustration somehow and being in control of something makes me feel at ease."

Lucy turned down a street to head to Gajeel's apartment with Levy walking next to her. "Are you getting another piercing?"

"No, something much more permanent."

Levy's eyes widened, and she grabbed her arm to stop her. "Y-You are not getting a tattoo Lucy. It will never come off again. Do you really want to vent this way when you'll probably feel better in a few hours?"

She took a moment to look down at her feet, but nodded and looked up at Levy again with broken eyes. "I need to do something, Levy. I just can't stand this." More tears streamed down her cheeks, but she quickly wiped them away with a small sniffle. "I love you more than life, Lev, but I need to do this. I need to be in control of something, even if it's just my skin that I'll cover up anyways."

Levy nodded sadly and followed her down the the street towards Gajeel's.

Lucy was extremely quiet. Even after they got to Gajeel's apartment, she just muttered a quiet hello and said they could pretend like she wasn't even there. Levy made sure to make Gajeel promise he wouldn't text Natsu that they were here. Levy already knows she won't be ready to see him at school, let alone only an hour after Lucy started their little game. Honestly, Levy was really disappointed in Natsu. He was probably trying to make Lu feel special by saying he doesn't care about Lucy, but that was the total opposite of what he should have said. And it's obvious Natsu was lying too. He found Lucy amusing and failed tests just to spend time with her. Lucy only saw it as Natsu wanting to see her suffer, but Levy was smarter than that. Natsu was starting to care about Lucy, he just didn't want Lu to know that. He totally fucked it up with both parties though, considering they're the same person.

She was talking with Gajeel while he readied his tattoo gun and such. Levy wondered where he got all this tattoo equipment and piercing needles, considering he's not 18. She peeked behind her to find Lucy sitting on the couch looking up tattoos quietly on her phone with her knees tucked into her chest and a faraway look in her eyes.

"She's a lot different today." Gajeel grumbled beside her, causing Levy to look over at him with a hesitant nod.

"I'm really worried about her. Natsu is just such an idiot and he screwed everything up. She was supposed to yell at him and feel better, but he just broke her even more." Levy sighed and ran a hand through her wild hair. "I thought he could be good for her, but he just fucked up. Now she's sad and feels like she has to rebel again. And I don't think a visit to her mom will pull her out of it again."

Gajeel nodded. "I wouldn't put so much trust in that asshole." But then he looked at Lucy again, eyes trailing across her face and studying her hair, which was in a bun instead of flowing down freely. "With her hair up like that, she looks a lot like bunny girl. But there's no way."

Yeah, it's probably hard to believe that the Heartfilia heir was so broken, especially since he never sees her breaking the rules, and Lu has gotten her belly button pieced and is about to get a tattoo. It's only natural that he can't fully recognize her. Nobody would expect Lucy Heartfilia to have so many skeletons in her closet.

Levy decided to check up on Lucy and walked over to her best friend who looked up at her when she approached. "Did you find anything you like?"

"Yeah." Lucy showed her the photo on her phone. It was a lower back tattoo on the tramp stamp area, but Levy wouldn't call it a tramp stamp. It looked almost like a henna with with pretty doodle type designs just before her ass starts and extends all the way across her hips. It's thin towards her hips, and starts to make a pretty point on the center of her spine with a small flower about halfway up her back. It was really pretty and had that aesthetic look to it which was who Lucy was. She loved all that spiritual stuff and all the pretty designs with symmetry. It did remind her a lot of Lucy. "I was thinking instead of this leaf thing in the middle of the back, we could do a star. To represent mom."

"Do you want it in color?"

"No, just black."

Levy nodded. "Are you sure you want to do this?"

"I'm positive."

And Lucy was one of the most stubborn people she knows so she wouldn't back down. "Okay, lets go show Gajeel."

It took them a little bit for him to draw the design up with the both of them helping along the way. Levy had a good time spending her night with Gajeel and her best friend, but her worry for Lucy was much greater. She didn't find herself being able to lose herself to the happiness. She was too worried.

Gajeel had Lucy lay down on the couch to do the tattoo. Levy felt a bit self conscious since Lucy was so attractive and her shorts were halfway down her butt and her slim waist was in view. Gajeel seemed too focused on the actual tattoo to pay attention though, which made her feel better. Lucy continued to be quiet. She wasn't Lu or Lucy now. Just a sad version of both of them. Levy squeezed her hand during the tattoo but Lucy didn't even flinch. It was a little scary how determined she could be sometimes.

It took about two hours to do the whole thing. Partially because it was a decent sized tattoo and partially because Gajeel wasn't a professional so he took his time. Neither of them seemed to care, since it was permanent. They didn't want to rush him.

Once the whole thing was done, Lucy admired it in the bathroom while the two of them sat on the couch and talked. Levy still couldn't enjoy herself though. She wondered how school would go tomorrow.

Lucy was utterly exhausted. She debated skipping school, but her father would be so mad if he found out so she decided it wasn't worth it. She got ready quietly, had a quiet breakfast with her father, then a quiet ride to school with her driver Capricorn. She was just quiet today and forced herself into school and to her classroom. Levy was already in the room when she got there, along with Gray and the person who fucked her life up and makes it a living hell. Maybe she was exaggerating, but it certainly felt that way today.

She plopped down in her desk chair and was immediately greeted with a huge smile by the bastard who sits next to her. "Morning, Luce!"

She felt her blood boil and noticed Levy looking over at her with concern. Lucy found herself clenching her hands in frustration with dark eyes, but she snapped out of it and sent Natsu her best smile with eyes happy to see him. "Good morning Natsu. How was your day yesterday?"

"Good." Then he seemed to get a bit uncomfortable and leaned over a bit so he was closer to her. "Look, if Levy or Lu told you I said something yesterday, I didn't mean it."

A vein ticked in her forehead. Ah, so she was right. He just wanted to pretend he was somebody perfect around Lu, but continues to make her life as Lucy a living hell. He continues to fail his tests just to watch her in amusement because he finds her working so hard to be funny. Well here's a news flash Natsu. Lu is Lucy and Lucy is Lu. The real her is somewhere in between the two, but he only finds the dramatic version of herself nice because Natsu is all about being amused. If he really loves her, then he would like Lucy. But he doesn't. He just tries to woo a part of her that doesn't exist. Lu isn't real. Lucy isn't real. But for him to like the real version of her, he has to see the flaws in her two personas, but he doesn't. He thinks Lu is just perfect.

"It's totally fine." Lucy's lips were in a tight smile with her eyes crinkled at the corner she was grinning so much. "It's not like I care about your opinion, Natsu. You are just a student I tutor, after all." She looked away before she could notice the hurt in his eyes, and began to pull out the materials she needed for class.

"Uh, L-Luce, I still failed that test we got back yesterday so I need help." He shuffled through his things to find the test, then slid it over to Lucy in urgency. "S-see… the teacher wrote I needed study with you again."

Lucy's smile somehow grew larger with her eyes almost closed it was so big. "Ah, silly Natsu. We'll have to work hard enough so you don't fail the next one. Maybe I can teach you some studying tips so you can do it on your own."

"No!" Lucy's eyes widened as she stared at the boy next to her who was now standing up beside her desk and leaning over her body with both hands on her table. "I-I need your help. I can't study by myself."

She stared up into his panicked eyes and found herself nodding silently.

"Damn, he really just wants an excuse to spend time with you." Gray droned behind her, sounding rather amused by their conversation. "He's scared you won't ever talk to him unless he fails his test. Pathetic."

"Says the guy who doesn't have any pants on!"

Gray looked down at himself and groaned, then the two of them got in one of their usual arguments. Lucy found herself glancing over at Levy, who smiled at her with a thumbs up. She noticed Gajeel came over and sat on Levy's desk. She found herself smirking, at lease until she heard what he said. "So your friend liked her tattoo?"

All it took was the words 'your friend' and Natsu was suddenly joining the conversation. "Lu? Did you see her Gajeel?"

"Yah, I gave her a tattoo."

"Are you serious? What'd she get?!"

Lucy wanted him to stop talking. She does not want Natsu knowing more about Lu. He already knows enough. Thankfully Levy jabbed him in the side and glared at him hard. He looked taken a back and slid off her desk with urgency with his hand coming up to tug at the collar of his shirt in unease. "Y-yeah, it was just a silly butterfly on her ass. Nothin you'll ever see."

"You saw her ass?!" Natsu shoved Gajeel back. "Why didn't you tell me she came over, I could have been there when she got it! And I don't like you seein her ass, ya pervert!"

"I didn't even pay attention to it, I was doing the tattoo!" Gajeel sent him a shove back, then walked away with an irritated sigh. "She didn't even want you there. You're so obsessed with her that you don't even think about how she feels."

Lucy could tell his little outburst was for Levy to try and make up for spilling the beans, but she was thankful for it. Natsu suddenly got quiet and looked down at his feet. He was thinking hard, but Lucy really didn't care. A moment later, the bell rang, and class started once everyone wondered into their seats. She noticed Natsu deep in thought, but Lucy didn't let herself be too hopeful. It's probably asking for too much for him to start worrying about others. After all, he didn't before.